on to the rough side of life

i failed twice.
i feel so depressed but i have to get over it quick before i acquire suicidal tendencies. LoL, i might even scratch myself to death with the blunt edge of my parlor hair clips. fortunately, i don't want to die yet. not with the reason of failing an entrance exam not once, but twice (and who knows if it repeats for the third time). that is just too shallow for me to end my freakin' life.

anyhow, who cares if i don't pass? like inez said (or tagged), it doesn't make me a lesser person. i know God has bigger plans for me (and my dearest karlita). we just have to wait.

for the meantime, i am consoling myself with the thoughts of going to FEU-fern and be successful like Henry Sy and Lucio Tan. They weren't the most oustanding students in their classes but they made a very big impact in our economy today. who knows what awaits me who has failed a lot? or rather, me who has experienced a generous amount of failures? have pity on me Lord.

mom treated me to starbucks anyway so i'm sort of relieved. i told you, coffee is VERY therapeutic in my case.

it's my fault i failed. i didn't study well, my grades sucked and i'm not focused on my goals. i've learned my lesson.

meet the new arianne.
still the internet junkie that she is but is promising to be a more focused student from now on. it's never too late for changes you know.

ang saklap naman nito. wala parin akong pinapasahan.

my palm pilot broke

who's to be blamed?
my freakin' sister! she dropped my bag! she didn't know one of my precious material pocessions was there. what a fitch!
i mean, this is what happened. i think she got mad at me for refusing to help her with her egyptian music research. before i knew she murdered my palm, i even told her that i'll let her borrow it for her project but when i came upstairs to check, the screen was cracked and it now looked like a blown up piece of technology. sad.
but i didn't cry! i didn't even think of getting back at her. maybe it was one of my priced posessions but i'm not attached onto it. maybe if she burned my 'dare to fail' book i'll burn her algebra book too.

anyway, ACET results are now out! i still don't know what's my status is. i guess i'll have to check the site again tomorrow.
awhile ago i was chatting with adri, i asked her to ask jami if i also passed. she replied, 'ewan ko'.

mehn, those two words blew my head off. all the while i was thinking i didn't pass! i thought she looked for my name and didn't find it. after that i cried.
i cried on my bed, i punched my turtle stuffed toy and i played the guitar... something which is not exactly a form of stress relief for me but a form of forgetting something... and i failed. i shouted random things to God (no swears! LoL) and thought of happy thoughts.

oh well, i settled things when i asked jami if she looked for my name. i was praying to God that her answer should be NO. and he answered it.
hehe.

i'm very thankful because i reached my quota for today's AVON catalogue in just 3 days! i actually put a quota on myself so that i'll work extra hard in earning money. i said that i should reach at least P500 comission on every catalogue. as of now i currently have 594 on count and i'm wishing that everyone who ordered will pay no later than next week. :D
thank you God.

i don't feel bad anymore. thank you Lord.

'today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday.'

i'm currently reading: the sisterhood of the traveling pants 1 - ann brashares

imagination is more important than knowledge

do you agree? well that's according to Einstein.
anyway, school didn't start as bad as i thought it would be.
sometimes during long weekends and breaks, i'm somewhat looking forward to going back to school already. i'm excited over all the funny moments in the classroom, it is definitely something to look forward to, everyday.
there's not a day that something funny didn't happen.

in school, there are LOADS of things you can laugh about!
and i guess that's what i go to school for, to get my daily dose of laughter.
...which reminds me of the few remaining weeks that we're going to consume before graduation. sad. it feels like i don't want to leave senior life anymore.

i was imagining a lot of things awhile ago. my mind is wandering off to dreamland... the pictures in my planner are just too scrumptiuous. maki, choco mousse, starbucks, chocolates... aaahh! heaven.

we had the outstanding award voting awhile ago. it was damn hard! i don't know a lot of my batchmates' talents (hell! like they know mine?!) that's why i kept on repeating the same names. my choices are insufficient... some of them don't even deserve the award but i don't care. i'm not the one counting the votes anyway.


tomorrow is our feast day! i'm excited! no classes! just the mass, a presumably boring talk about Mary's motherhood, food, and film viewing... joy.

yay! may planner na ko!

it's actually a company planner my dad purchased but instead of dreaming of a starbucks planner which generally isn't something i want to spend my whole wealth with, i just asked dad for and extra planner and since the look is plain black with silver letterings 2006... i kind of personalized it. :D



uhm.. well that's the front. :D

i'm not yet ready for school tomorrow.
i'm quite sad that this has been the last day i watched Cinderella and April Kisses =(

well. whatever...
uhm. hindi talaga ako makuntento... this is one of my previous layouts... :D
i just want something red that's all.

you know what i hate with evening news?
they'll greet you "MAGANDANG gabi" and proceed with the bad news after.

quoted from mike enriquez, "...dahil hindi natutulog ang balita limang tao- patay..."
what the?
funny.

i realized something. it's okay if people LAUGH at you, instead naman of having people CRY over you diba?
i mean, nakatulong ka pa pag may napatawa ka... it's healthy.
as i've read somewhere...
everything is funny as long as it is happening to somebody else. :D

school starts in 5,4,3,2 ...

cheer up, the worst is yet to come.
i'll change this layout soon. =

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happy new year!

new year's eve was great as usual! i'm starting to get accustomed in spending new year without any firecrackers... just the torotot. we didn't have our media noche like most houses would have but we prepared for it... oh well, there's something odd with us. i think we're just not being traditional.

so, from 12 midnight till 1am we just watched the amazing fireworks display on our rooftop! (one of the reasons why we wouldn't spend a cent on fireworks, it's all free)

i was thinking of how blessed we are to have a rooftop! everything seems like a new year treat for us. people around us spent for the fireworks and we just watch happily on our deck watching everything in the sky on a patron seat.

my mom, dad and sister slept at 9 and they asked me to just wake them up by 12. ~_-;
and they used the aircon so i can't open the windows (traditionally). in the end we didn't open any of our windows... too much smoke. we didn't even open all our lights... we're all lazy, LoL.

i wasn't able to text all my friends a happy new year because i have no enough load (just like xmas)

slept at 2am and woke up at 7 to prepare for the church. there were less people who attended today's service (expected) so we didn't have problems finding seats and this guy who looks like harry santos is present as always... :)

for 7 years already, i've been giving xmas gifts to this lola vendor outside our church. it feels so heartwarming to help other people especially the old. next time i think i'll just give her a gift plus extra items to sell. :D