The Sunday Currently (vol. 2)

Before I dive into a crazy pool of work, here's the second of the series! :)

Currently

Reading
Jaqen H'ghar x Arya Stark fanfics from ff.net and archiveofourown.org. i'm kindof heavily shipping the pair right now. i don't care about their freaking age gap haha. i used to ship gay pairings long ago so this is sort of an improvement on my moral standard of things.

Writing
a couple of drafts about financial management and skincare. lol. when will i ever get to complete my writing assignments. urgh.

Listening
to the loud humming of the fan.

Thinking
how much of a dope i am for getting scammed on this download site. you see, i was able to successfully score a copy of this german film starring Tom Wlaschiha (read: Jaqen H'ghar). obvious problem was, i couldn't understand a thing. since it's romcom, i figured it wouldn't be too hard to do some guesswork to get what the movie's about. but still, i wanted to understand what Tom was saying. hearing him speak german got me super kilig though. i so love his voice. <3

anyway, i was out and about the interwebs looking for subs and i was getting really desperate cos there's simply none. until i viewed this download site with a seems-legit list of files i needed, but when i clicked the download link, a popup window reminded me that it's only for registered users. so sure, i registered. it's free anyway. but on my second download attempt i got a new reminder saying the file is available only for premium users. okay, premium. got it. what's a euro and a continuous weekly billing (unless cancelled) anyway. i'll pay, get my file, cancel the subscription, and continue swooning over Tom. :3

after paying for subscription i got back to the site and found that they have no available files for download. seven hells! i also realized i paid premium for a different site (www.streamdo.sk), not the one hosting downloads. i'm freaking offering this site to the red god!!! and to make matters worse, i couldn't find where i could cancel my subscription, feeling they made it so such that they could leech more money from dopes like me.

anyway, as if i'd leave it that way. i was able to cancel my subscription via www.2co.com (the scammer's payment processor). so beware of this site even if it seems like your only hope: www.downburg.com. i can't believe how they can stomach a scammy business model.

oh, i haven't mentioned the movie, it's called "Mann Kann Frau Erst Recht" and it google-translates to "Man Woman Can Certainly". yes. certainly. haha

Smelling
the new curtains' ugly textile scent. urgh.

Wishing
i had more free time to waste

Wearing
shorts and a milo marathon singlet

Loving
my boyfriend more than ever. he's leaving for India early May for some work assignment and will be gone for 6 weeks. sepanx much. i'm really excited for him cos he's having it nice and steady with his career. i'm feeling sad though cos we won't be able to see each other for a while but oh well. there's skype naman. hehe my saturdays will be considerably free-er without him though just in time cos classes are starting soon! haha why do i sound like an undergrad.

there's also something i want to do while he's gone... ano, mag workout! HAHAHA i'm imagining some 6-week transformation program so that when he's back i'm fitter na! woooh! lololol

also, i'm really getting crazy over Tom Wlaschiha, i asked jeckie for permission to date the guy in the rare case i win a date with him under the utterly remote chance that there's even a contest with that kind of prize! he said no and i tried to bargain saying if he won a date with Emma Watson, i would allow him! still no though. he only agreed if he could join too, and that Tom will be the third wheel like whaaaat. T____T

aaaargh, seriously, it's not like it's going to brew into something serious you know! all these celebrities granting dinner dates with their fans are just out there for publicity. like reaaally. is Tom even dating? i'd like to know plz.

oh boy. i love my boyfriend but aaargh Jaqen.

Wanting
that Merida Big Seven 20 still, or any small framed mountain bike with hydraulic brakes that can be adorned in red or white or both.

Needing
some time alone with the Lord (of light. chos). i feel like my spiritual journey is at a stall. and all the inspiration i get from the church, the ministry, and VGmates are short lived. :(

Feeling
pressured over the tons of pages i still have to work on. lol. XD

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hm, that's it! how was your week so far? :D

[Mad Crush] Jaqen H'ghar of Game of Thrones (complete scenes)

A very mysterious and recurring (thankfully!) character from Game of Thrones, Jaqen H'ghar (played by Tom Wlaschiha) was introduced into the story during the second episode of season 2 (The Night Lands). He was a prisoner from the dungeons of King's Landing recruited by Yoren to join The Night's Watch. En route to The Wall, he became friends with Arya Stark when she helped him (and 2 others) escape as they came against the Lannister forces.

Here are his noted appearances from Season 2, and finally Season 5. Yes, the man is back. I also included the minutes and duration of his scenes, just to be more specific. oh, and you know you have a copy! ;)

Season 2

Episode 2 - The Night Lands (02:19 - 03:32)
Episode 3 - What is Dead may never Die (48:35 - 49:07)
Episode 5 - The Ghost of Harrenhal (22:39 - 25:16 ; 52:11 - 52:50)
Episode 6 - The Old Gods and the New (38:13 - 38:48)
Episode 8 - The Prince of Winterfell (24:40 - 26:58)
Episode 10 - Valar Morghulis (36:40 - 39:37)

Season 5

Episode 2 - The House of Black and White (45:13 - 46:10)
Episode 3 - The High Sparrow (02:30 - 4:38 ; 29:02 - 29:46 ; 32:10 - 33:00)

... will update this as the series goes on

Mad Crush

A man is too hot

was supposed to rave more about him (or Tom Wlaschiha) but naaaah, will just keep the hormones to myself (and google images). when was the last time i had a maddening crush on someone?! and so a girl shall welcome the feeling with glee. <3

Who's your biggest GoT crush?

5 stupid things i once did for my crushes

That i'm careful not to repeat, and hopeful i've outgrown somehow. i wouldn't know. haha

1. Did his homework

I feel like a complete version of the generic nerd in teen flicks vying to get a cheerleader's attention by presenting to do her homework. Well, i'm proud to say i outdid that hollywood nerd! how? cos i made not just a homework, but an exercise and a project too! and not only that, i also did it for 4 of his friends! and beat this will you, i did all of them in a single day, while doing my own school project, and while being sleepless for 2 days. BEST NERD EVER.

lol i'm exagerrating, they're actually 3-in-1 projects so i really just did 5 projects... they're very easy though, AND I GOT PAID OKAY? the rest are true though, i was in the middle of doing my own project, i haven't slept in 2 days, and he called late at night and announced a 12-hour turn around time.

i'm not stupid okay, i told him no! who would agree to that?! but he pleaded like i'm the only one who could help him (and the friends he hasn't mentioned yet) and how it's too late to find another person (like he actually spent the day convincing others before me), and how it's going to be super easy for me because it's a computer project (oh. well), and how i'm so pretty and smart and perfect... gullible

hence, this first item. XS

2. became a scriptwriter

hesitant as i was, i succumbed to some invisible force (aka his charm) beckoning me to write dialogues for a back to back play his theater club is staging where he is acting.  stupid me even suggested to create playbills for it as marketing collateral... and well, nobody knew what it was so i ended up doing it. all the writing, designing, and manual stapling of some 150 wretched copies of those stupid booklets.

well, i was reimbursed for the photocopying, and he said the playbills were such a flip it sold-out (more like handed-out cos they weren't really for sale). i also earned more of his respect (which i'd like to call ganda points) cos i'm not only the best nerd ever (uhm yeah, same guy), but i'm also a good scripts person! i'm the perfect (slave) girl for him!

oh the play was a blockbuster. he was such a good actor. HAHA. see, he even got me to write for him.

3. drew his face and showed it to him

astig diba? but not when you're a complete stranger to him!

it didn't exactly happen that way! HAHAHA, and thankfully this isn't the same guy anymore. whew.
let me rephrase the item:

drew his face and accidentally showed it to him. uhuh, creeper confirmed.

yeah much better. you see, i'm an avid doodler specially when i'm bored in class! so one time during such a class, i was mindlessly doodling some aliens and UFOs and letterings per usual, and decided to put him in my doodleland. i drew him in a jersey (varsity basketball represent! aaargh, i'm such a sucker for the popular types. deym u meg cabot), and added more stuff to fill the page haha. suddenly he came to me and said, "ang galing naman" or something like that (i don't really remember), and reached for my paper to take a look. i happily obliged, after all it was a proud piece haha! when i got my drawing back i couldn't contain my kilig, until my eyes fixed itself on the cartoon version of him.

then i realized. he didn't know i have a crush on him. my innards gave a nervous twitch as i imagined what could have crossed his mind if he did saw his face on that paper. i cried inside, looked back at the drawing and defeatedly tried to convince myself that it didn't really look like him, maybe he didn't notice.

4. stalked him

common right? i'm not familiar with the levels of stalking normal crushing teenage girls would do. but before i was introduced to my crush and became friends, i already knew his cellphone number, his middle name, his ex-girlfriend, his full address, his religion, the name of his parents, the high school he went to, where he worked previously, etc. it didn't really take so much digging on my part. i worked in the library and we used to keep these info cards of everyone who has a library card so i took the basic info there... and resisted the urge to tear off his 1x1 pic HAHA. the rest i got from the student records. whaaat?! oh yes... it took months for me to get hold of it but thankfully nobody noticed!

what i meant was, it took me some months to get myself transferred to the admin office after working some year at the library as a student assistant. it was information heaven. everything i needed to know about him was in the office. BWAHAHAHA

5. cried over him

oh dear. i'm the type of person who never wants to be discovered by my crushes. i'm happy just watching them from afar, taking infos from the student portal, stalking them on facebook, taking notes every now and then if they're still single, mentally bashing their girlfriends if they have one, etc. i'm okay that way. i really am. cos i didn't want to be their girlfriend, it's too uncomfortable. and i'm not the type of person to pursue her crushes anyway.

so one day, when one of my girl friends told me (out of concern cos i've been acting more stupidly than ever) that my crush knows i'm crushing on him... i just cried. especially when i learned that it was my other girl friend who told him. i was betraaaayed!! this is waaaar!! that's supposed to be a secret! but more importantly, how long has he known?! and is that why he's been hanging around a lot? i thought it was destiny that pulled us together! HAHAHAHA and he kept asking me darned favors! i even did his project and that stupid playbill (oh yeah, same guy)! but apparently, guys are all the same (uhm, for the sake of expression hahaha)! i felt grossly taken advantage of! chos. i deleted the princely mental image of him and sourly replaced it with an evil, user-friendly, jerk of all trades.

but not really. HAHA after a few months when some of my feelings have died down, i learned (from one of the school heads he worked under) that he has a crush on me too! finally all the hard work paid off! chooos! of course i mentally rejoiced! too bad i was already into someone else when i learned of it haha.

but anyway, i had to let it sink that i had a crush on him first, then he knew, so he probably tried to see if i was likeable enough, then decided to have a crush on me too! i would slap him if he didn't think i was likeable enough with all that effort.
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uhm, to be fair. the guy from #1,2,4,5 was a really nice person. he wasn't that bad entirely. he didn't seem to be the type of person to actually take advantage of someone's feelings and for the most part assured me that i'm being compensated for whatever favors he asked. awow. he paid me for the project (#1), and tried to get me a free shirt (#2, but ended up w/ just a discount but it's okay, it's not like he got paid too).

so there. i came up with this post cos i was backreading yesterday and noticed how big the "Crushes" label is on the tag cloud so i lurked there for a while, and ended up laughing so hard at my younger (not that i've aged a lot) self for being so so stupidly head over heels over my major crushes. hahaha

what about you? what's the stupidest thing you did for someone you like? XD

AoG!

went to watch AoG with saycee, dan, RA (you are dearly missed!!!), sean, chii and wax and and... yeah. >XD the reason? well apart from reuniting with my friends, and wanting to see the people there, i really came to cheer for my bet padua! oh you bet. and yey he won 1st runner up. my boyfriend is so gonna kill me for this so i'm putting the rest under the cut hehe

i don't even care now it's probably too obvious anyway. besides, i'm out hiding in makati! shameless post?hey but i'm happy! hahaha you know those major crush moments i had back in fern? yun yon. haha 

tomorrow is valentines and i've got so much work to do! Lord thank you so much for this day! 

heyyy jeckie and i are gonna skate on saturday! exciting! bwahaha >XD

HUWOW

this is like the best thing that happened today:

in response to THIS BLOG POST which was fed to my twitter account, fuego himself replied and retweeted with this:

i'm so looking forward to it. epic way to cheer me up after getting beaten up with consecutive OTs at work haha. and look, i may have to spend the night AGAIN at the office! what a pleasant way to welcome my birthday! hahaha

Lord, let this be for reaaaal! >XD i may sound desperate but gaaaahh what is a fan to do for a fansign?! hahaha >XD

yeheyy!!! <3 <3 <3

okay, back to work. i have tons to think about. grarrrr <3 <3 <3

Dear Fuego <3

I'm not sure if you're into this kind of lunacy but for my coming birthday, can you please grant @yanbirog a fansign? it would be an honor and a turbo boost for my withering ego. i've been a big big fan of yours ever since your fateful battle with Batas. i wish i could watch more of you on youtube. you rock! and for the record, my blog post about you is still ranking number 1 in google, just do a vanity search. it's one of the keywords i always check. it's also one of the rankings i'd hate to lose or even rank second for. hahaha

so please please, i'll be celebrating my boring 22nd year this 16th and a gift from you will totally rock this year for me.

thanks!

from your arguably #1 fan,

Yan :D

Day 27 - A problem that you have had

how cool is this, i was looking for him all over facebook a month back and just earlier, he made me realize that we've been friends all along, and that he was the one who added me first because... i don't remember. he just told me he searched me up and added me cos he saw my name somewhere as some kindofan officer somewhere i don't remember. he resembles my best friend so much, physically. >:) this night was pretty cool. i was like, seriously we're fb friends?! and i accepted you?! who are you?! weow. >XD

uhm. okay. quite honestly, i don't feel comfortable blogging here anymore but i've grown so fond of this place and look, LOL, i have a pagerank of 1. it's so hard to rank nowadays you know! and i was wondering where most of my visitors came from so i checked my stats and saw quite an awful lot of chuck bartowski searches. hey guess what, search it up on google and see the "images for chuck bartowski" part on the web search page. the first pic directs to my blog. how cool is that. seriously. haha

another high ranking search is "how to turn off chat on facebook 2011". just LOL. i wish i could monetize this traffic. traffic is still traffic. no matter how small it is. haha

oh hi, where is my sense of urgency. >XO

all my midterms still suck but i'm working on it. why must this trimester be exponentially harder?!

my boss prompted me to this children's story writing contest. i'll look into it but srsly, hahaha. i'll also TRY to write something for that peace essay writing chorva. i joined and failed last year, so i wanna try again! bwaha. 

yesterday, the shanghai siomai girl from the food court was like this to terai, 

ss girl: parang kilala kita

terai: >8|

ss girl: ikaw yung nahablotan ng bag sa jeep noon

terai: >8O

ss girl: grabi yun! dun ako dapat uupo sa pwetan ng jeep e. grabe talaga takot ko nun. dahil dun natuto ako, hindi na ako umuupo sa pwetan. delikado na. 

terai: >XD hehe

galeng diba! how cool is it to be recognized like a celebrity! LOL di nga, at least someone learned from terai's mischief! odiba, galeng nung coincidence. haha

and now to a problem i've had:

by 'had' it must be imperative of something that has already been solved. 

uhm. problem. masyadong marami i dunno where to start. i think my greatest problems haven't been solved yet, i'm still facing them kasi hahaha. ewan. problema. ano ba. pera? ah yeah, the one with my good friend! it was a problem. and it was solved. friendship issues! it strengthens the bond i guess! i mean, after the dispute, everything was much better. super. ayun. that's it. 

btw, i feel sad that i can't open up to just anyone about my worries because. because. i don't know where their loyalty lies. have you ever felt like you were so keen on pouring everything out but you just can't cause the people around you don't seem interested enough in what you have to say or that they have a tendency to report it to someone else urgh and you feel friendless and lonely and crap. like no one's on your side and everyone's spying on you. jusme a. lalo na kung hindi naman tungkol dun sa gusto nila malaman yung ikkwento mo and in fact, makaka-spoil pa dun sa gusto nilang malaman. hay. nakakalungkot kaya yung excited ka magkwento pero parang hindi naman interesado yung tao so okay, nevermind na lang. chaka lamo yung, conscious ka na rin sa mga kinikwento mo kasi hindi mo alam kung pano nila ii-interpret yun baka isipin, nanggugulo ka nanaman or nagpapa-pansin or nagpapa-ekek porket alam mong si ganto ay ganto at yung kwento mo e masyadong ganto. sus. 

nowadays, it's so friggin hard to get someone to listen to you with all ears and no bias and who wouldn't think you're all about yourself and crap. oh come on.

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year

that's 2010!

highs - grades! HAHAHA
lows - madaming puyat. madaming iyak. madaming selos. walang pera. and well, madaming panget. >:|




fuego. seryoso. buong araw syang nasa utak ko. hinahanap ko nga sa school eh, kahit look alike man lang. HAHA may crush na ko dalawa! yung isa kilala ko na! as in kilala na rin nya ko. last tri ko pa crush yun hohoho God is good! yung isa wala tinatanaw ko (pa) lang, freshman e. chinito lahat yesss! >XD and well, hindi ako sanay na may resource person pag nagss-stalk e kaso walang FB tong crush kong to e! tsk! kainis! at may girlfriend pa! hindi pwede! >:(

Roman Fugoso aka FUEGO of FlipTop Battles

BWAHAHAHA pwedeng kiligin? maka-ilang ulit ko na kasing pinapanood tong laban nya kay Batas eh. Ang cute nya, ang talino pa. I actually rooted for him in this battle because he caught me with his wit, that's when i started liking him and err stalking him. It took me some videos to catch his real name. Just like with Abra (Raymond Abracosa), his name was mentioned once eh nakalimutan ko na e so ginoogle ko agad for a possible verification. LOOOOL among my FlipTop crushes, i like him the best cos he's more wit than humor. yeah i like him even more than Abra and Anygma (well they kinda tied somehow but Fuego's got more exposure so i can't really say haha) ! His losing streak isn't even a turn off point. Ang cute pa nya! aaaargh. yeah i'm a sucker for smart guys... na chinito... at magaling mag english.... pero sana hindi adik hahaha.

rapper, gamer, drummer, skater, oh and did he mention he wasn't really Chinese? whatever. chinito ka parin.

Shout out to FUEGO. ehem, if you're some kindofa vanity googler and you happen to stumble upon this page, COMMENT NAMAN DYAN O. HAHAHAHAHA wag lang tripper ha? >:)

i dunno why i'm staying this late. school's up tomorrow! goodnight Fuego! ew, this is like level 1 of my growing obsession. creepy ba, sorry. i'm much decent in person. >:D

Anygma is the man

i never thought i'd find such a respectable man at a very unexpected place. this guy, Anygma, converted Grind Time to a Philippine format and called it Fliptop Battles. one youtube, one facebook, and one formspring and they grew big, became a hit, and is conquering bars, cockpits and street sides... bringing two hip hop rappers at a time to face each other in a battle of cleverly weaved insults, low kicking cusses, and offensive rhymes.

there's so much to admire with this guy. even when he probably hits the weedery every day, i doubt his brain was ever sucked out of a neuron. his words just plain got into me, the rhymes, the lyricism, the substance. it's all great. hands down!

occupational hazards

2 hours to go before i time out! >XD

i woke up pretty late today, and to add up to the panic, i woke up to my boss' text message! she said she'll be late and i that i should attend to the speaker when he arrives. O_O so i got up and brushed my teeth and blah, i was about to take a bath when she texted that the speaker has already arrived and that she's still on the way!!! haha okay, so forget about my morning bath!!!  i sped to the closet and pulled out something to wear. i sneaked out of the house (cos mommy's gonna scold me for skipping breakfast) and head on to school.

crazy haggard morning!

anyway, because of the very few turnout of attendees, they rescheduled the seminar to a later saturday. which means, we'll be having a total of 5 saturdays to offset! >XD hehehe and also because of that, my boss left early. leaving me in the custody of another boss who also left early so i'm down with nothing (or a very few things) to do... like having the food delivered for the AdEPT trainers and uninstalling stuff on the lab. other than that, i'm working on Burger Shop 2 and surfin around. >:)

seriously!
also, i'm getting hideously fat (exaggeration of course). i've been eating mcdonald's chicken fillet with rice + sundae for four consecutive dinners now.ajksdghasdgsad

i'm also aware that i must work my brain harder this year so i could earn a latin honor at least! it's one thing to be a chemical engineering wreck and a computer science success bwahaha. i want to say goodbye to my social life for a while looool and also my REM life... much to my dismay.

Dreams Dreams!
- i dreamt of Tirso twice! i just forgot about it.

- i also dreamt about chii. in my dream she was guiding me on a mega dark staircase, she was holding my hand if i remember correctly, and we were running up the stairs, onto a supposed to be 'shortcut' that we could use to get out of the building (i dunno what and where).

then we saw a narrow passageway, behind it was a wall with a movie playing on it via projector. it was the shortcut we're looking for. there was an old man sort of guarding-slash-watching the place and he kindof told us 'yes, this is the way' and we went down... and out of the building!

then i saw JM outside, texting. haha yun lang.
actually, the dream was scary. >X(

PS: one day i'm gonna ask terai to go on an ELBI day-out with me! i probably need 1,500 for the entire uhm, memory-lane-trip, but that's (i think) enough for the fare and food.
LOL fudtrip lang naman talaga gusto ko eh...
specifically

-Janges cheeseburger and large chocobanana shake
-Bordo's cheeseburger
-Proven
-Mernel's chocolate cake
-The Original's banana cake
-DTRI ChocoMilk
-IRRI walktrip + canteen

e ang sarap kasi kumain sa elbi. nakakamiss!

word for word

me: psst!
jm: bagay! dapat laging ganyan!
*apir*

WAAAAHHHHH pwedeng mamatay sa kilig?! @_@

yehey

this is the start of an awesome month. tomorrow has to be an awesomer day and the days to follow has to be at least awesome by default. i am so friggin happy. kinikilig ako! seryoso! i've never been this giddy over something that is not of the male species so. uhm. thank you Lord. you love me so much! >XD

for one thing: I HAVE A JOB! yes i was being a jerk over not getting mam faye's text messages but it turns out i'm part of the summer SA's. i was so bitter over it diba? ranting over twitter, sending out my resume to companies loool i am that desperate to have a job. >XD

because i want that ZUNE! >XD
and of course, my camera paid. FIRST. arg.

it's also crush overload this day!
there's JM! and Tirso! >XD OMGEHHHH!!! and i learned something this day! JM! JM! why must you be so kind like crazy. >XD why?!

tomorrow. dapat si Yeorim naman! HOHO

PS: i just saw 5/7 of my grades and and, i want to faint!!!! >XD

ehehehe

it's been almost a week since i last wrote here! i think i'm finally getting over the 'blogging hype' HAHA 6 years to recede BWAHAHA

by the way, i was able to sleep for 12 straight hours last night and it was awesome! no headaches after i woke up! >XD probably because i've gone 48 hours awake last thursday and friday HAHA wanna know why?!

JM! JM! you know how we never really talk like taaaalk unless he's asking me for a favor or whatever. hokeeeyy but seriously, when he called last friday asking me for a super duper large favor, which cost me to sacrifice my scheduled 4 hour remaining sleep time AND lunch with my friends for the last time this tri which i seriously regret (gusto ko talaga magjollibeeee kaso. huhu), i was like...

how can he just call me like that and ask me such a thing? i mean even if he promised to pay, it was asked on a jiffy! i was in the middle of debugging an asshole of a vb.net project, and he enters in dumping more load on me like i haven't had enough to bear for day. why?! why me?!

i have every reason to decline the job
first is, as i've mentioned. i have a project to finish
second, they called me pretty late that night and told me the job(which consists of a project, hw and activity for FOUR PEOPLE) is needed the next day at 1 or 2pm.
third, I HAVEN'T SLEPT BITCHESSSS. do you really want to kill me?!?!

but in the end i said, YES
then i realized, why me?! of all people why me?! there are so many others out there who are relatively unoccupied and wants money and can do basic html and crap so why the heck?!
then i went into quite an emotional turmoil, that maybe he thinks i'm stil soooo friggin head over heels for him that i'll do anything he asks! i felt like i was taken for granted again and blaaaahhhh

yes, i still like him cos he's really nice and good looking but that's all. it's definitely superficial. he's not even the man of my dreams. it's good that we became friends cos i was able to get a psych profile of him. if i didn't then i would be voodooing him seriously haha it's just hard to get over him with all the teasing and stuff. it's easier when no one knows. ugh whatever.

o, so yun nga. pero ok lang. i was ranting about it on twitter. and i've been twirling my hair for 2 days ever since i started on the vb.net thingy., it's a mannerism i've developed when i was in LB, and now that my hair is longer it kinda resurfaced haha. it's not really a stress manifestation but it's kinda turning into one. e wala lang, it's fun twirling hair bwahaha.

anyway, they paid naman. larger than i expected pa nga e, and he bought me food blah blah blah. ok naman! thank you Lord! >:D

was that even bought?

the joke is over. i don't even know if people bought it, but i know some who did i.e. my hs barkada. was it fun? yeah it was. but for the most part it gave me the creeps specially when i had to play along with the fake wall posts like uuuughhh. eeeeeeew. that's waaay too much cheese for this friggin fake relationship. LOL see i can't even fake being sweet fogawdsake. so, this is how it feels being public about a relationship for the first time. sofa king WEIRD. or maybe it was because it was erni. LOOOOOOOOL joke lang HAHAHAHA

wuzdajoke?
erni and i pretended to be bf/gf for the remaining 8 hours of april 1 by changing our relationship status at FB. it's a common joke but we're curious on how people would react to it. guess it went well? ugh. hahaha anywaaaaayyyyy

JM gave me mangoes... from their yard i guess? and i was like, P'Shone is that you??? can i be Nam for awhile? (refer to the thai movie First Love) ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

oryt. softeng mode. >:|

my speech on our school website! >8D

james told me they already posted the thing, and though i had a hard time navigating my way through the website, it's worth the search! here you go! oh holy link!

Be Inspired. Dream High

credits to James for putting up a title, i suck at titles. haha 9 facebook shares. i feel proud. lumelevel amp! haha

ok. this entire night and morning is dedicated to our friggin softeng prowject!
uhm. Lord. why is this happening. i dunno what's worse, my smoking or my ludicrous incapacity to brew some kindof mutual understanding with my crushes. this is crazy but i'm not getting any younger and if by this age i should already have an average of 2 boyfriends, then i must suck so much as a woman! heh i'm 20 and i can't even handle a single conversation. every time i get reminded of how much creativity i lack with responding to potential love lives, i get stumped. this is not to sound desperate but yknow, i'm twennnyyy and i'm clueless on how to deal.

if my responses were to be programmed in a switch, the default is probably the most executed case. in which i state

default = no reaction
to the point that it gets misinterpreted as utter non-interest... which can't be helped! argh

what now?

there's the guilt. i'm planning on doing something kindof mean, i just couldn't bring myself to do it because i don't want to seem sarcastic. i'm sure there's still something worth saving in this friendship, but i can't fix it right now because i haven't recovered from the pain yet. which was, of course, self-inflicted and was all brought by virtue of being extremely curious, possessive, narrow minded, judgmental and in love.

i can't be sure if i did what's best, but ever since i did it, i hasn't plagued me that much. this is probably one of the few times i contemplate about it, about that action. i don't ever regret doing that. except that i wish there was a complete information blackout about you for me. i don't want to hear anything. i don't want to know anything more. i shut you off first, and it was choice i made to save myself. albeit being selfish, that's how i deal. and i'm not missing you.

BTW. the 08s are exiting the school in a few weeks, so wtf but i sorta have to get a replacement for JM. and i just did! i'm calling him Tenjo for no reason at all. he's good looking, smart and ftr, he wears glasses. >8D enough to pull a heartstring! >:D ok! akin na toooo!!! mygaaahhd age doesn't matter now, does it? i'm losing it, call 163 for me. >XD

ok, i have a plan. i have to get in his class next tri! someone get me the accounting curriculum LOOOOL

school is no fun without crushes!

johnny and jenny

i dreamed about the young johnny and jenny from Endless Love awhile ago. in my dream, it was raining and jenny was inside a taxi, crying. johnny was outside, head bent down, soaking wet, topless and sortof bleeding . they weren't talking in korean but i don't understand what's happening. i think jenny was calling johnny to come inside cos it's raining. she won't stop crying. heh ewan ewan i'm not even sure if i was just watching from somewhere, or if i was jenny (pwede ba yun? you playing a different character in your dream?). when johnny came in, pinatahan nya si jenny. then another couple came into the scene, they saw j&j in the taxi. i think the other girl was jenny's sister from Cinderella's Sister. forgot the name e haha, the guy, ewan ko kung sino.

basta when they saw the two in the taxi, parang nagselos si girl. heh. basta. HAHAHA
ang gwapo ni johnny!

ok. ang saya lang magkacrush. >XD

what?

when i created my email account, yanibirog, i was frustrated because i wanted it to be yanbirog but unfortunately it was already taken. i created a yan.birog but the dot looked awkward so i didn't use it. haha recently, or just a few hours ago, i logged into my email account and was shocked that my inbox has only 2 items (one from my boss and one from my classmate), and my labels gone! there were a few messages stacked on the trash and they  were emails from months back.

and then i realized! i opened the wrong account! i opened YANBIROG. wtf, so after all... that address was mine!!! nyek. but there's something wrong, when i pull down the sortof 'info tab' it says there that my email is yan.birog

ang gulo naman. i opened yan.birog, and it contains the same messages, settings, blah blah. nakakainis apparently, i think i may have created yanbirog when i was just starting at gmail but i went back to yahoo and blah, and when i decided to use for real, i forgot that i already created an account and thought that someone already has preferred username. ayon.

gusto ko syang gamitin ulet kaso i have to change a tedious amount of account settings in the different places i have an account with. haynakonamano. hmp

BWAHAHA welcome to yet another JM segment! right down the cuuuuut!
eto seriously ah, i've never mentioned this much about a single majorcrush. e wala e. ewan. overdue! HAHA
so awhile ago we were talking about books. you'd think it was smart talk but HAHAHA hindi naman masyado. wala lang talaga. so while in the middle of the conversation (key word: CONVERSATION. akalain nyo. i was having a nervous breakdown inside e pero uhm hindi naman yata obvious. basta alam ko malamig. haha) i received a text message from him.

shempre ako naman, haaa?
wrong send pala. >:\

<assume>BWAHAHAHA masyado mo kong iniisip JM. tsk. ultimo message para sa iba, aksidente mong naipadala sakin.</assume>

but quite frankly, i didn't like the message!!!! sana para sakin na lang talaga yon! ugh, whatever. HAHA
basta basta, kinikilig ako. bwahehehe

goooood morning!

i just woke up! bwahaha! >XD magaaral na ko yey >:)

heh. there's always satisfaction in knowing you have something others don't and want to have. then there's pain when it starts to leave you, even if you weren't attached with it in some way. people value their possessions too much, kahit wala silang pagpapahalaga, basta alam nilang nandyan at kanila parin, masaya sila. people take pride in knowing that they have something (especially someone) who follows them even when they don't care.

ayon. me mga tao talagang concerned lang sa pagaari ng iba. ngayon, mas naiintindihan ko na yung mga kontrabida sa TV. for me their characters are more realistic, and they mirror human emotions better than the leads do. haha biased yata ako, ayoko talaga sa mga bida in the first place kasi fake sila. sila yung tunay na plastic, they're the ideal humans. yung mga kontrabida yung totoo. at panget sila, kasi ganon tayo.

me mga tao rin na gusto lang ang isang bagay for as long as it's wanted. hangga't may value (sa ibang tao), hahawakan nila. pag wala na, ididiscard. wala daw kasing thrill magmayari ng isang bagay na alam mong sayong sayo. people enjoy the thrill of the chase and take pride at being preferred. gusto natin na pinipili, at nanalo sa lahat ng comparisons. we hate being compared, but we secretly owe our entire egos to it.

nakakaiyak ang nangyayari sa Libya. i was listening to the radio about it and sobrang natakot ako. hindi na makatarungan. hindi na makatao. everytime i read news about it, kinikilabutan ko. nubato Lord? @_@;;

apparently, news says that the Libyan government refuses to return bodies to their families unless they sign an agreement saying they died of surgery. such fucking disturbing news. how can someone be so cruel? demonyo na to. demonyo na talaga WAAAAAHHH

then there's an order kill every protester using inhumane weapons. and there's no exception: men, women, children and the old, they're all on the list. everyone who go against fucking Qadaffi's orders are burnt on the spot. dfjvxkzlashlnsj;as

so much political unrest. this is the bloodiest fight for democracy i've ever seen. askldgjcvugxhcgf

end rant.

BTW. JM texted last night! WAAAAAHHH e wala lang, it's just about the book i lent him a day ago. he liked it. and i replied fast, for the record my dears. i replied fast like it's just a regular text, there isn't even a question in it but it's the type of text you know you have to reply to not because it's your crush, but because... because. bakit nga ba. because, it would sound awkard if i didn't? i mean, it was just a comment!! and i ended it with a next message. gaaaahn, i am such a potential-conversation killer. but i intended it that way (palusot) because i was studying! studies first! BWAHAHA so parang yung huling sinabi ko e "osya sige magbasa ka na" which of course translates to, "sorry but i have to end this! it's such a pain having to let go of this but i'm studying and you're disturbing me! if this goes on, it'll be unfair for you. piso per text ka, ako 50 cents lang."

yuuuck e bat a corny ko. bwiniset ko lang sarili ko. oyano, i'm making a fuss (again and again) over the smallest things.

BTW2. nakakabwiset kanina. minsan ok, minsan hinde. Lord, extreme tong taong to. meganon palang tao sa mundo. ang hirap pakisamahan. see, he doesn't care about the world, and correspondingly i'm sure the world doesn't care about him either. anubayan Lord, i asked for patience and he showed up. amen. at least kahit pano me silbi sya, patience-tester amp. gusto ko syang ibato sa ibang planeta but if that would spare his life for judgment day wag na lang! paki teleport na lang sya sa Libya! ok, wag na lang din baka sya pa sumunod na Qadaffi.

paki judge na lang sya. now na.
ok. joke lang. che. where is my patience. ~_~;

okok mag-aaral napo! 2am na eh! waha