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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

i'm jealous again...-_-;;

this is the first time i felt this kind of feeling... because duh.. this is the first time i encountered this situation...-_-;;

maybe i'm close to being a rebel child... beat the crap outta me and i'll kill myself... remember my stupid attempt to actually end my life? damn.. that's the most stupid thing that ever came to my mind... to actually doze myself to death with a hairclip...

stupid stupid.

who am i jealous with? it's not just a who... it's a group of people my father is managing... since he is now a unit manager... i suppose most of his income goes to 1) paying ammortizations, taxes, and other debts 2)our tuition fees and 3) his agents' luxuries!

every week we are feeding more than ten people in the house... and that's the only day we're cooking food better than our usual daing for breakfast, sabaw for lunch and nothing for dinner...
although i enjoy the good food we serve when they're here... it seems like it's the only occasion where we get to prepare something better!

every outing, overnights and stuff... they're always there! i can't spend a single outing just with my family!
our car gets loaded not with our baggages but with them!
they fill our house every week and still i don't think they're getting the right motivation to work harder! earn more! and give back what we really deserve...

blah... i don't hate them...
i just don't like the idea of spending every luxurious event for them not for us... it's like WE are supposed to please them when what real life demands is the vice versa of it...

see my point... by now you might think i'm the afflicted one but no... this jealousy is just out of place... i'm just ranting my blahs out...

Monday, April 25, 2005

yehey!

my dad bought me a new guitar...
hehehahahahhohohohohuhuhuhuhaaa
ahahahaaaayy... wala lang... just happy... we should have bought it for 2,800 kaso daddy bought a tuner and a cable wire pa eh so now it costs 4,6... -_-;;

hehe... ayus na rin...=)

Sunday, April 24, 2005

what i like in guys (survey!)

gawain ng bored... got this thru friendster..

what i like in guys
1. Suplado: no
2. Mr. Shades: it's alright as long as it's needed..
3. Bad boy: nah
4. Masculado: no... tama lang... parang sebastian in cruel intentions 1! hihi
5. Guys who give flowers: sure... basta red roses
6. Smiling face: sure! pero nice teeth ha?
7. Hiphop: not really...
8. Guys who ask permission b4 courting: i like that... para hindi pakiramdaman
9. Has earing/s: wag na.. mag-away pa kami eh...haha
10. Used to chew bubblegum: sure basta hindi habit.. haha
11. Long-hair: no
12. Bald: no
13. Antipatiko: get out...
14. Torpe: not really... basta he's working on it..
15. Computer-games adik: no thanks... lalo kaming mag-aaway
16. Basketball player: sure pero not for a living ah...
17. Mr. Count-my-ex's-till-you-drop: yak
18. Mestizo: pwede. ok rin moreno basta di negro... negra na ko eh.. ahaha
19. Guys who sing well: sure!
20. Quiet/tame: uhmm... no... basta nasa lugar
21. Cumlaude: gusto ko suma! haha... sure
22. Formal: nope.. 50-50 etiket ko eh... haha
23. Friendly: malamang
24. Mr. I have an opinion about anything & everything: wag na lang...bka idemanda ko yan
25. Motorcyle guy: bike na lang ok?
26. Rocker: no... bsta marunong mag play ng instrument... guitar
27. Skate boarder: wag na sagot ko pa pang ospital mo
28. Alaskador (prankster): ok lang... wag lang magpapaiyak
29. Flirt: sino bang may gusto nito? shoo
30. Mr. Campus Crush: pwede...
31. bigotilyo: noo
32. Painter: sure! basta not for a living ah...
33. Galante: obcors
34. Mr. Love Letter: ayos!
35. Maporma: ayaw... simple na casual lang..
36. Talks Too Much: no
37. Soccer Hottie: aba.. tara!
38. Anti-Christ: go to hell
39. Mama's Boy: mahiya ka nga...
40. Hangs Out With His Friends A Lot: not really..
41. Mysterious Guy: cge
42. Cute Idiot: ayoko sa mga tanga eh
43. Guitarist: obcors
44. Wide Vocabulary Guy: oo! this is a must.
45. Loves you: er... duh?

it's 1:49 pm

nothin much happened this morning... as usual.. church....
the band there's getting heavier! i mean... we're like having a 45 minute concert!
it was really fun... the interludes and solos... LoL... it's a 12-man band.. everone's a professional expecially mr. idol..the great pianist for me! haha... the 'greatest' slot is still vacant...
there were three trumpets and three saxophones... woah... haha... stig i love the electric guitar.. galing galing.. clap clap... ang saya.. nakakiyak! haha...
LoL.. whenever we sing 'above all' i can't help but recall 'the passion of the christ'...
crucified, laid behind the stone... you lived and died rejected and alone... like a rose trampled on the ground... you took the fall and thought of me... above all...

seriously, i'd rather have the whole 2 hours doing praise and worship songs... hanep.
kaya nga i love my home church... every sunday i'm attending morning concerts in a real auditorium! wahehehe...
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how ironic, whenever i wanted to update my blog during eventful times, i always forget and the next time i sit here i couldn't remember anything memorabe for the past few moments... but still i get the hang of blogging and prolong my posts with random thoughts... ahhahahaaa...

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this day i'm so happy... bakeet? kasi nakapa ko ung theme song ng DARNA! haha... so happy.. the part of 'hawakan mong aking mga kamay...' tapos ung strings blah... i'm so happy talaga... favorite ko nanaman c darna... when i was a kid i used to like her kasi we have a lot of darna comics kaso nawala na ... tapos i got more interested in animes kaya nakalimutan ko na sha...pero now that she's back.. masaya na ko!
ok lang nman c angel locsin pero i get to appreciate Valentina more kasi idol ko c alessandra de rossi... haha walang aangal!!!!
pero i don't like her acting dun... hehe....

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HATE LIST UPDATE!
ok.. so diba... i hate sandarafuckingidiottangaengotgaga parkputanginanyapanget... now i hate sarahpucha geronimograsa... haha don't blame me... pagpilitan banaman ang sarili sa reload? what's more? partner pa ni hero.... eeeewww? matatanggap ko pa c erich eh.. pero yun? yuck epal... wala na shang ibang ggwin kundi magpakyut! eeeeewwww.... ano bayan hero! mas matatanggap ko pa na bakla ka sa reload imbis na ung partner mo kung hindi tanga , pakyut naman! haynakkkkooooo

Saturday, April 23, 2005

INGGITERA!

that's me... my case right now is sooo common... i'm jealous of my sister, like most younger siblings do...-_-;;

pero i don't hate her... i love her sooo much nga eh.. kaso i'm jeaous how VERY fortunate she is that even though she failed her dream school (ateneo)... she passed UP naman....
aside from that... her application form for a scholarship in Starr Foundation in New York was granted... and later she'll be recieving loads of dollars a month...

and if she wants to study in the states, someone will always be there to support her financially... weow. and my parents don't have to spend a lot with her tuition pa...
-_-;; i'm proud... pero jealous paren...

parang ang ironic para sa status nya na maging scholar diba? she's not poor! we're not poor! pero blah.. she's intelligent kasi eh...
hah! if i know... anyone can top in FEU-fern HS! ilipat mo kaya sha sa Holy... makaka line of 9 kaya sha?

i don't think so.
the comptetion here is damn tough you need to shed your blood to get a decent score.
i'm thinking a lot of things regarding my future... how will i pass the upcat? what wourse will i get? how am i going to get a scholarship grant with starr?

blaahh... i need to study hard... everyone is smart. and i have to be smarter.

it's nice listening to others...

LoL... i'm listening to my friend's semi-broken love life awhile ago and it's really funny... sama noh?
funny nman talaga eh...
kahit na gano katalino ang tao super dupe parin ng heart... tsk.
LoL...
i learned something new.... about the Monasteryo ng Sta. Clara... you offer eggs then you write your wishes to a piece of paper and the monks there will pray for it... the number of eggs to be offered depends on the weight of your wish... there's no harm in trying... the monks are catholics nman eh... di nga pla ako catholic pero hindi nman masma eh... they'll pray for you, i'll pray fo myself too... blah.

more? the church is somewhere in katipunan.
i told myself to visit it sometime.... ^__^
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