some things are better off untold

people who say that end up blogging their lives anyway.

this is the first day i'm spending whatever is left of my summer vacation out of the university and it sucks because the sky is not rejoicing with me. >_>;

wait. today is our batch reunion! and i'm home. i told you i'm not coming. i don't have any reason to, anyway. not that i don't miss my batchmates... i just hate the weather right now. grrr..

i'm freeeeeeee

yet i'm so bored. guess where i am? i'm here at edsa shang. chilling out, wasting money online. and they freakin charge 60 pesos per hour! i guess i'm not really used to it, back in los banos i only pay 20 per hour and at home we only pay 400 a month for unlimited internet access, so why am i here? what am i doing here? the answer is... i don't know. haha. this internet shop is like 300% more expensive. haha hello arianne, you're in metro-effin-manila. so how was this day?

yeah this day started out really freaky. so after the victory christian fellowship i attended last night, i went back to the dorm and drank a high-kicking instant coffee to last me till the wee hours of the night cos apparently i haven't studied for the final exams. so there i was staring blankly at my notes, not really doing anything productive. i continued doing so until i reached 12mn. i'm still wide awake oyeah! so there i continued to stare blankly at my notes until boredom struck me and what do i do when i'm bored? lalalala don't play with you doodle! doodle doodle doodle doodle it tonight! roight. so i doodled, you know me so let's skip that.

blah blah blah blah don't play with you doodle...

i was still busy doodling and the same time reading my notes when a CAT suddenly passed me by. i was like, 'hoy. anong ginagawa mo dito?' my eyes immediately darted to the door and saw it double locked (triple even) SO HOW THE HELL DID THAT CAT ENTER THE DOOOORRRRMMMM????? i panicked and checked the time. and mehn would you believe it's 3:07am already??? knowing my watch it must be 5 minutes advanced so hell it's almost 3am.

mehn. why do strange things happen at 3am? so you see, i took that freaky incident as a sign that i must go to sleep already, even though the caffeine is still kicking malevolently in my nerves. so yeah, i fixed my things and went to sleep. only to find out i can't sleep! oooh this is so not new. i'm used to it. so i just lay there in my bed, paranoia consuming over my head. i'm imagining things. spooky things like the cat purring. it's not healthy to stay that late, i'm mutating into a zombie now.

so there, i didn't sleep. not even an effin minute. i can't sleep dangit!

i sat up at 5:30, ate breakfast, took a bath and finally made my way to physci building for the finals. yadda yadda yadda... it was easier. i just hope i pass chem17.

and now?

after the test i rode the bus to ortigas. now while in the bus, there's this maranatha teacher who stood up and started preaching the gospel. well, she's not so convincing because she looked snob but then the funny part was when on the height of her preaching, the bus stopped and several vendors entered, so along side her "hallelujas" we hear "buko pie? buko pie?" "mineral! C2!" "mani! mani! mani kayo dyan! bagong luto!" and also "crackers! espasol! shingaling! cassava!" ahahahahaaaa. and she looked annoyed. oh well.

and right after her preaching, the conductor turned on the radio and this came to our ears, "people killing people dying, children hurtin and you hear them crying, CAN YOU PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH...." lalalalalaa... oh what great timing Love Radio. hahaha

and then... i went to megamall and ate lunch in yoshinoya and guess who's behind me on the counter? hehe nothing really, just Kris Lawrence. i'm not really his fan. heck i only recognized him because of his trademark way of wearing a bandana under a fedora and his KL bling-bling. now who's vain yo?

and so after eating i looked around a bit. i was fighting the urge to go home because i'm really sleepy but i realized i won't be given another chance like this to do everything i please without thinking about schoolwork and worrying about my decaying grades... so i indulged! i didn't buy a lot, in fact i just spent most of my money on food... i mean on coffee. hehehe.

i went to national bookstore to buy some ballpens but i got discouraged by the mob of consumers and the suffocating atmosphere. i've lost track of time, while i am only ABOUT to enjoy my summer vacation, these people are just ABOUT to start another schoolyear. unfaaaair. can't take the loooong lines so i just tried some ballpens on the counter and didn't buy anything. how fascinating. ballpens are really fascinating... they come in different colors and different ballpoints and well, they're just so coool. hehehe then someone poked me on the back! it's aika! and there's mai too. hihi small world! glad to see them again.

blah blah blah blah blah. then i went to shangrila plaza just to check it out. bought some coffee. and aww i saw PJ Valerio again! he's so cute. mehn. he's way better looking in person than on screen. hahahaha. so he made around 50% of my day. the first part of this entry explains what happens next. so if you can still follow my day (hope you do!) after walking around the plaza i went online and the first half of the entry was made at that very expensive net cafe. can you follow? cos i don't really care if you can't.

then i went home. good thing i took an airconditioned bus instead of an ordinary one or else i'll be soaking wet right now.

ooooops. i forgot to bring my lab manual in which my most recent doodle was inserted. aw mehn. ok, next week when i get back to los banos i'm not gonna forget it for sure.

what about tomorrow?

i'm not coming on the reunion. maybe because it might rain hard and i have no transpo. and maybe because i'm DEAD TIRED right now that i can't afford to go out anymore. i miss my batchmates, yeah but not as much as i miss resting. forgive me. maybe next time? i'm just too worn out for my own good.

victory christian fellowship

it's a christian fellowship here in uplb at the 5th floor of Vega Center. it was great! ehehehe, eh first time ko kasi eh. and i must say it's better than the last youth fellowship i attended. sabi ko nga i'm going to continue attending this 1st sem para naman happy ang spiritual life ko. kasi feeling ko ever since i entered college i'm becoming more and more distant to Lord, eh ayaw nya non. at ayaw ko rin non kaya nga i'm so thankful that july introduced this thing to me. it's full of friendly and joyful people and i love the music. ganun din kasi ung kinakanta namin sa church namin pero mas gusto ko yung dito... rock! hahahaha...

o yun nga. i saw a lot of familiar faces. you know, people i never thought would consider a place like that. lam nyo yun? pero it's nice to know na ganun nga. labo. hehehe o basta. i had fun.

temptation temptation. internet=temptation. instead of studying for our final exams tomorrow. eto... blog! okok. aalis na rin naman ako.. so just wait.

oh yeah, before i forget. the guy i was online stalking eras ago(oo sha nanaman! haha) i saw him today! haha and hindi na sha kasing gwapo gaya ng dati. hahaha and prince? i saw him sa mcdo nung isang araw.. he cut his hair. ayon, di na rin sha kasing cute ng dati. hahaha o sige forget about them...

tomorrow is the day!!!

aral na kooo!
pray for me! I NEED TO PASS!!!

girl from ipanema

bloomfield's version is so much better than sitti's and the original artist's! i'm loving bloomfields more and more! hehehe

so.. today is wednesday. one more sleep to go before i'm OFICIALLY FREEEEE of all the err... troubles of summer classes. haaay, my summer is ending sooooon and i can't believe i haven't done anything fun yet. yeah, i'm counting on the sem-ender!! yey! sem-ender! although i'm not close to most of my lab mates... there's july and kat. with them i can bear everything. hahahaha i just hope july would still consider the outing if all 3 sections are present.

which, again, leads me to talk about A-3L. july makes me wonder a lot. what the hell is so despisable with that section? as far as i'm concerned, they're not doing anything wrong. hahaha so what's up with the whole avoiding them when we happen to pass each other by. lol. yesterday i accompanied her to an internet shop to search for a song she's performing 3 weeks from now and there we saw some A3L guys plus kriston. she almost wanted to transfer net cafes... but whatever. i'm not writing further about this.

hey. robin is here! and he's done with math36! good for him! hehehe

i'm excited for tomorrow. i just hope it doesn't rain so that i can push through with my mall hopping agenda. actually, i'm not gonna buy anything... cos i don't need anything right now. i'm tired of megamall and there are a hell lot of malls around mega so i must try them all before i get robbed of the opportunity.

heeey! i have a new doodle!! and the title, 'starbucks'. hahaha because when i finished the piece the starbucks logo that i drew looked like the centerpiece. bwahahahaha. i haven't scanned it yet. wait till tomorrow night. hihihi.

hmmm... you know what. i'd love to shut up about mike. okok. i'm not talking about him anymore. :) i just realized that "we" are not gonna happen. yeah, and i'm so cheerful about it. i just want us to be friends! yeah, that's more like it. referrals can come in handy if someday... the wind blows me to apply as a barista. i want to work at starbucks. >.< haha just like you, really.

rant

i don't understand. i joined this community in deviantart.com called Elite Artists to at least give my artworks a little exposure. i submitted this piece because it think it's worth the attention of some artists. i consider it my best piece so far! and they denied my submission saying they don't accept doodles and sketches.

yes it's a doodle, but it's NOT just a mere doodle which can be described as 'a fruit of scribbling idly while procastinating on studies'. i started out with DOODLING and i ended up with a masterpiece. i didn't draw aimlessly. on my doodles you will see MY LIFE tangled up on a graphing paper.

doodle. a shallow word, a foolish activity. now is it? dooooodling. it's the only thing i'm good at. and i don't even need to get in the mood for it. why do people ignore doodles and take them as trash? something not worthy of the limelight? something 'unfinished' and not fit for display?

i tell you, doodles reveal more secrets that most artworks. uggh, believe me and look at the back of your notebooks. see what you've written/drawn on them. there's your crush's name adorned with cute little hearts and frilly borders. that's art. doodle is ART!!!!!! without you knowing -your idle moments, the times when boredom is knocking you off your feet- is the time when you absentmindedly pour out your dormant creative juices.

whatever. i'm looking for a new club.
and i'm going to draw a new doodle tonight! yehey!

who says i'm grounded on coffee?

no mike for today. i thought i was gonna see him but no... he's probably off duty. i mean, it's a sunday, for crying out loud! of course he should be out. lol. anyhow i had fun this day...

first we went to church, then we headed directly to MoA. we parked outside the imax theatre and ate IN THE CAR. yes, as in we brought a bunch of picnic baskets packed with sawali plates and banana leaves. we feasted on rilyenong bangus, fried tilapia, mangoes and cucumber. love it. hahahaha. then we finally went in the mall. we didn't do much, in fact we have no plans in mind, we just want to stroll and me? i just want to see mike ♥ lol.

i thought my mom's really really serious with me being grounded on coffee but i realized it was just a big joke when she pulled out a bill from her wallet and cheerfully asked us to buy 3 drinks. i was beyond dumbfounded.

finally! mom, you're the greatest! i even prepared myself to sneak out of the car to get some coffee but mehn, i'm speechless. hahaha

so there. i'm high on coffee.
sadly though, like what i've mentioned earlier. mike wasn't there. but i'm not sad nor disappointed that all my efforts planning for our dramatic (LOL) re-encountering was wasted. hahaha. in fact, i was sort of thankful that i didn't see him today because... i don't look my best. i'm not on a red day. pms makes most girls look prettier, i believe sooo. and the first time i met him... i had my first red day and naturally when i look in the mirror there's still abnormally red tint flushed on my cheeks. at times you gotta hate it when that happens but during that time i didn't care. haha, i was thankful even.

nevermind him. after a short while, we left... then we went to my cousin's house (she just gave birth!) to pay a visit. blah blah blah...

orayt. i guess that ends it. :D

ayos!

mom says we're going to MoA tomorrow. and to me.. MoA spells mike ♥
i can't believe i'm not yet over him. >.<

unfortunately... i'm grounded on coffee!! and my mom is so serious about it. as in "hindi ka pwede magkape!!" hahaha. ok lang yun. i mean, if he's not on duty then i'm not buying anything! but if he's there on the counter, then i'm buying a tumbler, i've been planning on buying one anyway (swear, it's not an excuse), i just couldn't get the chance OR i just couldn't get the right person behind the cash register. hahaha. and look, if i buy a tumbler i'm gonna get a free drink, which i'm going to turn into a coupon to use for the next time. lol. why, i'm so excited to see him again. just that. to see him again. yeah, it would be better if we actually talk. but it's better not to look forward to that. i'm not getting my hopes up. shempre naman.

haaaay. i'm thrilled! tomorrow must be a damn good day! it should be! it must be! (arrgh, is there a stronger term?)
whew. now i recall something...

if you're destined to get something, the universe itself will conspire to its fulfillment.

which means, i shouldn't be planning on how our next encounter should be like because if we're destined to meet again, the universe will do the planning.

fck. what's happening to me? i'm now taking the whole universe into my silly, little, and could be imaginary lovelife! and wait... why did 'destiny' suddenly barge into this one???

i don't know what's happening to meeeeeeee.

let's give it a toast, shall we?