As usual

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I have always been fascinated about my Myers-Briggs personality type because the profile I'm getting has been mostly accurate and mind blowing (unless I'm subconsciously being swayed to agree with it. wow).

Lately, my depressed and stressed (as usual) state at work has led me to contemplate (YET AGAIN) on my career path. Am I in the right place? Is my personality fit for this kind of job? You know, the usual. hahaha

Ten years ago, I took my first MBPT and got typed as an ISFJ (Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, Judging). To date, I've taken the test thrice cos I kept on forgetting what I got, and so far I've been getting the same results -- after rummaging through my email for my past scores to validate. To me that means I'm pretty consistent with how I view things, so I decided to fully dwell on it to better understand myself and to probably be more considerate of my situation (like I need any of that). In short, let me rely on my MB personality type to solve my internal issues wahahaha.

"Don't be too hard on yourself"

"It's okay. You're still learning"

"Take your time"

...are three of the things I hear a lot from my sups whenever I'm not delivering well (which is always). I hate it cos I don't think I'm being too hard on myself, that I should still be in the learning phase, and that I have enough time to take. I hate it because I suck. Isn't it frustrating when you're failing so bad at something? Haha

"That's just at the beginning"

Right. That's what they all say. How long is the beginning. When will I get used to it? Here's to hoping my learning curve is directly proportional to my patience. Argh.

Anyway, I'm not a fan of challenges cos I'm one to get easily discouraged. As in easily. But Performance Testing is one such skill I sincerely want to master NAAAKS. Being that it feels like I already lost my developer mojo permanently haha and I have no place to stick in the IT industry, huhu I need shelter.

Oh well, I could always wander in the arts department right? In fact I have a potential project coming up soon and it's gonna be from an old client! Isn't it great? Two of my clients have tapped me for new projects! I am so honored. I'm actually building rapport charrrrr. And all of this because I decided to work pro-bono on my first children's book project. Life do open doors for the passionate. joke lang. anuba. birthday ko okay. haha

I'm ending this here cos this has been on drafts for too long, my mind wants to blabber about other things already haha.ha.ha.