victory christian fellowship

it's a christian fellowship here in uplb at the 5th floor of Vega Center. it was great! ehehehe, eh first time ko kasi eh. and i must say it's better than the last youth fellowship i attended. sabi ko nga i'm going to continue attending this 1st sem para naman happy ang spiritual life ko. kasi feeling ko ever since i entered college i'm becoming more and more distant to Lord, eh ayaw nya non. at ayaw ko rin non kaya nga i'm so thankful that july introduced this thing to me. it's full of friendly and joyful people and i love the music. ganun din kasi ung kinakanta namin sa church namin pero mas gusto ko yung dito... rock! hahahaha...

o yun nga. i saw a lot of familiar faces. you know, people i never thought would consider a place like that. lam nyo yun? pero it's nice to know na ganun nga. labo. hehehe o basta. i had fun.

temptation temptation. internet=temptation. instead of studying for our final exams tomorrow. eto... blog! okok. aalis na rin naman ako.. so just wait.

oh yeah, before i forget. the guy i was online stalking eras ago(oo sha nanaman! haha) i saw him today! haha and hindi na sha kasing gwapo gaya ng dati. hahaha and prince? i saw him sa mcdo nung isang araw.. he cut his hair. ayon, di na rin sha kasing cute ng dati. hahaha o sige forget about them...

tomorrow is the day!!!

aral na kooo!
pray for me! I NEED TO PASS!!!

girl from ipanema

bloomfield's version is so much better than sitti's and the original artist's! i'm loving bloomfields more and more! hehehe

so.. today is wednesday. one more sleep to go before i'm OFICIALLY FREEEEE of all the err... troubles of summer classes. haaay, my summer is ending sooooon and i can't believe i haven't done anything fun yet. yeah, i'm counting on the sem-ender!! yey! sem-ender! although i'm not close to most of my lab mates... there's july and kat. with them i can bear everything. hahahaha i just hope july would still consider the outing if all 3 sections are present.

which, again, leads me to talk about A-3L. july makes me wonder a lot. what the hell is so despisable with that section? as far as i'm concerned, they're not doing anything wrong. hahaha so what's up with the whole avoiding them when we happen to pass each other by. lol. yesterday i accompanied her to an internet shop to search for a song she's performing 3 weeks from now and there we saw some A3L guys plus kriston. she almost wanted to transfer net cafes... but whatever. i'm not writing further about this.

hey. robin is here! and he's done with math36! good for him! hehehe

i'm excited for tomorrow. i just hope it doesn't rain so that i can push through with my mall hopping agenda. actually, i'm not gonna buy anything... cos i don't need anything right now. i'm tired of megamall and there are a hell lot of malls around mega so i must try them all before i get robbed of the opportunity.

heeey! i have a new doodle!! and the title, 'starbucks'. hahaha because when i finished the piece the starbucks logo that i drew looked like the centerpiece. bwahahahaha. i haven't scanned it yet. wait till tomorrow night. hihihi.

hmmm... you know what. i'd love to shut up about mike. okok. i'm not talking about him anymore. :) i just realized that "we" are not gonna happen. yeah, and i'm so cheerful about it. i just want us to be friends! yeah, that's more like it. referrals can come in handy if someday... the wind blows me to apply as a barista. i want to work at starbucks. >.< haha just like you, really.

rant

i don't understand. i joined this community in deviantart.com called Elite Artists to at least give my artworks a little exposure. i submitted this piece because it think it's worth the attention of some artists. i consider it my best piece so far! and they denied my submission saying they don't accept doodles and sketches.

yes it's a doodle, but it's NOT just a mere doodle which can be described as 'a fruit of scribbling idly while procastinating on studies'. i started out with DOODLING and i ended up with a masterpiece. i didn't draw aimlessly. on my doodles you will see MY LIFE tangled up on a graphing paper.

doodle. a shallow word, a foolish activity. now is it? dooooodling. it's the only thing i'm good at. and i don't even need to get in the mood for it. why do people ignore doodles and take them as trash? something not worthy of the limelight? something 'unfinished' and not fit for display?

i tell you, doodles reveal more secrets that most artworks. uggh, believe me and look at the back of your notebooks. see what you've written/drawn on them. there's your crush's name adorned with cute little hearts and frilly borders. that's art. doodle is ART!!!!!! without you knowing -your idle moments, the times when boredom is knocking you off your feet- is the time when you absentmindedly pour out your dormant creative juices.

whatever. i'm looking for a new club.
and i'm going to draw a new doodle tonight! yehey!

who says i'm grounded on coffee?

no mike for today. i thought i was gonna see him but no... he's probably off duty. i mean, it's a sunday, for crying out loud! of course he should be out. lol. anyhow i had fun this day...

first we went to church, then we headed directly to MoA. we parked outside the imax theatre and ate IN THE CAR. yes, as in we brought a bunch of picnic baskets packed with sawali plates and banana leaves. we feasted on rilyenong bangus, fried tilapia, mangoes and cucumber. love it. hahahaha. then we finally went in the mall. we didn't do much, in fact we have no plans in mind, we just want to stroll and me? i just want to see mike ♥ lol.

i thought my mom's really really serious with me being grounded on coffee but i realized it was just a big joke when she pulled out a bill from her wallet and cheerfully asked us to buy 3 drinks. i was beyond dumbfounded.

finally! mom, you're the greatest! i even prepared myself to sneak out of the car to get some coffee but mehn, i'm speechless. hahaha

so there. i'm high on coffee.
sadly though, like what i've mentioned earlier. mike wasn't there. but i'm not sad nor disappointed that all my efforts planning for our dramatic (LOL) re-encountering was wasted. hahaha. in fact, i was sort of thankful that i didn't see him today because... i don't look my best. i'm not on a red day. pms makes most girls look prettier, i believe sooo. and the first time i met him... i had my first red day and naturally when i look in the mirror there's still abnormally red tint flushed on my cheeks. at times you gotta hate it when that happens but during that time i didn't care. haha, i was thankful even.

nevermind him. after a short while, we left... then we went to my cousin's house (she just gave birth!) to pay a visit. blah blah blah...

orayt. i guess that ends it. :D

ayos!

mom says we're going to MoA tomorrow. and to me.. MoA spells mike ♥
i can't believe i'm not yet over him. >.<

unfortunately... i'm grounded on coffee!! and my mom is so serious about it. as in "hindi ka pwede magkape!!" hahaha. ok lang yun. i mean, if he's not on duty then i'm not buying anything! but if he's there on the counter, then i'm buying a tumbler, i've been planning on buying one anyway (swear, it's not an excuse), i just couldn't get the chance OR i just couldn't get the right person behind the cash register. hahaha. and look, if i buy a tumbler i'm gonna get a free drink, which i'm going to turn into a coupon to use for the next time. lol. why, i'm so excited to see him again. just that. to see him again. yeah, it would be better if we actually talk. but it's better not to look forward to that. i'm not getting my hopes up. shempre naman.

haaaay. i'm thrilled! tomorrow must be a damn good day! it should be! it must be! (arrgh, is there a stronger term?)
whew. now i recall something...

if you're destined to get something, the universe itself will conspire to its fulfillment.

which means, i shouldn't be planning on how our next encounter should be like because if we're destined to meet again, the universe will do the planning.

fck. what's happening to me? i'm now taking the whole universe into my silly, little, and could be imaginary lovelife! and wait... why did 'destiny' suddenly barge into this one???

i don't know what's happening to meeeeeeee.

let's give it a toast, shall we?

success is the ability to accept one failure after another without losing your enthusiasm

oyeah! kumusta naman na 1 out of 6 long exams palang ang napapasa ko? this is not new to me mehn. last term i only passed 2 out of 8 exams and i still passed the subject! though it doesn't give me a reason to stay unalarmed and indifferent. i want to transfer pa naman... as in transfer to diliman in another course. ikamamatay kong mag chem. eng sa diliman (khit na marami nagsasabi mas mahirap sa uplb) kasi... majority of their oblation scholars are in chem. eng! i'll be totally ridiculed and humiliated if ever.

let's leave that topic.

i miss GRAVITATION!!!! lalihooooooo! alam nyo ba yooooon? hah! anime yan... yaoi! wuhooo!

and wait... i want to have a sem-ender for our chem17 class (kung papasa ako). i mean ok na sakin yung section A-1L lang (LOL. hlatang my ayaw na section o). hindeeee, joke lang. cge cge khit buong chem17 na lang. anu ba naman yung 60 people diba? classmates ko parin naman yun. hahaha. as if naman my sem-ender talaga. pero di nga... gusto ko my sem-ender para masaya. i haven't gone out yet! i want to swiiiimmm!! yeeey.

haynaku. please please kailangan ko pumasa sa chem17. napaka-grrrrr naman kasi ng mga lab exams namin. as in grrrrr i'm totally clueless on what to do. grrrrrrr

lol. basta. on the 21st... last lecture exam!!! and on the 24th *drumroll please* -- FINALS NA! hahaha. ang tamad ko talaga mag aral. as in malala pa kay juan tamad. as in i'm wishing for the lab manual to turn into a howler and just spit out everything that's written there para at least maka-"aral" kuno ako. then poof! it'll burn to ashes and disappear! hahaha.

weeeeee. excited na talaga ako matapos ang term na ito!
gusto ko na mag MoA! at mag starbucks para makita si.... hahaha. di na ko bbli na kape... cguro bbli na lang ako ng tumbler. grounded ako magkape ngayon. nag-ala howler ang nanay ko dahil nga dun sa heartburn thingy.

failures. failures. failures. i wonder if i'm becoming a big failure right now. i mean, academic-wise... (meron bang academic-dumb? kasi ako yun)... wala! wala akong maibubuga. eeeeh.. whatever talaga. kulang lang ako sa aral at sipag. hmmph.

naku naku. tnatamad na ko.

heart.burn.

mehn. i cried last night because i couldn't take the painful contractions in my chest. and it's already 1am. my sister was supposed to bring me to the hospital but i figured i wouldn't be able to bear the long walk to the main street. i was gasping for air, i might collapse wtf. it's like this, whenever i breath in hard, i feel this piercing sensation prick through my chest. i believe it's a heart burn. this is not the first time it happened but heck, this was the hardest i went through for this freakin illness (or whatever it is). it lasted from 1am until NOW. but it's more tolerable now unlike last night where it shocked the hell out of me.

and now i realize. i've been having assumptions on why this hellish thing happened to me. i am hyper-acidic. i just realized it now that we're discussing pH and acid hydrolysis in class. coffee is acidic, softdrink is acidic, milk is acidic, choclolate -sadly- is acidic, tomatoes (my favorittteeee) are acidic. and i hardly drink water when i drink commercial juices. i've been feeding myself with too much acid, and to add to that, i have muscle pain right now... which means there's an over-production of lactic acid within my body. and when i skip meals, i wonder what going on with my intestinal tract (which is acidic too). oh fuck it. i don't want to carry this burden forever.

and yeah, hyper acidity causes heart burns because... err... as far as i know, the gastric acids are regurgitating and it directly affects the breastbone. i'm not explaining further. i hate myself when i talk junk like this.

wheeeew. i'm going to drink a lot of water from now on and i'm going to try an antacid. but pleaaaseee, i can cut off with sodas and teas... just don't take coffee, chocolates and tomatoes away. >.< and oh my golly, i don't want to get an ulcer.

now onto this day.
i'm so relieved that the practical test is over! yeheeey. early morning, like 5am, i woke up my sister because i promised her we're going to play tennis. actually, she doesn't want me to go because the heart burn is still there but... i'm the one who insisted because i want to plaaaay. and so we played from 6:30 to 8:15 after which i went back to the dorm to prepare myself for the practical test at 9am. hahahahaha.

i sucked.

i was only able to identify 2 ions out of 5. but i'm not fretting over it. our instructor also returned to us our 2nd lab and 3rd lecture exams. i failed both! no surprise. i got a 55/100 on my lecture and a freakin 46.25/100 on the lab. and by the way... only 4 people in our class passed the lab exam. hahaha. but seriously, if this were my first chemistry ever... i would've killed myself for sucking big time. but nooooo... i've been trained to face a thousand failures without getting depressed. and besides where's the challenge when you go through things unharmed? you gotta shed blood once in a while. eheheheee.

i'm going home tomorrow night! yeheeeey!