i wanna be myself

sometimes i'm thinking if all this time i'm not being myself. i don't think i really know who i am.
i'm still wondering... when do you become YOU?
ngek. ewan. bsta...

it feels like i'm nothing but a bandwagon-er. i just follow, i don't set anything to be followed or something. what a loser.
i do hate the conformity stuff where you becoming this odd creature who wears a hand-knitten scarf instead of a bolero jacket. that's why i love the penshoppe tagline 'resist conformity' minus the 'promote accessorizing' thing. but hell, i'm not really getting out of their borders. i'm still uhhh... nevermind.

i found out in mtv that hollaback girl was made to confront courtney love regarding her negative remarks about gwen stefani. coolness.

you see, i realized that i'm still the teen novel freak that i used to be. i find romance in books, not in real life... and currently i'm writing another crappy to-be-continued novel which is, by the way, under the lousy-plotted-novel category. haha...
it's weird, and it sounds like a fake: not your ordinary teen novel.

ever heard of the movie 'not your ordinary teen movie'? it has nothing to do with this project. i actually just realised that there's a movie like that only when i have finished the first 3 pages of my story.

i'm planning to do something different (but not original) with it.
have you heard the 'chose your own adventure' book? that's what i'm going to do.
well, the chose your own adventure thing gives you choices after each chapter. for example
a.) if you want mr. and mrs. smith to marry each other, turn to page 99
b.) if you want both of them dead, turn to page 50
c.) if you find my choices insufficient, close this book and write your own crappy ending.

although it might confuse you if you find both choices interesting and you decided to read the contents of both choices... hah! bahala ka.

like that. i think it's fun and challenging.
but i guess it will take me a long time to finish it. i have a lot of pending stories... lol.

haay. i still love yaoi anime.
i'm reading a lot of fics lately, specifically those rated T13 under humor. hehe

happy new year!

living dead dolls

LIVING DEAD DOLLS
the deader the better... welcome to the graveyard.

as creepy as it sounds.. go figure... nothing angelic duh, purely devilish
just retail dolls. chaka-like dolls.. scary dolls...

i especially liked the doll names and the story of the morticians (webmasters)

there's Demonique and Mildread, Arachne and Wolfgang. hehe...

i don't feel the year of the dog coming. this coming new year doesn't seem to be something special.

let's just hope that this year will be a better year for the whole world. we've been through a lot of chaos this 2005 and reliving it by 2006 will not look like another strike of bad luck but a year-long curse of monstrosity.

i still feel bad about most of the things that are happening to me.

my knee strain hasn't healed yet. i was told that it usually takes more than a month to heal. sure, more than a month na nga... but when? come on Lord, what a gift.

the dlsu test, not that it matters kasi sabi ko nga i won't go there either way. but the feeling of failure? yes, that's the thing i can't quite get off of my nerves. the pride mehn.

oh well. there's always the bright side of life!

like a peppermint mocha frappuccino from starbucks... costly thirst quencher. had my first one yesterday... =)

joy! :D

advanced happy new year...

kumusta naman na bagsak ako sa lasalle?
hehe... ayus lang... pass or fail, i won't go there anyway... pero sana man lang napasa ko!
ang bobo ko na palaaaaa...
sooobbrraaa... i mean, mahirap naman talaga eh... and i thought i was smart...
but i guess i'm not smart enough for the test... mehn.

oh god, ang yabang ko.. sige di na pla ko smart... bobo na... spell that for me if you're smart.
hah! stupid.

it hurts when i checked my name and it didn't came out.. tapos when i checked other people's name... their's came out!

eeeehhhh namaaaaan...
shet. failures suck.

on the mushy side

i found this thing somewhere and it's sweet...

"love is not about finding someone you can live with but it's about finding someone you can't live without"

clique?

another thing...

"i dont like you, cause i love you
i dont want you, cause i need you.
i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will die for you.
i wont live for you, but i will live with you.
i wouldn't do anyting cause i will do everyting.
i chose my life, 'cause you're my life."

corny?
i would love to hear that from the man of my dreams... a faceless (yet) guy with authentic black hair wearing a decent casual attire holding a bunch of red roses perhaps? oh, include chocolates there...

ok, arianne. just wait. :D

mom says we're going out later! yay!
i still have no money...

SIGNS:
my cousin gave me a mouse pad as a xmas gift.
my first impressions was, "oh my god, this is a sign! sabi ko na nga ba magkakaroon din ako ng bagong computer eh!"
yeah!

grr... my blood boils everytime i read or hear the name reese witherspoon!

merry christmas everyone!

well.. hohoho!
i can't say i hated this day but so far this is not YET the best christmas i've lived upon. i never recieved a single gift from any of my (missing) godparents, how i wish.
you know what, i wish i had the power to chose who my godparents will be (a power i visualize only babies could have) and i'll make sure they'll never forget me in their list!

well there... so much for a happy christmas, after all there's still next year... and belated gifts are always and will always be welcome.
my wishlist will stay there until, forever.... well until i get tired of telling people what i want and showing you that "hey! getting a/an -insert an item from my wishlist- isn't that impossible at all!".

i wanna shop already!
oh, would you mind scratching off all those negative remarks i made about this christmas because just this moment i recieved a pretty consoling gift... a chocolate bar!

as i munch on it hapilly let me just share to you how it ached me reading the nutrition facts,
amount per serving: 4 blocks (36g)
calories: 200
what if i finish the whole bar? does that mean i intake the whole 800 calories? o.O

as i spoil this blissful moment of staining my teeth brown let me just remind myself that calories might be viewed as an evil substance that magically increases my weight but it is not only acting magical as a weight increaser, it also magically gives me a favorable taste to the food i eat (altough it is not a spice) . we all know that low-calorie foods are blant, so i guess there's no room for more fretting.

oh wait, did i just finish the whole bar? oh my... o.O

retro divas?

i know, it's a little too common. not too much creativity poured in the title but heck i like the header image!
:D
i edited their hair to make it look more retro...
does it look like it? i forgot to put the bling blings... actually i forgot a lot of things like changing their dresses... but i don't care. what do you think?

my previous layout, the 'crimson freak' one has been put in my 'previous layouts' archive... just in case anyone of you's interested in using that piece of art. :D

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M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S !

it's exactly 2 hours and 55 minutes before christmas!

mehn.

a club penguin moderator BANNED me for typing (and it says there that i actually SAID it? stupid) 'fuck!'.

funny, how they think club penguin has full of innocent children who're required to have a 'parent's permission' to become members of the club.

funny, how they have to pay a minimum of $6 dollars just to be able to decorate their igloos and to spend their coins. i'm so frustrated! i can't decorate my igloo and i can't spend my 250 for this colorful plush chair and a couple of furnitures to spice up my home. for once... i want to make my pet penguin happy by simply decorating her igloo.

hehe. i'll just have to wait until i become unbanned by tomorrow.

LoL.