do i really belong here?

leonard has been a great factor on why i'm thinking a LOT about SHIFTING. when he first mentioned to me that he's planning on shifting to BS Chemistry or Biology... i was like, "NOOOOOOOOOOOO!" (uhh not exactly but you should get it. duh) and i was insisting on the 'fact' that our course sounds 'cool' (to others) not to mention 'hard' and also 'demanding' but then those adjectives doesn't command that much to be considered. heck and i was (yet again) explaining to him that he's going to break the ABCDE chain that we've established (or maybe it's just me who noticed and made a big deal out of it) on our first sem in the university.

the ABCDE chain is explained as follows: :)

originally there were 6 06-B students who were qualified for chemical engineering and our surnames are Alaon, Alo, Birog, Camasin, Dizon, and Eseo
bwahahahaha odiba? we're alphabetically arranged! (which actually made me think that MAYBE the college secretary just picked the first 6 waitlisted people on their list alphabetically.. ). yeah and Charles (Alo) got dismissed but nevertheless the ABCDE remains so it's fine.

joke, it's not fine!! >_> hehe balik ka na kasi chav... bilis! :D

and now... leonard (Eseo) wants to leave us! huhuhuhuhuhu :( come to think of it, it doesn't really matter if we drop off with the E because ABCD is still intact but that's not the point! it's not about who breaks off from the alphabet! that's just me and my shallow (not to mention nonsensical discoveries about our batch) chorvabells. >_>

anyhow. leonard and i were talking about shifting and the whole thing about 'loving your craft' and not pursuing your real 'dream'. when he left at around 12:30 for his classes, i was left thinking.... damn hard.

nyeeee. dapat ba nag fine arts ako? commarts? business mgt.?
is it to late to change directions?
ang ayoko lang naman talaga ay yung super hirap maka-alis ng CEAT (college of eng'g) at super nakakatamad magayos ng mga paper requirements... tsaka ang hirap maghabol ng grades no. para naman kasing ang tali-talino ko...

haha. i flunked our first chem32 exam. feeling ko ako lowest dun e... feeling ko talaga...

yeah. maybe they can easily discharge me from their college because i'm not someone who displayed exemplary academic standing in the first place. yeah, i'm so right with that freakin point.

now the question is, where do i go next? there is no fine-freakin-arts here in los banos and honestly, you cannot in anyway convince me to take it (no matter how much you flatter me).

eto lang naman kasi talaga yan.

MY COLLEGE LIFE HAS NO DEFINITE AND IMPLICIT DIRECTION.

yet.

entry #746

can't think of a good enough title. >_>;
our chem40 lab instructor dismissed us early and i was left with a generous amount of idle time so to waste them off, i decided to go with my friends to their next class... bio3. hehehe in short, naki-sit-in ako... or more like sleep-in. bwahahaha. and their section is C-1L!!!! e C-1L din lab section ko sa physics3... o diba... i belong! hahahahaha. wala naman... parang chem16 reunion lang naman... bwahehehehe.

ang weird ko talaga... tumawa. as in wahahahahahahahahaha!!!

7+4+6=17
1+7=8
8=????

infinity!

haaay walang kwenta. >_>

ui gusto ko na umuwi! gusto ko na mag-megamall at kumain ng icecream! gusto ko na magtrinoma, manuod ng harry potter, kumain sa yellowcab and magdessert sa DQ!!!!

nothing drives me T__T;

our physics3 lecture exam was (yet again) moved! yaaay!!! on the dull side though, the lab exam pushed through, without me getting even a bit of study. fuck. how can i be so negligent of my academic standing?? i've never been this irresponsible before! i bet i will flunk all of my 1st exams. and trying to console myself with thinking that i could just study harder (or just plain STUDY) for the next exams is not good enough.

i want to to change this layout already.

there's something wrong with me. i've changed. i'm not studying a lot like i used to. either way, i stay mediocre. nothing much, nothing less. but apparently, with the way things are going... the 'nothing less' is getting more weight in the scale of mediocrity so now i could partially consider myself an idiot for letting the scale be disturbed with my inner struggles.

the thing is, i'm not inspired/motivated enough to open my textbooks and read what those extraterrestrial beings theorized about centuries ago. I'M NOT DRIVEN! i miss Sir Chester Dabalos! i need an intructor who could bring out the passion in me!!! ok, so i'm not passionate enough on this craft. case in point made.

Lord,
Help me.

slovak: nezmyzel

i believe i still have to fill up a lot of empty gaps i left hanging for the last 3 weeks. you know, it was both fun and exhausting. i experienced a lot of things, learned a lot of values and cleared a lot of misconceptions about life. but it doesn't end there... actually, it's only the beginning (cliche i know). and i'm thrilled to break through that blasted wall that partially kept me from the reality that i'm not alone.

note: i'm not requiring you to understand the underlying message of this entry because personally, i would classify this under crap. this is pure randomness and it is my intention to confuse you with my nonsense allegories. o diba? kahit ako nalalabuan kaya magtiis ka muna...

hahaha. what do you think is the point of this nonsense entry? nothing. exactly. i just want to write something random and un-understandable (go figure). i just want to let go of this unhealthy flux of words because it doesn't make sense to keep it within my deflating brain sacs.

i'm not really particular with making sense with my blog entries, hence the title of this blog. i don't care if people don't understand what's written here becuase in the first place, i couldn't expect anyone and everyone to understand. that's why i value those who can grasp what little sense there is in this utterly vague entry.

eeh. ayoko na. walang patutunguhan ang entry na ito. :)
sa susunod na lang ulit :)

adik sayo

hahaha. ngayon lang ulit ako nakalaro after 2 weeks! yehey! in fairness a... top scorer parin! duh, ako lang naman naglalaro! hahahahahaha...

pagbigyan nyo na ko. ngayon lang ulit ako nakauwi... :)

i can sing. i can't dance.

i took this picture last friday at freedom park. finals namin nun. hihihihi ang ganda ng rainbow.... :) ngayon lang ulit ako nakakita ng malaking rainbow e. hahahaha


eto naman ay kinuha ko one month ago. isang note na nakapaskil sa labas ng room A-101. ang title, "IN CASE OF FIRE...."

bwahahahahahahahaaaa.... nakakatawa diba??? wala lang. don't laugh daw. ano ba yan. don't lag behind. don't cause confusion. basta... natawa ako e. ano ba.

wahahahaha. ui ang galing! nagdownload ako ng 4 na midis! ittransfer ko sa phone as ringtones maya maya. hehehehehe... hulaan nyo?

haha wag na. eto lang yun, sesame street, rugrats, sex and the city tapos powerpuff girls! wahahahahahaha... ewan ko ba... ang cute nila e... :) hihi lalo na yung rugrats.

may exam pala ako bukas. ayoko na muna magpalit ng layout. haha kakatamad.

yey!

tapos na finals!! hahahaha pagod na ko. ang sakit ng katawan ko. bwahahahahahaha. lamog na lamog sa mata ko. hahahaha iyak ako ng iyak kagabi. bwahahaha sobrang iyakin pala ako... ano ba yan. hehe

gusto ko na umuwi!!!
i miss mommy and daddy! huhuhuhuhu