don't sleep, i know just what i'm facing

no sleep for me!
supposedly, i'm going to study for chem32 finals... but then again, the computer took me away. T__T; and now i'm stuck sneaking up on forums... reading this and that... fishing for the right answers for this one critical inquiry:

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tanong lang...
what if:
1st sem: may dalawa akong singko
2nd sem: mataas GWA ko

at next year, balak kong magtransfer at mag-shift from UPLB to UPD pero yung 2 subjects ko na singko hindi naman kasama sa curriculum ng course na lilipatan ko sa UPD...

makakalipat pa ba ako?
mato-TOFI din ba ako?

dinig ko kasi GWA ng previous sem lang ang tinitingnan pag lilipat... yet again, i'm not sure.

isa pang tanong, pano kung singko ka sa isang "extra course", kailangan mo pa ba ulitin yun?
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man, it's killing me. i am guaranteed a grade of 5 in two of my subjects, both chem... haha but i'm planning to transfer-shift next year to diliman... not sure of the course but something definitely deviant from chemical engineering... and it wouldn't have chemistry for sure... what will happen next? ok, i'm just restating my question.

now please help me... :)
pare ayoko ng ganitong buhay.

maygaaaah, isinusuka ko ang chemeng! and likewise, isinusuka rin nya ko. we meet only at that point! i hope it's enough.

owkamownaw

ok. so i'm getting on probation next sem. :D wuhooo! hehe, at least they're gonna cut off my load to a maximum of 18 units... which means i have to cancel a subject for that... hahahaha i'm going on GE overload next sem...

i promise to be better. weh. :) i'll try to fix my grades next sem, besides... it's just a ton of GE, math and microbio.... NO CHEMISTRY!!! fuck, i love next sem! and i have swimming for PE!!! what more can i ask for? hahaha... tapos biglang probee parin e... wahahahahaha

ayon. so hopefully makatransfer ako next year... :) plans.plans.plans. i'm itching to leave this blasted course. >_> and of course, TOFI kung TOFI!!

ayheytmaybradsamtayms

our last GA was ok. :) laughtrip... :) gayunpaman, di parin mai-aalis ang inis ko sa ibang tao...
is it me or mashado lang akong bobo? feeling ko kasi wala ng ibang basehan ang kagalingang kundi ang maka uno dito at doon. maygulay,

'o sino gusto maglaro for this sport?'
'si ano! si ano! uno sha dun!'
tawa lahat.
'si ano din! si ano din! 1.25 sha dun!'

o sige. pataasan na lang ng grade ha?

isa pa.
'kumusta naman ang mag-exam ng hindi nag-aaral?' aloud, pare. ALOUD. parang announcement sa buong org.

ouch.
putang ina.
maraming salamat ah.

i'll warn your roomate pag nakita ko sya.
mga bakla talaga o.

a look on my impending doom

oh, i skrewed it all up... AGAIN! but i'm not disappointed because i wasn't expecting for anything anyway.... the chem40 finals was fucking hard. >_>;

mam amada is so hard to deal with... she showed us a list of physics finalists (which includes me and practically the whole lecture hall) without even computing for our prefinal standing! what's that? hocus pocus?? and fuck, the cell for my 2nd lecture exam was blank! which made my standing lower than ever. she said 'maybe' i forgot to put my name on it. man, i don't remember anything. it's not like me to remember old exams... let alone if i wrote my name on the blasted answer sheet. man, how am i supposed to fix this mess??? hahaha, i don't care now. i just don't care*. i'll just answer the exam tomorrow with whatever it is i can manage to stuck in my brain tonight. oh yeah, which reminds me... i wasn't able to sleep last night!

i had 4 cups of coffee... ♥ you see, i was supposed to spend the whole midnight onwards to study for the chem40 finals on the same day... that's a good 7 hours of slow torture. lol the exam starts at 7 and it was just 12mn that i decided to study.

a quote once said that 'you wouldn't remember the exam that you failed but you would never forget the people you are with the night you decided not to study'

awww... well, it's always my dormmates who divert me from studying. and i don't blame them for it because i'm always happy when i'm with them! i love you crapmates! grouphuuuuug. wahehehehe...

i have plans for next week! no matter what happens to my retarded final exams, i'm getting a haircut! and i'm going for a hairspa too! then maybe i'll invite people to go to Enchanted Kingdom because they have a sembreak promo right now... man, i want to unwind! though i'm the one who needs it most since the 'unwind' thing are only for people are so stressed about this week. owkamown.... :)

whew. i want to sleep!!!! okok...
let's sleeep...zzzzzz

just when everyone else is studying

this guy makes my heart flutter everytime i see him ♥ ♥

jang geun suk from Hwang Jin Yi... ♥ ♥
too bad he's gonna die... OOOPS. sorry, that was a spoiler. ^____^
i cried big time when i watched a fanvid of him dying..... waaaaahhh.

man, he's so cute! :) and he's just 20! weh. hahahaha

casting crowns - voice of truth

i haven't studied still!! mehn, i slept a lot this afternoon.... :) hehehe. i'm not even sure if our chem40 exam is today or tomorrow... if it's today, then i'm not taking it because i haven't studied yet and really, i just don't care about it anymore.

anyhow. i'm alive today. yeah. :)
oryt oryt, i'm gonna study.... later. hahaha after marimar!

happy birthday little rio! :) :)

olivia lufkin - a little pain

it's Nana's ending theme! :)
he. it's sunday night already and i have't flipped a single page of my borrowed organic chemistry book. :( i'm being unproductive again! our 4th exam would be on tuesday and the FINALS - wednesday! yehey! i haven't studied yet! it's going to be a hard time for me! seriously... and then thursday we have physics... :( i guess i'm gonna do the usual studying less than a day before the exam starts. :\ i have the worst habits man.

aw mehn, i miss the piano. the pedal isn't working, it needs to be replaced... however i still don't have enough money for that. i'm still saving for the creative zen portable media player.... the 8 gigs cost approximately 11,000. lol i'm still a long way behind that... wahehehehe. and if mommy agrees to lend me 10 thou then maybe it's going to be easier for me. i'll do the credit card installment type. man, that's way easier. >_>

wahahaha. :}

i'm home!!!

yeeey! i've been waiting for this! after two weeks of not seeing my parents, i finally got the chance to go home! like crazy, man! i wasn't able to go home last weekend because i was heavily tuanted by the amount of exams i'll be taking that week. all in all, i endured (but not necessarily passed) a total of 9 exams in 9 days! oh, that's nothing! a lot of people in the university suffer a worse case than that. >_> but it's not enough to consider me lucky, heck! i barely studied in any of those freakin exams! i have a habit of studying say, 12 hours (or less) before the actual examination starts... and it's fucking consuming me whole. i haven't slept, i mean i haven't had a decent sleep since God knows when! anyhow... couldn't care less. i told you before, if it's about my grades... just skrew off. i'm not the least bit concerned... unless it's Hum2 because that's art and Hist2 because world history inspire me a lot to write!! oh GEs, they're my only hope! i suck in my prerequisite subjects! what more with the major ones!!!

oh arianne, you have to decide fast!

so... we just had our last chem32 lecture exam awhile ago... >_> you know what...

[WARNING: useless rant. stupid regrets.]

... the test was 'relatively' easy. by that i mean, the questions were answerable given an above average IQ, it wasn't like the previous exam where all i ever wanted to write on the bluebook was "fuck! which hell did these stupid problems sprout from? who's the demon responsible for this act of utter cruelty to humankind?!!???!"

mehn. the exam wasn't as hard as before but it's not that easy either. some questions were tolerable, some were unnerving and downright unworthy to be given even the slightest effort. blaaah. all i wanted to say is that, i could've answered better if i studied harder, or more specifically... EARLIER.

see? same old habit, same old regret! but i'm not really that regretful... i was more excited to go home than to bother with my grades. >_>

oh come on! and i met a new friend awhile ago in sm megamall. it's kinda strange that i don't mind if i talk to a stranger. >_> i mean, every relationship starts with you being stangers to each other. haller. >_> anywhow, i was waiting for the skechers street dance contest to start when this big guy just sparked off a conversation (he was also waiting for the show to start). oh, to warn you off first. this isn't a fucking love life. >_> the man i'm talking about is working, married, and has three daughters already.... :) so yeah, we had a little chat. he gave me a handful of advises... some of which i wouldn't want to take seriously especially the, "sige, ipagpatuloy mo na yang chem.eng, maganda yan."

no.no.no. i'm still thinking about it.
every teenager goes through this critical stage of confusion when they're 16. it would concern either of the following: identity (i'm pretty sure of myself naman), sexuality (i consider myself a bisexual when i was in highschool. but i grew it all off. i'm straight now. like crazy, man), blah blah blah and this special thing that concerns your future and you dreams.

yeah, that's what i'm confused about. i pretty much know myself, my likes, my talents and skills, my attitude but it still puzzles me as to why i am pursuing someting that is absolutely unlike me. >_>

dude, i don't know what will happen next. i haven't experienced that 'mega' eye-opener yet that will knock me to my senses and enlighten my mind about the reality that is ideal for me. :)

till then, i'll wait.
for now, i'll sleep.