it's near
Monday, March 19, 2007
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
staying alive! staying alive! ah! ah! ah! ah!
the academic days are ending soon. i though i still have enough time to make up for my grades but no. to hell with it, i'm having negative vibes and unhealthy jitters all over just because of my chem standing. maybe i should really retake it because... ehem, "i believe that quality education takes time." hahaha.
i reserved a slot for chem17 this SUMMER. which means i'm taking up summer classes IF i pass chem16 this sem. that's the big question. i really want to pass. seriously. who wouldn't? i've been through a lot for this subject, even shed my blood and sweat grime but still my efforts are not being repaid in equity. instead i get disgraceful grades that would put my whole clan to shame. why is it that it's too hard for me get a passing grade? i'm not dumb (unlike before). i've learned a lot already. but why is it still painfully hard for me to get a freakin 3??
hell has a new spelling now and it's spelled C-H-E-M. hell has also a new added synonym and it's also called chem. hell is chem and chem is hell.
to chem with it!!!
what the chem?!?
go to chem!
chem yeah!
T_T
despite the evident damnation of the said subject, i'm still not giving up. maybe i don't have even an ounce of passion for chem running through my veins but i'll strive to learn. even if it takes me YEARS and YEARS and more YEARS!
which leads me to this. maybe it doesn't really matter that i take summer classes despite the huge delays awaiting. my supposedly 5 years of stay here will probably be extended to 6 years. all because of chem. but my goal here is to learn and i suppose i wouldn't be able to absorb 6 months of lessons in just 1 month. besides, i'm trying to build up a passion for chem and rushing things up will only make me hate chem more, not love it. if i want to understand chem more on an atomic basis, i should take more time as well.
and besides, i have a lot of plans for summer! i want to have fun!
i reserved a slot for chem17 this SUMMER. which means i'm taking up summer classes IF i pass chem16 this sem. that's the big question. i really want to pass. seriously. who wouldn't? i've been through a lot for this subject, even shed my blood and sweat grime but still my efforts are not being repaid in equity. instead i get disgraceful grades that would put my whole clan to shame. why is it that it's too hard for me get a passing grade? i'm not dumb (unlike before). i've learned a lot already. but why is it still painfully hard for me to get a freakin 3??
hell has a new spelling now and it's spelled C-H-E-M. hell has also a new added synonym and it's also called chem. hell is chem and chem is hell.
to chem with it!!!
what the chem?!?
go to chem!
chem yeah!
T_T
despite the evident damnation of the said subject, i'm still not giving up. maybe i don't have even an ounce of passion for chem running through my veins but i'll strive to learn. even if it takes me YEARS and YEARS and more YEARS!
which leads me to this. maybe it doesn't really matter that i take summer classes despite the huge delays awaiting. my supposedly 5 years of stay here will probably be extended to 6 years. all because of chem. but my goal here is to learn and i suppose i wouldn't be able to absorb 6 months of lessons in just 1 month. besides, i'm trying to build up a passion for chem and rushing things up will only make me hate chem more, not love it. if i want to understand chem more on an atomic basis, i should take more time as well.
and besides, i have a lot of plans for summer! i want to have fun!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
karaoke, disco bar, o showgirl?
reality check. i have a heavy junk of homeworks waiting on my desk to be noticed. ok so before i plunge into the deathly whirlpool of schoolworks our professors mercilessly dumped on our backs, let me share to you the most exciting thing, EVER, that i have anticipated in my entire college life.
friday afternoon my sister and i went home early. uhh, we didn't really reach home, we just met with ate theresa in megamall. from there we commuted to hyatt hotel where we were checked-in for mom's awarding. we arrived there at around 730. my parents were already shuttled to westin hotel for the awarding (because they say the ballroom there is bigger but the hotel accomodation in hyatt is better) so we 3 three were left on our own.
so we went night swimming. then went to the spa center for a lot more. oh great.
the time is 10pm, the night is (still) young and hyatt hotel is conviently located near baywalk. so where else should we be spending the entire night?
we crossed to baywalk and searched for good food that would not burn my wallet. it was tiring, not to mention dangerous. yeah there were a lot of street children and prostitutes scattered around. and we even came across this commotion where a guy was drunk tripping. he practically knocked out a face of a stranger. what a scene mehn. good thing we didn't meet him again. then i ate a lot. a lot. A LOOOOOTTT. mehn. i should get into serious dieting.
we went back to the hotel by 12mn. i'm still not sleepy. but i tried to.
early this morning, our parents gave us breakfast coupons so we went down to eat. they were right with picking the place. the food was great. would you believe i consumed 4 plates of food and a bowl of noodles on my own????!!!! excluding a glass of juice and 2 cups of tea. mehn. i should really really get into serious dieting.
ah! i saw fatima tooooooooo! :D
after breakfast we went back to the spa center for the last time. then we packed up, checked-out and left.
and now i'm here.
aww.
maybe it wasn't a dream after all.
friday afternoon my sister and i went home early. uhh, we didn't really reach home, we just met with ate theresa in megamall. from there we commuted to hyatt hotel where we were checked-in for mom's awarding. we arrived there at around 730. my parents were already shuttled to westin hotel for the awarding (because they say the ballroom there is bigger but the hotel accomodation in hyatt is better) so we 3 three were left on our own.
so we went night swimming. then went to the spa center for a lot more. oh great.
the time is 10pm, the night is (still) young and hyatt hotel is conviently located near baywalk. so where else should we be spending the entire night?
we crossed to baywalk and searched for good food that would not burn my wallet. it was tiring, not to mention dangerous. yeah there were a lot of street children and prostitutes scattered around. and we even came across this commotion where a guy was drunk tripping. he practically knocked out a face of a stranger. what a scene mehn. good thing we didn't meet him again. then i ate a lot. a lot. A LOOOOOTTT. mehn. i should get into serious dieting.
we went back to the hotel by 12mn. i'm still not sleepy. but i tried to.
early this morning, our parents gave us breakfast coupons so we went down to eat. they were right with picking the place. the food was great. would you believe i consumed 4 plates of food and a bowl of noodles on my own????!!!! excluding a glass of juice and 2 cups of tea. mehn. i should really really get into serious dieting.
ah! i saw fatima tooooooooo! :D
after breakfast we went back to the spa center for the last time. then we packed up, checked-out and left.
and now i'm here.
aww.
maybe it wasn't a dream after all.
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
breathe out now
mehn. the nervous feeling that's been plaguing me for more than a week now has finally left my soul to peace. i'm talking about our third long exam in chem16. well, it was really a plague that almost consumed me whole. it was freakin' hard. i was wondering how could the medicine i took 30 minutes before help me make my brain function better. do you know the tablet called glutaphos? (a tempting and potentialy addicting 5 peso/tablet) try researching about it and you'll get several feeds about it being an effective brain booster or something like it. our pastor recommended it to me last saturday and i thought, "sheesh. if this is the only thing that would make me pass the friggin subject, then so be it."
actually. no matter what the result will be, pass or fail, the more important thing to dwell upon today would be the fact that it's over! i've been generously taking more dosages of caffeine lately just to counter attack the evident symptoms of narcolepsy kicking through my veins whenever i flip a single page of an abnormaly heavy chemistry book and where else could i find a cheaper alternative? i couldn't measure the amount of relief that coursed through me the moment i handed down my blue book to the teacher. it was damn refreshing to know it's done.
ah. i've realized something as well. it might not be something new but it just dawned on me awhile ago while i was walking with a friend. a real friend is someone whom you can walk with in silence without feeling awkward. i just made that up! and i get that most of the time. a real friend is someone you feel comfortable with even in silence! you know, sometimes it happens that when i walk with someone whom i consider a friend, the moment the conversation drops off (especially if i'm with a guy), i feel weird about the sudden silence. it's awkward. mentally i'm hoping that he'd speak up and just talk and i'll do my best to reply with the best things that would hopefully lengthen the conversation (coz seriously i'm not a good conversationalist) just so the tension will subside. well, it will change in time, i know. it's just a matter of trying to feel good around your new friends that is.
for the meantime, i'm extra excited about this weekend. so much so that i'll skip psy1 this friday just to go home early!
actually. no matter what the result will be, pass or fail, the more important thing to dwell upon today would be the fact that it's over! i've been generously taking more dosages of caffeine lately just to counter attack the evident symptoms of narcolepsy kicking through my veins whenever i flip a single page of an abnormaly heavy chemistry book and where else could i find a cheaper alternative? i couldn't measure the amount of relief that coursed through me the moment i handed down my blue book to the teacher. it was damn refreshing to know it's done.
ah. i've realized something as well. it might not be something new but it just dawned on me awhile ago while i was walking with a friend. a real friend is someone whom you can walk with in silence without feeling awkward. i just made that up! and i get that most of the time. a real friend is someone you feel comfortable with even in silence! you know, sometimes it happens that when i walk with someone whom i consider a friend, the moment the conversation drops off (especially if i'm with a guy), i feel weird about the sudden silence. it's awkward. mentally i'm hoping that he'd speak up and just talk and i'll do my best to reply with the best things that would hopefully lengthen the conversation (coz seriously i'm not a good conversationalist) just so the tension will subside. well, it will change in time, i know. it's just a matter of trying to feel good around your new friends that is.
for the meantime, i'm extra excited about this weekend. so much so that i'll skip psy1 this friday just to go home early!
Sunday, March 4, 2007
washufgbkgfbksiag
good news. remember my other other entry where i was fuming about the debarked trees? THEY WERE NOT KILLED AT ALL! i was right when i said the debarkers were stupid, heck they really are. seems like they don't know how to debark at all which only left the trees with ugly looking scrapes on their barks but at least they're ALIVE! the leaves are still a lush shade of green and never did i see 'dying' syptoms or something of the sort. thank you Lord. thank you so much. thank you for not killing the trees. thank you for making those debarkers stupid. here you can see a concrete example of how stupidity, sometimes, has its bright side. hooooooorah.
guess where i am?? haha where else, i'm back in elbi. >.< well, it's monday again tomorrow. hopefully it'll be great! yey to my optimism! i'm excited for FRIDAY! you know, FRIDAAAAAAY!!! yehey. FRIDAY should be the BIG BREAK for me after taking our 3rd chem16 long test. the creeps mehn. you don't know how nervous i am of my standing. i borrowed a chem book in the library (first time mehn!) and damn it weighs a kiloton. o_O of course i'm exaggerating but that's how it feels! at least it was good, it made me understand all those redox junk that i'm desperately trying to absorb during classes. and ate venice lend me her zumdahl too, good thing it was a paperback edition or else it'll add up another kiloton in my bag. grrrr...
hey. i failed the second chem16 lab test. yeah, i'm a bit sad but at least i'm only 7 points behind the passing score unlike our first lecture exam where i was... wait... uhm... 23 points behind passing. yahahahahahahahaahahahaaaaa.
i'm crushless again. my crushes don't seem to last for long in my mind. i tire easily. is it a problem that i easily get bored with the same guy? i feel like a potential cheater. i feel like i'm someone who can't stand being with the same guy forever. and to think that if i marry young, i'm going to spend more than 50% of my remaining lifeline with the same guy. right now, i don't think i can take that fact yet. but who knows. haha it's part of being young.
jdskwehahdyuhgjhuywyshuyahdnwushu
guess where i am?? haha where else, i'm back in elbi. >.< well, it's monday again tomorrow. hopefully it'll be great! yey to my optimism! i'm excited for FRIDAY! you know, FRIDAAAAAAY!!! yehey. FRIDAY should be the BIG BREAK for me after taking our 3rd chem16 long test. the creeps mehn. you don't know how nervous i am of my standing. i borrowed a chem book in the library (first time mehn!) and damn it weighs a kiloton. o_O of course i'm exaggerating but that's how it feels! at least it was good, it made me understand all those redox junk that i'm desperately trying to absorb during classes. and ate venice lend me her zumdahl too, good thing it was a paperback edition or else it'll add up another kiloton in my bag. grrrr...
hey. i failed the second chem16 lab test. yeah, i'm a bit sad but at least i'm only 7 points behind the passing score unlike our first lecture exam where i was... wait... uhm... 23 points behind passing. yahahahahahahahaahahahaaaaa.
i'm crushless again. my crushes don't seem to last for long in my mind. i tire easily. is it a problem that i easily get bored with the same guy? i feel like a potential cheater. i feel like i'm someone who can't stand being with the same guy forever. and to think that if i marry young, i'm going to spend more than 50% of my remaining lifeline with the same guy. right now, i don't think i can take that fact yet. but who knows. haha it's part of being young.
jdskwehahdyuhgjhuywyshuyahdnwushu
Saturday, March 3, 2007
crawling my way to a tres
the world goes still, so still inside and
when you say you love me
for a moment there's no one else alive
aww. i love that song. it's so sweet. yey. i watched the UP ravens last night that's why i wasn't able to go home on the same day, but anyway i'm back. bwahahaha. the production was, honestly, poor. their blocking was off as well. i couldn't say the 100 bucks i paid for the ticket paid off. but on the bright side, i was with my friends and we were cheering for marco. he has the most fans... that's us and i must say he's the only comic relief in the stage. yey to my blocmate! congrats to those who performed as well... especially my other blocmate kochang, my phlo1 classmate kirk and my psy1 classmate evy. hahaha. i didn't know you had it in you.
so. at least i got a good feel of the auditorium. it was my first time there. and hey, my crush was there. with another girl whom i presume is the one he's courting (or is already his girlfriend). i couldn't care less. actually and i was wondering when the killer arrow will strike me dead because i didn't feel jealous or something. for one thing, i already know what's happening between them and pretty much i'm just playing the role of an imaginary third party.
damn. my upper lip is swollen. >.< so what's driving me? ah, you ask. i've found a new yaoi pairing in Death Note and obviously it's LxRaito. i'm reading a fic right now.
hmm. i miss my friends. i want to transfer to diliman, badly, but seeing that i am too dumb to garner an average of 2.50, i guess i'm stuck in los banos... for life. i'm not afraid of repeating chem16 because if there's no opening of chem17 this summer and 1st sem then i'll still see my previous classmates in the next class. well, there's a chance, yes... but what a shame. what a shame talaga.
waaaaaaah!!! i need to study chem!!!