what do we need them for?

i'm finding it hard not to see him. fuck. i'm aching to go back to mall of asia, purchase a cup of coffee, and in the process have a little conversation with him again. i miss him! i hope he'll still talk to me when we meet again. come on, he should remember me... he's the first one who talked to me anyway. i wouldn't have noticed him in the first place if he didn't take me into that conversation! it's his fault. yah, seriously. i miss him baaaaddddlllyyy.... coz apparently, i can barely remember his face anymore. hahaha and it sucks because the feeling is getting bigger and heavier and blaaah. love is really weird. it's confusing and damn hard to distinguish. i don't know what it means. wtf i'm not in love. definitely not. this will expire in due time, just like what happened recently, i completely forgot the guy i was online-stalking because of *checks yesterday's receipt* mike ♥

LoL. oh, about the title. yeah, i received a quote about that once saying one of the reasons we need guys for is to constantly assure that we're not fugly tramps but something more beautiful. in short, girls are uber insecure and they can't take their friends/and anyone else's word for it. why, it's more credible when a guy says you're beautiful. much more credible than having to hear it from your mom... who'll probably still stay you're the most beautiful girl on earth even when you've just walked out of a septic tank. whatever.

aaaah, well actually i'm not trying to say anything at all. i'm just, not sure of the term, love-sick, whatever that means. i hate to call myself like that, especially that it's just a little (maybe a bit more) crush. and come on, everybody loves starbucks baristas. roight.

and so i introduce to you another doodle in the making, the title: 'parker doodle'. really. it's lame i know. hah, it would've been lamer if i called it 'Mike' since he's the once who inspired me in this big time and if not for him, that (bottom) piece of paper will be empty. why parker? ah, because i'm using a parker ballpen for it and believe me... if this would've been an ordinary ballpen, you'll throw it out with utter hate and remorse but because it's a parker... you'll feel sorry for the 350 bucks you paid for it and the shiny metal plating tearily pleading "please don't throw me, my ink may have disappointed you but wouldn't my shiny silver dress with golden laces make up for it?". the ink sucks. i have to retrace the linearts one two many times just to make it visible to the human eye... i'm just putting up with it because it's a freakin parker. and it's my dad's. parker ballpens have gone cheaper now that Cross is enjoying the spotlight, locked behind the clear glass sheves of National Bookstore for everyone to gape upon. just that.

alright, on to my doooooodle. it's not yet finished. i'll post the finished thing soon... =)

wanted: patient reader

wednesday afternoon:

met with mika at starbucks, sm north. had my precious dose of coffee. the barista heard my name wrong. it's ok, it's not always that you get christened with a new name. though it sucks cos i forgot to mention that my name's Adrianne and not Arianne (or Marian, whatever). watched 300 at last! great film. laudable edits. distracting abs. COOL queen. love the queen. super. hehehe. basta, there were only a few people in the cinema that time and that's good. although i can't seem to figure out why the film is only r-13 when it could've been r-18 for those err, boobs. lol. after the film we strolled a bit, looked around and... blah. then mika and i separated. met with my sister in the bag area and from there we went up to get my jumper replaced. ok, done. then our parents texted us, they're gonna fetch us so... hooray for that. we strolled even more! mehn, i'm so tired. i can't wait to get home.

finally! we got home at around 8. mehn, my feet are sore! but i had a great day. thank you Lord.

yesterday after lunch:

my sister invited me to go malling. AGAIN. AGAIN. so we're like SM hopping this whole week. i was supposed to refuse because... i'm tired and i feel like i'll be having my period anytime that moment. in the end i went with her. our parents dropped us off at Buendia where we took the bus to MoA. we arrived there at around 1pm. and fuck, i was right. i have my freakin period already. good thing i was wearing emergency pads. thank goodness. because of that, i nearly spoiled my sister's day because i can't go strolling with her kasi masakit puson ko. T_T. but she's fine with it. super. i thought we're gonna quarrel the whole day but no, she even suggested that i just buy a drink from starbucks and sit down while i wait for her to finish her usual mall strolling.

and so, i bought coffee. again. haha. i was like struggling to walk properly to the counter because the abdominal cramps are killing me. my mood was so hellish i want to transform their chairs to a bed so at least i could lay down properly and rest. i almost hated this day... almost.

me: isang venti mocha frappe po.
barista: name po nila?
me: arianne po
barista: san pa kayo galing?
me: ha, fairview po.
barista: layo ah!
me: onga eh.
barista: nagpa-shuttle kayo dito?
me: hindi, commute lang po.
barista: diretso yun? ano sinakyan mo?
me: bus, papuntang MoA.
barista: alam mo yung sa 'Soldiers'?
me: hindi, san yun?
barista: diba sa fairview ka?
me: oo, sa west kami eh pero di ko alam yun. village ba yun?
barista: :) dibale, sorry di ako familiar sa fairview eh.
me: hehe ok lang.

weee. he's so cute. i almost forgot i have a monthly curse to bear with. i was so grateful that someone talked to me that way because i feel really cross that day. instant mood uplifter. i was about to exit the shop and i heard him say, "thank you, arianne!" i just gave him a thumbs up without turning around.
a.thumbs.up.
uggh, sometimes i act really weird around guys.
wait, before going out the store... or before the guard let me out, the guard asked me if i know how to make a star out of a paper. i said, "sorry, hindi po" and he just smiled, thanked me and opened the door. what do you need an origami star for anyway? heh. so there. i sat down relieved that the fucking tension in my abdomen is starting to fade away. haha, and to think i'm drinking something cold. i don't have anything productive to do. i could've doodled on the their tissue paper you know, but i don't have a freakin pen or something. heh. so i just turned on my mp3 player and stared into places while i sip through my favorite drink. my sister arrived with a bag of chips from the dep't store snack bar. thanks a lot, i could use that plastic bag to keep this almost-empy venti cup.

confession: haha. this sounds so pathetic. i'm actually collecting starbucks plastic cups. i usually keep those who got the spelling of my name right, but this time i'm going to make an exception because he put a heart on my name. fuck. hahahah. now, LOL all you want. mehn, you just have to bear with me sometimes because i'm just fond of documenting rare things that happen to me. like this. and besides, my life has been dull enough so forgive me for indulging like this.

and because my sister still have plans to leave me to stroll EVEN MORE, i bought another cup. haha. why, i love coffee too much i think i'm gonna die of it. so i walked back to the counter and ordered another cup.

me: isang pa pong venti mocha frappe
barista: anong name ilalagay ko?
me: arianne na lang ulit
barista: mag-isa ka lang?
me: di, kasama ko ate ko
barista: ah *gives receipt and change*
me: senxa, nabitin ako eh matagal pa ko tatambay dyan eh. hehe
barista: arianne, ilan taon ka na?
me: 16 po
barista: :) hindi mukha
me: onga eh (i actually saw this coming T_T)
barista: san ka nag-aaral?
me: UP po
girl barista from behind: wow sosyal! (sosyal na maging taga UP? or sosyal kasi afford ng isang tagaUP -FOR NOW- na magkape? lol) sa manila?
me: los banos
barista: layo ah! :)
me: onga eh, full time kayo?
baristas: yup

so i took my cup again. yey. this is so heaven! then the girl barista asked me, "arianne gusto mo tikman yung banana java chip namin?" i answered, "free ba?" she replied, "oo naman! teka lang arianne ah, dyan ka lang." hehe. how nice, i get a free taste of their newest drink. so there, i carried them all out, careful not to drop anything because i'm holding the venti cup, my wallet, phone and the other cup... blah. just so you know, i'm not rich. maybe you think i am because i can afford to drink like that but truth be told, i'm just a coffee addict. i spend more for coffee than anything else. heck i can tighten my wallet on regular meals just to get a decent cup of coffee. it's my drug. my personal heaven on earth. sorry.

my sister and i left at 5pm and commuted to megamall because our parents are going to fetch us there. we're almost running out of time because our parents are already there, waiting for us. they even called and told to us to just commute our way home but noooo, i don't have enough money. fuck. good thing the driver of Rainbow Express is such a law breaker. he did everything! speeding, tailgating, overtaking on highways, loading/unloading on prohibited places... everything! and to think he didn't know we're on a rush . we're like on the 'super' ride of our lives!! it was an ordinary bus so i could feel the violent gush of air from the window that threatens to throw be aback. fuck. the hell i care. we used to hate these kinds of drivers but in reality, they come in really useful. hahahaha

whew. after that, i came home with a skullsplitting headache. this is what you get for drinking too much coffee, wasting too much money and riding on Rainbow Express.

but honestly, i don't regret doing all those. =)

the good, the bad, and the 5 hour stroll

terai and i went to smf awhile ago. hahaha. the hot and sticky feeling the rain left on us didn't stop us from going to the mall. so we commuted there and loooked around. yeah, we're the mistresses of window shopping. we practically tried every shoe (that fits) in the department store and entered those expensive looking boutiques without anything on our wallets (aside from the fare). we even spent a lot of time in body shop testing their items and talking to their sales lady... without buying anything of course. hahaha. but i did buy a couple of things, a sleeveless top from surplus shop, a book, and 3 cheap ballpens. well what can i do, they're all ON SALE. hehehe.

what i want to buy when i have enough money:

-the white musk perfume from body shop. damn how come it's that expensive??? ;__;
-running flats. yeah i need them.
-the choco melt lipgloss i saw in skin food. fuck. there's not even gold in it.
-books. books. and mooore books. i want to complete my harry potter series and reread them. i also want to get any neil gaiman, paulo coehlo, dan brown or meg cabot book.

hahaha. ok, where are you money???

READ our Verse of the Day!!! 1 Timothy 6:6-10 =)

the sun is shiinnniiiing! duh

in the heat of the summer, would you believe it just rained? it wasn't hard though. but it did skrew up my plan to go to the mall later. yeah, i want to go to the mall today... even though i'm going to the mall again tomorrow! with mika! i hope 300 is still showing mehn.

fyi, i don't have enough to spare for my mall cravings. in fact, i just love window shopping and tagging along with anyone who's going to the mall. oh well. good news, there's already a starbucks nearby. uhh, walking distance from here in fact. err... it's a long walk but it's still walking distance. wtf. i'm getting poorer and poorer by the moment.

i'm scouting for a new counter. with better stats. all i get with my counter right now are yearly, monthly, weekly, daily and hourly stats. i found a potentially good one in 'webstats', their demo stats are amazing, you get the usual timely update, top 10 referrers, top 10 keywords, top 10 search engines, top 10 browsers used, country visitors, last 20 visitors' details... uggh, they're all useful. but but but, their website is kinda weird. it won't let me update my account and i can't login. shit.

if i don't get that, i'll wait until blogpatrol is ok again. coz they're currently unavailable wtf.

ooh, the sun is shinniiiinnngg again. should i go out? mehn. it's not like i have to give myself a break. these are just pointless cravings.. mga luho kung baga. but wait, i'm not really indulging on something (of course aside from coffee). heck i don't even need anything material right now... but, i just want to feel the mall again. eeehh ang weird ko eh. gusto ko lang pumasok sa SM para tumingin-tingin.

Nokia Aeon Concept Phone

take a look at this wicked phone

wow. it's really cool. from what i've read i think nokia hasn't started distributing it yet but since they've spilled out enough beans on this thing they better speed up with finishing it. it sure is one of the most unique designs i've seen on cellphones. and wait, the whole surface is touch screen.

=)

point made

3rd Philippine Blogging Summit
April 13 and 14 at the UP Dilimian College of Economics Auditorium. details here

you can reserve a seat by registering. i plan on joining but i have plans on the said date. haay. anyhow, i'm not really interested with the speakers. what they could possibly say about blogs is already available in the internet. try looking at their agenda (on the site) and you'll know. but then it's still a good thing to know from Filipino experts. though seriously, you can just check the net for everything and not waste your time and money on the date. err.. but you know. just support it... come if you want.

bleh. it looks like i'm promoting it and at the same time discouraging you to join. but whatever... just wanna let you know.

how was this day?
oh, really ordinary. i exercised, which is a good thing but it's boring me already. i'm doing to the same same thing. but hell, i have to be thinner for clothes sake. yeah it's all for clothes and swimsuits sake. and also for an improved well being! haha. but yes getting thinner, or just the mere thought of you being successful in disciplining yourself and battling your inner procastinator is a good way to bolster up your ego. ooh and it shows in pictures.

point made. i want to get thinner.

you betcha, sigmund freud

currently reading: naruto fanfics

i had a semi-good dream last night! this time starring me and a certain friend. nothing much, we just walked... like usual. from class back to the dorm. and i have to credit sigmund freud's psychoanalytic studies for proposing a definition of a dream which says that our dreams are the fulfillment of unmet desires in reality. sorta kinda true. i missed walking with him. =)

then you know. yesterday we went to church and we passed by this huge tarpaulin in front of sm north edsa annex that shows a full view of the new and improved SM. it was... whoa. i didn't know it was that good but i can't quite imagine SM looking that new and glamorous. heck the semicircular space in front of the main building was a good catch but how is it in reality? it's barred by pink chicken wires. not a good sight, i tell you but as long as safety measures are concerned. sige, pwede na rin.

after church we went to SM to eat but before that we went to the dep't store first. i bought a white jumper... but i'm going to return it because i figured i don't have leggings to go with it (it's a skirt jumper) and it's too short. blah blah blah.

i found the perfect lipgloss. mehn. i want it! but i still have a nivea lip care thingy (but it's not glossy it's more like a balm!) and it would be unfair to dispose it like that. besides, i found it in Skin Food and it's hell expensive. it's freakin 575 pesos. reminds me of the lip and cheek tint a body shop staff showed us when they were demonstrating in our school, she (or he coz he looks gay) told us it's a good catch for 500 bucks, and we we're like... o.O and ~_- haha. kay nvm.

ok. so i'm so bored. it's still so early in the morning so nothing much has happened. yet.