quality education takes time

whew. maybe that's how i'm going to describe my mantra for this sem. hahaha. ok lang magrepeat! at least mas maiintindihan ko. yun nga lang, i can't shift. at malamang lamang dalawang subjects ang irerepeat ko. at baka di pa ko mabigyan next sem. wow. mega delay na ako. >_> hmmph.

kat has sore eyes. meaning she can't be the emcee for our anniv night. so marious chose me to emcee with him instead. and now i'm dead.

i'm too shy to be an emcee. -_-

a new look

i changed the header. pretty much the same, only simpler. i'm happy with it... let's see how long it will last. if you notice, i'm fond of beach scenes. yeah... :)

moreover, another new look...


hehe. don't be fooled

that's me wearing my DAD'S wig. he used that wig during a performance years ago... hehehe. did i mention i like it?

hell yeah.
but my hair is still the same right now, un-banged (without bangs, i mean. lol), uncombed, and black as ever. :)

and since i'm sure i'm not gonna get that hairdo anytime soon (coz i'm in the process of growing my hair loooong)... i decided to post it here. yeah.

well here's an alternative

so we had our first chem40 theoretical lab exam last night. it was hard. and i am guaranteed to fail... yet again. T_T; i was too careless, i could've gotten 2 problems right, it's just that i thought water is non-polar. which is not.

note to self: water, H20, dihydrogen oxide is fucking polar. i'd kill myself if i get that fact wrong again.

and so i got the last problem wrong... i listed everything in a reverse manner. fuck.

it's either i'm going to repeat my two chems next sem OR i'm going to remove them. yeah, there is no chance that i'm going to get a 3 (or anything higher). it's either repeat or remove. wtf.

and because of that. i was depressed once again. yeeeeehaa. i've always been depressed you know, it's just that IT DOESN'T SHOW because i'm a good actress. yeah right. and last night was the night i was looking for someone to talk to.

but then, i just ended up drinking my way to oblivion.
oh i don't drink a lot. i only drink light... and red horse, whichever is available... when our landlady isn't home. hehehe.
and you know what, it was the first time i craved for beer. i missed the cold rush of alcohol in my throat and the warm stir in my stomach. contrary to what others experience, it calms me down. it puts me to sleep. without hangovers. yeah.

beer is love.

so maybe next time i'll try smoking again.
and destroy myself fully.

and damn, i'm not asking for someone to 'save' me. i need a companion (someone whom i can drink beer or coffee with) more than a fucking prince in a shining armor.

and the people here are fucking wholesome.

taking on a one way path

i've never been this much intimidated in my life. and fuck, it scares me a lot. failing has always been my companion. it taught me a lot, really. i guess i owe every sensible advice i mouth out to every horrible experience i've encountered. it's not bad to fail. just don't overdo your mistakes because failing doesn't equate to stupidity.

i don't know. something's wrong with me. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. i need a sensible person to share these insecurities within me. someone who can talk back in the brightest sense. it's demanding, i know. but i want someone who can put up with my reasonings. yes. i'm asking for someone who shares the same level of thinking as i do. not in terms of acad but in terms of uhh... EQ? how do you call that ba? haha. i don't remember.

shit. i need a friend. :( drama ito. just bear with me.
honestly, i think i know someone who could.

alam nyo baaaaa??? gusto ko lang ng kausap! gusto ko ng taong pwedeng kong makasama mag-kape. usap usap lang. grabe kailangan ko ng matinong adviser. >_>

but on the bright side, i'm excited for our practical exam to end. gusto ko na umuwi.
uhhh, shit talaga.

i.need.someone.to.talk.to.
please, Lord. someone who can brighten up my day.
mehn, i don't need a tutor. gusto ko lang ng matinong kausap. and this time gusto ko ako naman ang pakikinggan. >_>;

thank you Lord!

uhh, we had classes today... but at least our chem32 lab and lecture exams were postponed!! yeah, i knew it!! it's going to be unfair to hold the test today since we aren't even halfway through the coverage. hehehe. and well, i haven't studied yet.

that's my point.

yesterday was pretty nice, i drank coffee so i was able to stay until 2:30am without really doing anything productive. i TRIED to study. believe me, i did... but i got distracted with practically everything... so in the end, i didn't learn anything.

hahaha. i realized that people get EASILY distracted from something they are not fond of doing. like studying. yeah. you should know that.

what happened is that i just went mega chika with my dormmates. i'm very open to everything, i have a unique perspective on every matter that's why it's hard to keep silent when these thoughts are provoking me, and when you're totally comfortable with the people around you, it's so easy to spark up with a topic that everyone can relate to. yeah yeah. i love sharing my thoughts and ideas on moral matters... y'know, those that involve parental conflicts, peer pressure, conformity, even love life... hehehe. and it flatters me when people say i give sound advices. to think i've never had much experience on those matters. i don't have kids. i'm not a wife. we don't have familial problems. i've never had a boyfriend. never been courted. never had someone say they like me. in short, i am one big inexperienced twerp.

some of my friends say i make a lot of sense for a mere 16 yr old girl. aww, and my dormmate said last night that i'm one of the few whom she can talk sense with. i'm really flattered. >_> but i guess the maturity of my words are brought about by my huge fancy for books. i didn't even know that my little advices and rephrased proverbial statements affected them, one way or another.

i'm grateful for this wisdom God gave me. i even remember asking for it. whenever studying, i write down my prayers first and i always ask God to give me wisdom to understand these freakin equations and theories that would perpetuate the idea of mass destruction. i asked for wisdom because i thought it's parallel to intelligence. but i was wrong. what i really need that time is intelligence and God gave me wisdom (at least that's how i perceived it). so what did i use this 'wisdom' for?

mehn. i used it to condition myself for the possibility that i MIGHT fail this blasted subject. you don't need intelligence for that! you don't take things like that objectively. that's why... from now on, i'm gonna ask for INTELLIGENCE!!!

i need extra braincells.

sana walang pasok bukas

sana nga, arianne. sana nga.

wednesday night:
todo rejoice dahil inannounce na walang klase sa thursday!!!

thursday night:
nag-aaral PA LANG ako for our chem40 theoretical lab exam for friday. at sobrang tamad ko pa mag-aral dahil ina-anticipate ko na wala paring pasok bukas.

at nagkatotoo nga.

friday:
- dahil walang pasok, namove ang dalawa kong exam. hehehe... ayos yun kasi di pa nga ako nag-aaral diba...
- workshop ng org sa likod ng layb. blah blah... grabe ang lakas ng ulan. hehe dumating din pala ung Globe Kantabataan team, hosted by Patty Laurel. funny, akala ko weather reporter lang...
- after workshop. uwi! at last! at dahil wala si terai, nakisabay na lang ako kina jerson at v-rey pauwi. salamat talaga...
- nakaka-inip. around 4pm kami nakasakay ng bus, 7pm na nasa skyway parin kami. take note: SKYWAY na yon! traffic. super.
- pagbaba ng megamall, kumain kaagad ako. tapos ewan ko ba, sinikmura siguro ako kaya sinuka ko rin lahat. huhuhuhu, sayang pera. at dahil dyan, nag-ice cream na lang ako. hehehe... mas rewarding pa pala mag icecream pag bumabagyo.

saturday:
- boring to kasi sira phone lines namin, so walang internet. pati broadband, ayaw makisama... so wala talagang internet.
- pinuntahan ko si terai sa hospital, kasama ko si ate theresa. ayon, ok naman. i tried to study, pero tinamad ako... kaya lumabas ako at bumili ng instant coffee. i tried san mig strong. ang sarap pala nun. pero mas gusto ko parin yung maxwell 3in1. blah blah. nung gabi na, dumalaw sina auntie gene... may dalang pizza! yehey! at dahil andyan si auntie gene, malamang andyan si dianne. at dahil andyan si dianne, nagkape ulit ako. partners in crime ko yun e, bawal parin ako magkape, mind you, pero malakas ang tawag ng starbucks sakin.
-at dahil naka-dalawang baso ako ng kape. hindi ako nakatulog. as. in. 5am na mulat na mulat parin mata ko. ang lakas ng tama. >_>

sunday:
- at dahil dyan, feeling ko tinopak ako. kinuha ko yung wig at make-up. o.O ahahaha, totoo. pagharap ko kay mommy, nagulantang siya. parang, 'anak, anong nangyari sayo?' akala nya nananaginip sya. hahaha pero enjoy naman. kasi natuwa si mommy. inisip ko kasi sobrang pressured sha sa mga pangyayari e... kaya yun. ahahaha, bagay pala sakin brown hair. ahahaha nakakatuwa. may picture ako nun sa digicam! haha tsaka na lang...
- haaay. nag-aalala si mommy dahil lagi parin akong nagsasalita pag tulog... pero ngayon IBANG LEVEL NA! kumakanta na daw ako. lol. nung una di nya maintindihan tapos nung dulo, nagsabi daw ako ng 'moments of love'. hahahahahaha. o.O
- dati sa dorm, kwento ni tita beth na tumatawa raw ako pag tulog, nakatalukbong pa.
- kinikilabutan ako sa sarili ko. ang dami kong friends! meron akong kausap, meron akong kalaro and just recently, MAY KA-DUET NA KO! hahaha katakot.
- ang sakit ng ulo ko pagdating sa simbahan... pero ok lang.

monday:
- eto, balik los banos. ang lakas ng ulan kanina, sana walang pasok bukas. haay.

tagged

got tagged by nez and ding

* each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
* bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
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alright, here we go...

1. i bite my nails a lot. it's my worst habit.
2. i am awfully addicted to coffee... and spend a lot on it too
3. i always bring a vanity kit with me.
4. di ako mapakali ng hindi nag-iinternet sa loob ng isang araw.
5. i love ryan agoncillo.
6. i am prone to car accidents.
7. i always sleep late. late, meaning 12mn+
8. i fancy guys who wear glasses.

i tag: mika, larz, hannah, karlita, KA, michi, jami and nic.