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I’m still tired


Again. I’m so tired. I’m never at a good place at work. I’m always stuck with my projects. I’m out of smaller tasks to gain confidence from. Like I’d get over them quickly that I have to deal with the major ones too soon. Huhu. It’s dreadful, this feeling. I don’t like it.

I have a big one that’s already sitting in prod but I have to fix some errors first. And it’s annoying because we don’t have access to prod so I will have to keep on requesting for the prod people to update it, which is embarrassing for me. It was working in UAT so I don’t know what gives.

Besides this big one, I have two other big ones that are completely overwhelming me. I don’t know what to do. I want to give up. Oh Lord. How do people work for decades??? I’m just so tired of it all I just want to become a housewife and take care of my husband, and Koomi, and the house. I’ll just enable Jeckie to earn as much as he can to maintain our current lifestyle. Yeah, like what traditional women used to do haha.

I thought it gets easier but I guess I haven’t even started.