guilty...

awhile ago while collecting kina 'suki'... two children came to me to ask for their pamasko... sad to say pero i don't have coins in my pocket so i said sorry ksi i have no money... -_-... nkkguilty... those children are hoping for someone who'll give them even just a peso.. pero waaahhh... di ako nagbigay... ka guilty tlga oh...



oh well... those children? nkkguilty.. pero nung nagkalabuan kme ng isa kong friend... hmm.. naguilty ba ko? gags... of course yes... pero up to now i still can't find what my fault is in there... -_~...hindi kse ako manhid.. i'll know naman if i did something bad eh... and if i did... i'll apologize.. pero kung alam kong wala... hmm.. Lord, help naman o? ^^;;



diniscuss ng aming class president kung gusto nmen mag feastday sa boy's town marikina dun sa in-outreach-an namen... grrr... majority of the class approved pero.. w00T... i'm the lone hand raiser for the option of not celebrating the feastday there...

basically... i hate children... i hate their being makulet (khit lam kong galing din ako dun) i hate their being so hard to talk to... i hate them kasi nagpapahabol cla pag kinakausap... i hate them when they scream... i hate them...period. pero it doesn't mean na ayoko rin magkaanak sa future (haha... umabot daw ba dito?! LoL) gusto ko naman... pero i think two children would be enough... dahil ayoko ng maraming inaalagaang BATA... arrgghhh... no wonder my lowest score in the interest test fell under 'personal service' w/c includes nursing, care giving, bsta... ganun...



haaayy... about the band thing? uhgh... im outta there...-_~... not out as in i'm leaving coz even if i want to.. i can't dahil sa certain reasons.. haaayyy buhaaayyyy.... i hope i'm a freelander....tssss...



pluggie na nga lng ulet... ---> LUNACY v.1



PS... because i'm inspired with our lesson awhile ago at AP (bout knights and stuff)... i decided to make a fictional novel entitled: Oath of Chivalry ---> watch out! bka ma-publish ko to someday! hehe... (which is after a century or.. never?)

FUCK THIS DAY!

haynaku... kill me for cursing... i really hate this day... ah.. wala... i hate our presentation a while ago...~_-... i hate a certain grupm8.. yeah yeah... bat ako magsosorry e sha nga ung lumayas sa harap ko eh.. hn... bahala sha sa buhay nya... the hell i care...



oh well... that means THERE IS NOT REALLY A 'TRUE FRIEND' existing in this world... totoo yaaannn... even my 'bestfriends'.. i can't consider them a true friend... best lng.. ksi para saken mas mataas ung true sa best..



aminin nyo... ur bestfriends are just plainly your schoolfriends.. ero pag di na kayo nagkikita... la ng contact.. would you still think na friend ka pren nya... gya nunbg sa kong bstfriend nung gradeskul, la na kontak kahit tawag ako ng tawag sa kanya... unlike mannie.... a true friend indeed...



ughh... whatever nga.. i just hate this day, hay salamat at magpapractice kami as a CLUB not as a group... coz i can't take our imperfections... bwiset.. ano?! ssbihin mo na nobody is perfect? baket? sinabi ko ba na perfect ako? fuck you!

AWKWARD MOMENT starts... now

i'm still feeling awkward since our interaction with lasalle gh 2-F... why? don't ask, i'm always like this... even in first yr. when they enter.. i laugh... can't help it... LoL...-_-

anyways... oh well... guess the saying's right, it won't be exciting enough w/ the second time 'round... haha... they're right... it's actually boring (no offense) maybe i'm not so sociable to have all the fun.. eh kasi noh.. in things like this, only the 'sociables' get the 'real fun'... i still had a little fun... making funny things out of people...jke.. sma koh noh... ung activities nila (or lahat kme..prang..) ohkaaayyy?... xept for the MTV.. pero ung iba..cge na nga... ok na rin.. pwede...^^;;



haayy.. entrance.. todo... plastikan ito! i must admit.. shempre you have to control your uncontrollable outburst of laughing your guts out(yuck?)..ah eh.. basta ganun..



oh well... since i'm sensitive.. i want you to check HER xanga... check her nov.21 post... langya... insultuhin daw ba ang aking alma matter?!?! too bad kchatm8 ko pnaman bf nya.. hah! bka sha mapaginitan ko! grrr... CHECK IT CHECK IT!!!

naku.. pagod nnman ako...

oh well... this sunday is the LORD's day.. hallelujaaa.... i love GOD... pero bat lagi pren akong tinatamad magpray? sabi ko nga i'll never let Jesus wait pag may date kme (cl...tss) pero lagi ako inaantok or pagod or di ko feel... i hate this feeling... isa kong hipokritaaaaa!! hindi ko mapanindigan ung intro ko sa Godly cat. ng websyt ko... isa kong malaking sinungaling!!! naknaaaaaangggg...



ang daming b.i. sa paligid... i am slowly getting used to hear people cursing!!! haaayy...



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kanina at church, yeah.. like what i said, i'll buy the tickets to barbie's cradle's concert... haaaynaku namannn... ubos na ung sa harap (150 php)... langya.. so no choice.. have to buy the 75 pesos tix...hmmph... and that's from the middle of the auditorium hanggang balcony... kelangan ako mapunta sa balcony! as in asa harap!!



isa pa toh... malamang kahit cno naman iisa ang dahilan for religious concert... barbie's cradle and moonstar... tama... yan ang rason ko.. at di ko manlang naisip na para kay Lord tong concert na toh...-_-... punish me LORD... right now.



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kanina investi nmen.. nakina monte ako... haynaku... sana successful ung proj. namen... hmmph...-.-

ang sungit ng maid nila.

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onga pla... bukas interaction namen... gud luck. di ako naeexite...eh pano bnaman.. la salle gh nnman...-_-...sawa na ko...

sabado nanaman

i thought i could get some rest, but unfortunately no... i didn't get any of those desirable long sleeps! oh, i must admit--- i hate our band practices (coz i'm too lazy to attend) but once we get in there, we'll be overwhelmed with our rehearsals... hulaan nyo kung overwhelmed sa kagandahan o kapangitan... ^_~ haha... basta un... sa wednesday, accdng to my untrustworthy senses, the pres (i think) of the PTA foundation will be listening to each of the band's performance, if she likes it, then we might get invited to perform during the fair. which i don't like... why? basically that means performing on stage (speaking of stage fright), and of course i have to carry, again, my organ which i think sounds WEIRD especially during the FAIR.



awhile ago, at CK (cafe konsulado) kim, aisha, larz, me and steph practiced our audition piece--- Silent Night. Wallah... stig... this is one big ORCHESTRAA!! xept for the piano i think (never seen pianos in orchestras...-_^)haha... the song is really nice... we don't have a vocalist kaya masaya kasi if we have... edi voice ya ung hahabulin ng aming tempo... yoko nga.. paimportante...



narinig ko pa nga.. our december concert (first ever gig to if ever! needs audition nga lng...) sa greenhills will be postponed due to hectic sched ng cafe... anyways... ok un.. that means more practice... pero mamomove daw sa january...



i don't think i heard it right... narinig ko ata na may selected groups (audition passed) na sasama sa 'kundirana' concert... u know what... whatttevvverrrrr.... kung pumasa kami... prang ayoko sumama... hello lng... days after that concert is the 3rd quarterly exams! haaayyy



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w00T!!! tomorrow at church i'll be buying the 'youth alive fundraising tickets' for a religious concert featuring Barbie's Cradle!!! and moonstar88 (i think...that's what i heard eh..)...sama ka? hah... murang mura lng... 75 pesos! san k nmn nakakita ng barbie's cradle concert for 75 bucks? heheeeee.... nov.27-7pm-word of hope christian family church auditorium-- EDSA west... harap ng sm north edsa. c ya there!



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maxado na kong busy this yr... i think lahat nman tau eh...-.- pero haayy... pagod na ko.. gusto ko magpahinga...



--- lol... natutuwa ako sa silent night namen... ang gandaaaa!!

BAD NEWS! (bad news nga ba?) nagbunutan kami kanina kung cno leader... nahulaan nyo na noh... ako nnman (di tlga ko marunong bumunot!)!! -_- meaning ako ung mag tatawag pag may practices! eh hello.. ako nga ung numero unong ayaw magpractice eh... langya nman...hmm.. nevermind.-_-



currently listening to:Misa de Gallo - Manila Philharmonic Orchestra

worst week of november...[h8 list update]

and i though this is my lucky month since i celebrated my birthday on this horribly [just now] dreadful month. isooo hate this wk... from nov 16--nov19! everything bad happened to me!!! kaasar... i wish i'd die right now! *knocks on wood 3x* and go to heaven and see God and never come alive. But hell that's pretty easier said than done... -_-



first of all, tag-board is sick again... or is it my browser who's sick? can't open the webpage..can't access my account....-_- damn



oh look at that...the xerox/printer/scanner machine is now working... well..? hindi sha katulad ng mga xerox machine na mabilis, this one is uber slow, scanning the paper and PRINTING a copy of it..... ang bagal tuloy.. and xet noh.. colored pa! the ink is tooo expensive and the scanner (na sobrang matigas ang ulo) is digging holes in our laptop... my dad downloaded THREE scanner software only to discover none of them compatible with that 'xerox' brand machine... bwiset...



during the whole school week, i was loaded with the heaviest metal in the world! kaassaaarrr...this is preposterous!!! (yak...) i hate assignments! i hate quizzes! i hate seatworks!!! so what do you think is left with my class standing sheet?



btw, plano ko mag-iba ng layout since i'm getting used to this na... inspired nnman ako sa isang song, 'welcome to my life'-- simple plan. la lng... dba? pang blog tlga ung title di tulda ng 'you can buy me now'..ano ko prosti? gags.



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H8 LIST UPDATE

haayyy... lam nyo.. minsan nauubusan din ng pasenya ang isang tao, at ubus na ang pasensya ko sa pagpa2kyut nya (di naman sha kyut) sa pagpa3nsin nya (dedma nman) at sa abot langit nyang feeling na crush ko xa (hindi nman 22o) naiinis ako kay...*sigh* should i say her name... puchangnakngtimpaklong un eh....wag na lng...

at now she's using someone else pra pagselosin ako (or so i thought)... haaayyyy ako ba tlga'y lulunurin sa kamalasan sa linggong toh? ang kapal ng mukha nya nakakaawa... w8...prang ako yata ang feeling nun ah.. ah bsta... hello world? kaw bnmn di ma-obviousan sa mga desperate attempts nya... oh my... DIE BITCH! kala mo kinalolokohan ka ng mga tao? in your dreams sucker! kala mo kyut ka... hinde... panget ka.. you suck! i never thought na ganyan ka pla... feeling, mayabang, feeling, mayabang...



isa ka pa ***** haha... dyusko kunsintedora.... lol..if i were you i wouldn't tolerate your friend's desperate wishes of cuddling while in my presence... (yak.. ampeeling ko! haha... blog ko toh!)



isa pa... *** ********, kala ko ba di ka blabber? e isa ka plang langyang machinegun mouth eh... pigilan mo yang mo.. paplasteran ko yan...



know what? i hate the seniors batch 04-05... curse them. and sorry, i just hate that batch.

the lonliest birthday ever...

i never thought birthdays can be sad too...=( just like what i'm experiencing today... i would love to spend the whole day of november 16 at home, with my family who knows (duh) that a certain child existed in this same day in the year 1990... but helluvafreakin shit... first... i got late at school ... second, the pipe-in people didn't greet me! how sad... oh well, although you might say you don't want your name to be mentioned in the pipe-in for the whole school to know... hn, you know yourslelf.. and i know you want your birthday to be known... parang ako! then... people in the class started singing a happy birthday to my friend and classmate frolyne who (accdng to the pipe-in) celebrated her birthday on the 15th ut in reality... it was on the 14th... haha... people are getting pa-windang nang pa-windang nowadays... and as for me... my friends almost forgot this day! the only people who knew it was my brithday was... karla. larz. ate iori (am i right?) and hannah (really?)... haaayy...



and to add to this whole freakin miserable day of mine, our dear teachers loaded our backs with lots of homeworks... and i sooo fucking hate our trigo teacher... she gave us numberlots of homeworks na di nya tinuro... maybe she did but majority of the class didn't understand, and she's such a pig! i know.. i'm bad and i'm mean...lam ko na yan.. so don't spat that in my face for the nth time... i should be having a good day today.. pero lahat ruined na...



i hate this day...



girl boy bakla tomboy butiki baboy



girl boy bakla tomboy butiki baboy



girl boy --> ay... boy na ko...-_^