undeserved spotlight

i have a feeling that i'm being overstated. people around me have been overestimating me a lot lately and all that it gives me is pressure. the unhealthy one. i'm being measured way beyond my worth and i don't deserve it. the truth is, i'm someone who hardly gets things done as planned. i'm not organized, i'm easily distracted, and cramming is my virtue. i don't even plan ahead. i never plan ahead. i only make things work well if i'm doing it for myself.

which is why this school year, i will be needing all the divine forces in the world to juggle three important roles in school. sometimes i think i need counseling, some heavy pep talk, and extreme motivation. i'm probably the most incapacitated leader ever. forced for good and haunted by a moral obligation. i have no leadership experience that's all! the only times i lead is when there's no one else who would take the job. i'd rather be a follower seriously. demmit.

ang hirap talaga ng walang tiwala sa sarili. >:'|
feeling ko tuloy napaka-iresponsable ko ngayon dahil nanonood ako ng Vampire Night imbes mag aral, at mag plano ng mga bagay bagay. waaaahhhh aksgffffaskhasklhdkasjf

ang arte naman nitong mga bampirang to! hindi ako kinikilig! gwapo lang sila! nubayannn bat ganon tong si Zero! nagpapaka-mysterious taas ng pride kuno. daig pa babae sa sobrang moody ang daming issues (madami naman talaga) sobrang tahimik pa. kung totoong tao to he's nothing more than a good face. ito namang si Kaname, okay overall! gwapo, madating at makapangyarihan pero panget ang taste sa babae. kikiligin na sana ko sa pagka-protective nya kaso hindi ko mawari kung anong nagustuhan nya dun sa babae maliban sa dugo nyang mabango.

ang panget nung series na walang origin yung feelings. hindi katanggap tanggap! ok naman talaga si Yuuki as lead girl kaso ano bang meron sa dugo nya? rare ba? at bat gusto sya ni Kaname? parang napaka-walang basis naman. nakaka-insecure e hahahaha