useless

i was totally useless awhile ago! bat ba ko nag-crew? well.. crews are actually people who cue you when you enter the stage for a performance but seeing that they actually know when they're going to enter, i don't think they still need crews. handing down props? what props? shades, hats, canes? they know all those... and it makes me feel soo stupid, so out of place... pasikip sa backstage. for keeping the backstage quiet? think about it.. even if they talk out loud, the audience will still be noiser than they are. pulling people off the floor lines? a very minor thing to do, wouldn't even think about joining the crew just to pull them off from that line... grr...

walang kwenta.

i actually joined the crew because of barbie almalbis. duh. i wish i could get her autograph though. sayang naman tong pinagdaanan ko. :)

kainis talaga. i felt so little awhile ago, so epal! spare me the shame naman... kahit i.d. lang ng crew ok na... ayoko kasi ng tinatanong na, "ano ginagawa nyo dito?" tapos sasagot ako ng, "uuh... crew. (nanliit, feeling walang kwenta)" you see, i don't really think they need crews. but i also don't want to give up the position... for barbie.

such a fan. dammit.

maybe i wouldn't be of any help when they're already on stage performing but i guess we still did our part on the backdrop.
ano ba pwede gawin para magmukha naman akong hindi katanga-tanga?
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101 wishes

prosec awhile ago was great! it was totally inspiring hearing success stories from mrs. zeta. right now i'm still working on my wishlist and let's see what'll happen. maybe i just have to ask God a little more and remind him that the number one on my wishlist is to have a bike and to learn to ride on one as well. =)

oh well, mrs. zeta is so true about, 'who knows later you'll be striking off one item from your wishlist?'
i got a bar of toblerone from larz! what joy!!! hehe... oh and you know what, i din't do anything productive last night. i was supposed to do a research on odysseus' journey, do the comex, the acctg. homework, the club stuff and a lot more things... but i just did it this day and i felt so pressured but thank God, i passed the english test! i mean, i should pass it anyway! i even begged mrs. leyco to lend me the odyssey book in library because we weren't allowed to borrow books anymore. after a minute of sermon and consequence details (like i have to pay for the fine even during the sembreak if i failed to return it before they close for the year) i finally got it. cool.

i'm excited to be back in business. ate alyn is just too busy to attend to my avon stuff so i just asked ate theresa to register herself so that i can start selling soon. this season really calls for additional money sources. the vat, the demands and supplies... it's all affecting our lifestyle. i can't enjoy eating in yoshinoya anymore because i can feel the weight of the tekamaki rice bowl bulging from my wallet. what ill-fated destiny... our country is not anymore the great country i used to imagine.
such fate...

such misery. oh despair... leave us alone. better yet, give us a more powerful ruler.

i hate talking about politics. \=(

bad habits

so far, i only have to two major bad habits: nail biting and sleeping during church services. i have pretty much suffered the consequences of nail biting. duh, short nails. it's like i can't stretch them out proud when doing the panunumpa. i too have gone through a lot of promises that i will let it grow but hell, as time passes by it's gradually turning into a nasty hobby. eew my god, LoL.

next in line is my frequent sleeping during church services. uhm, i'm not kind of worried about this because i'm barely noticeable in a multitude of 1,000. i'm actually planning to wear eyeglasses everytime i sleep because it's not obvious that my eyes are closed. i learned that from mom.

this one had caused me some embrassing moments too. i was sleeping one time and my head is leaning sidewards so i woke up. finally after a minute, i dozed off to sleep again and due to my heavy sleepiness my head didn't just leaned sidewards but also backwards! the people at my back were probably containing their laughter. XP
another funny consequence just happened yesterday. i was so contained in my sleep that i had a dream. it was very short, i just saw hannah and laura greeting me 'hello', and they both waved to me. guess what i was supposed to do?
unfortunately during that time our pastor was announcing the altar call... "if you think you have been out of touch with our Lord God right now and you hear him calling you to come back, just raise your hand and we will pray for you" the pastor says. normally only a few people raise their hands... probably 5 or less depending on how well the homily affected them.

LoL, just when the pastor finished asking for hand raisers, i woke up thinking what could have happened if i raised my hand in my sleep and the pastor noticed me, eyes closed waving to him like some close friend. gosh. i laughed after the thought.

enough about me. you see, i'm not the only one who sleeps, my mom sleeps too. my dad even... and my sister too.
ok. so we all sleep, but not at the same time. LoL
hehe.
i have another story: (not mine)

there's this couple in our church and they're just new. as usual we welcomed them and the ushers gave them souvenir bookmarks. it was also the week of the holy cummunion so we were given the usual bread cube and grape juice (like 20 ml? LoL). we do it this way: the ushers pass around the tray with the little grape juice cups then we get our part then pass it on... like that.

when this couple got theirs, they immediately ate bread and drank the grape juice. they didn't know that we we're supposed to wait for the full distribution of the food, pray for it then eat.

they only noticed their mistake when they saw us all... at the same time, partate with the bread and drank the juice (ala wine). probably at that time they just kept silent, praying "we give you thanks for the food that we recieved... amen."

haha.

jingle bells, deadline bells...

oooh... thankfully i'd be working on just one deadline and that's our reading report due tomorrow. oh well, i just can't start using the computer without knowing i still have remaining internet hours. i mean, that's one major cause of my procastination but it's better than not having the urge to start the computer at all.

finally, christmas shopping done. look at that, my mom gave me 500 bucks... ONLY. for me that's okay. i listed down all the people i'm giving gifts this christmas and they're all 24. okay okay, it might sound big to you (or small even) but i managed to spend only half of my money for all of them. :D

hehe. i'm sooo saving my money for something else so i just bought mini toblerones for all them because... they're on SALE! hehe... i bought two packs...

unfortunately, i opened the first pack.. took one and by impulse finished the whole thing bit by bit... =(

tip: the cheapest gift shop i can recommend to you is Papemelrotti. the cheapest item i saw there is worth 4.25 =) it's a mini tear-on calendar. of course you won't give that as the whole gift itself... you might also want to add some more stuff like notebooks and planners...
you see, they use recycled materials so they don't cost too much. it's even cheaper than you think it is. =D

while in the mall, my sister and i sat on the foodcourt to rest when suddenly, the lights went off. there was a blackout and the people were screaming. i wasn't scared because there's nothing to be scared of. the first thing i did was call on to my sister... then the lights went back probably because of the generator...
then all things went back to normal. i was surprised with myself, i didn't buy anything else except for the gifts. on our way to the mall i was already imagining my peppermind mocha frappe when i suddenly remembered that if want my starbucks, i have to use my own money... grr.

ok. still have to meet the deadline.
frick! i haven't done the revision of my artworks! grrr... this is too much.

have a nice doomsday

finally, the urge to study! i've been waiting for this feeling to come along and i must thank a certain motivation for this.

actually, inez told me we're gonna do the spotlight backdrop tomorrow 9-4pm. that means i will have lesser time to do my homeworks so i decided to just finish some and enjoy the rest of the busy days to come.

oh well, i still don't know what mythological story to use for my reading report. a lot of people will be using pygmaleon and galatea and cupid and psyche. as for me, i'm still working my views on orpheus and eurydice which will be quite easy except for the 'favorite character' part. i mean, i neither liked any of them. orpheus may be one great musician but he lacks trust (who would trust hades anyway?). eurydice is just your average wretched (and dead) damsel. hades is still hades surrounded by corpses. persephone didn't really have a qualifying act in the story (although she did help a lot but.. whatever). who's left?

maybe i should just put zeus as my favorite character for making all things happen and for not meddling in. it was a traggic ending and mind you, i cried even when i just watched it through a filmstrip. it was all good and hurtful =(.

someone made me smile yesterday. my childhood bestfriend, mannie. =) finally, after months of being out of touch she contacted me through friendster. goodness, i miss those years.

mehn. i thought after a week of NO FROG PRINCE, i'll get over the hook but no. i watched it awhile ago and i'm back to tango mania. tango is still hot as ever, charlene is still cool. the kind of lead character you'll never hate for stupidness and idiocy. haaay.

i want to live in my OWN world. if there is such a place.
my own world would probably be just one place.
MALL.
one day adri and i talked about living in such. it was fun imagining things like that... although highly impossible.
you see, everything i need is in the mall. if only i can afford to.
:D

speaking of malls. i haven't made my christmas shopping yet. argghh... no $$$$$!

oh well, have a nice doomsday.

it's our field trip today =(

[edited] it's december 9, 2005 8:45 am

sad to say but i cannot join, i'm still waiting for the full recovery of my knee. let's just hope it won't last until our prosec fieldtrip because i don't want to be an alien in someone else's bus. =
well, today is a great chance to lessen my schoolworks. i still have to
:: redo some of my artworks for the exhibit
:: frame them on a cartolina
:: do the graffiti backdrop for the exhibit
:: do tons of physics self-checks
:: finish my reading report
:: gather notes for helena stollenwerk

i can't take all those!
last dec 7 we went to nez's belated bday party! twas fun! we watched chicken little and i ate a lot of junk! hehe... i love my friends.

intrams.

i was not expecting to recieve a medal at first (no matter how minor the event was) but good Lord, i have recieved my first highschool medal.
frick, first medal in four years? that's so lame, i know, but i'm not really into extra-curriculars. oh well, i guess the category we won was the most minor of all events: props.
anyhow, i'm thankful.
congratulations to all the winners. go psyche! no offense, but i was (or we were) kinda expecting the overall. LoL. but at least we won a lot. =D

my batchmates have gone too competitive. tsk.
i'm changing this layout soon. if time and internet load allows me, i'll be making this page more collorful! =D

i miss my bored life

when you're bored, you suddenly notice things and make a big deal out of them. you laugh at them and you make lousy criticisms, then you notice you're having fun and you finally think that being bored has pros too because it lets you see the world in a more detailed (and funny) perspective like there's always something wrong (or right) about the things around you.

but on the other hand, when you're bored, you'll find yourself seated on a chair with your elbows on the table and your fingers curled under your cheeks watching everyone and everything come and go. the flight of the bumblebee, the fall of the ants, the cheer of the audience, etc...

anyone who passes by your table and looks at you will probably think you're really bored. you're lucky if these passersby are just mere passersby who are on their way to their game venues. unfortunately, you are not quite lucky when one of these 'mere' passersby identifies you as a team propsman then approaches you with rolls of foils, scissors and scotchtape. good omen isn't it?

i'm not saying i hate my work as a propsman (well, i 70% do) but you see, i was at the height of enjoying the boredness of the moment. oh, i'm also not saying that i'm being disturbed or something but well, let's just say i don't like doing pompoms?

true enough.
i helped making pompoms awhile ago and mind you, it wasn't an easy job. i could even consider myself luckier this year than three years ago when i was a freshman when we, propsmen, were asked to make pompoms for the WHOLE cheering team (that sucks).

so there, i cut the foil the WRONG way and realized it only when people are suddenly wondering why the strips are so curly and the bad thing was, i already taped it and it's ready to twist. ~_-;
i was so frustrated with the foil because it's too stubborn.
i have to ask someone to hold the strip-edges so that i can tape it properply.

even though it looked not the way it was supposed to be, we still found consolation with it's cuteness. a permed pompom.

till then. =D