a missing sense of urgency

@ early morning i went to my PE class! more so... we were already taught how to tread on deep water! yeheey! and also, we were required to jump on two of the diving boards! one low and the other relatively higher... now that's coooool!

it was my first time to jump on a diving board!!! and the best part of it was... i didn't drown! yeah! i never thought it would be quite easy to survive in deep waters... unless there's something below... >___>;

the high driving board was the scariest part though (well, everyone should agree) so i gathered up all my courage and jumped without hesitation because if i panic, wouldn't get enough air... waaaah. funfunfun!!!!

@ mam boncocan is really considerate. i admit i've been really negligent of my GE subjects... especially her class... that i haven't even submitted my waiver and fee for the upcoming felid trip this saturday. good Lord i have spare time that day so i was able to get a photocopy of the waiver at her pigeonhole, rush to the dorm to get my sister/guardian's signature, and rush back in time to deliver the paper and money. unfortunately she has a class so i just stuck a note at her desk and left. whew. i hope she gets it. :)

@ haaaay, and right now i have a responsiblity to go back and study because i have two exams this thursday... chem40 and hist2... and God knows how much progress i'm doing.

it sucks not to have that positive sense of urgency on things that need to be put on high priority - i'm talking about my acads.

i'm afraid i'm wallowing too much on my thirst for a lovelife and those petty taiwanese series on youtube that i'm spending a generous amount of money satisfying my unecessary crave for subtitled dramas.

i wish i had better habits.
now it's really up to me working on it.

org issues >__>;

i guess you're unlucky to ever stumble upon this entry. for two reasons:

a) if you're not my brod/sis, you won't understand a single thing below
b) but if you are, you might hate me forever for ever publishing this (esp. if you're part of the newest batch)


now i don't really feel like discussing it here because it seems inapropriate but since i wasn't able to express it to the public (which i don't really intend to), i gather it's better to blurt it out here.

whew. we're undergoing a lot of changes. while i think they're for the better (the bulk is on disciplinary action), i still think there has to be a little space for consideration.

♠ the new DA - can we just start counting taras for the physical DA after it's first implementation? so that it would be fair to those who are already in DA... err... what if you were already in DA and all you know is that for you to get out of your blasted status you have to attend, say, 5 major activities consecutively, so you prepared for that... then suddenly they changed the law and said that we'll paddle you instead and you're good... that's kinda harsh. >___>;

that's my only concern though.
most of the issues raised were resolved through speech (i dunno what will happen next). and i agree to most of them.

especially the batch clustering inside the org.
hahaha, our batch (equilibria - comprised of 3) isn't really part of this mess but i still feel the tension regarding this issue.

i seriously think grephein is too much.
not just in number, but also in this kind of air they give me... which is not good.
maybe i think they're too proud... or too involved with their batch that i think they should start a new org... or better yet resolve this issue.

i know this came off in an offensive manner, i'm too, for a lack of an english term, 'badtrip'.

i hate generalizing because it'll end in a rusty typecast that people will hate. >_>;

maybe all we need is to bond.
maybe new members also need to respect that 04 is two years older than 06 and three years older than 07.

i look up a lot to the 04's because i think they're the greatest batch that ever graced my existence, and with the addition of one batch i don't want them to think that's, 'now it's all about them. let's leave it here'. wtdfck.

and rey, you were wrong when you said naiingit ang charter.
you were so wrong for ever putting that up.
can't you scale down your comments for respect's sake?

what. i have nothing against you.

ayoko lang ng mga tipong, kabago-bago.. pumapapel na.

now i know the feeling of hating someone new who entered your circle just to change things. i hate it that when someone new enters the scene, he does everything to change things for the better... NOT MINDING the current administration. i think if you're still new, just be there to observe and do whatever is asked of your assistance... don't fckng tell people around that the problem in this org is THIS AND THAT.

i tell you bro, YOU HAVE NO IDEA.
just sit still, because time will come and you will start your reign as the senior of the organization. don't rush things up because it's becoming disrespectful (esp to those who are in charge).

now, that's a different issue.
no questions allowed.

sedated

i've been sleeping all day. >_>;;
not literally but i sleep anytime i get the cance to... even in the church. waaah.

so yesterday, my life is all about 2 freakin hospital trips. early morning we went to delos santos hospital to get a check-up regarding my alleged pneumonia and allergies... i sorta don't trust the people there because we weren't referred to a specialist, instead they just did their thing in a special clinic with different doctors... and i thought having a card gives you instant access to a reliable specialist. wtdhl.

so the nurse checked me out first, then referred me to this doctor, then to an EENT doctor and finally to an orthopedist...

the EENT doctor confirmed my allergies and gave me a prescription... after which i asked where could the chest pain possibly come from because i myself couldn't figure out how it could be a symptom of pneumonia when i didn't have a fever (the last fever i had is because of UTI) and cough... only colds which is in a form of allergy. know what he said... "baka lovelife?" man, i could only smile at his thorough analysis.

oh, the prescription he gave me is a anti-allergy which is also a sedative, that's why i get a lot of naps this day... >_>;

after that the orthopedist gave me and my dad an anti-pneumonia vaccine.
i also had to repeat my urine test because we weren't able to follow-up last month ago...

and because the urinalysis result isn't available til 3pm and the doctor we were referred to will leave at 3, we decided to just go to my original pediatrician and hopefully get a sound second opinion... especially about my chest pain...

so after getting the lab result we went to capitol medical center for dr. magnaye. :)
i missed him! it was kinda embarassing on my part to still consult a pediatrician when i'm already 17 years old. most of the patients there were 10 below and it was really weird to see an adult-looking teenager wait for a pedia. however, i was delighted to see my doctor again. the last time i went to him was when i was 10! :) he did change, but i see it's for the better. now he looked like Tirso Cruz III to me! wahaha

he asked about my allergies, my fever last christmas, my xray result and tried to relate it to my chest pain. nothing seems to connect, he even mentioned that my case is quite "unusual".

now i believe the EENT doctor.
it's really weird.

but at least i can drop off the impression that is has something to do with the heart! yey.

oh he also mentioned I'M OVERWEIGHT by 10kgs. >___>;

that's why i'm going to start watching my food intake from now on.
now let's hope i make progress with this... because you see this is not the first time i vowed on this issue.

wtdfck

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!

apparently, i didn't attend 2 out of my 3 classes this day... well, it's not really a big deal since they're just PE and a boring GE subject... but then how many times have i done this before?

srsly, i can't count them on my fingers.
i've probably exhausted all my permitted absences already so there's no room for any more laziness... >___>;

i don't even think i'd be granted a permit to transfer to diliman with this kind of record. wtdfck.

oh by the way, i am recomended for counseling by our college because of my current academic standing. hehe, nobody pays attention to it anyway... CEAT has a lot of probies... including me.

bwaha.
i have another exam tomorrow! it's our first theoretical lab exam in microbiology.
bores me big time! hlysht!

I'VE FINISHED WATCHING DEVIL BESIDE YOU!!! :)
comment: what a cliffhanger!!

NEXT IN LINE: WHY WHY LOVE
-practically the same cast but whatever... we'll see!

i missed astra :)

ok from now on... i'm going to resume my internet browsing here... i was only lured to spacehub because they have a 20/hr charge for members... and here i pay the regular 25/hr even though i am a member.

anyway... i still think it's better here. the aircon is on all day... the place is comfy... no games! meaning no noisy little schoolboys crowding around on a single node! and wait! somethings have changed! all the PC hubs have flatscreen monitors! yeah! last time i checked they still have those big monitors (which isn't a bad thing actually, except that they take up a lot of space) and there are just a few tables with flatscreen on it! they really made great improvement... not bad for 25. ^___^;

actually guys, i have an exam tomorrow at 10am... i know i have a lot to study/memorize but you know me... i'm being the usual mistress of procastination... nothing goes first than satisfying my internet craves... which technically isn't something to be put on high priority. >_>;

someone spank me... >___>;

i'm been really negligent lately. i think yesterday... i only attended one and a half worth of classes just because i'm too sleepy to rise up at 9 (!!!!) and to lazy to go to my 2:30 class (!!!). gosh, i don't know what's up with me! i'm not naturally dumb... though this university is effectively making me think otherwise. i firmly believe that up to now, i can still score an above average IQ... but you see, i think the lowest kind of people here are those with above average IQ... wtf roight?

oh yeah, i remember now. the reason why i still attend my hum1 class which is scheduled at an equally annoying timeslot (11:30-1) -imagine the heat! jeep is not practical too!- would be because i love the thought provoking discussions and yeah, i have a crush on a classmate.

oh, for once... i want to get called for recitation (because i feel like i have something sensible to share)! i feel like my class number (22) is invisible and slips right through one's consciousness even on a roll call. i don't even think our teacher recognizes me as his student because last time he checked, my class index card isn't with him. hahaha

even so, i'm ok with it. :) at least i have a crush. ♥

it's almost valentines.
someone give me a flower or a box of chocolates! -a desperate's plea for a freakin lovelife-

wait! i was just chatting with lau awhile ago... asking for advice on transferring... thank goodness i learned something...
prepare for the CEAT panel interview. >__>;
and if all else fails... appeal to the assistant dean, because she/he's the kindest.

an asteroid to hit earth this 2019?

the news says so - Space Rock 'on collision course'

i'd probably be 29 or 30 by then... mehn, i don't want to die that early! >_>; i don't think i'd be married even!

whatever happens, it's up to God to decide... scientists say the risk of diverting the direction the threatening object is low... and when it does rocket down to earth, it might cause a whole continent to disappear! what a scary forecast... and to think that it's still a decade or so away makes it even more worrisome! imagine, we have predicted a cause for the world to end 11 years early!

i don't really think it's early you know. some people believe that we should start looking for a better place to preserve the human race... in this case, we should all hop on to mars and build a whole new community.

is that even possible?
it's a dead planet! if there were any sort of organism living there it would be some unknown hybrid of a protozoa... i wouldn't even bet on the chance of us prolonging our lifeline for a year!

unless God makes another living planet out of the blast.

i mean, what if...
because of that asteroid... the earth will die and explode... and because of that explosion... it would affect the other planets peacefully orbiting the sun?
could it be possible that another living planet will be me made?

what if, the Earth is not really the first ever living planet? what if before us is another living planet... who died because of some threatening space object?

and the people who lived there also believed in a God who favored their race the most. tapos, it became so corrupted with evil that God decided to sweep it off and just create a new world...? parang eto lng din?

but then, if he's really God... he would never commit the same mistake again. ok so i'm off them.

eh wla lang.

GO AChES FIGHT!!!!

laban namin kanina with schemes!

hahaha nakakatuwa... actually gusto ko talaga magka-riot... wala lang... para lang maka-witness na kung ano... hahaha... pero wala eh... 2 times na sanang muntik magka-ramble (basket & softball) pero whatever... hahaha

ayon. shempre... super hiritan! nakakainis... nakakakulo ng dugo. personalan na eh... garapal pa maglaro sa basket... pero dibale. masaya naman... nakuha namin ang huling halakhak dahil naipanalo namin ang last game which is softball... hehehe first win pa... hahahaha

ng sarap magcheer para sa AChES!!!! haha napaos ako sa kakasigaw! ang daming red baloons!!! grabe pumasok ako sa baker naka orgshirt na violet... hahaha malay ko ba na violet team color ng kalaban? buti na lang nabigay na jersey ko nagpalit agad ako... hehehe

pero eto mas masaya
officiating ang SELES ♥
hahaha