NAKAKAINIS!!!!!

PARDON ME ON THIS ENTRY. I SIMPLY WANTED THIS IN UPPERCASE

WALA KAMING KLASE SA HUM1 KANINA!
NO, I'M NOT REJOICING!!! IT ACTUALLY BROKE MY DAY, PLUS THE FACT THAT I SAW HIM WITH HER. WHEN I READ THE NOTE STUCK ON THE DOOR, I IMMEDIATELY CONFIRMED IF IT WAS TRUE.

THEN I LEFT IMMEDIATELY.
DISREGARDING THE POSSIBILITY THAT HE'S PROBABLY WAITING FOR ME. WTF.
WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE JUST GO?!?!! AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED YOU HAVE NO OTHER BUSINESS THERE.

YES, DEARS. I'M RAMBLING.
I'M MAD WITH RAGE.
IN FACT, I DON'T WANT TO ATTEND HUM1 THIS WEDNESDAY (IF BY SOME GRACE OUR TEACHER ARRIVES).

I WENT BACK TO THE DORM LOOKING ALL SULKY AND GLUM. AND WHEN MY DORMMATES SAW ME, THEY KNEW IMMEDIATELY HOW HURT I WAS.

IT'S THE ONLY CLASS I'M LOOKING FORWARD THIS WEEK AND IT SUCKS NOT TO COMPLETE THAT MINUTE 3 HOURS/WEEK WE SPEND TOGETHER.

SAFE NA BANG AMININ?
OR DI PA BA OBVIOUS?

T_______T;;

antok na ko!

i don't know where else to pour out my frustrations. puro na lang drawing! sa papel, sa planner, sa EXAM (pag walang masagot), sa chairs, sa kamay. hahahaha

 

but come to think of it, feeling ko lang frustrated ako pero... hindi talaga ito yung, err, legitimate feeling of frustration. e ano ba kasi yun?diba kung frustrated ka, your're making a huge effort into something na hindi ka makapag-excel?

 

in short, hindi pala ako frustrated. di naman ako nag-eeffort eh. bwaha.

 

anyhow... it's 2am. and i haven't finished researching for our report on friday. it's a dmn hard topic! amines, amino acids and proteins... bakit ba yun ang napili namin. tsktsk. kukupalin nanaman kami ni sir nito eh.

 

alam nyo ba minsan, kasi feeling ko talaga nag-eenjoy si sir sa klase namin, gusto kong sagutin si sir sa mga pangungupal nya. aba, nagtatanong lang ako tungkol sa postlab ng synthesis of aspirin, sinabihan na ko na kulang ako sa logic?!

 

sayang, ang nareply ko lang ay, "salamat!"

 

alam nyo ba kung bat ang hilig ko magblog?

kasi wala akong makausap! wala akong masabihan ng mga kaweirdohan ko sa buhay.

 

hahaha naghahanap nga ako ng isang tao pwede kong makausap anytime eh. yung makikipagkwentuhan lang sakin (kung may beer, ayos din)... yung kakaiba rin mag-isip. kasi naman, in front of my peers... mega conformist ako... ayoko naman ma-out of place. in fact, ordinaryong tao lang ako sa harap ng marami. hahaha

 

kaya nga mahal na mahal ko ang barkada ko eh. sa kanila ko lang pwede ibuhos ang lahat ng kaweirdohan ka without being judged! bwahahaha legal magjoke ng korni, humirit ng wala sa lugar at magkwento ng magkwento kahit di ka coherent... maiintindihan nila.

 

there's a language formed between friends na alien ang dating sa iba. ayos. hahahaha

 

hmmm... dito kasi sa elbi... hmmm, ok andyan si kat... ang tinuturing kong closest friend ko dito... ayos kasi ok lang maglabas ng kahit ano!

 

na realize ko tuloy.

lahat naman ng tao pwede mong kausapin about anything, pwede mong maging bestfriend, confidante, lahat na... kasi i believe na may kanya kanyang kaweirdohan ang mga tao na pinapakita lang nila sa mga piling tao rin. just like me!

 

ok, this is totally pointless. siguro masyado lang akong inaantok.

ganito na lang... i'll mail my research to my mailbox then i-aaccess ko na lang sa elbi para mabilis... haaaay

 

hahaha sige na nga gooooodnight! (i mean, goodmorning pala)

 

dinner with BTS

man, i missed them soooooooooooo much!!!

thanks for the long due christmas gifts! hehehehe

 

wala eh, sobrang namiss ko silang lahat... tsk.tsk.tsk. grabe, it's been a while... hehehe :)

natuwa ako sobra. hahaha

woooot! so most probably, sa summer na ulit kami magkaka-reunion.

 

here's what happened pala:

 

7pm Teriyaki Boy- trinoma. nagcommute lang ako papunta dun... uhm... yun, hinanap ko pa yung resto. hehehe so nanlibre si karlita ng dinner (dahil nakapasa sya sa major na gusto nya, political economics! o.O) at si KA ng ice cream.. tapos, hinatid pa ko nina karla pauwi (like usual!) yeaah, thanksthanks! in short, halos wala akong nagastos! may mga regalo pa ko! wahahaaha

 

wow. ayos talaga... namiss ko yung tawanan. grabe. graabeeee... ano baaaaa! mahal na mahal ko kayo! :D :D

 

so, pano ko kaya susunugin yung calorie intake ko ngayon? bwaha. nalula ako sa inorder ko... ang laki pala nun. grabe, di ko naubos. sayang hehehe. wow, ang sarap ng tokwa. tokwaaaaaaaaah! hahahaha

^____^

 

i love you, BTS.

not bad for our first time! :D

honestly, i thought we're going to screw up on the cheering competition (i didn't dance. i just sat there cheering for our cheering team. hehe) but no! i actually thought we're competitive enough. others even say we bagged the 4th place but the hosts only announced up to the third place so... uhh, that sucks. anyhow.

i enjoyed most of the night... even though i get sleepy at times. hehehe
congrats to ate mildred! she won miss eng'g meet 1st runner up. yeeey!

we did great. go AChES! :)

i was expecting to see ESG but they didn't join this year, as well as IESO and PSJT. >____>;

issues, issues...

everytime i think of it, i only get confused. to transfer to fine arts or to pursue being a chemical engineer? wtf. there's no harm in trying... but there's the big paperworks/interviews hassle to deal with.

and the problem with me is that... i'm too lazy for my own good. sometimes i get too unmotivated that i couldn't care much if i flunk chem40 for the second time and retake it again (no this is not a grammatical error) next schoolyear. i wonder WHAT DRIVES ME.

yes, i am an artist. i sorta good one at that. but it definitely isn't something i want to pursue in life. it's just a hobby, perhaps more... err, a passion. yes, i'm passionate about the arts but i don't know, i don't know! i always end up drawing when i should be studying for an exam.

let's evaluate my drn life.

ok, i hate memorizing stuff. i hate chemistry. i hate math (although we're good acquaintances in highschool). i hate objective exams.

i like writing (though i'm not good at it). COMPUTERS! i like webdesigning, html, css. COMSCI??? -i like comsci, sans programming and math 20 series- (o.O). i like fiddling with adobe photoshop. drawing, yeah.

what about chem. eng? i don't like it! i'm just 'proud' of being an engineering student. hahahaha sometimes i appreciate chemistry... depends on the teacher and my level of comprehension. but most of the time it disgusts me. sorry.

ay nakooooo.
walang direksyon ang buhay kooooooooooo.

what? everyone's turning into juniors next sem and chances are i might be stuck as a freshman for another sem...

hala, arianne... mataranta ka naman!!!!

i thought i liked subjective exams more...

but our hum1 exam awhile ago proved to be a torture. man, it was worth 60 points, with just 15 questions (the last one being a BONUS)... and i don't think i did well. hahaha, actually i didn't study for it. i only memorized the critical thinking pyramid... which quarantees me 7 points now. but the others? gosh, i think i relied mostly on logic and whatever it is i can manage to write down.

i like subjective exams. they make you think a lot. only, you need a lot of time for it to. 1 minute left and i haven't touched the bonus yet.

the bonus. it says there to write a poem describing a person in class, you may/may not write his/her name. hahaha i could've written a decent poem about him (with enough cover-ups) but i don't have enough time left. anyway. i think it's better that way. for all i know we're going to recite them in class once we reach the topic poetry. hahaha

Lord, why must it be like that? yes, i was hoping he'll come but i easily dismissed the thought thinking he'd rather take it with this girl. bwahahaha (me and my paranoid jealousy!)

but dang, he came. wth.
what are you trying to say?
i don't see signs pertaining to something negative. bwahehehehe

thank you, thank you. :)

boooorredd

i have an exam tomorrow on 10a but i have no intention of studying. who studies for it anyway? >___>;

i'm afraid (oh not really) i'm slowly falling out of love with him. who say's that's great? no, not me. i enjoy the fluttery feeling a major crush gives... haha i'm in this age where it's super frustrating not to have someone to crush on. life's just so dull without a lovelife (or an imaginary one at that). and if you're someone who doesn't (in the least sense) enjoy dwelling over academic stuff, then at least you should have a relatively good social life to compensate for your lack of enthusiasm in studying. >___>;

oh well.
tomorrow, i guess.

looking back

i was looking through my 'sent mail' folder and managed to flip through some of the entries i mailed to my blog. i just actually want to ponder on a single entry, dated january 8, 2007 - about freeing myself from my self-proclaimed Zahir.

now i'm about to feel the same way again (or not..err we'll see).
i was asking God for a sign, i told him that i want something to happen that will imply a barren relationship between the two of us. vague, i know but i sort of relied it on today's activity. so whatever happened awhile ago must imply something. i'm actually thinking, how coooome it's like that?

yes, i thought i wanted it to end!
but awhile ago proved there's still something waiting to happen.
errr... at least that's how i read things. >____>;;

ask me, how was the exam?
man, i was the first to turn the paper over and leave the lecture hall! lol, not that i answered fast... on the contrary...i skrewed up. ONCE AGAIN. no, for the NTH time now!

i wasn't in the mood right after exam. i haven't even taken a bath then! that's why i went back to the dorm immediately... i took a bath and went to our hum1 class. i was hoping for something good to happen and i wasn't disappointed naman. although i was spacing out, and not listening to our group. i was doing something else.

dang, i should've left my calculator.
btw, i didn't attend my chem40 lec awhile ago...
i overslept.

dang me and my bad habits.