really now

i don't think i'm going to pursue shifting/transferring to diliman next schoolyear... hehe i'm afraid of the papers/interviews hassle... i might just get turned down you know. well, it's not really about that. it's more about the feeling that i'm starting to like it here, even though i'm not excelling academically at least i know i'm not alone in my journey downhill, it's not even a good thought but it's a good enough compensation. bwahahaha

things are going to get hard for me from here... from this moment that i decide to just continue being a chemical engineering student... a blasted one at that.

weirdly though, i feel like my worth will be more seen if i'm taking computer science. but then, my plan is to just take a vocational course on that sometime after graduation. >___>;

i want to work na. dmmt.

wasting gel ink

i'm drawing/doodling again! i couldn't find anything to do.. =|
i arrived home at around 4 and no one's answering the door so i just climbed over our gate... good thing the main door's open or else i would have to perform my usual akyat-bahay tactics... >__>;

and i found out there are actually two people inside. grr... i'm hating my sister again for destroying our doorbell. T___T;

my parents and my sister are gone that time... they were in divisoria to fit gowns because it's mommy's awarding soon and terai's gonna escort her... why, I WANT TO! but i have classes, dmmt =\ but i'm still going to the hotel yey. :)

my sister bought me a new bag, it's red! i like it, yeah but i wanted it to be more casual... my shirts won't get along with it.

haha quite a new look again, i've already used this header once but i ditched it anyways. dunno if the alignments are fine in other browsers... i had to adjust the top margin to a negative value for it to align with the header image. whatev. >___>;

i wish i were a computer science major you know, then i would have enough knowledge not to fumble over trivial things like this.

i am greatly favored by the imaginary deity of critical infatuation. most of the people i tell about my crush are concidentally his acquaintances! now, life's pretty good on me (on this part only though) or maybe he's just too old that it fits right that he knows a lot of people already. bwahahaha

man, i badly want that 250gigs portable hard drive so that i could store my stolen series directly. >__>;
on a sad note, i wasn't able to watch the eps i took yesterday because there's this 'error downloading codec' thingamajig that appeared in my wmp when i loaded the video meaning only the audio is present, no gdmn visuals.

i think it's karma. hahaha
or maybe if i get a new laptop with windows vista then i'm going to have an ultra great and updated wmp and i don't have to worry about installing that blasted codec (whatever that is).

goodnight. :)

ows?

♠ i woke up really early this day because i thought the swimming compet will start at 7. ay ang effort talaga bumangon ng maaga. >__>;

♠ anyhow, i lost. :( aww, but it's ok! haha i'm not expecting anything anyway. eh malay ko ba na kailangan mag-DIVE sa freestyle?!?! anong malay ko eh mas gusto ko sumipa na lang sa gutter. hahaha whatever. 25m-free lang ang nalaro ko, si ate melai 25m-backstroke. we were (at least I WAS) excited for the relay kasi girl power kami, dalawa lang kaming lalangoy ng 100m! but noooo, ERG won't let us. kailangan daw at least may isang lalaki.

♠ ABA! NAPAKA-SEXIST NAMAN NG ENG'G MEET! T___T;

♠ galit si kuya omeng. lasing pa yata mga tao from yesterday (last day the fair) kaya default kami sa softball... double default naman kasi wala rin ung kabila so ok lang.

♠ ewan.ewan.ewan. sa pagmamadali kong makauwi (btw, i'm home!) nakalimutan kong labhan yung mga binabad ko. wenkwenk.

♠ yey. nakita ko crush ko! happyhappyhappy!

♠ i dropped by megamall to have lunch. yey! nagyoshi nanaman ako! :) as usual. pero asenso di na ko ng icecream! haha wala kasing m&m's ung snowstorm ngayon eh. hehehe tapos tapos...

♠ ayos. nakapagcyberzone nanaman ako! ang sarap talaga tumingin sa octagon! daming laptops! as in 30K sulit na!!!

♠ lntk. may bago akong gustong bilhin. isang 250gigs portable harddrive (aabutin ng hanggang 9k). hahaha ano ba yan grabe talaga... 15gigs na lang natitira sa PCng ito! tapos super bagal pa nung pagtransfer nung 4gigs na ninakaw ko kahapon so haaay, parusa talaga. eh 8gigs lang usb ko! yung susunod kong nanakawin 22gigs (Death Note) tapos ung Naruto... aba mahaba yun baka mag 100gigs yun mahirap na... at ang mahal ng DVD-R ha! ang pinakamalaking nakita ko ay 8.something gigs... 150pesos! waaaah. >____>;

♠ e wala akong dvd burner. hahahahaha

♠ minsan talaga, parang gusto ko na lang magtrabaho at kumita. wag na mag-aral!

♠ ok, scratch that.

snatched away (is that redundant?) >__<

i just stole 4gigs worth of files here in astra... >___>; i took in episodes 16-47 of Nana (an anime series). Astra has a lot of animes for viewing here... thing is, and of course too, they have to contain it within their computer shop. they put up enough warnings not to steal but i insist on being guilty. i can't afford to sit here and wait for the whole series to finish playing... by then i'll be begging alms before i even know it.

haha. steffi's right. they're not checking who's stealing, they don't even have that chorva detector who can see through video thieves. hehehe...

works just good for me. bwahahaha

oh, valentines was ok. i went feb-fairing with my orgmates then with my dormates... our brods gave us heart shaped balloons... which i'm very thankful for because at last i won't be loitering around the field feeling envious of girls carrying long-stemmed roses and pink balloons from their boyfriends...

but even before i got a good walk around the field feeling proud that i'm not so lonely this season (because looook! i have a balloon! a proof that someone cares. hahaha)... i lost the gdmn thing. i wasn't really carrying it, i just stuck it on my bag... and 10 meters after i walked away from our booth i checked my bag and saw the balloon is gone... and only the fckdmt stick was left. ate joegie and i decided to look back for it and we saw it on lying on the ground...

but wtf, wait... even before i was given the chance to shout the words "WAIT! THAT'S MY FCKN BALLOON! THE ONLY GIFT I RECEIVED THIS BLASTED SEASON!!!!" ...

a streetchild snatched it
arg, that killed my appetite (and also gave me this ridiculous feeling that it was a sign that i'm not going to get a lovelife ever). hahahahahaha

so i didn't go for it anymore.
why, it's just a balloon. and it's not even from someone special :(

not that i'm saying my brods aren't special but the one who gave it to me was like, "meron ka na? o" and handed it to me without even looking. how cold. T___T; i was even beaming madly about the generosity of thy sensitive brods... but oh well, looks like i got it from the wrong person (and i'm not saying he's bad. he's naturally like that so i couldn't demand anything). could've taken the other side of the booth and gotten it from someone more cheerful.... hay.

saddest part yet, i wasn't able to see my crush. T___T;

balik xml

nainis ako sa html/css layout ko... ok sana kaso di maayos sa ibang browsers. at least ito ok naman... so yun. dito na lang ako. hehe.

inalis ko na yung selective expandable posts... pero ibabalik ko rin soon enough. naloloka pa ko sa coding eh...

wala na rin yung label cloud... i figured to just keep the labels for myself in case my gusto akong balikan (well, di nyo na business yun. it's my own bookmark)

inis parin ako.
i wish i knew more xml diba? para kering keri na lang ang paggawa ng ganitong layout.

i'll edit this sometime...
pero mas gusto ko na to... simple lang. :)

jackpot!

and i thought 14 is going to suck for me. well, i still don't know what's up with this day for me....you see, it's too early to assume anything. bwaha

yey! i attended my swimming class awhile ago. the diving board still scares me but i'm okay i guess hahaha. hey, we're swimming the pool length already! that's 25 meters! yeah! i actually thought i should get a lot of practice with length swimming, my endurance is kinda low... but i can sprint. so this day we had 6 laps... free-back, back and forth. it was tiring, everytime i get to the other side of the pool i stay there for a couple of minutes to rest. bwahaha, i don't have enough stamina to do 6 laps straight... unless i'm in a competition, that could be arranged.

>___>; saturday is eng'g meet day! and it's just swimming, track and field and couple of missed games... >__>; i'm more conscious with my swimwear that with my swimming. wtdhl.


YESTERDAY was ultra great.
i had to make myself look pretty (and i was hoping i did it right). seriously. because...err... because it's the last time i'm going to see my crush before valentines, unless he's going to swim/watch this saturday... i'm not really counting on the chance of me seeing him this blasted day, for all i know he's so busy with things. but he's enjoying it, i'm glad.

^__^;
let's go back to yesterday... i didn't attend my micro1 class because i don't want to. (SEE HOW EASY IT IS FOR ME TO DECIDE ON SKIPPING A CLASS??!?!? somedy help) but i did attend my hum1 class, so far it's my favorite class because it's fun and the people are nice.... basta, fun. and there's also the ♥ factor. wtdhl. we gave a surprise quiz! more like the teacher asked us to give one... bwaha. then that's it. :-)

[FAMILY UPDATE:
i just gave birth to my 4th child. her name is anne christiane. :) so all in all, i had 3 divorces and this new marriage. like usual i'm not hoping in this current relationship to last, unless there's something mutual between me and my self-proclaimed husband... then that's a different story. i am willing to wait.]

last night even though it was raining, kim (my second daughter) and i went to the feb fair to watch the Gorgeous 20 (i was actually persuading my youngest, anne, to join as well and be the Gorgeous 21.bwahaha but it'd be scandalous so we just dismissed the thought). it was still early, the show before it hasn't ended yet so we decided to just watch. ayos. nice bands. i enjoyed some. but what i enjoyed most is that i saw my crush. hahaha so mega bantay lang ako sa kanya. whatever talaga.

but i enjoyed it.
it made my day.
he made my day.
grrreeeat!

if you know how my dorm life is going, you'd be sure to understand what [this text] means.

btw, i skipped my history class just know. it's boring me big time and i feel like the teacher hates me for not being responsible enough. i know i know. i don't pass reflection papers, i paid for the trip but didn't join (i got sick, dmmt!), i'm usually absent minded in her class and she notices.

i hate boring classes.
similarly, i hate boring teachers, hard subjects and terror teachers.

and shool is basically all about that.
so in short, i hate school.

before anything else, happy ♥s season

valentines has always been 'singles-awareness-day' spelled backwards...
yeah, it's just now that it bothered me not to have a boyfriend (or anything similar) this season. why, i'm 17! >___>;

i'm old enough!
and i'd be spending this blasted season either with my dormmates or with my orgmates... good thing i had a major crush this time so at least i won't feeling so left alone.

yeah, i guess a crush is good enough. and he's quite busy nowadays too, i pity him. he badly wants to get over this month already. well, i don't want to. it'd be March by then... and soon there'll be the finals week which means classes will end soon... and i don't want to because i won't be able to see him anymore. >___>;

what's up with virgos...?
all of my major crushes are virgos. wtdhl. >____>;

know what, i want flowers... or balloons or chocolates... well i accept any gift.
being single has a lot of benefits, yeah. there's freedom in big bold uppercase letters... but dmn, February is a whole month of suffering for us. >___>;

febfair=boring.
grabe. walang thrill!
ang booooooooooooooooooooooooring. lch.

oh, and what sucks more is that i have nothing to keep me busy this week. i only have one exam... and it's 10a... and i don't usually study 10a... >____> i'm really unocuppied...

actually, if i come think of it... i have loads of things to catch up with my acads but it always boils down to my refusal to engage in anything academic while i'm inside the dorm.

btw, my sister + vynne went SPEED DATING today. they were inviting us to join them but heck, i don't think it's going to solve any of my problems... better yet replace my current major crush in my rotting brain....

at feeling ko pa nagpapakaloyal ako sa crush ko dahil ayoko makipagspeed dating. bukod sa
a) nakakahiya
b) baka may makita pa kong brod dyahe
c) sayang 100
eto pa
d) ewan ko... enjoy pa ko sa crush ko eh... ayoko muna sha palitan.

dibale next time pag desperada na talaga ako.

parang gusto ko tuloy mag-arcade at magracing na lang... mas enjoy yun.
gusto ko ulit tuloy mag EK! yeheeeey.