romance novel idea #349

a random number which implies that i've been through tons of novel ideas but never really got the chance to write them down or even complete the story in my mind...

so here, i'm going to write down my most recent romance novel idea...
one day -that's when i get my own laptop, a sponsor and a vocational course on writing- i'm going to write this.

so for the meantime... just try to understand the craziness of the plot.

STANDARD DISCLAIMER APPLY:
meaning, everything stated below (or technically, everything in here) IS MINE -unless otherwise stated. i take pure custody of my written thoughts.

please, no matter how crappy my ideas may seem... DON'T STEAL. it could mean the death of an author.


title: i haven't relly thought of it...
outline: heeeeeer ya gow!

♠ so there's a main character, for the meantime let's call him John.
♠ John is an undergraduate in a prestigious university undergoing his thesis research.
♠ blah blah blah, he met a girl we shall call (for the meantime) Sarah.
♠ so Sarah is also a student and a part time waitress at a decent bar.
♠ blah blah blah, they fell in love! oh the cliche...
♠ so they engaged in a relationship... a happy, weird and romantic one.. because John is kinda geeky and has really weird antics... blaaaaah

♠ but something quite unfortunate happened. John was diagnosed to have this severe psychological illness (wait till i get a good research, k?) in which he often experiences delusions.
♠ and sad to say, Sarah is part of this delusion.
♠ so the conflict here is whether he should get himself cured and totally eliminate Sarah from his mind, or get the proper medication and start a new life... without Sarah of course.
♠ so you know the drill, since John is so in love, he couldn't get his mind to decide properly. he's even accusing the doctor of false analysis...
♠ so he's confused. he doesn't know who's real.
♠ is it his friends who brought him to the hospital (because they're wondering why he's always talking to himself and even introduced an invisible girl named Sarah to them) and the doctor who said he's mentally ill?
♠ or is it Sarah, his friend, his lover, the most special person in his life?

well, i gotta leave it here... but rest assured everything has been thought out already! hurray for a romance novel idea! hahahaha

ang weird diba... hehehe

coffee prince again... ♥

i'm watching coffee prince streaming media at mysoju right now... i sorta grabbed the chance to watch it here in los banos because you know how fucked up the internet connection is at our place... :)

anyhow... i'm only 2 episodes ahead... huhuhu. i can't wait to watch the whole thing!!! bwahahaha... seriously, i sooo like Go Eun Chan's character in the series!!! cross-dressers are cool! i've come to realize...

more so... earlier this morning i went to watch our softball game with SELES, i didn't get to play even though deep inside i'd like to try. i really lack self-esteem you know. and i lack a lot...

which is why i realized something awhile ago... being timid wouldn't get you anywhere. i mean, it takes courage to try something new and it also takes courage to battle the fear of making yourself look like an idiot in front of everyone. i sometimes think if i'm still going to swim. heck i'm too shy to wear a swimsuit... and i'm also afraid of competing... i always think these people are way better than i am.

you got it. inferiority complex.

waiting for streaming media to download T_T

i'm back in los banos! quite a nice day i guess... i got here at 930am and decided not to attent my first class at 10, which is history2. the primary reason would be because i didn't read her assigned reading and i have this feeling that of all my classmates, i am the one who is most obliged to do so... because i was the one who dissipated the homework info in the first place. >_>; arggh... >__>;

but you know, i attended my next class which is es10a - 1pm. thing is, only a few of us came so we sort of boycotted the class. according to the university rule, we shall wait for an hour before we leave but i guess because most of my classmates are impatient jerks, i just followed and left the classroom as well. i wouldn't want to look like i'm so following the rules... even though deep inside, i would like to wait. those jerks...

♥ COFFEE PRINCE ♥
kumare just bought a DVD and is doing a marathon of the series already! she promised to lend me the disc next week!!! I'M FREAKIN EXCITED!!!!! yeheeeeey!!!
i have a crush on andy!!!! :D hehehe, yeah, i like him (or her) more than the leading guy!!!

the series is perfect! (at least for me!) i love coffee and well, the whole homosexual theme is so new (in live action form) that's why it made an incredible pilot episode... hahaha well... you know me. :)

haaay, i'm so excited to watch Coffee Prince again.

♠CRAP♠

school again tomorrow... much worse they're lab meetings! uggggh..T_T and as much as i'd like to go home already for the weekend... I CAN'T! because i volunteered to play on our softball game against SELES this saturday. waaaaaaahhhh...

but the thing is... i've been having PMS already and i bet it'll come out anytime soon!! i just hope it's not on saturday because usually, my first day is the crappiest of the seven days of bloody hell i go through every month. the earlier the better... like, could it be now?

grrr... >__>;

07 confessions

(X) stayed single for the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
( ) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
( ) made-out inside a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
(X) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
(X) suffered through teenage heartbreak
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) got pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) dated someone you'll never forget.
(X) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love #i noticed, 2007 is not a romantic year for me
( ) kissed under mistletoe WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
(X) waited until one day before to begin a project
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker/schoolmate
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) took an honors/advanced class
( ) broke the dress code
( ) jacked off/fingered in class
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
( ) got straight A's
(X) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
(X) failed a class #correction: CLASSES
(X) cut class #like anyone would in a boring class
( ) kicked someone in the testes
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(X) did something you were proud of
(X) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(X) proved yourself an idiot #sometimes
( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class #i'm too reserved for this. haha
(X) fell in love with a teacher [ crush lang naman. haha. :D love it! :D ]
( ) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made the varsity team
(X) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER
( ) painted a picture #i drew a lot but i never painted this year
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) seen a live concert
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
(X) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) went to a surprise party
(X) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly #i don't have such skills emsorry.
(X) didnt wash your hands after using bathroom #haha
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) broke in a line of waiting people
(X) volunteered to help out others
( ) visited a new state
(X) told someone you were busy when you werent. #i don't want unsolicited attention
(X) partied to celebrate the new year #like usual
( ) cooked a disastrous meal #i cook well, y'know
( ) drove the car drunk
( ) lost something important to you
( ) smoked a whole cigarette stick
(X) lied about how old you were #it's a matter of life and death
(X) got a gift you adore
( ) got 'sh!t faced' on alcohol
( ) took a nude picture of yourself
( ) almost got arrested
( ) prank called someone
( ) saw a college basketball game in person

taken from: anne :)
honestly, these are very subtle confessions.. hehehe

a happy new year to everyone!

yeah it'll be 2008 in exactly 4 hours.

honestly, i think time flew by so fast. i could still clearly recall what happened last new year's eve. per usual i spent it with my family, here in our house, at the rooftop... without any fireworks whatsoever... it has been a tradition for us not to purchase anything that will be displayed in the sky although it's quite a sad thing because i could just imagine us throwing fireworks on the rooftop!!! everyones' eyes would be on our house! on that spot where the highest fireworks are sparkling at the midnight sky. it would be a most pleasant view. too bad...

but then again, showing off fireworks on our rooftop is just the second best thing we could enjoy this eve... the first and best would still be the fact that we have the best view in the whole subdivision when it comes to the night sky! i could go stargazing everyday (provided it isn't raining/cloudy)! and yeah, we could watch the fireworks without the annoying cables and electric posts... and trees too.

i'm not really fond of doing resolutions y'know... i'm more a wishlist type of girl. hahaha and later, my sister and i agreed to create a new 101 wishlist before midnight then we'll pray it over with our family.

it's all about getting closer to God now.

i missed talking to him. i can't believe how far i've drawn myself away from him over the past year. maybe that's why i've been trekking a downhill path ever since i entered college, ever since i let the academic pressure take over my dire life. i thought my being a warrior last last summer, my life of everyday prayer, is enough to arm me throughout my life in los banos. i thought that when you prayed a lot tonight, it will bring you enough blessings to last you for a week.

i thought i could just easily pass on a prayer and still be blessed for a week or so.
but the truth is, i have always been blessed, even during the times i don't pray. He is so generous about blessings that i guess one of the advantages of praying is that it gives us more appreciation to the blessings He has bestowed upon us.

prayer arms us with an extraordinary kind of perspective that let's you see only the good things in the world. without it, all the blessings that has always been there for you will be masked for hiding. and you'll think that all that there is in this world is a pile of misfortune and an unbearable amount of mischief and poverty.

whew. it was never a smooth year for us... i mean, every year isn't as smooth as what we prayed it to be. but it's damn unforgiveable if we stop praying with just that. hah. >_>

okok, i'll pray. it's so hard to bring back my childhood motivation about praying. back then i used to pray out loud because that's how my parents taught me and that's how we do it in sunday school. but now, huhuhuhu, i can't even sit straight in prayer without sleeping. everytime i do an indian sit on the prayer room and clasp my hands in prayer, i always end up sticking it on my forehead for support, then goes the obvious... zzzzz.

>___>

here goes another wishlist!

# a set of multicolored pens from steadtler. i guess a set would cost around 600-700php. hehehe
# new rubber shoes. haha always in my wishlist!
# money would still be #1
# a few cute earrings and lots of pakaw. haha
# multicolored metallic pens.
# markers, multicolored too. hehehe
# bond papers
# lots of oslo paper

haha, i'm asking for a lot of art materials.
oh, an immaterial wish would be

# to transfer to upd fine arts next AY.
whew. rakenrol!

Fuego!

it's Rizal day!
but more importantly (yeah, i guess so because i don't really have that much patriotism in me to go on a pilgrimage this day) it's my wuvies Martha and Carla's Birthday!!! yeah beybeh!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATHA AND CARLA!!!!! ♥

oh, i'm so sorry for putting our national hero aside but we don't usually celebrate this day like other traditionalists do... at least i know what this day is worth... :)

i still admire you Rizal. i just hope it goes about changing the Philippines that way.

change topic my friends! you see, i love my country but at present i think i'm still more of a liability than an asset! wait till i get a job and perhaps that's when i can seriously prioritize some of my socio-economic plans to help our nation! bwahaha

i watched kid nation awhile ago and was caught by Alex! he's so cute! and he won a Gold Star! yeah!! :D

hope he wins!

oh, it's almost new year

to tell you honestly, i'm bored.

the last christmas party i attended was back with my dormmates (the 19th, if i could remember correctly)... if you'd still like to count the org party then sure, but since it's just on the same day and all i ever did there was drink and play cards.... fine, i'll include that.

but it doesn't change this... err... loneliness that i feel. not exactly lonely like emo-lonely, it's more like the lack of parties attended this season that made me feel bad.

i'm not really a party-girl, heck i just want to be around the people i love (luuuuurve) this season and this pretty blasted sickness robbed me of that opportunity. i was supposed to go partying with my friends last wednesday, it's a xmas-slash-carla-and-martha's birthday party all rolled into one event. i cannot afford not to attend that. then again, i just got discharged from the hospital and it's not adviseable to go wasting my life for the nth time.

am i really wasting myself partying?
oh, best answer would be NO. it's not like i do it everyday. hahaha, the season just calls for it! big DUH. christmas is spelled party backwards... including new year!!

I WANT GIFTS!!! huhuhuhu

new year new year, according to feng shui, the year of the Rat will be full of misfortunes for people born under the Horse!!! wenkwenk.

the least i could do is ignore it...
and perhaps purchase a relatively strong lucky charm... err..

i'm chatting to vrey right now. all about shifting... hmmm... i'm not worrying anymore about the requirements of the CFA (college of fine arts) in diliman because i think i'd be able to handle it... whew, what i'm worrying about is my current college's attitude towards transferees/shiftees!! they hardly let anyone shift out! wtf.

anyway, it's all up to you, dear Lord. :)

i miss going to the mall! hahahaha :D

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKA!!!! =)