finally?

i'm still not sure what will happen to me in the remaining days i stay here... i'm done with all my exams (sans the possible removal exams i'd still take).

good news: it turns out i'm really exempted in the hist2 finals... our prof posted another note at the bulletin board excluding my name on the list of finalists! so much for the fckn hours i spent studying.

chem40 finals: i can smell take-3!! it was hard, as usual. i don't know, i couldn't care less. i'll definitely be pushing through my Fine Arts dream! (or escape, rather)

i don't want to put up another paragraph regarding my redundant insights on my personal escape from doom.

wooooh! even though i'm left with particularly nothing important to do (aside from packing my things and looking for a good good apartment), i don't believe i have the right to party or engage in anything more fun than going online and watching hana kimi! T___T;

i feel like i still have to deprive myself of a night life because i'm still unsure of my other exams... esp. micro1!! but i'm glad i'm already guaranteed to earn 8 units this sem. that's my ultimate goal remember? get at least 8 units to get a move on with my life!

hello, sophomore!!! :D :D woooooooh!!

wait, i'm excited for Baguio! it's gonna be my first time... err, so hopefully we push through. whahahahaha
if not, then i'm happy to just skate with my friends or go to a beach somewhere! wahahaha :)

haaay.
♥ ♥ ♥
i can't believe it's still HIM after all this time. :)
T___T;

happy april fools day

blogging through mail!

i kinda hate the keyboard here in astra... they're all hard and unuser friendly. i don't even know why i can wait for a long time just to get a seat here when i could've transferred to another cafe upon un(in?)-immediate vacancy.

 

fyi, i came here only for the aircon. wahaha and astra's the coldest by far, errr... primelink's colder i guess but since there're too much noise in there brought about by those gamers... better chill here.

 

i'm not in the mood to joke, even though this day supposed to be a jokeful one.

 

first and worst, IT'S FINALS WEEK. would you still have time to pull pranks and joke if you were in our non-existent shoes? NO YOU WOULDN'T! even if i'm happy most of the time, i cannot afford to joke right now.

 

i am DEPRESSED. look at me, do i look like one?

i've asked enough and they won't believe i'm experiencing an extreme emotional downfall. iwannadie!!! no, that's an exagerration.

i just want to get over this week! no, i want to get over this week plus next week!! if only i can catch a glimpse of the future to see what is really in store for me... hayhayhay.

 

i wanna get over the exams!

i had my first just now... the micro1 more system type exam... at least it wasn't that hard y'know... i mean, if i gave enough time to memorize more things then i could've answered more thouroughly but i don't regret anything... whew...

 

tomorrow, hist2 finals! i can't believe i'm a finalist! the cutoff is 3.0 my friends... which means i'm either 4 or 5. i couldn't care much, but i don't want to repeat that blasted subject either. >____>; it's a fckn GE subject FCOL!

 

ugggh, a halohalo from kuya will fix this. hmm...

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONARD!!! :D

 

buena mano

Q: what are bible verses related to this story?
- i think you're asking me why i have a 'verse of the day' when it has nothing to do with my entries? that's just actually a reminder for myself to keep in touch with the bible... at least, even if i don't get to open the book everyday, i get to read a verse everytime i open this blog (which i do more often). :)

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gooood afternoon to all of you! hehe, i should be studying by now!
and i mean... NOW!!!

sleeping for fitness

still not studying for the finals. hopefully, i'll get exempted on the hist2 finals. hopefully, man. HOPEFULLY. i don't want more shtload to bear. and the cutoff is 3, so i guess it's sorta manageable. :) sorta, sorta. XD

so, err, i'm planning to get a power siesta later (wuhoo!). wahaha. i knew it's always a waste of effort to carry books with me over the weekend, they always end up unused anyway!! but i still bring them just in case some strange air pases by and i'm inspired to flip through some of the pages. wahaha. and so far, that has never happened to me yet. we'll see, we'll see...

so... on tuesday i have but one exam, micro1... the dreaded move-system type. our lab instructor tells us it has a very low passing rate. whew, that encouraged me, really. >__>; enihao, since i've already studied a bit during our last exam, then the shtload gets lighter at this point. so, hmmm... i'll be studying for that tonight. and you better hope i should cos THE SEMESTER IS FCKN DONE ALREADY AND I HAVEN'T FIXED MY STUPID STUDY HABITS YET!!!

then tomorrow, i have the whole day to study for our chem40 finals... which is also as dreadful, considering that i have to get 70% to pass and 46% to take the removals. the exam is on wednesday, so you might think i'm cramming the ludicrous coverage in one day (more or less). yes, i know i should've started studying weeks ago to lessen the shtload, but i have a weird psychological problem... if it's not yet due in a few days then it's as good as a month far. in short, i don't feel that surge of urgency to study for it when it's not less than a week near. whatever.

bad habits die hard.

gibberish #946

i'm... confused.
i don't know what to do, from here on, everything's going to be harder for me and i'm not sure if i can maintain the positive spirit i always use as a defense mechanism. being lazy, yes, that's my biggest problem. the path to learning is a steep uphill trek, and i have no reserved endurance for that.

why must i be like this? i always promise myself to be better next time, but sooner or later, i'll run out of next times... or maybe, there'll always be a lot of next times for me until i realize i've gone way overdue for graduation.

i'm too happy for my own good. too much of being care-free and laid-back makes you a senior freshman. never moving forward, and getting a lot of warnings, next think i know i'd be out of the university.

perhaps then, will i see my worth. in a different field, in a less practical but more fulfilling one.

i'm frustrated!!! i don't know where to get a decent advice from?
do the people here really like what they do?

i want to meet someone who is as frustrated as i am. i want to meet someone who is passionate about being a chemical engineer but is (for a lack of a gentler term) always failing. perhaps i can find consolation in that. and he/she too will find one in me. sometimes, it's better to talk to someone who's been there and done that instead of someone's who's never been there but feels for you, chances are you'll just get intimidated and screw your life more.

a familiar quote says that if you want to learn, surround yourself with people smarter than you are.

well, i did.
there's the org, when i entered i felt so badly intimiated i couldn't get a move forward with my life. i was a matter a adjustment. of trying to be invisible when they're starting to talk about their frkn acad lives. but you see, it's also a matter of perspective, they're there not to intimidate you or cause your pride to shrink, they're there to help. but you ought to help yourself too. fckn clique, kfjhgeuh@_*&$*)^!%!!!! yeah.

i need someone to talk to. a guy, probably. someone who can fckn tolerate my weirdness and someone i can just talk to openly without being conscious.

and btw, my crush does not qualify for this.

there's always a difference between a bestfriend and a boyfriend that often gets misinterpreted. a bestfriend is always better to talk to. that, i need.

milk and coco crunch spells heaven.

extra curiccular wishlist

here are the things i want to do while inside the university which are not academic related

♥ be in the swimming varsity team - i want to get fit and engage in a lot of sports this time, i don't want to end up getting bigger and bigger...

♥ more so, if i manage to improve my swimming skills, i want to coach kids! :) i want to teach kids how to swim!!! weeeeeee...

♥ i also want to get into UP Painters Club to uhhh, make use of my other creative-outlet. :) plus, i want to do henna! :) :) :)

♥ UP Writer's Club or UPLB Pantas... both are writing orgs. i want to have access to writing workshops because i think they're fun and i'll be learning a lot. the last writing workshop i attended would be 3 years ago, in the review center and i don't think i improved since then. i love writing but my sense of grammar is kinda off. hahaha

♥ uhm, yun lang naman.

come to think of it, i am being more active on the non-academic aspect of the my college life.

which means, i'm really not for [this].

trio, cookies and cream, super chocolate!

wooooh!
ang daming ice cream!!! ganito kasi yan eh... nag despidida party kami nung wednesday para sa aming mahal na graduating dormmates... ang daming food pare! baboy talaga. :)

haha basta ako masaya, maraming ice cream e. nung wednesday, nagdala ng isang galong selecta trio si ate bubbbles....
kinabukasan... bumili si banya ng isang galong cookies and cream! woooh!
at ngayon... dito sa bahay... may half gallon super chocolaaaaatteeee!

ayos talaga!

uhm... sige

wow! gumagana pa pala itong selective expandable posts ko... kala ko nabura na nung nagpalit akong layout. anyway...

nakakakita ako ng pagasa sa micro1...
in fairness the exam awhile ago was relatively easy... i mean... kinompyut ko yung mga sure shot na items... at umabot ng 61! so guaranteed na na may 61 points ako... pasado na yun! eh kung may chumamba ba? edi mas ok. halos hindi nga ako nakapagaral eh... malaking blessing ito para sa kin. woooh! hahaha

so hopefully maka-kwatro ako para, makapagremovals at pag pumasa edi maka-tres! utang na loob, ang boring umulit ng micro1!!!!

isa pa, yung chem40 aba naman hindi ko na alam baka itake-3 ko pa to. Lord, Lord, kahit kwatro please!
pero look, i computed my probable prefi standing at na-assume ko ang mga grades na dapat ko makuha sa finals.
hmmm... pag naka at least 43% ako sa finals... kwatro na ko. magreremovals, pag pumasa edi tres! ayos!
actually yun ang goal ko... kahit 43 percent lang diba? mababa na yun!

tapos, to save myself the hassle of restudying for the removals, i have to get at least 70% from the finals to get a grade of 3. haaay, eto mejo suntok sa buwan kasi... 50 points nga hirap akong kunin e, 70 pa kaya?

at dahil dyan.
matutulog na ko! :)
yeeeeey

PS. masaya ako ngayon. diba anne? hehehe ♥