ano nga kaya?

ano na kaya mangyayari sakin kung lahat ng manliligaw ko ay pawang mga mr. paramdam lang? e ako pa naman si ms. unassuming (sometimes manhid). hahaha


Lord, i'm always praying na sana sya na. kasi sya si mr. ideal man ko. nasa kanya na lahat ng gusto ko! matangkad, matalino, nakasalamin at higit sa lahat, Christian. uhm, and our signs match! hehehe pero deeeeym, alam kong malabo dahil.. hmm... dahil hindi kami close, and we never really talk. T_T; uhm, Lord, in love na ba me? well, it's deeper than a crush. kasi if you ask me, crush ko parin si majorcrush at gusto ko parin magtago pag malapit sya kasi naa-alter ang blood flow ko, sa muka ko lahat pumupunta. eto namang si ideal man, kebs lang kung magkatabi kami. mas komportable nga eh, pero lagi akong masaya, as in masayaaaaa. parang... friend (well, hindi rin)? HAHA so in the end, maybe i'm just fascinated by him because of his qualities (because he took me by surprise when he said he'll help me rule the world over a handshake which seemed like a seal of alliance). pero hindi pa yun love kasi nga hindi ko pa sya kilala. diba diba? oks. fine. hindi ako in love. hindi pa ko in love. hindi parin ako naiinlove. haaaaaay. when kaya? hehe

sometimes, i think ideals are just meant to be that way forever, never realized. wala lang. kasi, ideals are our personal perception of perfection and perfection can never be achieved. kinda?

k, goodnight. :)