my take on freedom

warning: long post ahead. sit back, relax and nevermind my grammatical errors.

yeah, it's june 12! everybody, let's celebrate!!!

ok, honestly. i don't feel this day. i just don't feel the freedom. or maybe i'm just not sure what freedom really is? why, do you have any idea what geniune freedom speaks about? no you don't. neither do i! except that i know that decades ago, a group of patriots died for it. yeah, we're taught about that in gradeschool and up to now, my knowledge of what freedom really is hasn't grown. >_> maybe i'm just too dumb. or maybe, we filipinos think we're so much deprived of everything that we don't anymore recognize what our national heroes fought for.

huuh? i don't know. even though it's our national independence day, it doesn't give me an excuse to write something sensible, much more deep and inquisitive, cos i don't do that. that's not me. my idea of things doesn't cross the borders of being an intellectual. i am not that. i'm shallow, really shallow, vain, conceited, vain, vain some more, i can't talk about anything else other that how my day went, yah... this is my little vanity outlet. i'll shut up now.

okok. i don't feel the freedom that is incorporated during independence days but i do feel freedom everyday! it's just not the type of freedom that rallyists fight for. but you see...

[o sige, FOREWARN: ang gulo ng kasunod nito. hahaha pero at least nasabi ko lahat, kahit na super incoherent na nya. wahehehe]

freedom has always been at hand

the problem is, we just let it sit on our palms. we don't grasp it like how it must be. you know what, once we (and i'm talking about us pinoys) grasp that piece of freedom that was distributed by our national heroes in each and every Filipino palm (>.<), we will understand that there is more to freedom than what's playing on our tv screens. we will get to understand that freedom isn't all about being heard by the government. real freedom lies within. check yourselves, and see in which aspect of your life you remain caged. once we free ourselves from our own personal cages, then real freedom begins.

uhh, friends... i know what i'm talking about, i just don't know if you understand. >_> i'm not so sure of my words, nor my illustrations but i just want share to you my own understanding of freedom. it's just that...

ganito yan. feeling kasi nating mga Pilipino, masyado tayong deprived! kesho bawal mag squat dito o kung san pa man, feeling natin we're being robbed of our right to live! like we're being deprived of our freedom to get a good shelter... but no. porque bawal ang ganito at ganyan, bawal dito at doon, feeling natin binabalik ulit tayo sa nakaraan kung saan inaapi tayo and inaalila ng mga animal na dayuhan na yan. pero hindeeeee, tayo ang umaabuso sa ating sariling kalayaan. we MUST understand that freedom does not give us an escuse to gain access to things that are forbidden by law. we MUST understand that national freedom is a state of independency from being a colony of a foreign nation. it's not a state of allowing every Filipino to do whatever he wants. >_>

and now we brag about our freedom being shackled once more, and by none other than our very own countrymen!

feeling natin hindi tayo pinapakinggan, pero ang totoo wala tayong alam kung ano ang tunay na sitwasyon ng bayan natin. kaya nga naghahalal tayo ng mamumuno, dahil sa kanya natin ini-aatas lahat ng tungkulin ng pagpapalago ng pilipinas. pero ang nangyayari, gusto lang natin ng may masisisi! puro tayo sisi! kasalanan ni ganito, kasi kurakot sya! kasalanan ni ganyan kasi hindi nya tayo pinakikinggan!

e kasi.. hmmm. sa totoo lang, iisa lang naman talaga ang gusto nating mangyari for our dearest Philippines. gusto natin itong mag prosper!! and by being prosperous, andyan na yung mabawasan ang people under the poverty line, mabawasan an krimen, graft and corruption, maging clean and green ang bayan, maging totoong Christian nation and pilipinas, yumaman ang bansa. yeah, lahat lahat yan kasama sa pagiging prosperous pero what we don't know is that THERE ARE MANY WAYS TO GET TO THAT. sobrang dami! and most of us fail to realize na iba't ibang daan ang tinatahak ng mga nakaupo sa pwesto para makarating don!

take gloria (i don't care kung galit ka sa kanya), economista sha so most probably she'll focus on our economy para mapalago ang bansa dahil yun ang expertise nya, yun ang tinapos nya eh. h'bout kung iba ang presidente? let's take a teacher? kung teacher ang presidente, malamang magfofocus sha sa education para masolusyunan ang problema ng bansa. e kung military man ang naging presidente? possible martial law, magiging supere strict and batas,so you see, iba't ibang tao, iba't ibang paraan, pero iisa lang ang layunin. and we don't realize that.

gusto natin yung gusto natin ang masusunod, feeling natin yun ang tama. pero ang totoo we're just being selfish. wala tayong masisi kaya puro tayo OUST OUST OUST! rally dito rally doon. e ano ba yang mga rally na yan? nanghahatak lang naman yan ng mga adik sa kanto para magbuhat ng banners and streamers ah. binabayaran lang sila. tapos magkakatraffic, magkakaroon ng mga aksidente, may magbubungguan, tapos sisisihin ang MMDA dahil kulang ang traffic signs. HUWAAAT? e magkanda duling duling na nga ako sa kababasa ng mga paalala nila sa daan eh. yun nga lang ang liit ng font, it'll take a while for me to finish reading. hmmph. so yun, maninisi nanaman .tayo! tapos mamaya magagalit tayo dahil ang dumi dumi ng pilipinas. tanga. e kalat mo yun eh! >_>

ay ewan basta.
tigilan na ang paninisi. just keep quiet kung reklamo lang naman ang sasabihin mo dahil the truth is, alam na NILA yan. ginagawan na nga ng paraan e. feeling mo kasi ang dali dali lang non.

hintay ka lang dude.
kain muna. gutom lang yan. hahahaha

oha. ang labo ko.

you're the man, wilbur!

-yesterday was fun! terai, kache, yndi, kim and i went to trinoma.
-picture taken at this picture booth (my name ba yun?) at Timezone.
-we watched Meet the Robinsons!! yeah! it's now my favorite movie! watch it to know why! :)
-hahaha terai bought the wasabi flavored popcorn from taters. o.O
-then we ate at yellowcab, where i consumed 2 slices of an 18 inch ny classic pizza.

-and theeeennnn.... dairy queeen! yeheeeeey.
-then after a while... uwi uwi.

aww, the end.

terai and i arrived home at around 1030pm. lol. thanks kachee for the ride!

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ay teka. naguguluhan pa ako. basta super fun yung kahapon! now, i'm still waiting for kachee to post the pictures on her multiply... excited na ko nakawin lahat yon! hahaha e kasi ang saya saya eh. nyhahahhaa

ok, what have i done?

wtf, i'm totally LOST in wordpress. i was checking my stats and found a referrer from a search engine where the keyword was 'uplb'. being curious i entered the referrer link and hopped through a lot of uplb campus websites. i found a uplbbloggers.pinoyblogosphere... blahblah then i registered on that site and also to their mailing list. i have just confirmed both accounts AND NOW I WANT TO DEACTIVATE THEM. i'm totally not thinking on why, in the first place, i signed up. not that i don't want to, i'm still fixing my retarded mailbox forcryingoutloud and for the meantime i make it a point not to use it for subscriptions.

wotchit!

look at the superwotcher schedule!

today is the opening of the online registration in uplb. i woke up at 6am to check my sched and i'm lucky enough to be given an instant 20 units! however, look at my sched and see my agony. they practically took my lunchbreak away! and i HAVE to eat on time because i'm hyperacidic! huhuhuhu my mom doesn't like my schedule as well, but it's better than being underloaded. hehehe and i don't have PE2! anyhow it's ok, i mean i couldn't afford to add another subject to my sched. and i'm really thankful that i only have 1 subject on fridays because that means i can go home early! yehey!

mehn, i have 3 labs! physics3 (dangit, i hate physics!), chem32 (the hardest chem, they say) and chem40 (considered as the pinaka walang kwentang chem - in this subject which is basic organic chem... all we do is synthesize those superdangit piatos shaped carbon molecules and gape at their wondrousness. ulk T_T)

so far i'm happy with my schedule! :D

lucky letter of the day

comment on this post, and I shall give you a letter. List ten things that relate to your life that start with the letter i gave you.

nez gave me the letter B!

1. Blog - i always blog. yeah
2. Birthdays - of course! i get one every year! and you too as well...
3. Books - i love reading
4. Boredom - it's been part of my life
5. Banana - one i can't live without when eating in los banos because it keeps the doctor away better than apples. :)
6. Bordo's Burgers - my favorite burger resto! yeah, better than BK! cheaper too! only in elbi! hehe
7. Boys? - i'm obviously running out of choices >_>
8. Batteries - i always make sure i have plenty on stock for my mp3 player
9. Bookmarks - i enjoy custom-making bookmarks! and yeah, i can't read without a bookmark... unles it's a textbook
10. Bed - yeah, we all love sleeping! wait, i just thought of this right now...the bed is the loveliest thing ever! why? because love always happens there! lol. corny... >_>

awhile ago, like 4PM... my dad and i went to swim at the clubhouse! yey. it's actually my first swim this summer. i just couldn't let my summer vacation pass by without me gracing a pool. haha more like drowning in a pool actually.

so yeah, we had fun. the best thing was the clouds were so dim and it actually rained so i don't have to bother with getting darker, plus we're the only people in the pool, so we owned it for 2 hours. but then, the pool wasn't so clean... so, i'd give that a thumbs down and a loud boo. i could even remember choking on an insect while i was floating, good thing i was able to cough it out before i completely swallow the humongous thing. o.O yuck.

and tomorrow, i have to wake up early for the online enlistment. i just hope i get all my subjects because mehn i couldn't afford to be underloaded cos that would mean a greater delay on my part. then when afternoon comes terai and i will leave and meet with kache, yndi and kim at TriNoma. sounds fun! :)

oh yeah, i wasn't able to go to our barkada gimmick today at trinoma. sorry. ^^;

watafrik

>_> my head hurts, danngit! >_> mehn. i almost hated this day! yesterday i asked mom for permission to go to MoA with terai and ate theresa this friday after terai's seminar and she said yes. and by yes, it means that it's ok for her if we arrive home during the wee hours of the night since we're leaving at 5pm and friday means traffic. but now she changed her mind. i guess she isn't really thinking right when she allowed me yesterday, not that i'm saying it's a wrong thing to allow us but heh, it equally pisses me off. >_>

really, i couldn't care much about MoA if it weren't for mike. haha, yeah he's the lucky bloke. i still want to see him. to check if he still remembers me (though i doubt it but i just want to make sure. wahaha) or if he'll still put a heart on my name. oh yeh, before you get something out of this... i just want to remind you that i don't like him like that. i like him like a friend. huuuh? go figure! and besides, his being a barista is one of the major reasons why i want to be friends with him. i could just imagine if he's someone from, say seattle's best or mocha blends, i guess i wouldn't even look out for him next time... but the thing is, he's from starbucks. my favorite coffee shop. my favorite logo. my favorite drink.

you see, before i got into this horrible situation that i'm in where i have to impose a military-like discipline on my own and ground myself on coffee... i am the biggest freak that i know. everytime i visit starbucks and purchase a drink, i get two pieces of tissue paper and also one of those brochures that are displayed behind the chorva counter (whatever that's called.. alam nyo na yun). just 1 though. hahaha because i'm embarrassed (sp?) to, you know, GET THEM ALL AT THE SAME TIME. mehn dyahe. >_> and you know what i do with the tissue paper? the first tissue i use to hold the cup cos it's cold, and second... i fold it neatly and tuck it inside the brochure. yahahaha wattafreak. so you know, visit by visit, drink by drink, i managed to collect ALLLLL of the brochures displayed on that chorva counter. yaaah including the spark of hope donation slip. wahehehehehe. and i made sure they have their own tissue paper tucked in. what's that for? really, i don't know.

also, i already mentioned before that i collect cups as well. hehehe but only those that i can hide while going home. lol. i wouldn't want to be seen carrying empty sb plastic cups when i could just throw them away. yeah, i'm a freak but i'm also trying hard not to show it. ahahahahaha

anyhow, it's just a little collection of SB stuff that i've gathered. h'bout the planner? oh i don't have that. i drink a lot of coffee but i don't always drink at SB. come on, i also have my own box of instant coffee here at home and it's not like i'm gonna get a free planner with that. and besides, i don't feel like desecrating their planner with my unruly penmanship. err... i didn't mean that.

hmm... ohyeah back to the present. ok so no MoA tomorrow. hmph i even asked my sister if i could just buy the drink for her just so i could stand on that counter once again and chikiniyayatimanunggaasdfghjklqwertyuiop nevermind.

haaaaaaaayy.

a beautiful mind

writer's block! grrr... i keep on staring at the ms word file i made and nothing seems to spring out from my brain. so far i've only made 1 sentence. yeah, 1 superdanggit sentence and it looks like it's gonna take a long time before the 2 second sentence appears. grrr... everything has been planned out in my brain already! how harry and draco will meet, how the conflict will surface, how harry will struggle with his emotions... including the ending! i've already planned out the ending but i'm here... squeezing my brains out to translate these images into a comprehensible language. waaaahhhh!!!

so if you've noticed (only if you've been here before) i made a few, really minor, changes in this blog. yeah, that includes the rounded edges on the header image as well as the entry box. honestly, i had a hard time 'rounding-up' the edges of the image because... nyaah... i simply don't know how to use it in photoshop. >_> i had to fumble through it do be able to get the desired effect. though i'm not sure if this layout is well-parsed in your browsers cos i also edited the margins... i'm afraid it'll looked skrewed up in other computers. does it?

orayt! i need to get inspired!