why, i missed reading fanfics

it seems like i'm not reading a lot like i used to anymore. the last time i read was because i'm required to for an exam. i hardly get a decent dose of 'good reads' ever since the sem began... and you know what, i think i've already stopped reading fanfics.

i think i'm gradually losing touch with one of my favorite hobbies, fanfic reading. i've also stopped writing... i'm on a long-term fanfic-writing hiatus... and even though the plot bunnies are working overtime on various plots... i don't get motivated enough to type it down. i've lost the will to write... so to speak.

and harry potter is slowly exiting my brain too. guess what? i didn't go crazy over not watching the 5th installment. apparently, my being a fangirl is also starting to fade. i'm not much into harryXdraco anymore (though the idea of homo pairings still interest me a bit).

coffee prince is my current obsession, but now that i've finished the series and was given a bad cliffhanger... i guess i'll just forget it sometime. worse is, the possiblity of a coffee prince 2 is sorta vague because the actor of choi han kyul just signed up for military... =( unless they wanna do another coffee prince with an entirely different story... that could be fine but i want to stick with a cute crossdresser. >_>;

i won't be going to school on monday because i need to go on a check up... have someone interpret my chest xray and ECG findings... it's weird not to know whether you have a lung or a heart problem... or both.

by all means i'm still swimming for the org... but to cheer? i'm not sure about that. i think i'll quit... they should understand. i hope so... i think they would... they're really considerate. ♥ i love AChES.

warning: crap ahead

life's been pretty boring lately. seriously, i haven't studied 'seriously' ever since the sem started. ask my dormates... i hardly go to the desk to flip my notebook for some homework. i don't do my homeworks... unless they needed to be passed. i get lazy over the idea of studying organic chemistry again... i was never rightly motivated. i don't study for a quiz... i just pray over it.

i dunno, do i need a boyfriend? hahaha
everybody has one nowadays... and i just dreamt of being hugged and kissed on the forehead by a friend whom i don't have feelings for...
but when i think about it i sigh... it feels good to be hugged and kissed on the forehead (for real)... it seemed so warm and innocent. whatadream.

koreanovelas have this thing about getting the best lovelife when you're already in your late 20's. i think they have a point there, you have to mature first... land a job and get stable. yeah. but filipinos mature easily, what with the poverty and repressed emotions? >_>; whatev. i'm talking crap here.

koreanovelas make me feel fluttery but it also makes me feel frustrated... should i wait till i'm already 30 years old to get that kind of romance? hahaha...

a good decision may be to disconnect from the internet, shut this computer down and go upstairs to study.

heck, we're having our first long exam on chem40 next week.
imagine, it's 2 months past the start of the second sem and we're just at our first exam???

kay, braincells???? let's work hard this year!
i wish you weren't exposed to too much ninhydrin last week. i really need your help this time. ♥

seriously... T_T;

i'm getting tired of hospital trips... the last last time i went there was because i got confined with UTI. And now, i mean yesterday, i was brought to the hospital again and was given an impression of pneumonia and enlargement of the heart. and all the while i thought this tightness that i feel around my right chest is just heartburn! i even took a lot of kremil-s and zantac!!! >__>;

now i'm medicating on a pain reliever, a flu tablet, and an antibiotic.
i just hope it's not something critical... for all i know pneumonia can be treated... and the elargement of the heart is just a manifestation of the viral infection i acquired. the doctor says, the heart resorts to enlarge itself to be able to pump in more blood so that we can breathe better. it's most common in althetes, because of their activities their hearts have to work extra hard with pumping blood so they get bigger... it's a good thing in this case yknow. however i don't think i'm athletic enough to grow my heart bigger...>__> which means mine's purely viral. yeah, that's it. i can hardly breathe properly these days and my back hurts too... sleeping on a chair is a damn bad idea. but then lying down could be worse... >__>;

oh, i just finished watching Coffee Prince!! ♥ wonderful, really. i enjoyed it! ♥ makes me more frustrated!!!

a bar of chocolate would definitely make my day. ♥

kremil-s, you do the job

hindi ko na talaga kaya.
ganito na lang ba magwawakas ang buhay ko?
>__<;

inatake nanaman ako. actually nung friday pa to. so 6 days na akong ganito... second time kong atakahin ng umabot ng halos isang linggo... nung una, sobrang unbearable hindi ako makatulog, iyak pa ko ng iyak so lalong naninikip ang dibdib ko...

nung 2nd time na nangyari... mejo tolerable na sya. pero andun parin yung sakit... takot akong humikab kasi kailangan huminga ng malalim e sumisikip pag ganun... i also supress my sneezes and coughs kasi nga masakit s dibdib!! grrr...

pero just awhile ago... mg mag aalas-tres ng umaga.. nagising ko sa sobrang sakit! hindi ko talaga kaya... sobrang LOOOOOORRRRDDD!! SORRY NA SA MGA NAISIP KONG KABABALAGHAN!!!! feeling ko pinaparusahan nyo... 3am ba naman kasi.

umupo na lang ako kasi sobrang hindi na ko makahinga ng maayos. shempre iyak parin ako ng iyak... so natulog na lang ako ng nakaupo kasi hirap na ko huminga pag nakahiga. sobrang sakit, grabe...

hindi ko lumangoy kanina... masakit parin eh... yan tuloy... nagka-utang pa ako ng 20 laps na freestyle... pool length pa! >_<;

so ayun... bili ulit kremil-s... baka maresolbahan kahit pano... pero masakit prin eh... pano kaya ako matutulog... pano kaya ko magppractis sa cheering? gusto ko magpaexcuse kasi nakakahiya pero haaaaay. :(

dpat punta ako ospital kaso luma pala yung health card na dala ko. kainis.

ayoko pa pumasok sa hist2. di ko p kaya. huhuhuhu

sana hindi ito GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease), chronic heartburn o heart attack diba?

though i doubt it's anything milder. >___>

Lord, help me.

romance novel idea #349

a random number which implies that i've been through tons of novel ideas but never really got the chance to write them down or even complete the story in my mind...

so here, i'm going to write down my most recent romance novel idea...
one day -that's when i get my own laptop, a sponsor and a vocational course on writing- i'm going to write this.

so for the meantime... just try to understand the craziness of the plot.

STANDARD DISCLAIMER APPLY:
meaning, everything stated below (or technically, everything in here) IS MINE -unless otherwise stated. i take pure custody of my written thoughts.

please, no matter how crappy my ideas may seem... DON'T STEAL. it could mean the death of an author.


title: i haven't relly thought of it...
outline: heeeeeer ya gow!

♠ so there's a main character, for the meantime let's call him John.
♠ John is an undergraduate in a prestigious university undergoing his thesis research.
♠ blah blah blah, he met a girl we shall call (for the meantime) Sarah.
♠ so Sarah is also a student and a part time waitress at a decent bar.
♠ blah blah blah, they fell in love! oh the cliche...
♠ so they engaged in a relationship... a happy, weird and romantic one.. because John is kinda geeky and has really weird antics... blaaaaah

♠ but something quite unfortunate happened. John was diagnosed to have this severe psychological illness (wait till i get a good research, k?) in which he often experiences delusions.
♠ and sad to say, Sarah is part of this delusion.
♠ so the conflict here is whether he should get himself cured and totally eliminate Sarah from his mind, or get the proper medication and start a new life... without Sarah of course.
♠ so you know the drill, since John is so in love, he couldn't get his mind to decide properly. he's even accusing the doctor of false analysis...
♠ so he's confused. he doesn't know who's real.
♠ is it his friends who brought him to the hospital (because they're wondering why he's always talking to himself and even introduced an invisible girl named Sarah to them) and the doctor who said he's mentally ill?
♠ or is it Sarah, his friend, his lover, the most special person in his life?

well, i gotta leave it here... but rest assured everything has been thought out already! hurray for a romance novel idea! hahahaha

ang weird diba... hehehe

coffee prince again... ♥

i'm watching coffee prince streaming media at mysoju right now... i sorta grabbed the chance to watch it here in los banos because you know how fucked up the internet connection is at our place... :)

anyhow... i'm only 2 episodes ahead... huhuhu. i can't wait to watch the whole thing!!! bwahahaha... seriously, i sooo like Go Eun Chan's character in the series!!! cross-dressers are cool! i've come to realize...

more so... earlier this morning i went to watch our softball game with SELES, i didn't get to play even though deep inside i'd like to try. i really lack self-esteem you know. and i lack a lot...

which is why i realized something awhile ago... being timid wouldn't get you anywhere. i mean, it takes courage to try something new and it also takes courage to battle the fear of making yourself look like an idiot in front of everyone. i sometimes think if i'm still going to swim. heck i'm too shy to wear a swimsuit... and i'm also afraid of competing... i always think these people are way better than i am.

you got it. inferiority complex.

waiting for streaming media to download T_T

i'm back in los banos! quite a nice day i guess... i got here at 930am and decided not to attent my first class at 10, which is history2. the primary reason would be because i didn't read her assigned reading and i have this feeling that of all my classmates, i am the one who is most obliged to do so... because i was the one who dissipated the homework info in the first place. >_>; arggh... >__>;

but you know, i attended my next class which is es10a - 1pm. thing is, only a few of us came so we sort of boycotted the class. according to the university rule, we shall wait for an hour before we leave but i guess because most of my classmates are impatient jerks, i just followed and left the classroom as well. i wouldn't want to look like i'm so following the rules... even though deep inside, i would like to wait. those jerks...

♥ COFFEE PRINCE ♥
kumare just bought a DVD and is doing a marathon of the series already! she promised to lend me the disc next week!!! I'M FREAKIN EXCITED!!!!! yeheeeeey!!!
i have a crush on andy!!!! :D hehehe, yeah, i like him (or her) more than the leading guy!!!

the series is perfect! (at least for me!) i love coffee and well, the whole homosexual theme is so new (in live action form) that's why it made an incredible pilot episode... hahaha well... you know me. :)

haaay, i'm so excited to watch Coffee Prince again.

♠CRAP♠

school again tomorrow... much worse they're lab meetings! uggggh..T_T and as much as i'd like to go home already for the weekend... I CAN'T! because i volunteered to play on our softball game against SELES this saturday. waaaaaaahhhh...

but the thing is... i've been having PMS already and i bet it'll come out anytime soon!! i just hope it's not on saturday because usually, my first day is the crappiest of the seven days of bloody hell i go through every month. the earlier the better... like, could it be now?

grrr... >__>;

07 confessions

(X) stayed single for the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
( ) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
( ) made-out inside a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
(X) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
(X) suffered through teenage heartbreak
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) got pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) dated someone you'll never forget.
(X) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love #i noticed, 2007 is not a romantic year for me
( ) kissed under mistletoe WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
(X) waited until one day before to begin a project
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker/schoolmate
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) took an honors/advanced class
( ) broke the dress code
( ) jacked off/fingered in class
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
( ) got straight A's
(X) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
(X) failed a class #correction: CLASSES
(X) cut class #like anyone would in a boring class
( ) kicked someone in the testes
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(X) did something you were proud of
(X) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(X) proved yourself an idiot #sometimes
( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class #i'm too reserved for this. haha
(X) fell in love with a teacher [ crush lang naman. haha. :D love it! :D ]
( ) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made the varsity team
(X) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER
( ) painted a picture #i drew a lot but i never painted this year
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) seen a live concert
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
(X) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) went to a surprise party
(X) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly #i don't have such skills emsorry.
(X) didnt wash your hands after using bathroom #haha
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) broke in a line of waiting people
(X) volunteered to help out others
( ) visited a new state
(X) told someone you were busy when you werent. #i don't want unsolicited attention
(X) partied to celebrate the new year #like usual
( ) cooked a disastrous meal #i cook well, y'know
( ) drove the car drunk
( ) lost something important to you
( ) smoked a whole cigarette stick
(X) lied about how old you were #it's a matter of life and death
(X) got a gift you adore
( ) got 'sh!t faced' on alcohol
( ) took a nude picture of yourself
( ) almost got arrested
( ) prank called someone
( ) saw a college basketball game in person

taken from: anne :)
honestly, these are very subtle confessions.. hehehe