I never thought it’d affect me like this but I guess I wasn’t too affected considering my laziness to get in shape. Earlier though I felt a different kind of disgust with the way I look. I was having a terrible headache and I suddenly thought of buying some ice cream, specifically espresso gelato from Caramia, to relieve the pain (like it would, but you know). It didn’t take long for me to decide on it. In a matter of minutes I was out of the resto with a larger than usual cup (bought medium), relieved at the taste of coffee in my mouth, and at the same time surprised at how big the cup is, how much ice cream is in it, and how pathetic a fat girl like me looks like holding a big cup of dessert like she hasn’t had enough stored in her body.
There’s something about Mondays and the first of every month that makes you want to start something. I wonder why it’s more exciting that way, starting something at the start of something. But then when it passes and you’ve done nothing, you get the illusion you have to wait a week or a month before restarting or doing something else, instead of getting back on track immediately. First of July has left me. Now it’s the 4th and it’s a Monday. Wonder what’ll I do.