kailangan lang talaga eh...

akala ko ok na...
pero bakit minsan bigla na lang akong madedepress?

sabi ko nga magbabago na ko eh, magaaral na ko ng mabuti, gagamitin ko lahat ng natutunan ko this summer for the benefit of my acads. ayoko mapahiya. i always thought, a change of attitude will fix things. pero minsan, nawawalan ako ng kompyansa sa sarili...

with matters like this, i hardly consult anyone... mainly because, sinong kakausapin ko? the only person whom i know i can talk to will go LOA this first sem... and the other person na nakikitaan ko ng potential na maging good confidante ko... mejo ilang ako. ilang beses ko na rin kasing nireject ang mga coffee invites nya. pero seryoso, minsan magisa ko na lang sinosort out ung feelings ko. well, there's God shempre... sha lang naman pwede ko kausapin when i feel so alone pero diba... i need company parin.

namimiss ko yung mga naging close ko nung mga nakaraang sem, si chav, si leonard... haaay. i want to relive old friendships. >___>;;

yun nga, i feel bad. sa tuwing naiisip ko na magbabago na ko, ginaganahan ko... na-eexcite ako. pero before i go to sleep, bigla na lang mags-sink yung feeling ko, bigla ko na lang maiisip na wala talaga sa palad ako ang pagiging chem. eng'r, kung baga lalo lang akong maf-frustrate. tapos pag naiimagine ko ang buhay Fine Arts, napupuno lang ako ng pagsisisi. tapos nalaman ko pa na ang dream course ko pala talaga ay yun at ang gusto kong major ay Industrial Design. either that or comsci, pero right now there's no hope. kelangan ng mataas na grades para lumipat...

too bad hindi ko alam na dapat pinagbutihan ko nung una pa.

nakakalungkot! ano ba yan..
tapos di pa ko tapos sa Good Omens! gusto ko na basahin yung Almost Heaven.
Lord, ang lungkot ko talaga... :(

happy mother's day! ♥

I LOVE YOU MOMMY!
haaay. i'm really tired you know. our slumber party exhausted me, plus i got this super bad cough and dry throat, it's killing me! can't sleep well.

i'm fantasizing about Hero. but quite honestly, he's too thin. hehe

- this morning we went to church
- lunch at yoshi
- went home
- slept
- had a really good dream*
- woke up for dinner
- now i'm here...

i dreamt of my crush (yung last sem). haha, can't remember the story really. actually, i dreamt a lot pagod pa ko eh... and they're all nice because they're romantic haha but i can't remember anything... yung crush ko lang naalala ko kasi sha lang kilala ko personally. hehe is that something good?

while in yoshi pala i thought i saw him (referring to crush), kasi parehas na parehas yung built nila... though i dismissed all hopes when i saw the guy with a cute little girl whom i figured was his child... and when i saw his face, hindi naman eh. siguro namiss ko lang sya. hehehe

gusto ko ng cake pero damn, i'm super fat na eh.
>___>;

HEROOOO!!! ♥ ♥

my HERO!

it has been a great day! thanks karlita,michi,larz and lau for coming! hahaha i owe you a lot for introducing TVXQ to me. well, most of the credit actually goes for introducing me to *drumroll please* MY HERO ~ Jae Joong. XD well, there goes a fangirl squeal. XDDDDD

(uhh, no pictures for now. too tired...T__T hehe soon on my multiply na lang)

oh, another OTP has been made HEROxMAX! hahaha

here's what happened, so 4 of my friends came, but only two went overnight (karlita & michi). hahahaaaay. we ate, watched My Boss My Hero (which is a very hilarious japenese series. oh! another pairing - MAKIOxSAKURA-something [both guys hehe]), then watched lots of TVXQ stuff (MVs, short films, concert tours, variety shows etc.)

man, you wouldn't know how hard i 'fell' for these guys... well, Hero is my favorite guy... followed by Max (after all, they're my new found OTP). i feel different. it's like those days when i fantasize about Mike He coming to a special mall tour here in the Philippines to meet and greet his fans. i dream of getting acquainted to him in a memorable way that he'd want to marry me and bring me to Taiwan! crazy, really. but i'm starting to feel that way again.

like in 2nd year highschool, i was so 'in love' with Tony Sun of 5566 that i didn't attend our Soph's Night just to be there in his mall tour! yeah, they actually came to the Philippines and i was like, OMG!!! THIS IS MY CHANCE TO SEE HIM FOR REAAAALL!!!and i did! though we weren't personally acquainted with each other and not any of my dreamy tales came true, i was able to get him authograph naman! and pictures too! it was crazy, really.

I EVEN BECAME A MEMBER OF THEIR OFFICAL FANS CLUB HERE IN THE PHILIPPINES!!
like, we hold GAs for real! i got my own ID and T-Shirt and Pin and gosh, i was so excited back then and proud too! like,

'HEEEEEY! i'm a member of the oficial 5566 fansclub in the phils, and we are backed-up by Regent and Universal Records!' hahaha those were the days.

i've grown enough to realize that celebrity crushes don't last. no matter how hard you believe it's going to and that fate has its ways of intertwining your reluctant paths.

hahaha, anyway. i'm getting off track. lol

oh yeah, we drank too! karlita brought these super nice vodka cruisers with equally super nice flavors!! honestly (and you've got to believe me on this), i wasn't drunk!
i've never been drunk, i'm just normally that way. diba? lalo na pag barkada shempre. hahaha

OREWA DURANKU JANAI!!!

FYI: i'm really bad at saying directions verbally (promise, this is not an excuse). i have problems distinguishing my left from my right hand. larz, i'm so sorry for your parents. i hope they didn't think i'm a bad influence to you and that we should quit seeing each other. huhuhu

woooooh! the next morning...breakfast breakfast, watch watch, padeliver sa McDo, watch Rob-B-Hood (which is a really nice movie that got me flooding my shirt with tears hehe)... and finally. hehe

after everyone has gone...
eto, net. hahaha

busy day!

no one's home xept for me and our maid!

is it good?
because my friends are coming over to waste themselves with food, foreign stuff and alcohol... that's definitely good!

but to be left here alone to answer all phone calls, receive all fax mails and text my mom about this and that... man, i'm tired! the phone is like a good ten meters away from the laptop which i'm on... and,and,and...

karla's coming over na! yey! hahaha

change of blog address...

i wanna change my blog address. T___T; melodia04 is more of a username than a blog address. i want something that works as both. and besides, i've used that name for years, and it's so tied up with my real name. hehe

i like my blog title as it is. it came from a beetles's song actually, i don't remember. i first encountered it when i was so curious about backmasked songs. i found this website which features a couple of songs with part of their lyrics revealing subliminal messages when backmasked... one of these is a beetles song and part of the lyrics were, 'indistinguishable gibberish'... if i recall correctly the bmasked message was 'paul (referring to mccartney) is a dead man. miss him,miss him,miss him.'

but then, if i change my address... would that mean a new blog for me? ohyes. and i've grown so much fond of this blog because of... of the ARCHVIES!!! hahaha i've been here for tooo long. haaay

MY FRIENDS ARE COMING OVER LATER!! i'm sorry i wasn't able to invite everyone, it's supposed to be a bonding activity for the four of us (michi,karlita,larz and i) but i gathered... the more the merrier! i hope laura would come!!!! i miss them so much!

super long questionnaire ahead

got this from erika's devart journal... :)
bored? yeah... i'm waiting for Lover's too. hehehe


-----------• × • A L L | A B O U T | M E • × •--------------

- Name: arianne
- Single or taken: single
- Sex: female
- Birthday: nov 16
- Sign: scorpio
- Hair color: black
- Eye color: dark brown
- Height: 5'3"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: straight

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

- Favourite place to shop for clothes?: anywhere nice and affordable. it doesn't really matter as long as i have money
- Favorite designer?: none
- What is your sexiest outfit?: a swimsuit?
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: shirt and shorts
- What do you usually wear?: shirt and shorts

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: it varies, but now i use sunsilk... the blue one cos i don't have to use a conditioner for it hehehe
- What are you listening to right now?: nothing really
- Who is the last person that called you?: mom
- How many buddies are online right now?: i'm offline

-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

- Food: japanese, italian...
- Girls names: Adrianne, Alessandra
- Boys names: Adrian (hehe), Christian
- Subjects in school: PE? haha math (if i can handle it)
- Animals: horses! dolphins! penguins!

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

- Given anyone a bath?: my sister and i used to bathe together
- Smoked?: D: tried but never got the hook
- Bungee jumped?: would love to
- Made yourself throw up?: uhh, yeah
- Skinny dipped?: nope
- Ever been in love?: i never knew it was
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: not yet
- Pictured your crush naked?: hmm..
- Actually seen your crush naked?: errr...no?
- Cried when someone died?: hmm... not yet
- Lied: duh
- Fallen for your best friend?: nope
- Rejected someone?: no one has turned himself over yet haha
- Used someone?: no..?
- Done something you regret?: sometimes

------------• × • C U R R E N T • × •--------------

- Clothes: sleeveles shirt, shorts
- Desktop picture: Peace wallpaper
- CD in player: none
- DVD in player: none

----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

- You touched: daddy
- Hugged: daddy
- You IMed: michi
- Talk to online: kuya noreens
- Sex it up with: what?

---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

- Understanding: i'd like to think i am
- Open-minded: yeah but my mouth's shut most of the time people are not given the chance to rack my brack
- Arrogant: i don't think so
- Insecure?: sometimes
- Random?: estrel's cake!
- Hungry: nope
- Smart: i would like to believe so
- Moody: no
- Organized: sometimes hehe
- Shy: yup
- Difficult: not really, depends.
- Bored easily: i find things to do...
- Obsessed: oh yeah. i get easily obsessed with my crushes that i actually stalk them hahaha
- Angry: nope
- Sad: nope
- Happy: yes
- Hyper: no
- Trusting: not really

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

- Kill?: none yet
- Slap?: myself for being so stupid and wasting 1 and a half years filling my TCg with 5s?! gddmmt!
- Get really wasted with?: friends!
- Get high with: friends still!
- Talk to offline: a sensible friend
- Talk to online: i don't really want to talk online
- Sex it up with: wtdhl

------------------• × • R A N D O M • × •---------------------

- In the morning I: wake up
- Love is: just another relative term
- I dream about: getting ultra rich someday!
- Sexual preference: straight, but i fancy gays and homos hehe
- What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: looks shempre, then attitude. without the latter, nevermind.

---------------• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × ---------------

- Coke or Pepsi: either
- Flowers or candy: flowers
- Tall or short: tall

---------------• × • W H O • × • ---------------

- Makes you laugh the most: my friends
- Makes you smile: friends, crushes... what a typical teen.
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: can't recall who did

--------------• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •-----------------

- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: no
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: no
- Wish you were younger: i'm not too old to wish that way.. haha
- Cry because someone said something to you?: hmm yeah

-----------• × • N U M B E R • × •--------------

- Of times I have had my heart broken: once... twice i think. and they're all superficial i think i have no right to declare i broke my heart. lol
- Of guys I've kissed: none yet hehe
- Of girls I've kissed: my mom and my sister
- Of CD's I own: dunno
- Of scars on my body: i'm accident prone! i have a lot! hahaha

yeah! it's your birthday!

I LOVE YOU!

we ate dinner at aberdeen court, at a restaurant called cafe chine (chino? not sure hehe)... they have a really nice and cheap dinner package for as low as 1,700 for 10 people! yeah hehehe we're 11 btw. :) we invited some of his agents kasi... hehe

tita rosita gave him a really nice (made to order) cake from Estrel's. it's so pretty i don't want to eat it!

all the frills (the tiny swirls and the flowers) are made of icing so imagine how tiresome it is to decorate the whole cake! wahahahaha