today is...

stupid ng title..-_-;;

haaayyy.... sooper naninibago ako sa sarili ko.. bcoz of my kilay...
^^;; funny ba? i mean.. should i blame the bading in the salon for making it so thin, yet fairly nice or should i blame myself for not protesting early enough to prevent this self consiousness that i feel?

naahh.. wala na kong magagawa... haha...
o cge.. since majority of my batch mates enjoyed the prom... cgecge.. i can say that i enjoyed it too... fun naman talaga eh.. if not for me feeling sleepy most of the time... and i think i was the first to leave the program...

... i feel better with the orchestra playing in the upper lobby.. lOl.. ang old fashioned ko tlaga...

people are still under hangovers... can't get enough of the prom eh? was it like a dream or something wherein we wake up one morning facing the evidently boring cycles of school life?

can't wait to graduate.

ate maika visited awhile ago at school, had some chitchat... let her help me with the trigo seatwork and yeah.. the first number was easy for her... but it still sounds complicated to me... haayyy...

and today... hmm... i'm looking for recipes for entrep...
tomorrow... another day to face..
btw... happy birthday ms malayas!

sa wakas!
i finished 'teen idol' na!!
i hate the ending pero sweet so ok lang..

currently reading:
'on the bright side, i am now the girlfriend of a sex god'
by Louise Rennison

haaayyy... can't get enough of teen novels talaga oh...-_-;;

ayoko na magsulat.. babayooooo!

prom =|

ok... so yesterday was the prom night... i arrived at 6:10 and left at exactly 11:10..
in short. i didn't finish the whole program...
just bcoz i'm sooo sleepy... i slept in my chair for a couple of minutes but i felt uncomfortable so i decided to ... rest somewhere else... to a place where i can freely toss my agonizing shoes... where?

cr.

and it's warmer there... good thing.

btw... prom pics will follow soon... hehe...

sighhh... i'm really bored that night, the only thing i enjoyed was the food! and the orchestra on the upper lobby when we left...

manila pen.. hmm... they say Rigodon ballroom was the biggest ballroom there... but i don't think it's big enough...-_-;;

no offense but i hate the water there... it tastes like the fountain in school...
but seriously.. i like the food.. although i didn't finish the main course coz i was already bloated with the soup bread and veggies...
i loooveee the dessert!!! hihi.. chocolateeee...

basta ayun...
congrats to all the winners!

english week...

half day nga lang eh.. hehe.. pero anyway..
i'm happy that, as expected (nag-expect talaga ko!), we won the photo gallery plus the best essay thing... haha.. ang saya saya... hehe...

congrats din sa radio play! astig, i heard the judge said she's going to hire them for her movie, if ever, to be on the special effects field... cool. what a breakthrough. ^_^=v

the quiz bee finished with 3 questions, again, just like the cl quiz.. LoL... the first question was... 'what's the superlative form of former?'
LoL... i can't believe it's FOREMOST... haha.

congrats sa lahat ng nanalo!

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PROM NA TOMORROW..
but seriously, while my other classmates are busy for the countdown, i'm not feeling anything like excitement... maybe a little nervous bcoz of my shoes. good thing it has a strap.. but bad thing coz its not adjustable so my bad if it fell and i have to walk with my feet rising a little inches from the shoes whenever i take a step...

oh my... i just heard a bad news from yesterday... kasi diba last time i went to commonwealth market and had this traumatic experience of having this teenage guy fighting and exchanging cruel words to this old woman (a relative or parent i think), throwing beer bottles in every direction (of course not aiming at her)and blaming her for being so -i don't know the term- during his birthday.

i was scared because dad left me in the car, with the windows open, so when he closed the engine, the windows won't pull up if want to. i cried afterwards, of fear and empathy to the old woman, who at her old age is being treated like that with his son.

just now, she died.
may she rest in piece.

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now here's the hitch. his nephew, yung bakla, was the one who's going to do my hair and make-up for the prom. but unfortunately, because of the burial, he can't make it.
LoL.
^^;;
pero it's not a problem na... since we scheduled na in Ystillo. kaso, i wasn't impressed with my sister's make-up there... the blush on was too dark.. but anyway.. she's still pretty. i especially liked the hair. ^_~;

look! i like this gown...


pero hindi ganyan gown ko.. hehe.

should i blame myself?

hey.. good afternoon.
now here's the topic...should you at least ponder on the lyrics of 'welcome to my life' by simple plan... that's where i'm jumping on... i mean the message.. not the real being-a-5th-wheel-person thing...

i'm tired.
i know not everyone are blessed with that popularity that makes you the fad icon or trend-setter in the campus... or maybe i'm just envious of those people who get along well with almost all sorts of people (not exactly all coz i'm out those ^^)

but hell. i feel awful when i'm alone. yes.. i'm a loner.. how many times do i have to tell that? but the feeling of socializing with other people makes me feel on the 3rd, 4th or 5th wheel.

that's why i feel soooo sooo damn out of place. i have another bestfriend, hannah, who is quite on the fam side. sometimes we bond (like awhile ago), but that sometimes means quite rare coz we're not given the time to bond like that. ^_^, pero lamo yun, wala lng... kakamiss

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eh basta.. nalalbuan na ko sa sarili ko.. i can't put THESE (thoughts) in words.. haahaaaaaa...
ah basta.. lam nyo ba yung feeling na ganun?
nyeee... bat ba ko nagdadrama.. basta... joke lng yung lahat ng yun..
ewan ko.. labo.-.-

in short. i don't want to be around with the COOL CROWD. kasi i'll just get intimidated. like awhile ago. they're talking about stuff, stuff, stuff.. they're happy... and they're the only batchmates i see around. pero i'm alone.. alone alone alone, sulking myself in romance comedy books by meg cabot.

maybe that's it. i just don't want myself to be alone in the corner while the others are packed on the other side.

pero what can i do? i tried to tag along with this two people (who're my friends) pero i ended up being on the 3rd wheel... so i left them for the book.

yeah.. bookworm.
i'm not sociable enough.
and i don't believe in sociable people... kasi if there's any, then i wouldn't be alone.
pero i know naman na being alone is a matter og choice.. pero basta. i said my point.

haha... in the end...
i really should blame myself.

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JUST NOW, i DON'T FEEL LIKE PUTTING THESE THINGS IN PUBLIC.
lam nyo kasi.. imbis na na bublurt out ko lahat ng TAONG galit na galit ako... i ended up BLIND ITEM-ing them.. kasi baka IBLAB ng iba dyan. -_-;;

wee.. check this picture... really nice!
by chocko

wednesday =)

hello there... ^_^;;
weeeee... the photo gallery [including me!] group did a good job awhile ago.. plus yesterday!
hehe... ang kyut nung design nameeennn.... ahahahaaa... plus the essay.. i kind of liked it with my little revisions.. pero oks lng...maganda naman... wish ko lang talaga manalo kami kasi kung sa design lang naman ang pag-uusapan... among the other sections... mas maganda naman ung samen... [hindi naman sa pagmamayabang...^^;] pero that's what i see... eheheheee..

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yey! we had p.e. awhile ago. and seriously, i got excited nnman maglaro ng softball.. unfortunately ang init init sa field and miss aureada's hesitating to let us play.. considering na malapit na ang prom.. haha... pero basta.. gusto ko na maglaro..

kaso nga lang... jusko ah! ang tagal na ng group 1 and 4 na maglaro! almost 3 weeks samantalang ung samen... 1/4 of the period lang...-_-;; hmmphhh...

ano kaya club ko sa interclub?
feeling ko mag ta-taekwondo na lang ako! hihi...
or softball kaya? kaso la akong kasamaaaa.....>.<

LoL... speaking of club... buti na lng at G D C9 lang ang chords ng tutugtugin nmen... that means i don't need to bring voldy around at school! instead i'll be bringing a guitar... hehe...
aND... ms. alberto asked me kung bat di na lang daw ako mag organ... (haha! akala ko panaman ayaw mo na ko mag-organ coz i'm being a burden to the club!) sabi ko nahihirapan na ako magdala.. hehe.. 22o naman... ah basta..

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^^;;

happy valentines!

well..belated actually... hehe..
i ate a lot of chocolates yesterday.. and today din.. haha pero sad i didn't get to eat my ferrero...-_-;; because of that stupid CL activity... (yes i'm mad..) and it's not that stupid .. seeing as to how it affected me this much...
cge.. laugh. there's nothing funny actually.

ok off topic. haha.. there's nothing quite valentine-ish with this post...
my love life is still unclear... haha.. still the usual 75 dots per image black and white picture...ehehe..

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haayy... this day is so tiring... quizzes, homeworks... that's why i slept laid down on the floor awhile ago after answering the guidance test, which happens to be another mental checkup... -_-;; i'm getting insane.

and then... today is the mounting of the pictures and essay in the photo gallery.. haayy... so tired talaga.. pero hell.. still have to revise ( mean, widen down ) the essay.. haha. kaya ko toh...

haaayyy...-_-... bahala ka na nga Lord...
yey... i can play 'Gone' na.. it's a piano instrumental... got the peice from hannah.. the tune is.. uhm... er.. can't explain basta sad, mushy and often heard in teleseryes.. o diba.. kinareer...haha

and then... uhmm... yeah... i'm reading another book... by meg cabot.. 'teen idol'... evuluation some other time..

speaking of meg cabot.. i visited meg cabot.com and found her diary there (i dunno if it's the real thing tho) and guess what.. it's powered by blogger!
but you can't really see the address coz it's named megcabot.com... blah..

haayy...
oh well... looks like i need to do my homeworks na...-_-;;
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haha.. later na lng muna yan.. tinatamad pa ko eh..
eheheheee...
so far.. my hate towards la germania electronics is subsiding na... since she's not so rude with me last time during this period where i have no choice but to join their group...=)

but still.. charles [from the law] is as irritating as ever... she keeps making destructive comments... still bossy, and yeah... EVERYONE is still a whole pile of tupperwares on her... get that?

uhmmm... mililiters [y'know i have to stay corny in naming them.. these are blind items...] is still the same trying-hard-to-make-people-laugh kind of person... and she's quite NOT lucky about that... since she's being.. kind of thrown-out in a popular kind of way... which makes me feel sick about her.. but she's not that bad either...

and this 2 ...are my all time hates.. although they're not doing anything to me now... [just their mere existence makes me want to throw up] bruce and ga(suqared)INV.. blah... [corny talaga ng name pero that'll help me remember them well...] y'know them.. one of the stupid pathetic creatures who tried to ruin my 2nd yr...
to no avail.

-_-;;
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this valentines season is not an exception for me NOT to hate...=\

sundaaaayyyy... =)

as promised.. manila bay pics.. hehe...
taken last january [forgot the date] 2005... hehe...



if ur using a laptop.. try to tilt the screen backwards a little to see the rays clearly.. hehe...
so obviously... almost all of them are the same... i'm enjoying the rays of lights... also the smallest kid there... cute... plus the couple... sweet..-_-;;
so generally... lahat naman gusto ko.. haha

BREAKFAST

guess what? we suddenly remembered we don't have cooking oil left.. as in the last drop was consumed yesterday...
we just reheated the fried rice from yesterday..yes, without oil.. and since we don't have any ulam... i made myself one... bagoong with kalamansi... hehe.. sarap kaya.. haha...
i would love to eat bread and herb cream cheese.. kaso january 25 pa pla expired ung cheese.. haha...-_-;;
ayun.. so far...SO GOOD!

LoL.. i was thinking... what's my favorite chocolate nga pla?
in case u'd like to give me something sweet for this valentines season.. give me ferrero rocher... i'll greatly appreciate that...^_~

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oopss.. tomorrow na pla ung notecards.. and i still don't know what to do. i think mag iimbento na lng ako ng laman coz all my sources are in the library and the philosophy shelf was 'please don't use this shelf... books are for blah blah..'.. ohhhkkkaayyy?

haha...
i bought ferrero awhile agooo.. for cl nga eh.. kasi pinapadala kmi ng 'favorite' chocolate nmen.. i think we're going to be tested for another sacrifice kind of thing... ok lng.. valentines naman.. pero sana... sana.. may magbigay sakin ng chocolates!!

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seriously. philamlife hates me! i mean us...
awarding ni mommy laging exam and may pasok.. so i won't be able to escort her through the night and worse.. i won't be able to go to a hotel! haha...

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during church... i was so pissed off with my sister.. she keeps on smiling.... wierdly.. just because the topic is of valentines day and she's... excited.. as if naman noh... her grayscaled love life is turning into 100 dots per image 32 bit color.. while mine stay black and white...

just wait. -_-;;