A very personal blog

Okay, let’s breathe!

Oh my goodness I’m still so frkn busy with work! I can’t believe it! I mean I’m not complaining, I love what I do, but maaan it can become a bit overwhelming looking at how things are starting to pile on my lap. And it’s already performance appraisal period so I got to hustle to make extra good impressions right?

Anyway.

Yesterday we attended a short internal seminar on fighting procrastination. I learned that my level of procrastination is still on the safe side and that I’m probably a combination of these types of procrastinators: The Perfectionist, The Dread-Filled, and The Lucky One (Thrill-seeker). (Source) How so?

As a perfectionist I tend to become too drawn in the smallest details that I get stuck on perfecting a component when I could’ve spent my time wisely to finish the project on time. Example, focusing too much on UI when I haven’t even mapped out the back-end yet. Argh.

There are tasks I that are just so dreadful I don’t want to hear about them. These include complex test scenarios that require coordinating with people *shudders*, and business processes that are too vague, too complex, that I don’t know where to begin and what even to ask. Because I’m afraid to face them I go for the quick wins, eventually forgetting about the big scary tasks, until such a time when someone follows up…
And when that day arrives, I switch to a thrill-seeker. I procrastinate until the time comes that I’m forced to do it and there’s no other way but to face the beast of a task head on. Pressure. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. But for the most part I end up regretting not tackling it earlier, when I had all the time to dwell on it understand it.

So you see, if the task is too easy I become a perfectionist. That or I delay it because I’m over-confident about it lol. When it’s too hard, I go dread-filled. And when there’s no other way, I cram.

But what have I learned, really? Besides getting a better profile of the type of lazy ass I am? I realized that I should frkn impose my own system of managing tasks. I want to go agile, even when I’m a lone developer. Organize my tasks into tickets, run sprints, be efficient! But argh, just the thought of it dreads me out lol. For now I’m good with my good  ‘ol to-do list. It sits on a Monokai themed Notepad++ so it’s looks like code and already gives off a productive vibe hahaha.

Moving on.

It’s been a month since I started doing daily devotions regularly. Regularly, meaning 5 days a week. I’m really grateful ate Jez encouraged us to do a shared devotion on YouVersion. Ever since then, I’ve been planning my devotions and waking up early too haha!

It’s been one of the happiest changes in my lifestyle so far. I get my daily coffee fix during devotion, and I get to workout afterwards (either gym or Youtube workout video). Speaking of, my gym subscription is about to expire and I’m planning on not repurchasing another month because apparently, I only went to the gym nine times since the last month. Other days I just worked out at home. Yeaaaahhh.

That’s it. Pretty much.

Still swamped with work but loving it so far. Here’s to hoping I deliver them right. Whew.