which star are you from?

another one sitting artwork! hehehe. wow, it's art overload in this blog. hehehe. hope you like it! inspired by the koreanovela WHICH STAR ARE YOU FROM? sucks because i can't watch it anymore starting this monday because i have to go to school already and i hardly get to watch TV in the dorm.

oryt! i have to go now, we're going to MoA again! so you know what that means? MIKE!

HOPEFULLY.
i'm getting tired already. >_>

i wanna write!!!!! :\

BUT I CAN'T!
i've realized this just recently. when i draw a lot, i seem to forget my writing skills (like i have one). i can't even start an introductory sentence! same goes during the times i'm so into writing stories, i can't seem to draw! why oh why can't i do them at the same time! it's like the creative juices are traveling a one-way path. when i'm at my 'drawing moment' and i try to write a story, it will look all crappy and erroneous. >.<

mehn. you should get me. grrr...

thing is, i want to write already. the story i've been planning to write about is now on its first paragraph! yeah, and it took me a looooot of time just to put those superdangit words together. i narrated the WHOOOLE story to my dad and HE LIKED IT! he even said it sounded like a movie and would make a bestseller. but come on, HE'S MY DAD. but seriously, i think it's a good story. i've asked three people about i already and they all think it's good. :) i'm not being boastful about it. i just need all the encouragement and positive criticisms i could garner for me to get started with it. it's really hard. >_>

sometimes i want to make it an original story with my very own characters. and when i do that, i'm gonna use a heterosexual pair. but i'm afraid it will reach only a few people since orig stories posted in the net aren't that popular.

lol.

that's why i'm using Harry and Draco for it. hahahaha.

Dear Lord,
i want my writing mojo back. >_> even though i know i'm a sucker for grammatical errors and inconsistent change of tenses (like what most of my reviewers complain about), i still want to get started with this new story. i know it's unfair because i still have 2 incomplete stories and its cruel to let readers hang on it like that... but please... hehe give me the wisdom! give me the right words to write! the right tenses to use! mehn.. can you just give me the GREATEST BETA READER IN THE WORLD???

Amen.

my heart says it all

:D hope you like it. another one of my artworks. i finished that just now. yeah, just one sitting! that's why i'm proud of it. hehehe. this is not a plain doodle anymore because i'm now trying to conceptualize my artworks. sort of putting a theme to every piece. i'm gonna miss doodling but for now i must, uhhh, innovate? grow? i dunno. i just want to incorporate different themes in my style of drawing.

i'm loving Shakey's V League right now! can't get enough of that volleyball action! but of course not all teams give me a WHOA while they're on court. i especially appreciate the lady falcons (adamson university) because of suzanne (?? not sure >.<)roces. her skills just knock me off the bed. BUT OF COURSE,

there's my favorite player, JINDARAT KANCHANA! a thai import. she plays for ateneo right now but last year she played for lasalle. yeah, i like her! even last year. and you know, she plays with an injured leg! now that's really.. uhh... great! haha. but seriously, even though there are a lot of players who are far better than her, she's the one that really caught my interest. she plays really well and i admire her a lot for that. ^__^

yesterday was really exhausting! early morning i went off to los banos to register. my friend jonathan and i agreed to meet at the bus terminal. when got there, he realized he just LOST HIS PHONE! his nokia N-something flip phone! some wacko thief from the ordinary bus stole it from his bag! i'm really sorry for him. i was even guilty for a while because we were texting when he's on the bus, the thief must have noticed his phone when he pulled it out to reply to my messages. :(

blah blah blah... UP at last!

when i got my form 5, there's a note stuck on it which says i have to cancel 1 unit or apply for overload. of course, i will apply for overload because if i cancel a subject, that's going to be 3 units off my workload and i'm gonna be underloaded by then.

and wait, i realized i didn't have enough money to pay the tuition fee! that's because the stupid online registration system turned off the matriculation assessment that's why i wasn't able to know how much exactly my tuition fee costs. and when i got there and looked at my form 5, i realized i was 200 pesos short! and i don't have money for the fare home too! so here's how my registration day took off:

i went to CEAT (college of eng'g...) to get my form 5, then i rushed to the dorm to hopefully find someone who can lend me money. THANKS A LOT TO TITA BETH (our landlady), she lend me 200 pesos plus my pamasahe! ♥ from there i went to the OUR (office of the univ. registrar) then to CEAT for the overload permit then to the Chemical Eng'g department for some signatures and approval then back to CEAT again to surrender my approved application for overload to the college secretary.

whew. i walked a LOT!
but thank God it's over!

keep moving forward

here's my most recent artwork or doodlework, whichever. that's half the size of a short bond paper. i made it awhile ago, while waiting for some mp3s to download completely. majorly inspired by the movie 'meet the robinsons' hence tiny the dinosaur, and the two guys on the right. :)

the guy on the rightmost part, that's wilbur robinson, he's my new crush! ♥ he reminds me a lot of jude law when he played as a mecha in AI!

wee. i'm proud of this one! but you see, the original version, as in the tangible thing sitting beside me... is way better that that. nevermind. hope you appreciate it. :)

here are 2 other versions . edited through photoshop. mehn. it looks better than the original. :( which do you prefer though?

filter > texture >craquelure

filter > artistic > cutout
i've already uploaded the original version in my devart account. see it here♥

all we need is love $$$$$

i just lost it. awhile ago there seems to be a lot of things i'm itching to write about and now they're all gone. :\ i forgot everything! grrr. anyhow. guess how long i was online this day? pretty much 10 hours. and it's conking on my head already. my sister needs me online so that she can have a 'live update' of her system-one account while she settles her schedule there in los banos. yeah, so from los banos to manila she texts me to check on her account for this and that. of course i would comply, who else would do the job? what's utterly difficult with it is that she asked me waitlist her in every subject in her recommended courses that fits in her schedule. can you imagine how tiresome that is?

it's pretty much like this, there are around 50 course openings and one by one i have to check their timeslot, if it fits in her preliminary schedule then i'm going to waitlist her there. and of course i have to make sure it doesn't conflict with one of her confirmed subjects. so there

much more, she asked me (ok, i volunteered) to email this 3 paged attachment to the ICS admin. i thought it was a piece of cake, sending an email attachment was never hard.
but getting a decent internet connection is.
i'm just going to email 3 superdangit files! i've scanned them already and tried to send it but because of our loser internet connection, 600kb worth of documents cannot be sent completely until after an hour. an hour. one superdangit hour. >_>;

and we haven't paid our internet bills yet. haha, what is this? payback time? i swear, when i get my own laptop i'm going to invest on wi-fi so that i wouldn't go through all the hassle of securing a telephone line an a sane internet service provider. all i need is lots of $$$$$$

anyhow, after that i'm free already. and by free, i mean i can now play chicken invaders without the cellphone ringing for more orders favors. ♥

my take on freedom

warning: long post ahead. sit back, relax and nevermind my grammatical errors.

yeah, it's june 12! everybody, let's celebrate!!!

ok, honestly. i don't feel this day. i just don't feel the freedom. or maybe i'm just not sure what freedom really is? why, do you have any idea what geniune freedom speaks about? no you don't. neither do i! except that i know that decades ago, a group of patriots died for it. yeah, we're taught about that in gradeschool and up to now, my knowledge of what freedom really is hasn't grown. >_> maybe i'm just too dumb. or maybe, we filipinos think we're so much deprived of everything that we don't anymore recognize what our national heroes fought for.

huuh? i don't know. even though it's our national independence day, it doesn't give me an excuse to write something sensible, much more deep and inquisitive, cos i don't do that. that's not me. my idea of things doesn't cross the borders of being an intellectual. i am not that. i'm shallow, really shallow, vain, conceited, vain, vain some more, i can't talk about anything else other that how my day went, yah... this is my little vanity outlet. i'll shut up now.

okok. i don't feel the freedom that is incorporated during independence days but i do feel freedom everyday! it's just not the type of freedom that rallyists fight for. but you see...

[o sige, FOREWARN: ang gulo ng kasunod nito. hahaha pero at least nasabi ko lahat, kahit na super incoherent na nya. wahehehe]

freedom has always been at hand

the problem is, we just let it sit on our palms. we don't grasp it like how it must be. you know what, once we (and i'm talking about us pinoys) grasp that piece of freedom that was distributed by our national heroes in each and every Filipino palm (>.<), we will understand that there is more to freedom than what's playing on our tv screens. we will get to understand that freedom isn't all about being heard by the government. real freedom lies within. check yourselves, and see in which aspect of your life you remain caged. once we free ourselves from our own personal cages, then real freedom begins.

uhh, friends... i know what i'm talking about, i just don't know if you understand. >_> i'm not so sure of my words, nor my illustrations but i just want share to you my own understanding of freedom. it's just that...

ganito yan. feeling kasi nating mga Pilipino, masyado tayong deprived! kesho bawal mag squat dito o kung san pa man, feeling natin we're being robbed of our right to live! like we're being deprived of our freedom to get a good shelter... but no. porque bawal ang ganito at ganyan, bawal dito at doon, feeling natin binabalik ulit tayo sa nakaraan kung saan inaapi tayo and inaalila ng mga animal na dayuhan na yan. pero hindeeeee, tayo ang umaabuso sa ating sariling kalayaan. we MUST understand that freedom does not give us an escuse to gain access to things that are forbidden by law. we MUST understand that national freedom is a state of independency from being a colony of a foreign nation. it's not a state of allowing every Filipino to do whatever he wants. >_>

and now we brag about our freedom being shackled once more, and by none other than our very own countrymen!

feeling natin hindi tayo pinapakinggan, pero ang totoo wala tayong alam kung ano ang tunay na sitwasyon ng bayan natin. kaya nga naghahalal tayo ng mamumuno, dahil sa kanya natin ini-aatas lahat ng tungkulin ng pagpapalago ng pilipinas. pero ang nangyayari, gusto lang natin ng may masisisi! puro tayo sisi! kasalanan ni ganito, kasi kurakot sya! kasalanan ni ganyan kasi hindi nya tayo pinakikinggan!

e kasi.. hmmm. sa totoo lang, iisa lang naman talaga ang gusto nating mangyari for our dearest Philippines. gusto natin itong mag prosper!! and by being prosperous, andyan na yung mabawasan ang people under the poverty line, mabawasan an krimen, graft and corruption, maging clean and green ang bayan, maging totoong Christian nation and pilipinas, yumaman ang bansa. yeah, lahat lahat yan kasama sa pagiging prosperous pero what we don't know is that THERE ARE MANY WAYS TO GET TO THAT. sobrang dami! and most of us fail to realize na iba't ibang daan ang tinatahak ng mga nakaupo sa pwesto para makarating don!

take gloria (i don't care kung galit ka sa kanya), economista sha so most probably she'll focus on our economy para mapalago ang bansa dahil yun ang expertise nya, yun ang tinapos nya eh. h'bout kung iba ang presidente? let's take a teacher? kung teacher ang presidente, malamang magfofocus sha sa education para masolusyunan ang problema ng bansa. e kung military man ang naging presidente? possible martial law, magiging supere strict and batas,so you see, iba't ibang tao, iba't ibang paraan, pero iisa lang ang layunin. and we don't realize that.

gusto natin yung gusto natin ang masusunod, feeling natin yun ang tama. pero ang totoo we're just being selfish. wala tayong masisi kaya puro tayo OUST OUST OUST! rally dito rally doon. e ano ba yang mga rally na yan? nanghahatak lang naman yan ng mga adik sa kanto para magbuhat ng banners and streamers ah. binabayaran lang sila. tapos magkakatraffic, magkakaroon ng mga aksidente, may magbubungguan, tapos sisisihin ang MMDA dahil kulang ang traffic signs. HUWAAAT? e magkanda duling duling na nga ako sa kababasa ng mga paalala nila sa daan eh. yun nga lang ang liit ng font, it'll take a while for me to finish reading. hmmph. so yun, maninisi nanaman .tayo! tapos mamaya magagalit tayo dahil ang dumi dumi ng pilipinas. tanga. e kalat mo yun eh! >_>

ay ewan basta.
tigilan na ang paninisi. just keep quiet kung reklamo lang naman ang sasabihin mo dahil the truth is, alam na NILA yan. ginagawan na nga ng paraan e. feeling mo kasi ang dali dali lang non.

hintay ka lang dude.
kain muna. gutom lang yan. hahahaha

oha. ang labo ko.

you're the man, wilbur!

-yesterday was fun! terai, kache, yndi, kim and i went to trinoma.
-picture taken at this picture booth (my name ba yun?) at Timezone.
-we watched Meet the Robinsons!! yeah! it's now my favorite movie! watch it to know why! :)
-hahaha terai bought the wasabi flavored popcorn from taters. o.O
-then we ate at yellowcab, where i consumed 2 slices of an 18 inch ny classic pizza.

-and theeeennnn.... dairy queeen! yeheeeeey.
-then after a while... uwi uwi.

aww, the end.

terai and i arrived home at around 1030pm. lol. thanks kachee for the ride!

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ay teka. naguguluhan pa ako. basta super fun yung kahapon! now, i'm still waiting for kachee to post the pictures on her multiply... excited na ko nakawin lahat yon! hahaha e kasi ang saya saya eh. nyhahahhaa