insights, confusion, wishlist

@ i have another exam tomorrow. haven't started studying yet. time check: 9:45PM. napaka unproductive.

@ wala nanaman akong $$$$$$. i just bought gifts for my dormmates awhile ago. naaadik nanaman ako sa dvd. grabe. >___>

@ CONFUSED nanaman ako. what's hindering me from making up my mind about shifting? clearly, the taunting procedures posted at the ceat building should be of no importance if i am really determined to shift out of this blasted course.

@ I WANT TO TAKE FINE ARTS, major in ADVERTISING. visual communication interest me a lot. what's happening now is tinitiis ko lang yung course ko. sorry, i wasn't born with the right genes fit for an engineer. i personally honed my mind to work better in the abstract world. technicalities annoy me. i am more inclined with the relative and the subjective. the truth that i search for is unknown and i'm enjoying pondering on that field.

@ I HAVE TO MAKE UP MY MIND. evertime i think of shifting out, i feel saaaaad. parang ayokong iwan ang UPLB. napamahal na kasi ako dito. i don't want to leave my friends, my DORMATES, THE ORG (believe if or not, it's the only reason why i'm proud to say i'm taking up chemical engineering)... huhuhu super mamimiss ko lahat ng yan.

@ it was a mistake to tie so much bonds with this place, it only makes my departure harder to accept. >__>;

@ i'm not sure if i'll ever make it big in the real world. there's so much competition involved. so much crap and trash-talking. parang it's not practical to stay 'good' when the world dictates that it takes an ounce of immorality to succeed. one can never reach the peak of his carreer without a single person harmed. it is impossible to cater to your fellowmen's need with a selfish motive.

@ i missed writing. i seriously think i need to attend workshops to enrich whatever is left of my writing skills. i'm thinking of joining another org, UPLB Pantas. i just want to get access to workshops... that's all.

@ i want to have a laptop na! super naiinip na ako! for sure, i'm going to have more writing time when i get one. :)

@ nafa-fascinate ako sa es-991 calculator ng casio.

@ i can't feel Christmas!!! grabe.

for my wishlist

# DVD ng Coffee Prince (korean series) with english subtitles
# DVD ng Gravitation (anime series)
# a Hello Kitty Pillow
# Red low rise Chuck's.
# a pack of starr candy (previously stork, yung green..)
# chocolates (safari, anything imported... ferrero! ♥)
# lots of shirts! statement shirts... :)
# pants
# slippers
# something from The TShirt Factory or Spoof (ung starbucks and tag heuer spoof)
# a cute analogue watch. yung hindi metal... :)
# a feng shui bracelet.
# gift check from starbucks
# metallic pens (my metal: pink, blue, silver, purple)
# MONEY!

ang wierd talaga!!!!

@una sa lahat. hindi ko ma-explain ang nararamdaman ko, langya talaga. LORD! help!

@i saw more than 10 shooting stars last friday! amazing diba?!?!? may meteor rain daw kasi! so my dormmates and i went out to watch, we were planning to watch it at freedom park kaso sarado na raymundo gate, ayoko mag-effort pumunta dun... haha delikado na. ayun, masaya grabe! kahit na super sakit sa leeg hahaha at ang epal ng mga poste at kable ng kuryente... panira ng view!! hahahahahahahahaaa

@07-B FINALS! congrats Grephein! (sorry, di ako sure sa spelling!) yehey! no more bitterness for me. :) it's fun to have a lot of members. hahaha

@wenk. may exam ako bukas at sa tuesday. maya na lang ako mag-aaral. napaka tamad talaga.

@wenkwenk. 1000 hits nanaman. sana gawing 10,000 ng histats ung database bandwidth nila! haha, uhm, i'm not expecting anyone to relate with this. hehehe

@hmmm... BARKADA XMAS PARTY!!!! sa 26 na! bahay namin! excited nako!!! which reminds me, WALA NANAMAN AKONG PERAAAAA!!! at wala pa akong gift para sa mga tao... huhuhuhuhuhu...

@hopeless romantic: mga wish ko sa mga shooting star... "may exam ako next week!!" (err, di pala to wish no.. statement lang) "gwapong manliligaw!" haha ang choosy!!! sabi nga nila, ang mga katulad kong naghahanap ng may-itsura, mga bingot at nakikita. >___>;; LORD! help!

@ehem. bakit minsan, sa kalagitnaan ng pagsasagot ng mga friendster survey, tinatamad ako at hindi ko na tinutuloy kasi feeling ko... weh, corny na. wag na nga. hahaha.

@err, may bago akong crush. eto super di ko pinagsasabi. kahit na kay kat! (na nakakaalam ng halos lahat ng crush ko)... sorry. hahahaha

@nag simbang madaling araw kami kanina! hehehe, malaking sakripisyo ito! i mean, first of all, hindi ako katoliko pero i don't mind attending misa de gallo. in fact, nag-communion ako kanina. wala lang, namiss ko lang yung ostia (??). first time ko rin mag puto bung-bong! tapos nakipag almusalan din kami sa likod ng chapel (kape at pandesal)! ayos! diba? ang fun pa nung pari!! hehehe

hahaha, hiatus muna ako sa mga all-english entries ha???? :) :)

will i ever get the chance to...?

@ one of the things i enjoy most is daydreaming about my crushes. okok, sorry i'm actually making a very shallow teenybopper entry about my usual grayscale of a lovelife.

thing is, everytime i meet with kat (which is basically everyday), all she ever talks about is her boyfriend... her palangga, her tart, her love. not that it annoys me, it's actually fun just listening to her and their (sometimes) misadventures into (omg, i hate writing like this) the labyrinth of love. harharhar, now i wrote it. sometimes it makes me jealous. i'm turning 18 and i haven't got a decent love-life. maybe i'm that ugly. or perhaps the people here are just so consumed with their academic lives to even bother looking for a special someone. i don't know, i'm not sure.

so ask me, what have i eaten lately that i suddenly feel like i've been lacking enough experiences on love?

actually, last night ate jayjay's orgmates went for a carol in our dorm. before they sang christmas songs, we made a request first. we made them sing 'harana' by parokya ni edgar. i just sat there on the couch, kinikilig. ang sarap palang maharana. ♥ ♥ ♥ i never thought having someone serenade you would be so heartwarming. i love the feeling. and everytime i try reliving it, i feel nice! hehehe

honestly, i'm not sure if i want to have a boyfriend now. i'm very picky. >_> i don't want to settle for something less...? and yabang hahahaha. seriously, i don't just consider every nice guy to be fit for me! we (women) have this annoying tendency to be so overly picky with the guys, like they'll just kneel down before us and present themselves, if they're not good enough then sorry, reject.

no, i'm not saying i've rejected someone already. heck, i don't even have a choice! as in none! 0! nada nada null null. no one has presented himself before me, ever. saaaaad. nyak.

@ one of the hardest thing to do is to go on a DIET.
i think if i transfer to foreha, or to new dorm, then i'll never have to worry about getting a regular exercise. but come on, where am i? i'm so close to temptation. i walk out of the dorm and all i see is food! i don't have to walk a mile to go to my classes, because there's always a jeepney waiting outside. i can't go lazy about going outside because it wouldn't even cost me a kilocalorie.

compared to life in new dorm or in forestry, if you want to get food you have to make a mental struggle because it's too far! so in the end you'll just go sore with what's present in the canteen. >___>;;

dancel dancel, i think i'd go thinner if i live in the fourth floor of dancel dormitory. hahahaha good idea.

ok, so effective tomorrow. NO RICE. just biscuit or bread but NOOOO RICE.

>___>;;

nah, just sleep it over (bitter mode)

hello!
hehehe, i'm quite happy today because our es10a teacher dismissed us 2 hours early, yeah!!!

@ okok, honestly speaking, i'm not yet comfortable with the idea of adding a new batch to our org. maybe because THEY'RE A LOT. err, that's actually a good thing, i'm being selfish...sorry. err, maybe because i'm still enjoying being part of the newest batch. jealous? hah, that sucks.

isa pa, ok? I CAN'T FEEL THEM. seriously. hindi ako natural na kupal, though people say i do look mataray... it's hard for me to act bitchy around these applicants but at the same time i'm enjoying it because i don't want to see them enjoying the reporting process. in short, i'm this type of fucking villain who hates seeing the protagonist stretch her cheek muscles even for the faintest smile. bitter! grabe, hahahaha that's why i want them to experience the exact (or even more) hardships our batch went through.

@ the consti night was extremely easy. for 2 hours they just sat there listening to the consti reading (may natutulog pa nga, ptngna). then when it was time to group them for the slightly harder part, there weren't enough time for us to make them suffer because it's nearly 10 and the police is already warning us.
gulay talaga o! our batch, for the most part, endured the whole of the consti night squatting and doing pumpings.

IT WAS THE HARDEST NIGHT FOR US. we were drained physically and mentally. i broke down on the way home, i was fucking too exhausted. what the fuck, WE ALL CRIED.

well, that's the bitter part of being in such a small group... fuckdammit we're just 3! they're 26! how much easier can it get?!?!?

@ i think it will have to take time for me to completely accept their batch. well, i do accept a few of them, some who made sense to me (even those who didn't report). i guess i have to make an effort to know who they really are, individually. eh ano ba yan, ayaw magreport! takot sa kupal. haynaku.

@ life is a matter of perspective, i've realized. hahaha.

@ crush talk. note: i'm still 17! i have to right to rant about who makes my stupid heart flutter. hahahaha

ang wierd kasi eh. minsan kinikilig na lang ako ng walang dahilan. tapos pag kinilig ako iisipin ko pa kung sino sa mga crush ko ang dahilan. grabe. anong klase yun?! basta pag kasama ko sila masaya naman... i mean, hindi naman sabay sabay na kasama grabe super polygamous ko naman. hahahaha, wala lang natutuwa lang ako na makita sila. lalo pa kung nakikipagtawanan ako sa kanila diba... mababaw kasi ako eh. or simply, basta gusto mo yung tao tatawa ka sa lahat ng hirit nya kahit corny naman.

ganun naman diba? i mean, haller, kung galit sa isang tao you wouldn't even laugh at his funniest joke. pero di nga, masaya magka-crush. it makes me closer to reality. lol. so parang, on Ryan Agoncillo hiatus muna ako ngayon (kahit na nadagdagan na naman ng isang pic nya ang wallet ko hahaha) kasi ang dugyot na ng itsura nya sa ysabella, what's with the lino broca (sp?) look? isa pa nung nasa deal or no deal sya kabuhok na nya yung adik sa buhok sa charlie's angels. parang, FREAK! bakit nagkaganyan kaaaaa! sinisira lang ata ni juday ang image mo.

bago naging sila ni juday, ang tingin ko kay ryan mga supermodel ang type. but fuckdammit when the news broke out about the two of them, parang, huh? i can't believe ganyan ang mga tipo mo, ryan! i mean, si juday kasi pang-masa, si ryan mejo elitista. and now, it seems like juday dragged him to the brink of ka-chipipayan. sorry, and harsh ng mga sinulat ko.

diba nga bitter pa ako?!??!?!!!!

i'm not sure what to say (weh)

@ ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEACHY!!!!
her debut celebration was held yesterday at the acropolis greens clubhouse. when i entered the subdivision, i immediately made a vow that one day, i will own a lot in this place. i was overwhelmed! the houses are big and the location is perfect (it's in libis). what more can i ask for? i mean, yeah it's quite ambitious of me to dream of becoming part of the acropolis neighborhood because it's like an exclusive village for ultra rich people but whatever, it's just a dream. a long term one that's probably gonna cost me a hell lot of fortune. i wonder if there are still vacant lots in there, i really want to build my own house. for that matter, i want a family to live with too. :0

i missed peachy! wow, she's a lady now! and sexy na sha! no more triangle hair and baby fats! grabe i almost cried during the entourage, it' been freakin 6 years!!!! and i missed tita shiela too! huhuhu, still a very pretty mom. :)

@ I MISSED MY PHONE!!!
finally, ate theresa bought me a new charger! yehey. i think she searched the whole greenhills for it but ended up in commonwealth market. sheesh. thank you! i know it's a big pain in the ass to look for such a rare charger! i was even thinking of just buying a new one, a nokia with a universal charger, and just sell my previous unit in ebay. hahaha. and because my phone's kinda old - a 4 yr old motorolla e398- the ultra thin silicon skin is somewhat wearing off already. that's why i decided to just peel off the entire skin and voila! it's good as new now! it simply revealed the inner thing which is just the plastic case which is super black and shiny. now i just need to buy a new crystal case for it. hehehe

@ DID I MENTION EBAY?
i got a semi-positive feedback from ebay just recently. this client agreed to purchase my dad's compaq ipaq 3950 for 8k. i'm just waiting for him to set the date of appointment then we'll meet and finish the business transaction. i can't wait. i do hope he's gonna push though.

@ WHAT ABOUT MY CRUSHES?
ah ok. i have three major crushes right now. they're all my brods. hahaha. my dormmates know. i always tell them my crushes. well you see, it's like this... whenever i tell people about my crushes, chances are it's just a plain crush, nothing serious. most of the time i keep my serious crushes (those whom i'm likely to fall in love with - though i can't tell if i've ever been there. still can't figure out the thin line between love and infatuation) - to myself... and sometimes to my sister. hahaha because i need a lot of time to think it over. what the fuck diba?!?!

@ OK. LAST
we went to dapitan awhile ago, not the historical one with Rizal... i'm talking about the dapitan arcade... i don't know where exactly that is. somewhere in quezon city... my mom went there to buy christmas decorations and stuff. gaaah, i was bored. every stall pretty much sells the same things. they're all native products. my favorite item would be the marble eggs. wala lang, cute sila, mabigat. mejo wierd gawing gift but i'm also considering it. pero parang hindi ni rin kasi i'm not sure if we're coming back. ok, wag na lang. may naisip na akong ibang gift sa mga kaibigan ko. hahaha. labo

@ SUPER LAST NA. HAHA BLOG KO NAMAN TO DIBA?!
i apologized to robin yesterday through text. masyado ko pala siyang kinupal nung nagrereport siya. bati na kami!!!! actually his batchmate, jesse, was the who made me realize i'm becoming a bitch now. ok, hindi na kupal ang term. i think i've become bitchy (and bitter) during the reporting period. marami daw naiinis sakin. wow, na-sad ako dun. super. haha, kupal ba ako? hahaha dahil dun, hindi ko na pinahirapan si jesse. nagusap lang kami. walang kahirap hirap ang pagrereport nya sakin. hahaha. inamin ko na i'm just doing it (pangungupal) for fun... dahil nga bitter ako! at sinabi rin naman ni kuya jhomar na pahirapan ko sila. lol. i think their batch hates me (BIG TIME) now.

sorry.

stolen!

i stole this from a friend's multiply. hehe fun!
what to do: go to google and type in "[your name] likes to", "[your name] loves", "[your name] hates" ... including the quotations marks, okaaay? then it's just a matter of listing them down... like this

Likes:
1. Arianne likes to play music on her instruments, dance and sew.
2. Arianne likes to joke.
3. Arianne likes to play darts.
4. Arianne likes to relate to vaginas!?!? (lol. that's exactly how it's written in google!)
5. Arianne likes to dress like a slut so she wore a lingerie basque and stockings for this video shoot. (o_O)

Loves:
1. Arianne loves to taunt.
2. Arianne loves being a baby-wearer and natural remedy extraordinaire. (a what?)
3. Arianne loves the song Drift Away.
4. Arianne loves the Air Pogo.
5. Arianne loves to say "ibang level!". (haha)
6. Arianne loves domineering men, and having such a hot brunette dominate him was also a pleasure for him. (exactly. the last word is HIM. lol)

Hates:
1. Arianne hates that stuff but it gets her to calm down when she's in a lot of pain.
2. Arianne, hates me.
3. Arianne hates: Losers.
4. Arianne hates chaos and pandemonium.

kay, kay, just that. :)

too young and stupid

i suck in putting titles to my entries. >__>
anyway, today is december 5.... tomorrow is my best friend's birthday (peachy!!!!). awhile ago we had a general assembly, it was fun, as usual... i don't get tired of just hearing them joke around. lol, not that we're wasting time with foolish things... we're just having fun. hahaha, laughter has to be maintained for a lifetime.

it was also awhile ago that i had someone report to me. i swear, i was in a fury. i simply hated his guts, his towering self-confidence (and to think he told me he still lacks it!). kupalan ito!! keyword: hated. i think my, err, hatred towards him is fading away. i hope he changes. it's for the better anyway.

ever since my VERY first cheering practice, every step i make is a struggle, especialy with steps and stairs. fuck. and by far, i cannot remember a single step since that night. hahahaha.

so hopefully, tomorrow would be a great day. i'm looking forward to an extended swimming time and a postponed history2 class. hahahaha


hahaha, crush talk nanaman.

they're both my brods. :)

anyhow, we have an applicant who looks like Lewis from Meet the Robinsons. at first i actually think he looks like harry potter (well, you'll always get that from me. get your hair down and wear glasses and you'll look like harry potter for me) but then i think he resembles Lewis more... in a less cartoony way.

note: he's not my crush.
keynote from above: they're both my brods (my 2 crushes). he isn't my brod yet, but we'll see about that.

it seems like i never really run out of crushes. :) hahaha they're much better than having a boyfriend... i guess. hahahaha i don't know. i'm too young and stupid.