and i don't wanna go home right now

but sooner or later it's over and i don't want to miss you tonight.
i don't want to miss you tonight. i don't want to miss you tonight.

haaay, but i do and it sucks. just because i dreamt of ___ last night i couldn't stop thinking about ___. i remember the times i acted like a complete stalker and damn you found out. i also remember the days where i even played a disguise to gain contact with you. shit. i was so pathetic back then, i don't want to remember those days but it's fun remembering them. i'm having a hard time looking for things to laugh about so i resorted to just laugh at my silly self. ahahahaaa...

yesterday was fun. i was reading my friendster bulletins and i had super laughtrip with the chain "song title" + during sex.
try it it's fun.
the last three songs i heard yesterday was smile - lily allen, iris - googoo dolls and upside down - jack johnson.
smile during sex, iris during sex and upside down during sex! ahahahahaaa...

i woke up pretty guilty this morning because i didn't visit our sanctuary last night. we had another bible session yesterday and i was soooo bad because i'm not listening. i'm reading the bible kasi and i realized how immoral life on earth was back then prior to the ten commandments.

lot's two daughters got him drunk and slept with him so that they'll get pregnant and sustain their lifeline. yeah that's bad... nowadays. but during those times there is no law yet, only covenants of God to man.

that's why the other day's episode of Love Story in Harvard was my favorite. Professor Keynes said that Law - 'is the effort of humanity to create principles' based on their own experiences which affects the majority. eh wala lang.

bat ganun yung chocnut? parang may lasang bubblegum. hehe...Hany parin kami!
haaayyy SHANE IS MISS YOU!!!!!

you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be

shit. i wanna go to college. please please let me go to college. i have to sidetrack myself away from this. i don't want what i'm feeling right now. it's all coming back, i don't want to go back to highschool. maybe i do, but for the sole reason of apologizing to mrs. resterio. my conscience is bugging me like hell. sorry mrs. resterio, if you happen to read this. sorry sorry. i will never do it again. forgive me because i won't forgive myself if you don't. aaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!! i know this not for me to shoulder alone but mehn, i'm just so guilty.

on the cheesy side. how do you know if it's love?
mehn, i hate being reminded of it especially in dreams. ayan tuloy, i'm confused. first love never dies? is it true? e naman eh... you you go away come again another day.

i'm done with the fifth chapter. i'm losing the grammar. and yes, people are quesitoning it. i was too absorbed with literature in 4th yr. that i never cared about grammar anymore. ahahahaa... it sucks but i have no time to have it beta-read. the only person i know who can beta my fic is laura becuase, i don't know. because she promised not to laugh at it.

i'm listening to iris - goo goo dolls while writing and it just dawned on me that the lyrics is very much related to the fic. ayun, kaya ako natapos kaagad.

iris is now my favorite song.

i think i'm gonna cry when i finish writing. tsk.

half of me wants to forget ___ but half of me is also longing to see ___. i'm confused. but somehow i have to move on and focus on something else. like my freakin grammar. i think i failed all my english teachers.

meeehn, fanfiction.net is having frequent server overloads. they have to fix it real soon if they don't want to have their reputation tarnished. or perhaps they have to expand their bandwidth and reformat everything without sacrificing an hour or so of being inaccessible. i hate it when that happens.

i'm tired of adventure quest. it's getting boring, especially that our processor is a very olats pentium 3. and our computer is a 2nd hand chop chop.

hello santa claus, if you happen to read this. please send me a new computer on christmas. pentium 4 or core 2. you have 3 months to save for it. thank you.

yeheeeeyyy!

i feel productive today. i did the laundry, i exercised and finished re-making the events outline for my fic. remember, my dad unintentionally deleted it. golly, i nearly cried. masiyadong madrama!
i'm currently writing the fifth chapter. i hope i do get more reviews before i upload it. haha.. it's not normal that i get more than ten reviews per chapter since i mostly write crap. oh well, that's melodia04 for you, still desperate for reviews.

i haaatteee Adventure Quest. i can't login!!! grrr... i'm stuck at level 11 because there's always a 'server full' error i get whenever i try to login!! i am starting to curse the publicity its getting.
i first heard of it in Convergence, but now i see its ad everywhere. and you know how effective advertising it. i should've been thankful because it has grown quite popular but the fact that because of its traffic i'm not getting a slot to play, that's a different story.

weee, love story in harvard na!

another one bites the dust

ahahaha. it's been a while since i last sang that song with it's backtracked lyrics "it's fun to smoke marijuana... it's fun to smoke marijuana... marijuananana marijuananana...". i could only sing it with jami, i don't know why. everytime i sing that song, i feel possessed (at least others think i am). i look like a deranged drug addict.

hahahaha, yesterday was great! yahooo! 11 of us came! me, nez, carla, karlita, hannah, jami, ding, ka, kim, martha and laura! hahaha ang dami namin... saya! we played a little in timezone, ate dinner and split to watch click and the devil wears prada. haaaaaayyy. i feel so happy. i'll miss you all. =)

i had my first dairy queen there. ahaha, and of course my first gateway cinema ticket. hihi.

i am so alive

haaay. i feel goooooooooddddd!!! yeah!
hehe. i uploaded the 4th chapter of my fic at fanfiction.net yesterday and i'm glad that it reached 10 reviews already on its first day. yay. that's why i feel so alive and inspired to write today. reviews = multivitamins.

unfortunately, dadddy accidentally deleted the events outline i made for the story. sad. now i don't know what will happen next, the only thing i remember is the ending which is sad but happy. figure that. haaay.

ayan, nahihiya na tuloy ako mag promote ng fic. nahihiya ako mabasa ng isang kaibigan. haha shempre kasi alam ko lahat sila magagaling sumulat. haha inferiority complex. =\ parang mas gusto ko pa mabasa ng strangers bwahaha. basta... review lang ng review! kahit pangit pa yan ayus lang!

after that fic i'll probably make another harryXdraco. based on the story of orpheus and eurydice! haha, traggic. tsk.

grrr. fanfiction.net net is advertising Adventure quest! kaya pala laging flooded pag naglologin ako!! haynaku!

shane on me

i miss shane. haha as in shane mc-something in the L word. she plays a lesbian role there. yeah right. i'm over that, ever since i felt so dooooommmeeeeddd when i left my bond paper sized picture of her with a love poem in the chapel during our recollection. wahahaaa... memories. i remember how funny it was to think that the nuns found out that their student is crushing over a lesbian. or maybe, they didn't think she was a she when they saw the picture and besides, Shane is a unisex name.

we passed over milla jovovich's billboard for mango awhile ago in c5 and she was gorgeous. =)

ui.. thursday!

hahaha wala akong magawa... tsk panu ba yan, tatlong buwan pa kong mabubulok dito sa kalalaba. hmmm... sa saturday, gateway with barkada! wuhooo... sa wakas, makakalabas din ako, although i have to stick with window shopping kasi arcade, pagkain at pamasahe lang ang gagastusan ko. bwahahahaaa... i'm not yet insane to go into a major shopping galore in gateway. unless i get to be princess of brunei.

tomorrow is Chynna's birthday! ok! Happy Birthday! yeheesss, dalaga naaa!

ahahahaaa... believe it or not, i just read the Bible. now, that's new. i even took notes. that's newer. and i realized a lot of things. haha, yan newest.
nasa Genesis palang naman ako... it was enlightening reading the Bible. enlightening sa mga aspects irregardles of morality issues. ayoko kasi maging super conservative. ever since i took a semester off to chill at home, i found it necessary to get closer to God. ngayon ko lang sha napakinggan ng maigi. i don't want this to sound cheesy with my life changing testimonies so i won't delve into that any further.

whew. i realized na dalawa pala ang puno sa gitna ng Eden. the Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. both are forbidded for man to eat. unfortunately nga diba, kumain si Adan at Eba sa Puno ng Karunungan ng Tama at Mali and hereditarily speaking we now possess Knowledge of Good and Evil... thus, the gift of descernment.

After getting banished from the garden, God sent out Cherubims with flaming swords to guard the remaining tree untouched by men, the Tree of Life. So, imagine if the serpent duped Eve to eat on the Tree of Life instead? Lahat tayo immortal!!! hmmm... now think about it.

sa Genesis din natin makikita na talagang superior ang men over women. having Eve banished from Eden explains why childbearing is painful. kaparusahan nya iyon sa pagsuway kay Lord. And man was cursed to toil over the ground for food. si Adan ang nagpangalan kay Eba.

the great flood happened because God got angry that his men are abusing the tradition of faithful marriage. marrying one woman after another and another and another. it wasn't clear kung ang tinutukoy dito ay angel-man relationship pero in the later verses binanggit na ang mga offspring nila ay mga extraordinary people. yung tipong higante, mala hercules ang lakas and blah...

bago magpalabas si Noah ng dove, nagpalabas muna suya ng Raven. and in fact, mas mahirap yung ginawa ng raven kumpara sa dove, kasi pinalipad sya ng pinalipad, pabalik balik hanggang mag dry up yung land. at malamang lamang, nung napagod na sya tsaka na pinalabas yung Dove, na nagbalik ng olive leaf kay noah, pero after nun iniwan na rin sha nung dove at di na bumalik.

after the flood, God made a covenant to Noah never to destroy the whole Earth and his creatures again. He also promised that no flood will ever again destroy the whole world. implication na kung magugunaw man ang mundo, it's definitely not out of water. e diba scary yun? panu kung fire? wind? earth?
the Rainbow - serves as a sign to this covenant. now that's explains it.

i'm thinking, maybe there's no END OF THE WORLD. it doesn't exist kasi nagpromise si Lord. if people think that the 2nd coming of Christ will be the destruction of humankind, they're wrong. according to Revelations, when Jesus comes back, he will take with him those who stayed faithful to him to heaven. and yung mga hindi, maiiwan dito sa earth under the reign of Satan for a whole lot of millenuims. when i reach revelations ma-eexplain ko na to pero dear, genesis muna ha. =)

eto naman ang na isip kong reason kung bakit iba iba ang language ng mga tao sa iba't ibang regions ng mundo.
the tower of babel
during this time, men share a common speech. they tried to built a city with a brick tower in it that would reach the heavens so that they can make a name for themselves and not be scattered over the face of the earth. nagalit si Lord, abot langit na tore? heh! kung ito ang dulot ng pagkakaroon nila ng isang similar language, then i might as well confuse their tongues.
indeed, dahil kinonfuse ni Lord and kanilang language, hindi na sila nagkaintindihan. di nabuo ang city at ang tower at nag sama sama ang lahat ng magkakapareho ang language and nagsikalat sa buong mundo!!

ahahahaaa... i think i should go back to sunday school once again. i missed a hell lot.
eheheheee... ^^;