because i can't stop myself

i'm happy. can't you seeeeeee?
i'm on a 20/hr promo here in netopia FCM! back in Convergy's they charge 40/hr! booooo.

i just came from my pm class. hehe learned another useful technique. hey, i didn't know i could memorize scientific names that easily! yehey!yehey!

and so i'll plug.

POWER MEMORY
Convergy's Commonwealth (lower ground)

that's not the main branch but it's the nearest franchise so my parents went for it.
i'm telling you this because i know it works. and you've got to believe me on this. :) their demo looks like this. they ask you to give them 10 items with corresponding numbers from 1-10... randomly.

demo-er: give me a number
demo-ee: 5
demo-er: a word?
demo-ee: whiteboard
demo-er: next
demo-ee: 10.castle, 6.baloon, 4.mickey mouse, 7. molasses....

until you finish ten items.
then, the demo-er will effortlessly recite them back to you... IN ORDER. wooooh.

pardon the demo-er/ee. just don't know how to put it correctly.

hahaha.

I BOUGHT A BOOK!
whitney my love by judith mcnaught.
sorry yndi, i can't wait! hahaha
i'm so excited to read it! a lot of people are recommending it kasi and i can't resist cos it's romance! bwahaha, here goes my fetish.

ohgosh! i need 250x7 pesos to buy all the Coehlo Books (that i don't have yet) in national bookstore! huhuhuhu

someone give me moneeeeeyyy!!!

you know what, if i had known earlier (or if had just thought of it earlier) that i'm not really going on double probation last sem, then i could've taken summer classes instead!

But God is GOOOOOD. sooo Goooood he didn't want me to know yet because he has a better plan, and it's PM.

thank you so much.

magpapa burger akoooO!!!

@ - i got to learn a fantastic memorizing technique from PM yesterday. i am so bewildered by the effect... and frankly speaking, it isn't that hard to get! look, i got to memorize 20 middle eastern countries, 6 inert gases, and the 9 fruits of the holy spirit plus 20+6+9 relative objects. that's roughly 60 something terms and i still can't forget it... i can even recite it backwards. man, just how useful is this class?

@ - i also got to meet my one and only classmate, jay. coach bruno was right, he is really good looking. :) (he wears glasses but isn't nerdy looking bwahaha, they're frameless kasi) i enjoyed his company, really. he's friendly and accommodating and is a complete gentleman. he also stayed in new york for a quite some time so my slang is being tested. hahaha just where do you get such package? thing is, he is training to be a minister and is already 28.

i didn't just hear an aww, did i?

@ - after all, i'm not really dismissed. woooot woooooh!

@ - ugh, i deserve a celebration! bwahahaha

something to look forward to

i attended my first power memory classes awhile ago. well, it's a make-up class really because i wasn't around yesterday (i was in elbi remember?).

 

hmmm. it was really interesting, though at first it was so intimidating cos they gave me this diagnostic test which would measure my memorizing skills.

 

my mind went: "WTH? 50 unfamiliar terms in 4 minutes?!?"

so i went full force... naussa, harare, gobone, belmopan... ugggh!! ok, so it was hard and infuriating at first but coach bruno during the lecture process taught me all about harboring the right attitude for every walk of life! it was so enlightening and yeah... go look at the title. :)

 

i got a below beginner grade when they checked my paper but they say it's ok and normal, and even added that it's even higher than the others who took the test. but it was still.. disappointing. bleeeeh.

 

i was planning to go online after the class - cos i'm in convergy's and there's netopia upstairs - but my parents fetched me so gaaah, can't sneak out. good thing we visited lola so here i am - nakiki-internet! woooooh!!

 

haaay. still have to go back to elbi this friday to do some stuff hehe, i won't be staying for the whole day cos i have class at 330 that day. hehe

 

i only have one classmate in PM this summer, a filipino-american one if i heard it correctly... hmmm, interesting. :)

 

alright, it's time to stop being a bummer!

 

btw, i'm back to exercising regularly! woooooh!

a sudden feeling of depression

i need to divert my thoughts from this. everytime i think of it, i feel hopeless, i feel drained. waaah.

i regret bursting out like that to my sister. i even cursed her. wtdhl.
e kasi naman, her problem is: she doesn't know how to get along. this trip (btw, i'm in elbi) is not all about her!! i agreed to accompany her through her registration because i also wish to pass by some of my teacher's cubicles, but when i pause to get my classcard she's like, "ay mauna muna ko ha?"

ay fuck naman. hindi makapaghintay? classcard lang naman! puta. ayown.
whatever.

srsly, i don't know what's up. why can't she think practically? naturingan panamang econ. she always picks the hard way. she always asks the dumbest question.

gaaar. i'm losing patience.

i wanna go out!
i wanna go on a date with a friend whom i can just talk to and rant and rave and be shallow and wtdhl, CRY!!!
because if i go out with a group, i'll just end up forcing myself to be happy when i'm not. hey, that helps but eventually when they're all gone i have to face my problems alone.

^ which should really the case.

yehey. jesse's with me!
now i don't feel so alone!
we can do this!!!
woooooooh!

ohmy.
wait lang ha.
ok.
hahahaha.
ugh, i'm stuttering.
i'm trying to get used to not going online everyday... our modem just got fucked up that's why i'm here. wahehehe.

ok, sister is calling me! (no, not terai. ate bubbles! :D)
company at last! XD

wotcher

Question Here: I love this site!! x0000
- thank you! :D

let it go.

i'm fcking crying right now. in astra.

goodbye, UPLB.
:)

hello, FEU!
i promise to get a job soon!

i don't know how to pick myself up. srsly, i need someone to talk to.

haaay.
where's the light?

LORD,LORD, LORD!! THERE'S STILL HOPE DIBA? DIBAA?? KASI YOU'RE STILL WITH ME? DIBA??????

sensei alvin: you have become a really fun teacher although most of time you're kupal to us. and even with that, i still can't get to hate you. thanks for the 4, i really thought i'm getting a 5 for the second time.

ok. I PROMISE TO BE MORE SERIOUS WITH MY ACADS STARTING NOW.

here's the drill.
i have two subjects with a grade of four. if i fail to remove both of them, i'd be getting my 2nd probationary status in a row, in short = dismissed.

but if i pass 1 of those subjects, i'd be given another chance to stay in the university.

that, i like.

but my parents are giving me another option, in case i pass and was given chance to continue toiling over being a chemical engineer... i could just drop it off and get an HONORABLE DISMISSAL, enroll at FEU-fern and take the course of my preferrence.

O.o
ay ang sakit ng ulo ko.
kaka typhoid shot ko lang.

Lord, Lord, Lord.
iba ka talaga!
i mean, if i didn't have you around maybe i'd be enthused enough to kill myself out of misery but no! you constantly give me something to smile about amidst the threatening adversity.

Father,
Thank You.