hahaha sige, tama na.

grabe. infatuation nanaman!

2nd time na to. >___>;
shempre crush crush lang muna... pero pag nasaktan ka na... aba, level up na yan. hindi na crush yan.

ganun na nga ang nangyari. parang masakit na di ko sya makita. >____>; grabe. adik lang. T___T; nakakainis ako diba.. ? >.<;

naiinis pa ko kanina. naku, bat ba ko lumipat. >____>;
sige wish ko lang di matapos ang sem na to. yak. at least kahit yung subject lang na yun. di ko pa kaya, seryoso. minsan lang kaya ako magka-ganito.

but at some point i don't want to cater this feeling. wala, ayoko lang masaktan. masakit kaya nung first time! i mean, never pa ko nagka-bf pero naranasan ko na magkagusto ng husto sa isang taong friendship lang talaga ang kayang ibigay sayo. but at least we're pretty close friends parin... at tuluyan na ring naglaho yung feeling.

ayoko ngang iclaim na in-love ako eh. wala. ayoko lang. kasi parang ang corny mainlove. hahaha. siguro infatuation. mas malamang yun... kasi hindi naman usually masakit magka-crush eh. pero dahil nalulungkot akong isipin na malapit ng matapos ang sem... T____T;

haaay dibale na lang.
di ko lang talaga mapigilang magblog kasi... naco-confuse ako.
lche. di na ko kinikilig, it's a mixture of that and hurt that i'm feeling right now.
ayoko.
bakit ganun, Lord naman eh.

>____>;

sana di nya to mabasa diba.
ay joke, as if naman nag-nenet yun. and besides, i haven't mentioned anyone's name for that matter. >___>;

Lord, gusto ko lagi lang masaya. lagi lang jackpot moments. :) sana maging close pa kami.

ang hirap kayang magpretend.
hahaha
corny na.

gusto kong magpakalunod

yes. swimming nanaman bukas. hopefully ma divert ang utak ko.
sht talaga. >___>

for once, pare, for once...
masakit kaya. T___________________T;

pero bat ganun, kung tutuusin... wala naman talagang nangyari. paranoid lang talaga ako.

pero akalain mo, i was waiting for him awhile ago. kala ko di na sya darating. so i took out my notebook and wrote, dear lord sana dumating sya.
and right after i ended the sentence... jenen! the door opened and he was there.

minsan talaga and random ng mga sinasagot na prayers ni God.

alam nyo ba nung first time kong magkaganito... yung maloka ng todo tapos biglang wala pala... ang sakit sakit. huhuhuhuhu. natulala lang ako buong araw sa dorm.

pero weird, nakaget over naman ako. ang bilis nga eh. T___T; ganun talaga pag walang aminan... minsan mabuti pang alamin mo muna kung may-pagasa ka before you drop hints... otherwise... lalo kang masasaktan. ngayon, casual friend na lang tingin ko sa kanya. hahaha...

i'm not saying this out of experience pero mas mabuti na rin yung hindi umaasa lalo na kung alam mong wala syang gusto sayo.

hahaha.
ok, ang drama ko.

e kasi naman. 1 week pare! 1 week!! ang tagal!
isang araw nga hindi ko matiis 1 week pa kaya!!!

MICHI, magpaparty ka naman sa birthday mo!!! gusto ko lumabas!hehehe

ang mga lalaki... hindi manliligaw kung di sila siguradong sure-shot sila sa girl. onga naman. makes sense. mahirap mabasted. hahahahahaha

alam nyo ba... naiiyak ako.

hahaha joke lang.

wrong move, arianne, wrong move T___T;

wala. >___>;
i thought it was the best thing to do to narrow down suspicions but i ended up feeling sad instead. i ended up regretting what i did.

i actually didn't want him to think that i have no interest in him.
whatever. >___>;

go study, arianne.
just go... do your homeworks. be a good student. don't think of him often, for all you know he's not thinking of you that way.

you won't be seeing him for a week so chill and try not to kill yourself for being so overly infatuated with this guy.

and so my conscience speaks.

my classmate's goggles. hehe

i just came across a video file here called shinsen corp - zombie loan... hehe anime! bwaha nice nice, freaky. but nice art...? err still uncomparable to claymore type art but it's good! at least not as ugly as initial d drawings*

 

*ooops. sorry sorry, but seriously... i could've enjoyed initial d if they were drawn better... they remind of the knock out characters. bwahaha. and they're ugly. wenk.

 

you might not notice but i'm publishing this entry through mail because... err... because i'm too lazy to access my dashboard through the blogger homepage.

you know what, i woke up fantasizing this morning. wtf.wtf.WTF. i'm not even sure if it was a fantasy or a dream but i realized it was indeed one of my silly hopeless fantasies because i gathered i'm already half-conscious and was trying to continue the story, but forgot most of it anyways (which makes it like a half-dream half-fantasy thing haha). the only thing i remember is that were about to bungee jump together. and i fainted while diving down. bwahaha.

 

that was like 6am. >__>; then i went back to sleep again because i alarmed my phone at 630. hehe i have class at 7.

anyhow, i ended up waking 645. bwahaha so i slipped through my swimsuit and put on my clothes, took my jacket and stormed off to the pool.

 

swimming is a dmn good exercise. that's if you're willing to sacrifice getting a horrible and irreparable (sp?) chlorine tan. i get darker and darker every week and the grim part of it is that i didn't get it from the sun but from our oversaturated pool... which is a hopeless case if you want to revive your lost skintone. .>__>;

 

gosh. i tried swimming 50 meters straight and i almost died of exhaustion.

 

and my classmate's goggles was lost under the pool. no one really asked me to get it but since i'm closest to it, i figured i was obliged to do it. T__T; friends, i dunno what's up with her goggles. why must it drown and rest way down on the pool floor... 10 meters below the gutter surface???

 

and i was like trying to submerge myself but i end up rising upwards so i asked the lifeguard for assistance. he taught me how to submerge but i still can't reach the bottom. >__>;; i have to release a lot of air to go down but come on, how can i survive without air? haha... in the the end mr. lifeguard (who's polite enough to assist me with the blasted goggles) used a pole to reach the pool floor and i swam underneath, using the pole to reach the bottom.

 

yeah, i got the goggles so i'm now swimming upwards, the pole was a big help, but i'm slowly running out of air. omaygulay. then kuya lifeguard pulled and pulled... it was WAY TOO FAST i felt my ears deafen. T___T;;

 

yey. cool! i was like muro-ami-ing. bwahahahaha

thanks, kuya for the experience. i enjoyed it. ^______^=v

 

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when came back to the dorm, i wrote an early entry to my 'dear Lord diary' saying I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM.

 

yes, until now.

call it crap, just not love please.

>___>;

wala lang

i miss amelie poulain! bwahaha

hello, so kumusta naman ang araw na to...?

at last... i attended my micro1 class... malapit na ko ma-excessive eh. nag-quiz as usual at lagpak nanaman. feeling ko kung masisingko ako dito.. dahil sa mga quizzes yun. dibale dibale, sa exam na lang. :)

hum1.. bago pumasok ng klase nakasalubong ko si ate irene, sabi ko may klase ako.. sabi nya "aba! papasok ka na!" bwahahaha ano ba yan, kung may subject akong hindi papasukan, count hum1 out. yun lang ang masaya sa mga subjects ko ngayon. :)

grabe talagang nakakatamad na mag-aral. uhm, hurrayhurray! pumasok ako sa chem40! nagquiz din kami eh... pasa naman kahit pano... bwahahaha

alam nyo ba na para akong tanga, sa tuwing naglalakad ako pauwi di ko mapigilang ngumiti. haaay crush. kung alam mo lang, lakas tama talaga. >___>; eh ganito talaga ako magka-crush eh. hindi pa obvious!! hahahaha

haha may GA kami ngayon.. di ako pumunta... >___>; katamaran. tsktsk.

aba! pinapalabas na ang Devil Beside You sa GMA! grabe... ANG PANGET NG DUBBING... more like ang panget nung boses nung bidang lalaki. i'm sure di yun tatangkilikin ng tao.. at dahil dyan... hindi dadami ang fans ni Ahmon sa Pilipinas... which means... HALOS WALA PARIN AKONG KAAGAW!

hah. selfish.

really now

i don't think i'm going to pursue shifting/transferring to diliman next schoolyear... hehe i'm afraid of the papers/interviews hassle... i might just get turned down you know. well, it's not really about that. it's more about the feeling that i'm starting to like it here, even though i'm not excelling academically at least i know i'm not alone in my journey downhill, it's not even a good thought but it's a good enough compensation. bwahahaha

things are going to get hard for me from here... from this moment that i decide to just continue being a chemical engineering student... a blasted one at that.

weirdly though, i feel like my worth will be more seen if i'm taking computer science. but then, my plan is to just take a vocational course on that sometime after graduation. >___>;

i want to work na. dmmt.

wasting gel ink

i'm drawing/doodling again! i couldn't find anything to do.. =|
i arrived home at around 4 and no one's answering the door so i just climbed over our gate... good thing the main door's open or else i would have to perform my usual akyat-bahay tactics... >__>;

and i found out there are actually two people inside. grr... i'm hating my sister again for destroying our doorbell. T___T;

my parents and my sister are gone that time... they were in divisoria to fit gowns because it's mommy's awarding soon and terai's gonna escort her... why, I WANT TO! but i have classes, dmmt =\ but i'm still going to the hotel yey. :)

my sister bought me a new bag, it's red! i like it, yeah but i wanted it to be more casual... my shirts won't get along with it.

haha quite a new look again, i've already used this header once but i ditched it anyways. dunno if the alignments are fine in other browsers... i had to adjust the top margin to a negative value for it to align with the header image. whatev. >___>;

i wish i were a computer science major you know, then i would have enough knowledge not to fumble over trivial things like this.

i am greatly favored by the imaginary deity of critical infatuation. most of the people i tell about my crush are concidentally his acquaintances! now, life's pretty good on me (on this part only though) or maybe he's just too old that it fits right that he knows a lot of people already. bwahahaha

man, i badly want that 250gigs portable hard drive so that i could store my stolen series directly. >__>;
on a sad note, i wasn't able to watch the eps i took yesterday because there's this 'error downloading codec' thingamajig that appeared in my wmp when i loaded the video meaning only the audio is present, no gdmn visuals.

i think it's karma. hahaha
or maybe if i get a new laptop with windows vista then i'm going to have an ultra great and updated wmp and i don't have to worry about installing that blasted codec (whatever that is).

goodnight. :)