come on zen!

i came across a back-up cd just now and i'm delighted to see some of the files i deemed lost forever were luckily saved! after losing my amelie soundtrack, i got depressed over the thought of downloading the whole 20 tracks again... that would take me forver, given a very FAST 46.6 kb/sec internet connection... >_> but then i saw a folder named 'amelie' and saw all the 20 tracks there! saved! yehey! then there are some application installers too! and a couple of games! i thought i had lost them already! thank goodness... yehey!

i have a lot of mp3s on that folder. man, ity only triggered my desire to purchase the Creative Zen. only ebay has it. ebay philippines, man. and i could only wonder how the seller got it when it has never been released here. connections, duh. probably from someone in the states or somewhere else. it really shouldn't rock me big time. >_>

man, i have to buy that 11K worth of mechanical treasure. and i can't do so without sweeping clean my entire savings for the semester. >_> i wanna buy it now dammit! T__T;

apparently, my mom confirmed i have allergies... like my sister. i've been sneezing ever since the start of the first sem and i don't seem to run out of colds for that matter. my health has gone terribly bad.

and it all started when i took the summer class. >_> remember i had to endure 2 months inside a hellish NEWLY-PAINTED dormitory? yeah, man i must have inhaled all the paint and aquired a lot of boysen deposits in my lungs. >_>

i don't like being unhealthy. >_>

i am craving for pandesal!!!!
daddy, go home now! >_>

owkamownaw

i thank God for today. even though most of you would consider this really terrible, i still thank God... because i finally have the sembreak for myself! :D

heeeryagow:

♠ math36 - 5
i took the removals exam awhile ago and it was freakin hard! and i thought the removals are always always easier than the finals. i should've studied during the finals na lang sana diba? so with no further delay, i now declare my grade to be 5. thankyouverymuch.
♠ chem32 - 5
my lab instructor said so... even without the classcards out. it pretty obvious anyway
♠ chem40 - 5
as posted outside her unwelcoming faculty room


but then again, i am not awfully depressed. all of those were expected. i made a mental note to myself not to expect anything higher than a 4. and indeed.

according to the student's handbook, if a student fails 75% of her workload on a semester, he/she shall be DISMISSED FROM THE UNIVERSITY.
and if my calculator serves me right, because i don't believe in my mathematical skills anymore, i am 1 UNIT close to being dismissed (in short. goodbye UP! or face the grim process of readmission- conditional pa yun.waaah!).

out of the 20 units i took this semester, i only passed 6 units (with earth-rocketing colors pa yun ha. in short-mababa.)!

math36 is 5 units
chem32 is another 5
chem40 thankgoodness is only 4units even though it has a freakin laboratory subject.

14 units!
triple warning for the OSA!
i'm on probation nooooowww!!!!

and there's no hope of me transferring because even if i get a GWA of 1.00000 next sem, my overall GWA would still lie between 2.5 - 3.0 and that's not going to put up a good competition among the mob of tranferees on my preferred course in diliman.

i'm stuck. dammit. stuck in this,errr, bars that i've unconsciously jailed myself in.
i'm stuck! yeahboi.

and everytime i think of it, i feel like shit. especially that i have an org, and the people there are (may i borrow this term) uberly academic conscious that i think of myself unworthy to be part of the pack. now i'm being regretful. now i don't EVER want to see any of them again. fuck. i shouldnt've have joined this sem. it would be a shame. as i've always mentioned before, i don't like the way they brag about their towering academic acomplishments... if you were in my shoes, you'd feel the ground softening into a quicksand, swallowing you alive. yeah, and they won't notice, because you don't have a plackard saying you got a 1.0 on chem40. fuckitall.

then again, i'm glad....weh. :)
i'm happy actually. i want a medium sized m&m stormblaze from snowstorm. and that big acryl refillable notebook from national bookstore.

which reminds me, i still have to go back home.
back.home.

*dear mommy and daddy, sorry for wasting your money. >_> can i just file for LOA and work? i think i'm better off as an OSY, selling dried mangoes on the bus, handing down a piece paper on the passengers which says, "HI, I'M ARIANNE, AN OUT OF SCHOOL YOUTH. I AM HERE TO SELL YOU SPECIALLY MADE DRIED MANGOES. FRESH FROM THE TREE..blahblahblah"

or maybe i'll just go sell makeups, bras and undies from AVON. >_> i'm sure i'll be earning more than you wasted paying for my blasted tuition fee.

*wahahaha JOKE!

part of why i slacked-off is that my parents don't mind if get a 5. they actually stop me from studying when i look like i've burned what's left of my eyebrows!
wahehhehehehhe.... thank yoouuu mommy and daddy!!! i love youuuu!!!! :D :D

okokokokokok.
i'll go home na!!
ice cream! ice cream!
yeaaah!!!

ayos!

so back on the 24th, we we're having fun in Enchanted Kingdom...

and NOW, i'm back in elbi... to face the grim reality of being an in-progress academic probee... kat texted me (just awhile ago) that i got a 4 in math36 and i have to take the removals exam tomorrow, 2-4pm.

the moment i read the text message (i was in qc by then), i groggily told my mom that i have to take on a trip back to elbi because as much as i'd love to study at home, i don't have what you call those 'study tools' or simply 'props' in my vocabulary... ngek. so i went back to elbi...

and now that i'm in elbi, mas inuna ko pa mag internet. hehehe... :)

OCTOBER 24, 2006...
early morning i was having doubts on pushing through with the outing because it's raining hard! good thing pat insisted or else i'll be regretting pulling the trip off... :) all in all 9 of us came!
me, terai, vynne, pat and her bf, kim, jayjay, steffi and ate ruth!
yehey! i had fun! even though it rained! it's a good experience!

yeah! next time ulit, k? :)

it's study time! yeaaah!! :D

the magic is here!

come on, Lord!

PLEASE DON'T LET IT RAIN!!!

i didn't get a haircut last night because i woke up 8pm and had to eat dinner, then i was caught by Marimar so i have to finish it first... then there's Hwang Jini, and mr. teenybopper (jan geun suk)... so in short...

i'll just get it later. >_>;

FINALLY!!!!!

i'm finished with the exams... UNLESS i get a kwatro! that means i have to get back here for the removals... :)

man, to take 2 final exams consecutively is absolutely consuming. >_> i haven't got much study on both of my subjects (math and chem) and lo and behold, the expected came. i wasn't able to answer well too... the chem32 finals has some confusing questions but majority of it was tolerable...

by tolerable, i mean it wasn't that hard... i just don't remember how to do it. because i didn't study, duh.
haaay. and the math exam, for the most part i just stared at it like a stoned fish, waiting for a streak of neuron that would hopefully give me a hint on how to do this and that. in short, just like the chem32 exam, i was stuck with the question, "FUCK! HOW DID WE DO THIS AGAIN LAST LAST MONTH????"

IT WAS A DISASTER. a catastrophic event that increased the possiblity of me getting a very low GWA this sem, let alone probation. T__T;

BUT I'M SO GLAD IT'S OVER!!!!
i'm excited to go to EK this wednesday with my dormates and other friends! i think we're only 9! hehe but that's ok! hopefully more people will confirm by tomorrow! yeheeeey! :) :)

AND NOW...

I'LL JUST GO GET A HAIRCUT! :D

crunch caramel

nothing like a cup of high kicking coffee and two bars of chocolate to wake me up from deep slumber! i have a new favorite chocolate and it is nestle's Crunch Caramel!!!

i'm having fun recording my voice! :) i'm using dad's (FOR SALE) POCKET PC recorder and it's damn great for podcasting or something of the like. you see, i was reading an essay about love with a piano instrumental in the background and i'm listening to it right now... :) my voice is... err... cool!! hahaha, i'm having fun!!! wahehehehe

so, how's my study progress? still 0% man. still a whooping 0%! oryt oryt, i'm gonna study now... >_>

EK with dormmates on wednesday!!! waw, i'm excited!!1

the magic is here!!!! :D :D

don't sleep, i know just what i'm facing

no sleep for me!
supposedly, i'm going to study for chem32 finals... but then again, the computer took me away. T__T; and now i'm stuck sneaking up on forums... reading this and that... fishing for the right answers for this one critical inquiry:

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tanong lang...
what if:
1st sem: may dalawa akong singko
2nd sem: mataas GWA ko

at next year, balak kong magtransfer at mag-shift from UPLB to UPD pero yung 2 subjects ko na singko hindi naman kasama sa curriculum ng course na lilipatan ko sa UPD...

makakalipat pa ba ako?
mato-TOFI din ba ako?

dinig ko kasi GWA ng previous sem lang ang tinitingnan pag lilipat... yet again, i'm not sure.

isa pang tanong, pano kung singko ka sa isang "extra course", kailangan mo pa ba ulitin yun?
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man, it's killing me. i am guaranteed a grade of 5 in two of my subjects, both chem... haha but i'm planning to transfer-shift next year to diliman... not sure of the course but something definitely deviant from chemical engineering... and it wouldn't have chemistry for sure... what will happen next? ok, i'm just restating my question.

now please help me... :)
pare ayoko ng ganitong buhay.

maygaaaah, isinusuka ko ang chemeng! and likewise, isinusuka rin nya ko. we meet only at that point! i hope it's enough.