yet another day

i knew it! apparently, our speechcom1 instructor didn't arrive today, giving me a good 1 1/2 hours to rest. :) yey. so this is my rest. hehe

heyhey. a couple of entries ago i wrote about my future plans in the university (assuming 1 failing grade). let's label that Plan A.

now here's plan B:
-assuming 2 failing grades (chem40 and 32)

i won't take any chem subject next sem.
summer 2008, i will retake chem32. assuming that i pass, i could be given chem111 during the 1st sem of 2008 - i will cancel this freakin subject, and retake chem40 instead.

note to self: never take two hard chems at the same semester

that way, i am still on time with regards to my batch (06-B)

that's actually the worst case scenario. haller!
but quite honestly, i am not worrying, nor am i fidgeting about the possibities that i'll take a prerog or two. i think i can handle the singko (dalawahin nyo pa) and the double warning from OSA... :) they don't look that scary. hahaha.

gayunpaman, i can still work myself to get a 4 or miraculously, a 3. MIRACULOUSLY. see? that's how bad my academic standing is. i wouldn't even consider it 'standing' anymore. i'm crawling mehn. craaawwwwliiiiing.

how to deal with your deteriorating braincells

faced with a catastrophic problem like this, one must not panic. it will only catalyze the decay of your beloved braincells. i say, don't worry! look on the bright side! usually when your, uhh, academic braincells are starting to die one by one, the other group of braincells starts to function double time. so everytime you feel like the dumbest in your class, just think that you're way better than them in a different field. compensation, that is. just like in my case, my 'genius' braincells are hiberating leaving me in a sort of 'artistic' mode this season.

of course i just brought that up as an excuse. can't you see i'm just fishing for defenses? no one's even interrogating me for my utter lack of academic urgency. and yet i stay indifferent.

by the way, i just flunked another exam. make that two. and probably even 3 (i have another one coming up this wednesday).

why am i enjoying being a pessimist?
and why the hell am i not studying?!?!?!?

i really think i'm better off developing my creative side (besides, they're my dominant genes) rather than waste money (and kill myself) nurturing my recessive genes.

can't you see they're 'hibernating'? it takes a century to unleash a dormant trait, you know.

best dream yet

i dreamt of my crush! (yeah! same old highschool tale) as in my real crush, not ryan agoncillo... hehehe.

well it's not the first time i dreamt of him, but it's the first time i dreamt of him in a romantic way... involving me of course. and you know what, i love the feeling of being in love. wtf.

the most romantic part of the dream was that he actually confessed to me. whaat? and i feel so esctatic. bwahehehe. sino ba namang hindi!

too bad it was just a dream!

kumareng venice just got home! and look what she brought with her! a box of chocolates for See's (given by her tita from hawaii)!!!! omfg. T_T

calories galore.

one down, more to go

it's no use slashing off exams from my calendar because they seem to propagate infintitely, pulling me closer and closer to the student disciplinary board. well, i don't seem to care much if i get a warning or two next sem for failing some of my workloads, i wouldn't even care if get dismissed! lol

we had our integrated 3rd and 4th exam in chem32 awhile ago. it was fucking hard. i'd curse someone who thinks it easy to eternal damnation. i hardly slept just to finish the scope of this retard subject, and when i read the problem set it seems that they (for the nth time) morphed into a next-level monster! fuck. whoever deserves that.

hmmm. same old rant.
i never learn, do i?

i have a lot to do:
- study for the blasted physics exam on monday
- do the fucking postlab for chem40 (tuesday)
- do freakin props for our demo on LTS1. i hate it when i'm actually exerting effort on a subject with zero units. >_>
- study for the 3rd chem40 exam (wednesday)
- do a 'creative' schematic diagram for the practical test, and hope to get a little incentive for it. i'm failing.

haaay. i missed sleeping.

i wonder why i don't feel comfortable with them altogether. they know very well i can't cope with their towering minds, well, they don't care anyway. but hell, i hate it! all they ever talk about when they're together is their academic standings. i can't stand it... because,
a) in the first place, i have nothing to be proud of. my bluebooks all go to trash once i receive them.
b) they (of maybe it's just HE) sound so mayabang and that's naturally intolerable
c) and lastly, i feel like they'd drop someone who couldn't keep up with them. and i'm definitely that someone.

oy, wag kang feelingero.

read my lips

let your frustrations motivate you to do something you really like! you see, i've realized that the more we are forced to do something we despise, the more frustrated we get, and the more frustrated we get, the more deviant we become, and when we become deviant, we are more likely to end up doing what we REALLY want. but there will also be another resulting output for that and that is not being able to focus well on what you are assigned to do. >_>

sweet escape

yes there is a time for everything. as i've pondered on before, there are things that could only be understood completely when it is pursued at the right time. just like how you are not allowed to drive when you're not of legal age. :)

sometimes, realizations hit you at the wrong spot but then all you have to do is think again, evaluate yourself and see if you're still on the right track. Problem: i'm not sure which path to take. i'm not even sure if this is what 'fate' (if it exists) calls me to be in. human nature dictates 'escape' at the merest sign of difficulty. and because i am a slave of human nature, i've devised my own ways of running away from the monster i myself created (it's not me, do'ahou).

sometimes i drink it all off. i get some of my dormmates to drink with me, they wouldn't ask why. it's not unusual if i suddenly go home with 3 bottles of beer anyway. they're one hell of a company.

there are times when i go out alone to buy coffee. it's my drug, yeah. though it doesn't really give me enough kick to forget about how horible my day went, it's good enough to keep me sane. that is.

the cheapest treat would be a pack of Nova and a bottle of C2. have i told you i get bonkers when i drink C2 (apple)? i become hyperactive and crazy. i couldn't stop myself. with that i give it a 10 out of 10. a good escape. yeah.

with the way i see things, you'd probably think i'd be medicating on 'drugs' next time. i may be ruining my life with developing vices but i guess it's part of growing up. vices shouldn't be viewed as something evil. in fact, at one point in life, when everyone else turn their backs on you, you'd be left with nothing but your vice(s) to cope with the distress.

hey. i don't have vices.... yet. T_T

whatever.
wait. i love lemongrass. better than mary jane? definitely. not that i've tried, silly. lemongrass. lemongrass. lemongrass. haha in filipino... tanglad. sounds familiar? it looks like talahib and has a characteristic smell. if i'm not mistaken its monoterpene is linalool? or citral? i forgot. hahaha

sorry. i sound like i'm about to kill myself of depression. maybe i'm just frustrated.

yeah! that's the best word that could describe me. i am frustrated. i am a frustrated college student who can't think rationally and choses a bottle of beer over a decent sleep. i am frustrated. thank you.

monacre. i lack that. >_>
(hint: it's an anagram)

physics fair!

yay to us! hehe we didn't win but we had fun. bwahehehehehe. eliza and i were so overwhelmed that we get to climb Carillon Tower!!!


i don't have a picture of our glider. sad. >.< that's because i wasn't too proud to show it around because the other gliders were so intimading, they really spent money on it... whereas ours is just made from scrap umbrella cloth and trash bamboo from the Forestry. anyhow...

during the first round of the fair, we have to release the glider (na may nakasakay na itlog) from the top of the tower and our aim is to not let the egg break when it lands on the ground. our glider didn't, errr, glide too well (in fact it didn't glide at all, it was a free-fall - much to the spectators' amusement XD) but before it landed, the air kinda blew it so that it flipped, and the egg was saved! so we're in for round 2!

round 2 is a competition for the longest time of flight. we knew firsthand that our glider, named The Communist (because it looked like a communist flag), stands only a little (or none at all) chance because during the first round, it didn't show exemplary 'gliding' skills compared to our competitors... so we just enjoyed the moment. :)

and i was surprised because when jasper threw (what's the right term for this?) it off the tower it flew really well! it gave me hope that our glider is going to last until round 3! but then, something happened...



our glider got stuck on the tree! grabe. nakakapanghinayang! (spot the red thing, that's our poor glider)

dahil dyan... umuwi na lang ako. hehehe