yeah right

waw! uno ako sa PE1. hello? wala namang nakakatres dun eh! if i know lahat naman kami di bababa sa dos. haha. magkaganunman. hah! at least may uno! perstaym! kahit na hindi counted sa grades. hahahaha. sayang naman. sana kasi binibilang ang PE1... may lecture din naman yun eh. grrrrr.... minsan lang ako maka-uno yung hindi pa counted. edi sana kahit pano tataas GWA ko. huhuhuhuhuhu. anubanamanyan.

uh! hindi nakuha ni july class card ko sa math! dapat talaga personally. sayang. nevermind na nga. di ko na makukuha yon kahit kailaaaaaaaan. ayoko na bumalik sa elbi! i'm not interested with my math grades. >.< i'm (still) worried with chem! woooot! sana pumasa. walang kamatayang kahihiyan ang haharapin ko kung sakaling mag-repeat ako! oh shame.

shame.

shane. awww... shaaaaaannnneeee!!!! shaaaannneee (on me)!!!!!

hahaha weird. uuuuuyyy, ngayon lang ulit ako nag taglish. haha. mas ok to. mas weird. i mean, i know my english is somewhat weird... pero ewan. hahaha. ganun. wala ako natutunan sa eng1, maliban sa...

a) wag magpabuntis habang nasa kolehiyo
b) wag mag bartender kasi pang pokpok un (wtf talaga!)
c) always cut your yellow paper with scissors. wag dilaan at punitin. sinko yun.

eto ang pinakaproductive na natutunan ko sa eng1.

..kung pano gumamit ng post office.

as in yun old school way of delivering mails. ang kyut tingnan ng envelope na may stamps. weeeeeeee....

eng1 has never been of great help to me. hahaha.. sa totoo lang. sobrang dumbfounded ako sa finals hindi nya tinuro yung sentence compression. good thing, a good classmate sort of lectured us before the finals toook place. ayon. bullseye! yun na yun ang test na binigay.

hay ewan.

warning

for the good of this blog and your viewing pleasure as well, please don't open this blogsite in firefox or any other browser except for Internet Explorer 7. i'm afraid it'll look trashed and messy and skrewed and ugly and...etc. i'll fix it later when i finally have a firefox. for the meantime...

haha. new layout. i like the header! wee.. i think it's cute. ahahaha. i'm not really good in photoshop. and just like before i coded this thing using notepad. anyhow. i'll probably do some changes with the position and stuff to make it look a bit more presentable in other browsers. there's really something retarded with the way i work with css. grrr.

finally. we have unlimited internet access! yeah. it's not dsl, as much as i'd love to, but a cheaper and slower version that charges only 400 a month for a maximum of 48kbps. i can bear with that. it's not like i'm not used to it anyway. =)

yey. i'm finally going to watch 300! next week, wednesday, sm north, with mika! hoooooooorah.

conformity is bitch

i want to change this layout.

finally done with the finals. what a relief. the chem16 finals was... err... like what i said in math, it was so-so. steady lang. i think it was easier. 210 points. before passing my paper i tabulated all the correct answers that i'm confident i got right and it reached beyond passing score. i was glad. really glad but after the test when i inquired it with my friends, we all have different answers. what the hell? i don't know what's right and wrong anymore. either way, it wouldn't kill to repeat.

what an irony. among all the subjects i took since i was a kid, chem16 is the only subject i learned the most from. yes, i love what i have learned and what a shame that from all the things i learned and could be boastful of, there's a big chance i'd end up repeating the blasted subject. what a big loser. i thought i was smart enough, but i guess i slacked-off too much. wait. scratch that. i didn't slack-off! i poured my every braincell into understanding the concepts that goes along with chem but why are my efforts - the sleepless nights, the nervous breakdowns and this forming mental illness - still inversely proportional to my grades?

mehn. it's too early to say things like that. but either way, pass or fail... i'm not going to lose it. i'm fine with repeating actually. but i'm better off taking 17 this summer. duh.

this day:

before going home as usual i dropped by SM megamall. i left my backpack in the package counter and headed to St. Francis Square. it was a damn long walk, every now and then i stop on my tracks to see if i can jaywalk along the barred aisles because the heat is killing me, much more, the heat is like supplying me with extra melanin. i don't need that! i'm dark enough. no, i'm too dark already. but my conscience prevailed, i mean, my ego (in psych terms the ego is the executive and chief mediator of the personality. the most rational part of our beings) took charge. and so i walked the extra mile to reach my destination. but before that, i saw Chateau 1771. it reminded me of our prosec field trip and the yummy chicken fillet. which led to me realizing that the Podium is just... there.

i entered podium and instantly got bored. much more, i felt like a 3rd class citizen living in a classic Philippine shanty. is there anything i'm holding now that would make me feel like an upperclass socialite? ah. i have my earphones stuck in my ears, they're white so it looks like i have an ipod when in fact i have a smaller, cheaper thing. i easily dismissed the thought and tried to look around in hopes of finding something worthwhile. nothing (aside from starbucks).

i hate myself when i go to places like podium or rockwell (or anywhere expensive). it makes me feel inferior about myself. everywhere i look, i see high profile people (or so i thought). it makes me wish for a lot of things like, i wish i were whiter, i wish i have smooth legs and shaved eyebrows, i wish i have that bag you're holding now instead of this cheap bag with the words 'accident and health' written in big boldfaced letters. i wish i look like a rich teenager. i'm becoming a social climber. that's why i avoid those places unless i'm wearing my best and my wallet is stuffed with lotsa moolahs. T_T; i'm incredibly pathetic i want to kill myself.

my self esteem is way below the average.
and because i hate what i'm thinking and feeling at that time, i decided to indulge on coffee. where else? i bought a venti mocha frappe. it's big and expensive and it gives you instant status hike. admit it, starbucks has become a status symbol. even if you're wearing your worst, as long as you're sipping through that trademark green straw, you're away from the people's negative prejudgment. but in my case, you can't just take away coffee from my lifestyle so please understand that i drink because i crave.

i'm totally hating my attitude.
which is why after getting my order, i headed directly to St. Francis square to buy dvd's. The L Word is everywhere and they have until season 4!! but i held back, thinking that i'm being selfish and evil if buy it because... hello? i can't just invite my parents to watch lesbian porn! and i don't like watching alone so i figured i just have to buy 300. at least i could watch it with my dad. =) good girl.

then i went back to megamall. i bought some vanity stuff, mostly whitening goods, because unlike other people who want to get tan this summer, i want to get fairer. just fairer. not really that white. hahaha. i'm so vain. hahaha.

ps: i saw raymart santiago in the podium awhile ago. starstrucked? not even. if it were ryan agoncillo, i'll instantly dismiss the fact that i look like a 3rd class thingy and get a picture with him... using my sucker of a cam phone that takes a century to load. XP

1 down, 2 to go!

at last! done with the math17 finals!! my golly, if they only have exemptions then i wouldn't have faced the dread of sitting on a chair and sweating hard for 2 freakin hours! i believe i lost more braincells than i could have earned by thinking a lot. grrr...

hmm. the test was err.. so-so. steady lang. i mean, i'm a big idiot for not studying earlier. our prof gave our 5th unit exam as a TAKE HOME and mehn, that take home exam took the whole of my weekend. i wasn't able to rationalize well by then that's why i didn't notice that i didn't have enough time to study my notebook cover to cover. our exam started at 2pm and i was only able to study by 12:30! oh well, at least i got some problems right. i also guessed a lot during the multiple choice. hehe. bahala na.

ok. tomorrow is the end of all my miserieeeeessss! 10am to 12noon i'll be having my eng1 finals. i'll study later. then at 4-6pm....

*insert annoying drumroll here*

chem16!!!! (same thing, study later. you know me)

*insert loud boo's - much better, throw tin cans, crumpled papers, rotten tomatoes and please include your chemistry notebooks and your reduction-potential tables as well*

after dealing with those stupid required final exams, i can now do my philo paper due on wednesday. i should've done it over the weekend but i forgot to bring my philosophical analysis book and the guidelines for making the paper at home. what an idiot.

oh well. after wednesday... i'm all free! yes, as in i don't have to do anything else, no more forced studying and all those junk. but on the dull side...
i can't leave til friday afternoon because our math prof required us to get our standings on that day. grrr. boooooooo.

and on the day before that, our PE1 class cards are out as well. hm, i'll just have someone get it for me.

my head really hurts, i need some.... ice cream.

if only

yes! if only! that's the title of my new fic. remember i added a few paragraphs to my long forgotten fic before? now i figured it's about time to post it. it's just the prologue actually, pretty short but i'm just too excited to post it and get feedbacks.

unfortunately, fanfiction.net is having their usual overload errors and they wouldn't let me sign in. just great.

summary: if you've lost the only person you could turn to, how far would you go to bring him back?

of course that's a harryXdraco! wouldn't want to deviate from the most popular, most anticipated, sexiest fictitious and homosexual pair ever. bwahaha.

ohmy, i haven't started studying for our math17 finals tomorrow. haha. great.

2007 planner

i just finished making the cover now. sorry the black ink sucks because i just used an ordinary ballpen and not a sign pen (could've gotten a better effect with it). the bg's are just construction papers. =) i haven't put plastic cover yet.

yeah, it's almost 4 months late, i know. who cares.

oh, you can also see this under 'Artworks'. i have just uploaded it in my devart account. =)

stop with 'hell week' will you?

at last. i've added a few paragraphs to my long forgotten fic - Don't Turn Back. i guess my fic writing mojo will be having a grand comeback somwhere between april to may. i just can't wait till the finals week is over. my mind is racing of ideas, both romantic and strange and the bunnies are plotting again. i'll be leaving the rated:M realm for now because i can't seem to write naughty stuff for now. i want tragedy. i'm becoming a big fan of traggic endings. and i can't seem to get over it.

i.just.can't.wait.till.summer.

mehn.

you know what. it's my mom's birthday on monday! yey. and it's also the beginning of our finals week. i'll be taking 3 subjects, which are all required. math17, chem16 and eng1. eng1?? eng1??? RIDICULOUS ISN'T IT???? and to think our professor didn't really teach us anything. grr...

haaay. i'm starting to accept the huge possibility of me repeating chem16 next sem. >.< God forbid. mehn.

hahaha. i'm not feeling the supposed to be 'hell week'. why do people feel 'hell weeks' anyway? i just oppose to the idea of calling a week 'hell' because every day is made by God and you're just going to take it as hell? mehn. that's rude. God didn't make 7 days a week only to be called hell. =(

on the contrary, all the hardships we get are God's form of testing us. and mind you, according to the Bible, he won't give us anything we can't handle. so if you get a really difficult problem, be flattered! because God knows it is in your capacity to solve it. hehehe

i have a lot of things planned this summer. well, first of all i have to resume my exercise routine. i'm getting fatter and fatter of *ehem* studying. next i have to write. even though i didn't learn anything helpful in english 1 - where i'm expecting to broaden my knowledge on grammar - i still have to write because... the ideas are killing me mehn! and also, i have to save money. if i don't get chem17 this summer, i won't be having my allowance. sooo... i need to find a job.

wahehehehee. ok. i'm excited to get over this week. yeheesssss!!!