so nasan si ryan???? >:7

i lied when i said i won't go and see ryan agoncillo at smf. truth is,
i came to see him but FAILED cos there were too many people... too
many freaking emo people flocking the entire annex. i dunno, i think
he isn't even there cos it's just like an audition... you don't need
hosts for that, do you?

actually, i'm still at smf, waiting for my sister to tidy up so we
could go home.

i have an idea. i want to make an art blog for my artworks and
designs. i need a name. i want brainblast but it's already taken.
blastedbrain sounds good too, idk. help? >:D

whew. i figured it's easier to just attend group exercises rather than
design a program for myself (like 30mins treadmill, 30mins statio
bike, 30 mins ekek machine...), i freakin almost broke my back with
Body Balance awhile ago dammmiiiit. good sweat, yeah, gooood sweat.
december 30 is the day!

i want an art blog! >:D
&& i also need to go to blenz mega hahahaha i need an entire day to
look for inspiration! >:D i miss blenz. >:P

kkkk, later.

asan ka Ouraaaaan???

my golly, i lost my dvd of ouran highschool hostclub! it's the dvd of episodes 1-13 that i burned personally! they're the super high quality vids i stole *sarreh naman* from Astra!!!! kanino ko pinahiram??? i don't remember! and my code geass is still with kuya jepoy lol i want it baaaaaacck na. yeah, my black cocktail dress is still with glaize pa pla. gaaaawd, so many things to retrieve from LB! haynako.

you know what happens when you watch too much anime? your perception of reality and men, in general, becomes altered, scaled up and exaggerated. malay. asan na ba kasi ung dvd koooo?

hello, ryan is at SMF right now and i'm not going! yah, like itaga nyo sa bato.

i never finish anyth---

had lunch at yoshi with my family! i missed yoshinoya soooo much! it became my favorite resto because of their chicken teriyaki and red ginger (which turned super salty now. faaaailll). >_<; theeeeen i kinda panic bought instant baked mac and cheezy mac by lucky me cos... cos... me and my groupmates are gonna need a lot of food this tuesday. haha we're doing our freakin java project here! i'm not really expecting progress, more like a girls' day out disguised as a project making day. in fact... it's because of them that i cleaned my room and organized my dusty shelf of pending books. anyway, marty's salt and vinegar cracklings is probably the most in-demand junk food today. it's always sold out! haaay lanyard, where arth thooouuu????
yo brian, wag mo na ko ibili!

aaaand because i fixed my shelf, i came across my box full of letters from my friends! yah like a hundred++ letters since highschool! mostly palancas. grabe, nakaka de-stress! >:) reading their letters make me feel like a better person, it uplifts my spirits! ay grabe they think i'm funny? ewan ko feeling ko naman hinde? wierd lang daw minsan. k. aaaawww, and larz's letter from our senior recollection touched me the most, she says i'm mature daw, all caps... awwwww. it's the type of compliment that makes me feel fulfilled as a person. it's like, the most valuable compliment i got. :) aynako, but of course it's different sometimes! i'm childish too. like when i lose a favorite item... parang yung lanyard?! hmp >:P


something i found stuck in my super old notebook while cleaning.

poem #1:

if i could search into your eyes
i'll be lost in a pool of shadows
lurking in that valley of lies
that one truth i could not swallow

poem #2:

if i could search into your palms
the lines that crossed us together
i would sing a joyful psalm
and wish it remains forever

if i could listen to your words
i'd melt right here and there
i don't care if it sounds absurd
but you take up to the angels' lair

and here's something i found at the recycle bin before i emptied it
poem #3:

i walk
into an antiquated street
you follow
in steps so discrete
i brisk
my heart thumping of fear
you run
your presence, you want me to hear
i hide
with my wobbling senses
you stop

looks like i never finish anyth---
hahaha

thar you gow

ayan! ngayon ko lang ulit nabuksan memory card ng phone ko hahaha. kung di mo pa sinabi, bri!

poring on brian's hand >:D

henna kuno on mine >:D

rough ballpen sketch of ate theresa... months ago

the usual 'waiting' doodle. favorite activity pag may hinihintay na matagal

sorry, try lang naman. kaso panget haha

oks! java mode ulit! >:D

>:|

hello. my brain is clogged. >_<;

our teacher didn't show up this morning! so we were dismissed (indirectly, by the guard, who turned off the aircon) 2 hours early. unfortunately i have to wait for my filione groupmate till 1130 so we could do our project (the super easy project i was talking about in my previous entry). so i waited! i was supposed to go and make tambay at my cousin's house for awhile but it's sooooo hot and i lost my payong so i just stayed where i was, and doooooodled... ang loner amp! T__T;;

otapos ngayon. i'm not making progress with our java project. thing is, i don't understand anything wahaha.

help naman. i need to divide the contents of the text file i have into arrays of different data types. i have a text file with names, student numbers, and grades. yaaaah, i need a string array, int array, and a double array. easy ba? hooow?

heeeelp!

broooo

reassembling a broken piece doesn't turn it back to the way it was. it's not gonna be the same again. it may be stronger, but uglier. of course i'm talking about literal objects! wahahaha!

kay, sobrang bigat pala sa tiyan (chan? tyan? ang awkward itype) ng krushers.

moving on, if it were in real life, i would say there's a lot of truth in it. a broken friendship is worth restoring, fine, but it can never be the same again. once you put malice in it, it becomes awkward forever. and i hate being awkward cos my brain goes berserk. yeah, you know how it goes. i hard to be friends with someone whom i feel awkward with (like my crushes!!! && people who like me and NOT vice versa). point taken?

why are there mysterious bruises on my thighs? i know i'm kinda clumsy sometimes but i should know when i hit something. duh. good news, my two bruises on both shoulders are completely healed na! e kasi naman ung sabitan ng padlock sa classroom doors ang lakas maka-disgrasya.

anywaaaaay, we had sisig this afternoon so i'm super full. goooooo 2 1/2 rice! and we have this project in filione which is super easy but it's a group work so no matter how much i'm itching to do it all by myself, finish it tonight and pass it tomorrow, i can't! cos i have to discuss everything with my groupmates. and because it's hard coordinating with people, we'll be passing it next week, instead of tomorrow. you know how it sucks to be given a group project which is more efficiently done individually??? haaaay.

so yeah, i'm trying confuse you. ok, trigo is crucial now cos i don't trust every formula our teacher writes on the board. i always have to validate it with a book, then with the internet before i memorize it. thing is, he often makes typo errors! like + become - and x becomes y. you know, math is all about accuracy. it's frustrating when you're working with wrong equations.

sometimes i wish he just told it to me straight cos it's pointless being like this, being weird, and not knowing what to tell people when they ask me, "why?". i can't tell them about it too cos it would seem like i'm acting based on assumptions alone and that's weird enough. no it's not an assumption, it's second-hand information, so it's like... it's true! but you knoooow, i can't cos he doesn't know i know. haaaa???? i wish she hadn't told me about it, then i again i knew it was coming. what now? sorry ah! i don't usually encounter such things eh! noob!

right. javaaaaa. T___T; it's harder now. there's something lacking with his teaching methods haha. sinisi? eh wala lang. i get it, but i don't know when to use it. and it's like, we just got into arrays and after 1 meeting, he gave us a project bulking on it agad? sana tinuro ng mas matagal. >:( i don't get anything at all! and theeeen, he lost my last quiz. i think he lost most of our quizzes that's why he gave another quiz which is the same in scope pero wala na kong alam so faaaaail.

this is getting long! sorry! >:D

o tapos, there's this red wallet i fell in love with just awhile ago and it costs P3,000. T__T;

when there's no compensation for being ugly

sorry for being mean, but it's the only way i can be brutally honest with myself and with everyone.


i want it to die, why won't you quit talking about it? do you know how disgusting it feels to be involved in such a story? i've been rolling my eyes at this every time i hear about it. get me out of it for fuck's sake!!!

sometimes it annoys me how girls can be so sensitive at times, like every joke catches them off guard and they bitch out like crazy. but of course i'm being partial, girls have the right to be sensitive because they are generally more emotional and if guys don't understand how it works in our brains then they should all fuck off. i hate your jokes, you're not funny. what the hell is it that you told these people to get them on your side? now they're all for you and they're pushing me.

you know what, i hate to sound judgmental because i'm afraid of karma. and i also don't want to sound like a female jerk, so i'm not telling it straight on. but really, GIRLS, you should know how it feels to be in my place!

walk a mile in my shoes and feel the brewing disgust every time you hear people talking about it.

naiirita ako alam nyo ba yon? ang panget kasi! both literally and figuratively.

emf!

when i walked out of 309 i felt like all this knowledge i have, all this talent and creativity amounts to nothing at all, that all these bragging rights... i can only face to man and not to God. in reality it's not easy to keep humble when you're blessed with something you know is worth showing off. blame human nature. it's a hard task to keep your head down at all times when you know you're good at something and it needs recognition.

k, my head hurts like crazy i need to throw up. >:|

>:)

yessss!!!! strawberry banana krusher + bucket of fries + mango crepe + marty's cracklings == heaven!!

i didn't workout today. ang galing galing ko. >:)

and you know what, badtrip ako kanina pero nung naisip ko na... dibale bukas makikita ko nmn yung crush ko... wala na... happy na ulit! wooooooow! lakaaas! haaaaay Lord. >:D

still watching New Moon... mmya 2012! wahahaha

ay may quiz pla bukas. bye

clumsy bella

i came to school earlier but i didn't attend my classes. aww, nagpa-BI ako. honestly i still feel bad. hahaha i've conditioned myself to be extremely grade conscious this year and because of this one absence, i feel like i'm lagging behind already. hahaha >:P

watching new moon while waiting for my sister to finally decide on hitting the gym. i have officially 36 days to get thinner.

k, my sister's awake. at last.

dividay!

went to divi awhile ago to buy tooooys for christmas! wahaha but it's super cool cos i was able to buy a pair of jeans for only 100 wahahaha, plus dvds (new moon, 2012 & tidal wave), a set of pens and a set of markers. i wanna draw naaaaa! >:D

will go back sometime this week to look for fabrics cos i need to get myself a gown for my cousin's wedding this december. which reminds me... I NEED TO WORKOUT AGAAAAAIIIN.

mali ang pamahiin! last year on one of my cousin's wedding, i caught the bouquet kaya! and i'm not getting wed anytime soon... baka baliktad ang pamahiin? ohnoooooo. >:((

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brian, hindi ikaw yun! peace! >:)




PS: nakita ko yung crush ko! wala lang. >:P

i quit

how do you quit a friendship you've grown tired of? i feel like suddenly, i don't want to be friends with this person anymore. not because he did something bad but because i don't feel comfortable anymore, and anytime soon it could turn worse. i'm trying so hard to the point that it's obvious. i can't even tell anyone why.

can we downgrade friendship to just plain acquaintances in a snap? or can i just erase him from my life? sounds like a big deal. but i really really want him out. and if i could also erase everyone's memory of us, that would be greater. i just don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. i suck so much as a friend, but this isn't the first time it happened.

i always reject people who cross the line and fail my standards.

and right now, i'm waiting for you to make a mistake i could use as an excuse to eliminate you from my friends list.

i feel disgusted

and hungry too.

jamilove!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMI! >:D

orlynw?

blessed cool day >:)

// after classes, met with kuya erni for a short Bible session, chamel came with me. it's sooo cool cos we're just lying under the tree on the field and the wind is blowing so hard grabeeee the weather is too perfect for kites! it's really a blessing! >:D

// then this afternoon, i tagged along with ate theresa nanaman cos i don't wanna bore myself at home. so we went to many many places, ang habol ko lang talaga ay makatagpo ng banana-q but i didn't. anyway, nakapag-calamares at ginataan naman ako. i have to like, eat street food every month or so cos i'll badly crave for it eventually ahahaha. haynako, when we were crossing the overpass sa comm market, natawa ako sa dami ng binebenta dun. pwede ka na magrevamp ng buong bahay! kurtina, bedsheet, sandok, palayok, gulay, anting-anting, shorts, blouse blah blah blah. game pang bagong buhay hahaha. riiiight, game ako mag clothes shopping dun kasi super mura. ano ba naman yung cheap diba? nasa nagdadala naman yan hahahaha >:P

// last stop, trinoma. oha, may nanlibre sakin ng chicken joy. what made this day super cool is that i only came out with 20 pesos, inambag ko pa sa pamasahe but i came home super full na halos masuka na ko like craaazzy and i didn't shell out anything at all. tapos the fx driver dropped us off at dahlia pa when he's pa-SM, soo bait. then when i got home, napa-mega rice nanaman ako kasi ang ulam kinilaaaaaaw. anubaaah, where's the beeeer?

hello blessings! >:D

// tomorrooooow. i dooooon't knooooooow. practical test daw sa cphware. like, anong alam ko duuuuun? >:\

i love wednesdays! >:)

cos it's the only day i'm guaranteed to see majorcrush, or leopardo as chamel calls him. wahaha!
he always helps me with the projector. yehey. whatever talaga. pwedeng pagpasensyahan nyo ko??? and i saw him play basket at last, but it wasn't up close cos we're already walking out when i saw him on court. anywaaaay, it's a freakin happy day! >:)

// we joined this cell group fellowship at 309. haha masaya! >:) i thought it's impossible for me to get really hungry with the word but as i see it, i'm slowly building it! yehey for my spiritual progress!

// mathlog is so wtf.
i mean, if you're trying to get a message across and no one, as in --FOR ALL X SUCH THAT X IS CSC-11-- no one gets it, then it's not because we lack analytical thinking... sometimes it's because the instructions were written vaguely. T___T; if there exists some (or even just one) element of X who got it right, then that's the time we can legitimately accept that we, indeed, lack logical analysis. hay!

// the reason why i avoid bringing college friends at home is because my parents always think i'm being badly influenced by them. but the truth is, the only friends of mine they trust are my highschool friends cos we all came from the same ground, they're all girls, and all of our parents are chinese strict. whaaaaaat.

// haha. oks. time to do some javapoop.

beats me

// i told some of my friends about my so-called twisted story line about God and Satan and blah blah blah. i knew it was scary to have come up with such a plot but at the same time i know it's a great story. i personally think it's one heck of a story that if i were only given a fine writing workshop, an excellent publishing company and a cool sounding pseudonym, i will make it big in the literary world. my friends say so!

well, i thought it would also turn out good as an anime, but i wouldn't think about giving the Japanese more than half the credit... so nevermind.

every person i told about it commented that it would indeed make a fuss, that's it's a scary thought and could potentially impair our beliefs. so out of being Christian myself, i decided to put down everything detailed i've written about it. i put them all in draft. i'll try to gather some courage and read more Dan Brown before i fully decide on it.

but right now. i'm all zipped.

just so you know, i'm feeling a bit nervous while writing this. beats me.

thank you! >:D

// yesterday - invited my little cousins and neighbors for dinner at my house. basically, it's a children's party! i realized that it's fun to spend birthdays with children cos they make me feel so young and lively! >:)

// today - swimming with fernds (fern friends, k? not a typo) -- saycee, chamel, mark, dan and jay. super fun! except that we weren't the only people in the pool that time. sucks. and you know whaaat... it's totally okay to share the pool with others duh, but there are like 3 couples exhibiting gross PDA and we're guessing 2 of them did something grosser in the bathroom cos there's this time when we found them missing and saw that the CR is fucking locked. wth, why are couples these days so hyper hormonal? do they turn each other on so much they can't wait to get each other laid? it's one thing that scares me with a having a boyfriend. and also, last time i checked, we're in an exclusive subdivision, in an exclusive clubhouse. onting class naman dyaaaan!!! fucking cheap!

// tennis with dan! jamming with jay! cooool!

// i don't think i'm ever gonna have a boyfriend in the next 3 years, kaya sorry naman to those who wished >:) i'm too serious and my standards are so fucking high that in my current environment, no one is good enough. sorry ah! but actually, i just want a package of looks && brains. yun lang naman eh bakit ba! hahaha perfect market na sana yung UPLB eh cos it's given na they're all smart, but oh well. >:|

// ay. alam nyo ba yung feeling na may iba ng gusto yung dating may gusto sayo na sobrang disgusted ka? MASAYA! sana tuloy tuloy na! HAHAHA

// mr. leech followed me at twitter. no idea how he ended up there, i guess he saw it in the browser history. tsk.

// thank you! thank you to everyone who became part of my birthday!

// tomorrow has to be a GOOOOOOD DAY! >:) i wanna see my crush play basketball promise!!! naman eeeeh.

balik balik balik

ang gulo no?
archive na lang to.

dito ka na lang ulit >:)

>:D

good morning earth!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN!!!

hahaha! ang saya ng birthday mo promise! >:D

// this morning... went to church and rededicated myself, then to the cemetery to visit my lolo and auntie's grave. we do this every year on my birthday cos they both died near it. my lolo died nov13 and my aunt, nov16 talaga. saaaaaad >:(

// and theeeen, i slept all afternoon. kakagising ko nga lang e. e kasi naman may quiz pala bukas. haaaaynako. T__T;

// seriously no plans for tomorrow. i'll most probably just go to the mall to buy a jacket and i'm done for my birthday! hahaha bahala na kmi ni terai. >:D

Survivor Philippines Palau FINALE

Amanda Cooley Van Coll is Survivor Philippines Palau's SOLE SURVIVOR.

After tiring commercials, the finale ended with 3 votes for Justine and 4 votes for Amanda. It has been the most exciting Survivor Philippines, as far as being predictable is concerned. This Survivor did not revolve on outplaying (as anticipated) but rather on outwitting, as too much emotions and strategies were tolled. It was truly interesting to see Survivor being played on a different light, less on the physical and more on the mental. The girls proved this and I'm proud on how they worked they're way to the top.

I'm actually for Justine, but Amanda is equally deserving so CONGRATS AMANDA! >:D

what?

// why are these guys pushing me to the wrong person? when in reality, there's no one i want to be pushed into yet. there's this app at facebook which randomly generates reasons why you're still single. it's just funny cos the 'randomly generated reason' i got is something i've mentioned before. i didn't say i'm in that position. and for the record, HE IS NOT EVEN MY BESTFRIEND. what you see isn't always what you get.

right. i feel something, AND I'M NOT REACTING POSITIVELY ABOUT IT. now if you just tell it to me straight.

kill the fuss, folks. i'm not liking it, seriously. >:\

// currently making a gift for a bestfriend. >:P

// i'm thrilled to watch Survivor Philippines Palau later. who's gonna wiiiin????

// went to gym for a bit of cardio but i lost it all when i bought coffee.

// yeheeey! white musk! my mom says it smells like a guy. no waaaaaaay. :( it smells like... musk! duh?

tv!

// PPB Double Up - what happened to Tom? wasn't able to watch what happened earlier... then he's sick. e ang gwapo lang nya grabe. hahaha supercruuuush! ang lalim pa ng boses. mas gwapo pa pag nakasalamin. haynako. ah si patrick din crush ko! hohoho! mukang kuya kim eh. hahaha >:P

// Survivor Philippines Palau - so far, the part of the jury who spoke today will most likely vote for Justinne (yehey!). then there's the rest tomorrow. SPP today is made of epic win because of SUZUKI!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!! mega laughtrip! and he's trying to be serious. wtfinger?!?! when Jeff was asked, "crush mo si marvin?" -- her reaction was sooo damn priceless. she was blushing like crazy! laughtrip of the night! whew! di ko kinaya! >XD

// Plants versus Zombies! honestly i still like Luxor hahaha. but it's cool to have tried it, finally! gaaawd, i just get bored at the start cos it's too slow and the plants take a lot of time to recharge, next thing i know it's game over. the michael jackson zombie was amusing though! hohoho >XD

// Luxor? stuck at level 11. >:|

// heeey, i'm studying parin naman. in fact i did my homeworks first! like when i got home from school cos pundido na yung ilaw here so i won't be able to write on paper when night falls hahahaha.

// goal = DL. must have 21 units next term. come on, i need the discount... and my name up there. >:P

henako

// i learned something today. something i've wanted to confirm long before but is too scared to. cos i'm pretty sure i won't be getting the cool side of it all. haynako i knew it. i fucking hate it that i attract the wrong people... or i attract the people i don't like, or those i never thought i would attract in the first place. !@#$%^&*() why can't it just be the other way around? fuck naman e. so i wasn't surprised at all when i heard it. shrugged it off as soon as it was said cos i already know about it, my instincts served me right this time. epal. so, what to do? wala! keri lang! act like i never heard anything. i'm counting on TIME. yes naman, TIIIIME!!! go find another. i'm doing my part naman e, i'm doing everything to imply that there's no chance. hahaha sana next term na please???? and when i was asked why i don't like the 'news' i just heard, i just said that i simply don't like it, that i have my standards and it's a fucking dead case between the two of us. i won't give him the benefit of the doubt.


// yehey. he helped me set up the projector awhile ago. haha but i suck cos even though he's already there, i still called kuya IT to help me cos the projector won't turn on. sometimes my brain gets so clouded that i can't think and still call on other people even when somebody is already there. wtf? a life learning?

// wow. i thought i was already slacking off with filione but it turned out i got the highest midterm standing among all of the sections our prof is handling. yehey? >:)

i fear destitution

i still favor the elite mentality despite its narrowness and bounded philosophy. simply because i don't like being poor. i hate poverty. if it's not about the opportunities that an elite education could give me (cos apparently, i've already missed out on that), then it's about the bigger opportunities my ambition could open up to me. fucking pride. it's good to have some.

// went to the gym... to read. finally halfway through The Graveyard Book. haha

// yehey! i saw my crush awhile ago. same old. >:P

// Survivor Philippines Palau awhile ago was crazy. i still can't follow the reasons why Justinne burst out like that, but to me she still deserves to be the Sole Survivor.

>:)

// i went to school but the guard won't let me in cos i was wearing maong pants. honestly, i didn't think it was obvious, no one noticed them before. kudos to mr. guard's sharp eyes. so i retreated home and told my parents our teacher is absent the truth. thank you dan brown for signing me on the attendance sheet (as always) hehehe.

// since it's my sister's rest day... we went to the SM north! yehey! sobrang taken for granted ko na talaga yung gym. i never workout, i'm too lazy! so while she's working out, i did our trigo homework and continued reading The Graveyard Book. then i saw RR Enriquez! hahaha she goes to the gym pala. and also Yas Neri... the one from UPCAT The Movie. actually, i never thought she goes to the gym. anyway, she sat across me at the lounge and read a book din. i wanted to speak to her or something cos we were schoolmates naman nung highschool pero nahiya ako. hahaha that's what happens when someone you just see walking around during highschool becomes a celebrity. i'm usually more friendly than that. haha

then we crossed to trinoma and blah blah blah. we didn't shop, we just looked around. i'm brooooooke. tapos! i saw this super nice red jacket at Solo. haynako bibilhin ko un promise! i just need cash. pleaaaase i want that jacket. i really really want that jacket!

FAIL: we ate at WORLD CHICKEN. their food looks really yummy and super sulit BUT IT'S TOO MUCH and nakaka-umay! figure this, 152 for a quarter chicken, pasta and rice. pasta pa lang busog na ko, it took a lot of self-motivation on my part to continue eating. the food isn't really masarap, but it's madami so we're really cool with just that. we even saw Rodjun Cruz and his girlfriend Diane (tadjock diane from wazzup?) eat at the same stall. wala lang, foodcourt eh. haha anyway, i never finish an entire plate at world chicken. sucks how i never learn. mejo sayang pera cos takaw tingin ako. sayang sayang! hmp.

// TOM! TOM! TOM OF PBB DOUBLE UP! hala ang gwapo nya! hahaha supercrush!!! >:D

// i don't feel anything special with turning 19. 19 lang nman e. hahaha next year na lang ha? hahaha >:P

The Disadvantages of an Elite Education by William Deresiewics

Something that struck me just now.

The Disadvantages of an Elite Education
By William Deresiewicz

It didn't dawn on me that there might be a few holes in my education until I was about 35. I'd just bought a house, the pipes needed fixing, and the plumber was standing in my kitchen. There he was, a short, beefy guy with a goatee and a Red Sox cap and a thick Boston accent, and I suddenly learned that I didn't have the slightest idea what to say to someone like him. So alien was his experience to me, so unguessable his values, so mysterious his very language, that I couldn't succeed in engaging him in a few minutes of small talk before he got down to work. Fourteen years of higher education and a handful of Ivy League dees, and there I was, stiff and stupid, struck dumb by my own dumbness. "Ivy retardation, " a friend of mine calls this. I could carry on conversations with people from other countries, in other languages, but I couldn't talk to the man who was standing in my own house.

...The first disadvantage of an elite education, as I learned in my kitchen that day, is that it makes you incapable of talking to people who aren't like you. Elite schools pride themselves on their diversity, but that diversity is almost entirely a matter of ethnicity and race. With respect to class, these schools are largely—indeed increasingly— homogeneous. ...

....I was given the unmistakable message that such people were beneath me. We were "the best and the brightest," as these places love to say, and everyone else was, well, something else: less good, less bright.... I never learned that there are smart people who don't go to elite colleges, often precisely for reasons of class. I never learned that there are smart people who don't go to college at all....

The second disadvantage, implicit in what I've been saying, is that an elite education inculcates a false sense of self-worth. Getting to an elite college, being at an elite college, and going on from an elite college—all involve numerical rankings: SAT, GPA, GRE. You learn to think of yourself in terms of those numbers. They come to signify not only your fate, but your identity; not only your identity, but your value. ... The problem begins ... when academic excellence becomes excellence in some absolute sense, when "better at X" becomes simply "better."...

When people say that students at elite schools have a strong sense of entitlement, they mean that those students think they deserve more than other people because their SAT scores are higher...

One of the great errors of an elite education, then, is that it teaches you to think that measures of intelligence and academic achievement are measures of value in some moral or metaphysical sense. But they're not. Graduates of elite schools are not more valuable than stupid people, or talentless people, or even lazy people.. Their pain does not hurt more.
Their souls do not weigh more....

If one of the disadvantages of an elite education is the temptation it offers to mediocrity, another is the temptation it offers to security. When parents explain why they work so hard to give their children the best possible education, they invariably say it is because of the opportunities it opens up. But what of the opportunities it shuts down? An elite education gives you the chance to be rich... but it takes away the chance not to be....

Yet it is precisely that opportunity that an elite education takes away. How can I be a schoolteacher— wouldn't that be a waste of my expensive education? Wouldn't I be squandering the opportunities my parents worked so hard to provide? What will my friends think? How will I face my classmates at our 20th reunion, when they're all rich lawyers
or important people in New York? And the question that lies behind all these: Isn't it beneath me? So a whole universe of possibility closes, and you miss your true calling.

This is not to say that students from elite colleges never pursue a riskier or less lucrative course after graduation, but even when they do, they tend to give up more quickly than others. ...

Why should this be? Because students from elite schools expect success, and expect it now. They have, by definition, never experienced anything else, and their sense of self has been built around their ability to succeed. The idea of not being successful terrifies them, disorients them, defeats them. They've been driven their whole lives by a fear of failure—often, in the first instance, by their parents' fear of failure...

But if you're afraid to fail, you're afraid to take risks, which begins to explain the final and most damning disadvantage of an elite education: that it is profoundly anti-intellectual. This will seem counterintuitive. Aren't kids at elite schools the smartest ones around, at least in the narrow academic sense? ...They are... But being an intellectual is not the same as being smart. Being an intellectual means more than doing your homework...

When elite universities boast that they teach their students how to think, they mean that they teach them the analytic and rhetorical skills necessary for success in law or medicine or science or business. But a humanistic education is supposed to mean something more than that, as universities still dimly feel...

There's a reason elite schools speak of training leaders, not thinkers—holders of power, not its critics. An independent mind is independent of all allegiances, and elite schools, which get a large percentage of their budget from alumni giving, are strongly invested in fostering institutional loyalty...

It's no wonder that the few students who are passionate about ideas find themselves feeling isolated and confused. I was talking with one of them last year about his interest in the German Romantic idea of building, the upbuilding of the soul. But, he said—he was a senior at the time—it's hard to build your soul when everyone around you is trying to
sell theirs...

The world that produced John Kerry and George Bush is indeed giving us our next
generation of leaders. The kid who's loading up on AP courses junior year or editing three campus publications while double-majoring, the kid whom everyone wants at their college or law school but no one wants in their classroom, the kid who doesn't have a minute to breathe, let alone think, will soon be running a corporation or an institution or a government. She will have many achievements but little experience, great success but no vision. The disadvantage of an elite education is that it's given us the elite we have, and the elite we're going to have.

---

William Deresiewicz taught English at Yale University from 1998 to 2008.

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// ateneo compsat is selling geek shirts! LOL, i'm promoting it cos i wanna buy one (or two) of their shirts, especially the one mika designed and THIS!! OMG I would love to have that shirt! please please please! CHRISTMAS/POST BIRTHDAY GIFT???? right! so mika also designed that shirt. i so love you mika. you're the best designer in the world. i wish i could also design something as smart as that!


// i went as proxy godmother to our neighbor's christening this morning. our previous neighbor was godfather and he came alone so being the only person in his age and the only person he's familiar with, i was obliged to entertain him. really awkward cos we never really talked much when we were still neighbors, we don't even hang out, last time we 'interacted' socially for more than 5 minutes was when i was in highschool, and we don't really talk... we just play badminton all afternoon. weird. then college came and, you know, i was lost for 3 years so... anyway, i texted my sister that she should've taken a break cos i'm talking with her ex-crush. haha

the food was great. in fact, since not a lot of people came, our house became (yet again) the default recipient of excess food. yehey! :)

// currently doing our javascript homework which is really taxing cos it's too long.

// we're already on my favorite trigo topic: PROVING fundamental identities! not because i'm good at it... on the contrary i'm getting challenged over it! when i say i'm challenged, it means i enjoy it, but i suck at it. >:P

// hey. every time i think that my crush isn't doing well in his studies, is slacking off, and is generally uninterested with his grades.. i get turned off. major points go to being intelligent (sensible in the least), looks follow closely behind but honestly, it's the brain i can't afford to overlook. >:[

ETA: i've always thought of this before, until i read this COMPOSITION who put it in such a striking way. Please Read guys. :)

Chemical Engineering Licensure Board Exam Results (November 2009)

Chemical Engineering Licensure Board Exam Results (November 2009)
List of Successful Examinees

CONGRATS UP AChES!

UPLB Passing Rate: 85%

1 ABELLA, JOSEPH JR ANDERS
2 ABLANG, PAULINE MARIE TUZON
3 ADRANEDA, MARIA CRISTINA MARICRIS VILLADOS
4 AGUILA, MARIA KORINA ROBLES
5 AGUILAR, ALFRED DENNIS VALIENTE
6 ALBERTO, DIANNE RAMOS
7 ALBERTO, PAOLO CARLO ROBIELOS
8 ALCANTARA, KAREN PEARL GOMEZ
9 ALERIA, VERGIL ANDRIN
10 ALMANZOR, ARJAY FERIL
11 ALON, MARLOU VIE BASA
12 ALONZO, MARIA ROUSSEL COSINAS
13 ALTEZ, JEANNELOU CUENCA
14 ALVARO, MICHAEL ANGELO MALLILLIN
15 AMATONG, EDGAR CALOLO
16 ANG, CHRISTOPHER LORENZO MABITASAN
17 ANONGOS, LOWELL ANGSOFAN
18 ANTONIO, JERICHO ART SANTOS
19 ANTONIO, PRINCESS JOYCE RANJO
20 APOSTOL, KORETTA FARAL
21 AQUINO, RICHIE BENGA-ORAS
22 ARADA, KRISTINE ROSE OJOY
23 ARIES, JEDDA MARIE BOTEROS
24 ARLANTICO, MAY ANTONNETTE PASCUA
25 ARMADA, OMAR REY BONIFACIO
26 ARTUZ, THERESA SAGUN
27 ASI, EDSEL DOCE
28 ASIS, MARY ANNE REYES
29 ASTURIAS, RONALD LANDICHO
30 ATIENZA, ABRAHAM GONZALES
31 ATIENZA, BEVERLYN SANCHEZ
32 AUSTRIA, CHARISH ANN GENOSAS
33 AYCO, RENATO JR LORO
34 AYSON, ANGELA CHRISTIE CACERES
35 BACO, ARCHIE ARANAYDO
36 BACOLOD, KENNETH JAY JACABA
37 BAGAFORO, MAIVELEEN PEREZ
38 BAGASBAS, JAMES RYAN DRAGON
39 BALISNOMO, JOCELYN RODRIGUEZ
40 BALUZO, NICANOR JR AGRAVANTE
41 BAMBASE, RANDOLPH ACLAN
42 BANDIALA, JOHN FEL YEKE
43 BANTATUA, MARIAN JAERENE BASICAL
44 BARACHINA, SHIENA MARIJOY CADELINO
45 BARAN, DAIZYREE AMBALONG
46 BARCELON, MARK LOUIE DELA ROSA
47 BARRAMEDA, MARIA ANNIE BELLEN
48 BARTOLOME, LEIAN DELA CRUZ
49 BATALLONES, CHRISTIANE HENRITZ REYES
50 BATTAD, MA GISELLE CARLA DIAZ
51 BELANDRES, GLAIZA ACLAN
52 BELLEZA, PATRISHA MAE VELASCO
53 BERESO, JOSHUA DIAZ
54 BERMIO, AMELOU KATE MUPAS
55 BIENES, KLEAH MARIE FERRER
56 BOJOS, VINUS MONGE
57 BRACIL, MUJIK SALCEDO
58 BRAVO, ERIKA FARIÑA
59 BRIONES, ROWENA MAÑEZ
60 BRITANICO, JUAN AMBROCIO BRICIA
61 BRUZO, AARON ESTANISLAO
62 BUAL, RONALD PEROCHO
63 BUGUIS, MARIA CECILIA BACOLOR
64 CALIAO, CHEASTER BELHOT
65 CALIMBAS, ALVIN CASTILLO
66 CALIVARA, CYNDI AVIZOLA
67 CANCIO, CATHERINE GUERRERO
68 CARACENA, HARRY ANDREI CANTILLAS
69 CARANDANG, BIANCA BELINDA BAES
70 CARONONGAN, NATHAN TABIJE
71 CASTILLO, BRYAN ACE DIGMA
72 CATANGCATANG, KRIS GALAMGAM
73 CAUTON, ELMER BRENT TATEL
74 CERBO, ATLAS ADONIS VILLALOBOS
75 CESAR, LEA MAY CABANSAG
76 CHAN, IRENE BUGUINA
77 CHAN, STEVE LAWRENCE SO
78 CHUA, LESTER ADRIANE CO
79 CHUA, MARC CHESTER CO
80 CO, CHARLES EDRIC TAN
81 COBILLA, DEXTER CLEOFE
82 COLLAMAT, GRAZELLE MAE LIMBAGAN
83 COMAYAO, LOPECELA BORBON
84 CONSOLACION, ALLISTER GARING
85 CORTEZ, ADRIAN CRUZ
86 CRETICIO, RONI TEJANO
87 CRISOLOGO, EMMANUEL LABITAG
88 CRUZ, RENATO JR FAJARDO
89 CUATON, ANTONY LEMBAGA
90 CUENTO, BENJO SANTOS
91 CUIZON, REGINA ZARAHFE ALIVIO
92 CUSTORIO, CHANELLE MESJENA DOCTOR
93 DABAL, PAULA BLANCA PARAGAS
94 DALAUIDAO, JERIC ANDRIN
95 DALIDA, JOY GRAZIELA LOU SOLITARIO
96 DAMPILAG, DOMINADOR BAWAG
97 DAPIAOEN, DOMINADOR JR DUMMAO
98 DAWAL, CERES FLEUR BITANCUR
99 DE CASTRO, RON DEL MARASIGAN
100 DE GUZMAN, JENNIFER LAGUNERO
101 DE LEON, APRIL CABUEÑAS
102 DE LEON, LESLIE MAE MOJICA
103 DE VILLA, MARK THOMAS KING
104 DECENA, MARIA CRISEL ALVAREZ
105 DEDEL, ERNESTO III MAGAY
106 DELA CRUZ, ERWIN IAN QUINTO
107 DELA CRUZ, MARVIN ERIC OPERARIO
108 DELA CRUZ, RENSON JAY CANDELARIA
109 DEMINGOY, JOANNE LOPEZ
110 DIAZ, RHEA CHAVEZ
111 DIGOL, JAMES LINCUNA
112 DISPO, RODISSA NICOLAY
113 DIZON, ARNIEL CHING OMANDAM
114 DUAVIS, AYESHA GARCIA
115 DUMANDAN, FLORENZE JESSE DE DIOS
116 DURIAN, ALVA PACQUING
117 DY, TRIXIE RUTH NUÑEZ
118 ELISEEFF, MICHAEL BRIAN BETIA
119 ELISEO, KATHERINE JACILDO
120 ENECIO, MARIA LEANNA DE LOS SANTOS
121 ESCAÑO, ROLINDA DOMANTAY
122 ESCOBAR, JANNZEN EDWARD PAYABYAB
123 ESCOTO, BILLIE JAY JAMIR
124 ESPEDIDO, VIEN LORENZ ROXAS
125 ESTAVILLO, JAY-R GREGORIO
126 FABELLON, CHARISSA FEGALAN
127 FAJA, KENNETH SUSTIAGA
128 FAJARDO, GIRLYN RIL
129 FAJARDO, LANI DECENA
130 FANG, DENNELI CHAN
131 FANTILAGAN, MARGIE NEL MASANGKAY
132 FARAON, MARIA THERESA JAEN
133 FERNANDEZ, LADY KAREEN MADARANG
134 FERNANDEZ, MELANIE DUCULAN
135 FETIZANAN, MICHAEL FERNANDEZ
136 FLORES, CHERRY MAE ROSALES
137 FORMANES, ROMINA SARAH GUERRERO
138 FRILLES, FRILLIAN ESPELA
139 FULLER, ELA PAGDAGDAGAN
140 GABORNES, CHERRYL FAITH ELEJIDO
141 GADOR, LARISSA BIANCA DONATO
142 GALANG, MARK GINO KABILING
143 GARBO, RODERICK COLO
144 GARCIA, GABRIEL PAGUIA
145 GARINGO, NORJHUN LIBRE
146 GEGAJO, EULA FATIMA AGUHAR
147 GEMARINO, MARIE CATHLENE MONTELIBANO
148 GETIZO, JHOMAR DOROS
149 GICA, GENE ROBBIE ALCEBAR
150 GOLBIN, JOHAN MARK PATALINGJUG
151 GOLO-AN, DAISY REE PAGAPONG
152 GONZALES, FRITZ JAN PELLOSIS
153 GUELOS, SHAYNE NONES
154 GUERRERO, RODEL DAYAG
155 GUINTO, HONORAYZA TABALBAG
156 HALIL, NASIP TAHA
157 HAYAG, BON ZEATIEL FACELO
158 HERMOSO, KAREN MIRAFUENTES
159 HERNANDEZ, JAN ERIK ESTRELLA
160 HONG, KATHERINE AMANTE
161 HUIT, BIANCA ROLLOQUE
162 ILLAO, MARIZ ADONIS
163 INGARAN, EDWARD MADAYAG
164 INTIA, JOKER REYES
165 ITCHON, DENNIS TADENA
166 JADULOS, JEROLD CRISTOBAL
167 JALE, FRANCISCO JR VERDEJO
168 JASPE, CHRISTSAM JOY SUMALANGCAY
169 JOSOL, RODELLE IAN FUENTES
170 KOBAYASHI, KAY KIMBERLY LIGUTAN
171 LACABA, SEVERO ANDREW BADUYA
172 LACBAYEN, JERICHO BERGULA
173 LACONSAY, ANNALYN GARCIA
174 LAGARE, REXONNI BARRERA
175 LAGONOY, SHERWIN BONIFACIO
176 LALUAN, KIMBERLEI MAY ANOG
177 LAMBINO, JEMEALINE SINFUEGO
178 LAMBOJON, CLOYD LINDAYAO
179 LANSANGAN, MARCO MALLARI
180 LAPIZ, MERRYVIEVE CABARAL
181 LAQUI, DARYL CALATERO
182 LARIBA, PATRICIA DANNA SACUPAYO
183 LAYA, JHASPHER BRAGA
184 LEAL, JAN LESTER GARCIA
185 LIBIRAN, ERLON SANDY MAE OLAGUIR
186 LIBUNAO, DONNA WREN BIGCAS
187 LIM, ANGELINE BRAVO
188 LIM, JENNY PEÑA
189 LIM, LEAH MAE DELOS REYES
190 LIM, SHELDON LEMUEL TAN
191 LIMJUCO, LAWRENCE AGABE
192 LINGATING, REUBEN DASAY JR PANGILINAN
193 LIRIO, MA BERNADETTE SARMIENTO
194 LLENARESAS, MONICA KRISTINE MACASINAG
195 LOPEZ, PAUL RHENIEL DU
196 MALUMAY, JOANNA PAMELA NUDALO
197 MALUMAY, MEGAN FRANCESCA NUDALO
198 MANALO, MARVIN MARQUEZ
199 MANLANGIT, ANGELIQUE TONGO
200 MARANTAL, MA SONIA DOLOR
201 MARASIGAN, RAMON CHRISTOPHER MANREZA
202 MARAVILLA, ALLAN VIERA
203 MARIANO, ANN ROCHELLE LOQUE
204 MARIANO, KAREEN MAY ANIÑON
205 MARIANO, KHALIL JAVIER
206 MARIAZETA, CHRISTIAN RAY ADRIANO
207 MARSONIA, JOHN LIJE LAMAHANG
208 MARTINEZ, JOHN EMMANUEL BELEY
209 MARZAN, JENNIFER PRADO
210 MEDRIANO, CARL ANGELO DULATRE
211 MINA, JAYSON TUAZON
212 MOLEJON, NERISSA ARAYAN
213 MONTALBO, KATHRINA DE LEON
214 MONTUYA, MARINECE SAUSA
215 MORALES, MARY VERMI AIZZA ALMAZAN
216 NAHOMAN, KRISTINA MADANGUIT
217 NAVARRO, JO-ANNE ANGELES
218 NG, CATHY TAN
219 NOEL, NICOLE LAURA GUALDRAPA
220 NONO, PAUL BRENNAN BALISALISA
221 NOYNAY, ADONIS PARPAN
222 NUEGAS, RESTY PEREZ
223 OCASION, RICKY SOL
224 OGAYA, JAY PEE LAGNASON
225 OIDI, TIMOTHY PAUL DEBSIO
226 OMAÑA, KENNETH ABAS
227 ONG, ROYSON ANGELO
228 ONGAYO, EDWARD BAO
229 ORMEO, STEPHEN MATTHEW DEXIMO
230 ORO, MARIA LENI DARDO
231 ORTIZ, JERVIK CRUZ
232 PABALAN, RIVA AMADOR
233 PAGULAYAN, LIZABEL CARENG
234 PAIT, IVY GRACE UMADHAY
235 PALACIO, KATHERINE JANE LUMACTOD
236 PALERO, MARIE LOREN YUPANGCO
237 PANILAG, ARNEL NUÑEZ
238 PANTILGAN, VINCENT BONOCAN
239 PARAS, LOTA MORALES
240 PAULE, KATHERINE ADONAY
241 PAYABYAB, MARK LYNIUS ATIVO
242 PAÑARES, MARK LEMAR BASCON
243 PENUS, ALBERT ROSALES
244 PEPITO, RACQUEL AVIEN TORRES
245 PEREZ, JEM VALERIE DULAY
246 PERMALINO, CLYDE FAUSTINO
247 PEÑA, TIMOTHY JOHN TIOTUICO
248 PICASO, FRANCIS JOHN ALVAREZ
249 PONTERES, NERIUS MARTIN AMIZOLA
250 PUNZALAN, MARK EMILE HERNANDEZ
251 QUEROLJICO, LOUIE JAY MARI GALINO
252 QUITA, JUDILYN LUIB
253 RACOMA, KENNETH JOHN RICO
254 RAGPALA, KATHRINA ALEGADO
255 REAS, DANTE LOU DANTE
256 REAÑO, RESMOND LAT
257 REMORIN, WENIE NADI CAALIM
258 REYES, JERIEL VENTURA
259 REYES, NIKKO CARLO ARRIOLA
260 REYES, RHONDA CAMILLE TAN
261 RICO, JENNIFER DELEGARIO
262 RIMANDO, PATRICIA ANNE NOEL
263 RIVERA, KEZHIA MAY OLIB
264 ROQUE, KATHERINE DELOS SANTOS
265 RUBILLOS, JONATHAN LAO
266 SALINDONG, KAREN ANN MIRANDA
267 SALISE, FERDINAND PETER LACANDAZO
268 SALLOMAN, ALUEL MERIOLES
269 SALUDES, ARGENE TAN
270 SAN JUAN, NORLYN GIMENEZ
271 SAN LUIS, KARL IVAN MACALE
272 SANTIAGO, CHERRY ANN ALMORO
273 SANTIAGO, MARIA RONA ANGELI POSADAS
274 SANTOS, MINA GRACIA DIMAPILES
275 SANTOS, ROBERTO RIVERA
276 SARIAN, DANIEL SANTOS
277 SATORRE, MICHAEL JONAS MAC
278 SEVESES, LEMUEL JAY ZAMORA
279 SILANG, MARIUS ANDRIUS PANGANIBAN
280 SOYOC, LULUBELLE DOROON
281 SUAZO, BENEDICT PALER
282 SUMABAT, ANA KARMELA ROLDAN
283 SUMABAT, MARK LESTER REFORMADO
284 SUNGA, JON ERROL LOPEZ
285 TALABAN, MARK DANIEL JAYME
286 TALAN, JESTONI VALEZA
287 TALINGDAN, MARVIN CHUA
288 TAMBOBOY, RHEMAL JAY TABUNO
289 TAMOLANG, ROSE ANN ZARATAN
290 TAN, MARK JOSEPH SY
291 TAN, MILLICENT CASTRO
292 TANTUAN, ANDREW FLANCO
293 TE, ANN LOREN YECLA
294 TE, KENEVVY TAN
295 TIO, JOHN PATRICK YAMBOT
296 TOLENTINO, GENESIS DREW SANTOMIN
297 TORREJOS, REY ELISEO CASTILLO
298 TRIA, CHARISSA MAE RUEDAS
299 TUAZON, MA ARIZZA KRISTHA ANGELES
300 TUPAS, ANTHONY IAN RIOS
301 ULEP, MICHAEL PULIDO
302 UMALI, JEREMIAH VARGAS
303 URSAL, MARK ANDREW CANONIGO
304 UY, SHAHANI THERESE NARIO
305 VALDEABELLA, ALVIN ESTRADA
306 VECIANA, MERSABEL LAGRAN
307 VELASQUEZ, JO-MARIE UY
308 VENTURA, MELVIN GONZAGA
309 VIBAL, RECLE ETINO
310 VIDOÑA, MYLA GUTIERREZ
311 VILLA, BENJAMIN CRUZ
312 VILLACARLOS, LUTH MANGUBAT
313 VILLAMIN, BENJAMIN PASCUAL
314 VILLAMOR, EPHRAIM ENALDO
315 VILLANUEVA, CHRIST ANDI BANHAO
316 VILLANUEVA, IRENE DIAZ
317 VILLARUEL, FRANCE NOELLE BANO
318 YAP, KRISTIAN JULY ROSARIO
319 YBAÑEZ, SHIRLEY MAE MERCADO
320 YECPOT, STEPHEN CATACUTAN
321 YONTING, GIRLIE APOR
322 YU, DENNIS NG
323 YU, JAMES TAMPUS
324 ZIPAGAN, RUSHELLE LOPEZ

---------------NOTHING FOLLOWS---------------

wuhoooo!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARLITAAAAAA!!!!

nov5 - went to yeth's bday sa holy cross (gagu dan! sabi ko nga sementeryo yun e!) with dan, mark and jay. mega-OP. pero oks lang. masaya naman. e first time ko mag the bar e bakit ba??? i am never tolerant with alcohol.

it's also because of this that i missed our gradeschool reunion, sana pumunta ko... pumunta pala si peachy at hannah eh! hehehe, buti kung pumunta sina felix roco. gusto ko sila makita >:P

nov6 - dinner with BTS. it's my bestfriend's birthday kaya dapat treat nya! hahaha :P super saya! as in! :)

nov7 - shempre hindi ako nakuntento sa dinner lang, i went to her house kanina lang para makigulo at maki-kain. ako ang bisitang pandangal. lechon, palabok, cake (na super funny cos the greetings are for his dad! wow mali!), ice cream, vodka nanaman, turkey, doritos blah blah blah blah blah. busog na ko! and i thought i could stay longer and crash the entire day, may dala pa kong backpack na puno ng... ewan emergency overnight stuff (kahit isang tricycle lang ang layo ng bahay namin hahaha) kaso we're going out pala tonight kaya saaaaaaaad. :(

uhhhh, bukas binyag ng kapitbahay naming si Gabriel. i'm playing as proxy ninang hahaha so kainan nanaman after. yehey for a food filled weekend! :D :D :D

monday? uhm, i don't know. i don't like mondays, AS IN.

napanaginipan ko yung crush ko pero nakalimutan ko na kung ano nangyari. and for some reason, Tom of PBB reminds me of him. super crush ko na nga si Tom e... specially when he started wearing glasses. kasi dati he's just a good looking amboy to me, but now he looks like a smart and good looking amboy na! hahaha >:P i'm a sucker for bespectacled guys.


you know what's cool? when i look at my crush and see that he's already looking at me. makes me feel like he noticed me first before i did. haaaay. pwedeng kiligin??? hahaha

1 content per day is so hard pala no? i'm not always in the mood to research and write. hahaha

tomorrow! :P

// i'm excited to see my crush! :P see? haha i wish we could be like... frieeeendsss you knoooow. haha

// sir marquez has emailed us our midterm grades on trigo and java prog. so far, i'm highest on both! yehey! hahaha. but you know, i can never be too proud of it cos if this were taught in UP, i'm sure i'd be spilling my brains out. yes, fuck me and my fucking pride.

it's hard to believe that i'm actually excelling here, when back in UPLB i was the dumbest and most unmotivated sleepyhead you'll ever see. i never excelled in UP. oh, i did! i got uno in PE1! and my PE's are always high. yes, and art too. hahaha

anyway, i want to think that i was just wrongly positioned in UPLB. maybe if i were taking CS there, i would at least... strive to pass. there's only one absolute thing i learned when i was there: that i am not for chemical engineering. haha took me 3 years to realize that.

i want to convince myself that i really have a knack for computer science, that i'm excelling because i'm good at this and not because it's easy (here).

// just thinking of my crush makes me happy and yooouuung. haha XD i don't know.

// i know that i fall easily, but i never jump into saying i'm in love or something unless i mean it with my entire life. i'm just always heavily infatuated.

and as i've learned recently, infatuation is like the pirated version of love. it's confusing and you'll never guess what it really is between the two until it breaks. so i'm kinda wondering about people who say they lovED this or that person before. i dunno but i think there is no past tense for love. so i guess people who fell out of love weren't really in love in the first place, they were infatuated and confused it for love. tricky, isn't it?

infatuation isn't bad, though. it's almost like love but not exactly, cos it breaks. true love doesn't break. and i believe it only happens ONCE.

right. i'm talking about this because i've been asking myself if i have ever been in love. and my conclusion? NOT YET. at least now i can say it with conviction. thanks to Bo Sanchez.

Do's and Don'ts while working with Google Adsense

If you're a newbie like me in the world of Adsense, there is never really a solid way to earn big in your first few months, unless you cheat -- which isn't even a valid option because can never get away with it without being flagged by Google.


Perhaps the best way to optimize your Adsense earnings is to KEEP IT LEGAL. Boost your content, work on SEO, submit your site to listings and do some research on popular keywords. These factors do not guarantee you ad clicks, but they increase traffic which could turn into ad clicks, which could then turn into sales (on the ad publisher's part); and then you earn.

By keeping it legal, you avoid doing things that would violate the Google Adsense Terms of Service. I bet not 50% of Adsense users have read the entire text, but even without doing so, conventional knowledge has it that there are 2 major things you shouldn't do while working with Google Adsense:

1. Do not alter the code. Google has made various templates and presets you can use to customize the look of your ad blocks. As much as possible, stick with it.

2. Do not harbor illegitimate clicks. Don't ask your friends to click on your ads. Don't use click bots; Google is smarter than that.

By closely following their terms, you are ensuring yourself a safe trip to a pool of revenue. Be patient though, because it takes a lot of time and effort to firmly establish an income stream coming for ads.

This also serves as a reminder to myself, cos I'm just starting at Adsense and I'm hoping that eventually, I'll earn and learn from this.

lishwist :P

switch (giftNumber) {

case 1: gift="red Dell Inspiron 1440"; break;
case 2: gift="genuine Windows 7"; break;
case 3: gift="white musk cologne/perfume from The Body Shop"; break;
case 4: gift="a box of OrGano Mocha instant coffee"; break;
case 5: gift="bike"; break;
case 6: gift="external hard drive"; break;
case 7: gift="red adidas jacket"; break;
case 8: gift="tall havs"; break;
case 9: gift="starbucks mug"; break;
case 10: gift="happy cactus/es from FFS"; break;
case 11: gift="white philips earphones"; break;
case 12: gift="black pilot gtech 0.4 refill"; break;
case 13: gift="printed scotch tapes"; break;
case 14: gift="9 oz strawberry banana blizzard from DQ"; break;
case 15: gift="DVD series (Gossip Girl, Heroes, L Word)"; break;
case 16: gift="ice skate!"; break;
case 17: gift="books by Judith McNaught, Paulo Coelho, Bo Sanchez, Neil Gaiman"; break;
case 18: gift="GCs anywhere"; break;
case 19: gift="CASH: 5577 5300 3163 4056 BPI E-Cash"; break;

default: gift="greet me! :)"; break;

}

don't get confused

i just moved my entries to a different address okay? from now on i'll be managing two blogs. i'm not even sure if it's a wise choice, i think i'm just all hyped about blog monetizing. i wasn't in my right mind when i decided to create separate blogs right?

i doooon't know. maybe you should give me something to write about for my other blog. hahaha

i'm sooooo broke. i kinda spent a lot this day just to revive the items i lost in my vanity kit.

oh wait, i'll make a new birthday wishlist entry. hahahaha

waaait!

hi goys!

i've been thinking about this ever since sir monses introduced me to MFA (made for adsense) blogs, so goys, i'll be making A NEW BLOG. something made entirely for adsense. i'll be trying my luck earning via google adsense... the legal way. *chokes*

i don't have a name yet so if you have any suggestions, chime in.
ah, actually i've made A Brain Region already, but it's still empty. sorry, but it's an anagram of my name. and it is, by far, the most decent anagram of my name i've generated using so many anagram generators. i can't think of anything!

honestly, i want Live Junk to be my MFA blog and A Brain Region as my Personal blog.

tomorrow, or tonight? i'll start fixing the layout. then, i don't know... i'll probably write some serious content this week. after 5 entries, i'll call it official. but you can never tell, cos if it's me? everything is subject to constant delays.

hmmmmmm, i have to decide whether to turn Live Junk into a MFA blog, cos A Brain Region sounds more... personal, and vain. gaaaawd.

ok, i have decided. I'M MOVING THE ENTRIES TO NEW ADDRESS.

daaaaang, somebody kill me.

About Me

Name: Arianne Grace C. Birog
Nick: Yan
Birthdate: November 16th
Location: Philippines
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Hello!
I'm someone who loves blogging (since 2004) and also someone who doesn't know (yet) what to do with her life. i'm currently taking up computer science at FEU-FERN College, but prior to that i was a chemical engineering student at UPLB for 3 years, i quit because i wanted to take fine arts (took me 3 years to realize) at UPD but failed the grade requirements... so that puts me where i am right now. kinda...

besides being an artist (a frustrated one at that), i am also an internet junkie, a wannabe competitive swimmer, and a dark (literally) wizard.

note: sorry if my grammar annoys you, it plagues this blog like crazy. not much of a writer, so please bear with me. >:D

Contact?
You can contact me however you want. Easiest way is to comment on any of my entries or drop a line at the tagboard. Or you could email me if you want to. Oh yeah, Y!M is also an option.

just.don't.spam.me.

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