i need a summer job

right now i only have one application form from a nearby chain... still have to look for more.

LoL. i'm excited to work, seriously... need to bend my business skills to earn and save money now that i'm still young. =) i'm afraid this summer will turn me into a major bum. then i'll get fatter and fatter and i'll go to inferno for being a mega sloth and glutton.

suggestions? someplace accepting a highschool graduate without age requirements will do. =)

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after church we went to los banos to visit my sister and celebrate mom's birthay! it's her birthday today! happeee birthdaaayyyy!
we ate variety bucket in kfc. well, what can i say? too much chicken is just too much... i can feel my feathers growing.

wow. i am successful in restraining myself from drinking coffee until graduation and now that i'm free from the ordeal... i got my very first coffee this year from starbucks... buti na lang may gift certificate pa ko. thanks nicki.

tomorrow is our grad ball! i still don't know where to go for my hair and make-up. bahala na...

and on wednesday will be our barkada (highschool farewell?) party!! what a tear-jerker.

onga pala... graduate na ko! hello college.

i did it my way

i don't really know what to write... i just feel like updating... like i always feel. =)
today has been one of the most emotional days of our senior year. i recieved a couple of farewell gifts... thanks a lot. i still don't know what to give you all... =( pichi, hindi ko maintindihan sulat mo... ahahahaaa... salamat sa lahat!!

now i can say i'll definitely miss pamayanan. i swear, i love our class, it's the best class i've ever been part of for the four years. mehn, i'm not in the verge of tears, mind you.

tomorrow will be the big day. it'd be both torturous and fulfilling for us... the shoes... they still hurt but come to think of it... in an idiomatic perspective you'll never get to graduate without bearing the pains of marching and standing with those shoes. same goes for our sacrifices for making it here. i salute you, sixtreme.

i played the cd lienne and bea gave us and i was really touched. thanks... =)

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how to endure graduation practices

awhile ago's encounter with our highschool teachers was very sentimental for almost everybody cried... except me. i just can't bring out my tears, maybe i didn't see the sentiment of the moment at that time. then they started hugging the teachers, i can't do it. i just don't want to. and in the end i didn't hug anyone. i must be most unsentimental person that time. the highlight for me was the pinning of the school logo pins. the pins were really nice. ms. platon pinned it to me and my rowmates... i also told her i saw her in SM edsa last sunday in her reese('s?) shirt. hehe.

the rest of the day's theme revolved around

"how to endure grad practices"

my tips are horrible... but it might as well work for you
1. bring candies (personal favorite: stork). i usually bring 9 every morning but they'll eventually be gone come recess.
2. slouch a little when the teachers aren't noticing, it's quite relaxing that way.
3. cross your legs... again when the teachers aren't noticing.
4. daydream while waiting for the other graduates to march their way to their seats. talk to youself in your mind, do anything to distract yourself from watching your dear batchmates' shoes get carried away to the yellow line. it's bOOOOOOOOOring. you can hum the grad march music if you wish... but it's a pretty dorky thing to do, honestly.
5. sleep while you're waiting for the giving of the diplomas to finish. it works best when you wear glasses because from afar it doesn't seem like your sleeping at all.
6. uhm... stretch? sitting properly is a big pain in the ass.
7. bring a rubber band and experiment.

well, don't talk to your seatmate. they won't talk to you back especially when you're in between two officers. just keep quiet and do things on your own.

i do his quite often when i'm bored, i make a "ballpen helicopter". i can't tell you how, it's a secret. but pretty much if you're a bored bald-head and everyone around you are bald-heads, you simply can't do this, unless you pluck it out of somewhere else. ouch.

in short, just do all kinds of distracting things. things that will not stick your head to the ceremony because it's boring. by the end of the day you'll see yourslef shrugging your shoulders often because it hurts from sitting up straight.

these tips are only for the practices and i know it's too late to post it since tomorrow will be our last. =P

i'm glad, two more sleeps to go before we graduate.

behind every performance is a BACKDROP

SAP recognition day today... =)
it was really hillarious! i laughed a lot! :D so far it's the best SAP recognition day i've ever had... hehe thanks a lot to those who organized this event.

all throughout the event i was laughing and i had this very positive feeling about the whole thing but when the show ended it all disappeared...

teka...

1.) AGAIN, for a million years already not a single credit to the Visual Arts Club was said. how dare they? and to think, they displayed all the backdrops we made on the bleachers!! tsk. i think our club is cursed not to get credited forever. i was really annoyed, hate them.

2.) we have no spotlight 'crew' shirt!!! so unfair.

3.) the powerpoint presentation featured two of my personal (c) artworks. they didn't ask for my permission. =
4.) i have nothing against them. it just seems like a line has been drawn between the PA and the non PA clubs.

good thing i'm leaving.
hate me now for i have said a lot.

the devil is here

not really.
3 days to go before graduation. i just can't wait to get over the agonizing shoes. we practiced them awhile ago and we were damn tortured. i never thought wearing them would cause so much pain.

i really really want to graduate as soon as possible. i am so tempted with breaking the deal i had with myself last year. i said no coffee until i graduated. so far i am successful, but now that march 25 is near i am being tempted to enter any coffee house in sight and take a sip of coffee. during the js turnover, my partner gave me a gift certificate from starbucks. last sunday i recieved a free drink coupon from sb too... now i'm thinking if these are signs that i should break my promise already or might as well it's the devil's plan for me to break it and suffer eternal damnation. i really hate it when i lose to myself.

why may you ask i'm trying to hold myself back from drinking coffee? simply because it's bad and because i'm afraid my bones will brittle and my knee pain will not heal anymore and i can't ride a bike and run freely and jump high and sprint. a lot of things i cannot do with a (semi) incapable right leg. that sucks big time you know. and it's summer already...

i'm still looking for a summer job. if i don't get any, then i'll just devote myself to getting thinner without working my right leg too much. =-
mehn. i'm still reading 'memoirs of a geisha'... i'm in chapter 11 already and Chiyo Sakamoto is still young. it's getting boring but i want to finish it...

i wanna watch V for Vendetta! =D sooooonnnnnnn.....

wow. it's friday

i didn't notice it that much. it's too boring that time has moved slower than usual.

this week is not the busiest but it's the most boring (i know i already mentioned it). i'm glad we're done with the truth in love backdrop (much to my dismay that someone thinks i'm not doing anything at all. thanks ah). in my own perspective it's okay, not grand like the backdrops i've seen before. nevertheless it's nicer and better. i can't be too proud of it because i think (because someone else thinks) i didn't do much. that's why i was venting in my previous post. whatever.

yesterday i forgot to watch a very important episode of kim sam sun! mehn, i hated it. all the while, from the moment i got home i just re-read the manga 'love mode' and downloaded a couple of mangas as well.

right now i'm reliving the yaoi fangirl in me. i want to read mangas or doujinshis that are humorous and angsty. those that will strike a pang of hurt in my heart. heh, i'm hopeless.

mehn, sakura-crisis is down. grr...

i'll wanna watch 'she's the man' this weekend. it'd be hillarious. =D
sorry nez, can't come today (stupid i even urged some to agree =).. enjoy.

hate list update

you ruined my day. curse you and your goddamn self to the deepest pit of inferno.
may your head sprout in lucifer's mouth and may you suffer the company of your three other brothers. you're now four: brutus, cassius, judas and bruce. LoL, bagay pala...

for your information, i am so depressed with what you said. you dispensed this little ounce of hope in me that believes that i am being useful too.

i have claimed to be a frustrated artist before. now, i am NOT an artist anymore. and i need not prove it. i'll draw when i want to, not because you want me or some group of leg-breakers ask me to.

fuck you.

of course, i cannot contain my hate to you alone because you have suffered a severe case of damnation in this blog as i have mentioned you for a million times already in my hate list.

70% of my hate goes to you but for the remaining 20 and 10...

i just can't bear to hate you for a long time because you're a close friend of mine, thus you recieve just a minute 20% of my hate for the moment (which is subject to wrathful thoughts and evilness). you see, i cannot oppose to your opinion if you think i'm not helping and i'm just slouching around but next time, chose a better translator, one who knows what you're talking about and not just anyone who sits in your FRONT. i still love you as a friend but for the meantime just bear the stoic evilness in me.

you, the odds are high that you cannot read this but i just want to tell you that i hated you because you called my name (and that's a good 10% of my hate). just that, a very shallow reason of calling out my name to be insulted by the bitch sitting BESIDE you. i didn't even know you knew my name. you lost most of my respect (not that you need mine). tsss, and seriously... if you want to break a leg on your coming play, make sure you break both of them... and i mean literally.

you can think whatever you want. that i'm shallow and my reasons for hating people are pointless. but let me warn you that i'm only allowing you to think, not write or blab anything in my blog. this is my vent and this is exactly what i'm doing, i'm venting everything out, like a hot steam coming out from a boiling water.

this is the steam, i'm the boiling water, and you are the fire.

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sobrang nakakabadtrip talaga. kala ko panaman masaya tong araw na to.. hindi pala. ayoko na magpintura, you ruined my mood. it's funny how you seem to affect me a lot, and i'm sinking in humiliation on how i'm becoming loser just because of this.

i can't quit though, not now when i have one wish to strike off of my wishlist. i didn't realize i have to risk my feelings for this.

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bad news: mom's dress, which is my best pick for the grad ball, is hopeless. nobody wants to repair it because the stitches are complicated and the cloth is very fragile.we actually want to make it smaller but it's hard.

good news: we bought a simpler dress in sm dep't store worth 500. it's black and white and it pretty much fits the ocassion (but not like how my mom's dress fit perfectly).

fingers crossed: i hope nobody wears the same dress.