wtdfck

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!

apparently, i didn't attend 2 out of my 3 classes this day... well, it's not really a big deal since they're just PE and a boring GE subject... but then how many times have i done this before?

srsly, i can't count them on my fingers.
i've probably exhausted all my permitted absences already so there's no room for any more laziness... >___>;

i don't even think i'd be granted a permit to transfer to diliman with this kind of record. wtdfck.

oh by the way, i am recomended for counseling by our college because of my current academic standing. hehe, nobody pays attention to it anyway... CEAT has a lot of probies... including me.

bwaha.
i have another exam tomorrow! it's our first theoretical lab exam in microbiology.
bores me big time! hlysht!

I'VE FINISHED WATCHING DEVIL BESIDE YOU!!! :)
comment: what a cliffhanger!!

NEXT IN LINE: WHY WHY LOVE
-practically the same cast but whatever... we'll see!

i missed astra :)

ok from now on... i'm going to resume my internet browsing here... i was only lured to spacehub because they have a 20/hr charge for members... and here i pay the regular 25/hr even though i am a member.

anyway... i still think it's better here. the aircon is on all day... the place is comfy... no games! meaning no noisy little schoolboys crowding around on a single node! and wait! somethings have changed! all the PC hubs have flatscreen monitors! yeah! last time i checked they still have those big monitors (which isn't a bad thing actually, except that they take up a lot of space) and there are just a few tables with flatscreen on it! they really made great improvement... not bad for 25. ^___^;

actually guys, i have an exam tomorrow at 10am... i know i have a lot to study/memorize but you know me... i'm being the usual mistress of procastination... nothing goes first than satisfying my internet craves... which technically isn't something to be put on high priority. >_>;

someone spank me... >___>;

i'm been really negligent lately. i think yesterday... i only attended one and a half worth of classes just because i'm too sleepy to rise up at 9 (!!!!) and to lazy to go to my 2:30 class (!!!). gosh, i don't know what's up with me! i'm not naturally dumb... though this university is effectively making me think otherwise. i firmly believe that up to now, i can still score an above average IQ... but you see, i think the lowest kind of people here are those with above average IQ... wtf roight?

oh yeah, i remember now. the reason why i still attend my hum1 class which is scheduled at an equally annoying timeslot (11:30-1) -imagine the heat! jeep is not practical too!- would be because i love the thought provoking discussions and yeah, i have a crush on a classmate.

oh, for once... i want to get called for recitation (because i feel like i have something sensible to share)! i feel like my class number (22) is invisible and slips right through one's consciousness even on a roll call. i don't even think our teacher recognizes me as his student because last time he checked, my class index card isn't with him. hahaha

even so, i'm ok with it. :) at least i have a crush. ♥

it's almost valentines.
someone give me a flower or a box of chocolates! -a desperate's plea for a freakin lovelife-

wait! i was just chatting with lau awhile ago... asking for advice on transferring... thank goodness i learned something...
prepare for the CEAT panel interview. >__>;
and if all else fails... appeal to the assistant dean, because she/he's the kindest.

an asteroid to hit earth this 2019?

the news says so - Space Rock 'on collision course'

i'd probably be 29 or 30 by then... mehn, i don't want to die that early! >_>; i don't think i'd be married even!

whatever happens, it's up to God to decide... scientists say the risk of diverting the direction the threatening object is low... and when it does rocket down to earth, it might cause a whole continent to disappear! what a scary forecast... and to think that it's still a decade or so away makes it even more worrisome! imagine, we have predicted a cause for the world to end 11 years early!

i don't really think it's early you know. some people believe that we should start looking for a better place to preserve the human race... in this case, we should all hop on to mars and build a whole new community.

is that even possible?
it's a dead planet! if there were any sort of organism living there it would be some unknown hybrid of a protozoa... i wouldn't even bet on the chance of us prolonging our lifeline for a year!

unless God makes another living planet out of the blast.

i mean, what if...
because of that asteroid... the earth will die and explode... and because of that explosion... it would affect the other planets peacefully orbiting the sun?
could it be possible that another living planet will be me made?

what if, the Earth is not really the first ever living planet? what if before us is another living planet... who died because of some threatening space object?

and the people who lived there also believed in a God who favored their race the most. tapos, it became so corrupted with evil that God decided to sweep it off and just create a new world...? parang eto lng din?

but then, if he's really God... he would never commit the same mistake again. ok so i'm off them.

eh wla lang.

GO AChES FIGHT!!!!

laban namin kanina with schemes!

hahaha nakakatuwa... actually gusto ko talaga magka-riot... wala lang... para lang maka-witness na kung ano... hahaha... pero wala eh... 2 times na sanang muntik magka-ramble (basket & softball) pero whatever... hahaha

ayon. shempre... super hiritan! nakakainis... nakakakulo ng dugo. personalan na eh... garapal pa maglaro sa basket... pero dibale. masaya naman... nakuha namin ang huling halakhak dahil naipanalo namin ang last game which is softball... hehehe first win pa... hahahaha

ng sarap magcheer para sa AChES!!!! haha napaos ako sa kakasigaw! ang daming red baloons!!! grabe pumasok ako sa baker naka orgshirt na violet... hahaha malay ko ba na violet team color ng kalaban? buti na lang nabigay na jersey ko nagpalit agad ako... hehehe

pero eto mas masaya
officiating ang SELES ♥
hahaha

dear sister

i feel awful. i feel really bad about myself. i think i wasn't a good enough sister! i hate myself for letting her hurt herself that much for a stupid guy!!! and i hate it more that i actually wasn't there when she needs someone to confide to! well, she didn't really say she wants to talk about it... but during that time i was having an attack so she's really being considerate to me when she agreed to accompany me to the infirmary when she badly wants to go home already because of a heartache.

i feel really bad. >_>;
sometimes i think she doesn't want to tell me anything because i have a tendency top shut her off, saying she's really stupid to dwell even further on a delusional love affair. i thought it wasn't so serious.

i thought she isn't really in love.
but i missed the fact that everyone has his/her own style of loving someone, and my sister just got that weirder (sometimes intolerable) style.

when i heard that she cried a lot, i felt my heart sink. i felt like the worst sister in the world, not being there when she needs me. i hate using this stupid heart ailment as an excuse.

my sister's unique. ok, i say she's weird and loud about the one she loves. i'm not even sure if she's completely over him.

heck, i saw her calendar and saw she marked the box with the guy's birthday. you know what's written? ___'s BIRTHDAY: FORGET IT! >_>;
stupid isn't it?

and to think that she accepts the fact that everyone thinks i act older than she is. she asked me once, "how can i be a better sister to you?" because it bothers her that her level of maturity isn't par with me. i don't want her to think that she's no better than i am. in the same way, i don't want her to dwell on her current state right now. i wish i could talk to her without getting furious with her silly comments. i wish i had more patience to deal with her in-progress-emotional-growth because i think it's the key to her maturity.

once she gets over and done with her dillemma, then i guess it's a good step forward to a better sense of emotional perspective.

i hurt when she hurts.
it's no good tolerating things like this.
but only time can heal, and i don't want to impose an improper healing process on her (because i heal fast).

but maybe she's really like that, she hurts hard, and heals slow.
and maybe too, she loved more.

so he's dead

heath ledger is dead. >__>; not really his fan though... hehe, at least i'm up to date...? i couldn't believe out teacher when he blurted out he's dead... we were discussing about creativity then... and we all turned him off saying "teacher, you're being too creative >_>" (note sarcasm)

anyway. i'm not up to do a tribute for him (i just heard of him through brokeback mountain, i don't even know his face)... i've got business to do...

and by business i mean waiting for streaming media to download... part by part, episode by episode... and while waiting logging in to neopets to play games...

haaaay. such a lovely world indeed...
honestly, i've never been this much 'inlove' with a taiwanese series (or any asianovela for that matter)

when i say in love, it means i feel kilig most of the time... true enough, i can't help smiling at the picture of Ahmon forming in my brain...

haaaay ♥
such a hopeless romantic... i don't know what will happen to me in the future...
do i even have a future?

---

done with the first chem40 theoretical lab exam... i think i answered better than last time... though i still have this attitude of giving up with a problem once i've exhausted all my time and braincells figuring out for an impossible solution...>_>

aaahhhh, whatever.

i care more about Devil Beside You...

oh, and also our first face-off with schemes.

>_<; WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

err... okay, i was exagerrating... hahaha

e kasi naman!
ang hirap!!!
hindi ko na kaya!!!
i've never felt this way before!!! T___T;

these supressed emotions are killing me!!!!!!


alam nyo ba kanina ko pa pinagmumukang TANGA ang sarili ko???!?!?!
HINDI KO PINANGARAP NA MAPAHIYA NG GANITOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

uhhm... don't get me wrong though

nanonood lang naman ako ng taiwanese series sa youtube. hahaha ^___^;;

eh sa sobrang kilig ko pigil na pigil ang mga tili ko... para talaga akong tanga...
>__>;; may dvd naman ako kaso di ako makapaghintay ng weekend para mapanuod eh... tapos ayoko rin maghintay mamayang gabi para makapuslit sa laptop ng dormmate ko...

ganon ako ka hooked! nagsasayang ako ng pera.
nakakahiya... tawa ako ng tawa dito... ngiti ng ngiti... weirdo talaga.
tapos kahapon... andun ako sa primelink, puno kasi sa spacehub eh dun ako usually nagu-youtube.. haaay, 20/hr lang kasi eh... hahahaha...

so yun... kilig moment nanaman... >__>;

kaso leche.. nagdatingan na yun mga dota boys... umingay!! bumaho! (haha ang mean) amoy ewan... basta... tapos ako na lang babae dun... tapos ang dami nila.. napapalibutan nila ako...may mga nakatayo pa eh nakakahiya naman sila nagdodota ako nagu-youtube.. nanunuod ng mga ka-teenybopper-an.... tapos biglang

"ay kulang ng upuan!"

mga lintik kayo.
lumayas na lang ako... nasira mood ko... leche talaga. nakakagrrr...

ah basta...

masaya ako. ♥

devil beside you ♥ (spam, yeah)

i wonder how pissed off readers are when google directs them to a blogsite that merely mentioned their search keywords ONCE. like their tripping on a person who seeks for reliable information. poor people. search engines are so stuck up with personal blogs... i hate it. >__>; --- but honestly, sometimes i like it too... because of the traffic... but i still pity those who are tragically mislead to a crappy webpage like this one... =(

to all those who are mislead by google, yahoo or any search engine, or technically speaking, to all those who are spammed by my entries... i'm sorry. i couldn't do anything about that. it's just me expressing my pent-up emotions on a relatively catchy topic (which is randomly encountered), sometimes it doesn't makes sense... since i don't prioritize dissiminating viable information on my every post... so yeah, i apologize.

but i shall continue spamming. >__>;

after finishing Coffee Prince, i must admit. i've never felt this much... err in love? it feels great to feel giddy once in a while! hehehe

then came DEVIL BESIDE YOU!!!! :)
haha, i can't stop fantasizing about Jiang Meng (played by taiwanese model/actor Mike He)

okaaaaaay, PICSPAMMING TIME!!!

waiting on the world to change

weird. nothing's up with the title... hehe
still here in elbi... i'm waiting for my mp3 player to charge... then i'll go...

it's friday! the weather's cool but the rain isn't.... >_>; my umbrella just broke! my cute (very!) cute umbrella! *it's so cute i'll post a picture of it here soon... hehehe no hint of sarcasm here

chem40 lab awhile ago was fine... i think it was his shortest postlab so far, i'm happy for myself because of that. at least i won't go about dodging his looks once he starts calling names for recitation. you know how much it sucks to be called my him? fuck. if it weren't for his, okay i admit, relatively helpful amount of knowledge on the said matter... i wouldn't make an effort to take down notes (i don't usually take down notes on labs)... then again, whatever.

even in his shortest postlab he still has the guts to insult us all. ay ewan, i don't want to talk about him further. hehehe

at least we're done with the freakin hydrocarbon tests. >_>;

why in the first place?

gosh. i actually forgot why i am online right now... the clock is ticking... the meter increasing. I STILL CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO DO!

or maybe there's really nothing to do online...
i don't even know why i'm here...

>__>;

hello blog.
i see you're almost 3 years... how old. now you must credit me for feeding you consistently, unlike those who went on hiatus for years and forgot their passwords.. >__>;; haha well, i went on hiatus last year but figured i can't afford to leave my blog unattended for a long time hahaha

something random

What Arianne Grace Credo Birog Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

next, a highschool survey...

SHS Survey >:)

1. Favorite tambayan?
-MMA

2. Usual people na kasama mo?
- friends... haha general

3. Usual food mo pag lunch?
- baon ko... usually fish :)

4. Lagi ka bang late?
- yeah

5. San ka usually nakikita pag morning?
- classroom?

6. Sinong teacher ang laging kausap mo?
- i don't talk to them that often...

7. Fave coach mo in SHS?
- na

8. Usual drink mo in SHS?
- water from my jug, or that weird water from the fountain

9. San makikita table ng kada nyo?
- somewhere in MMA

10. Usual snack that you buy?
- uhhh... buttered corn?

11. Was there ever a time na umiyak ka sa cr?
- nope

12. Did you ever enjoy your fairs?
- kinda...

13. Best math teacher you ever had?
- mrs. sulit :)

14. Fave subj during your Grade 2?
- i wasn't in SHS at that time...

15. Fave subj during your Grade 4?
- not in SHS... science?

16. Fave subj during your Grade 5?
- science

17. Fave subj during your Grade 6?
- science... (wala kaming art sorry)

18. Did you ever run for council?
- no. why would i want to run a pack of ($^!&*#! girls?

19. Nalate ka ba for flag cem?
- a lot

20. Fave year & Sec mo in SHS?
- i dunno... iv-pamayanan... coz that was the last. i'm itching to graduate that time...

21. During mornings how do people see you?
- uhhh... i have no idea

22. Was there ever a time that you left your id?
- yeah

23. Was there ever an event in SHS na bawal suot mo?
- yep

24. Did you wear make up in school?
- no

25. Usual thing that you borrow from people?
- ballpen forever... though i hardly borrow anything naman...

26. One thing you will never forget about SHS?
- barkada of course, it's the only thing that stays after you leave the place

27. Fave events in SHS?
- basta it means no classes for a period or more or the whole day...

28. Was SHS the best thing that ever happened to you?
- not exactly... but there were a lot of happy moments

29. Noti's received! What do you expect to see?
-no classes, we're a sucker for those

30. In your whole stay in SHS, name your fave sections and advisers you've had.
- i don't have a favorite section or adviser but i can name them all some...
ist year: buhay - ms. ambat
2nd year: biyaya - ms. casimiro
3rd year: kalayaan - ms. canivel
4th year: pamayanan - ms. (oh no. nakalimutan ko sorry XD)

why, i missed reading fanfics

it seems like i'm not reading a lot like i used to anymore. the last time i read was because i'm required to for an exam. i hardly get a decent dose of 'good reads' ever since the sem began... and you know what, i think i've already stopped reading fanfics.

i think i'm gradually losing touch with one of my favorite hobbies, fanfic reading. i've also stopped writing... i'm on a long-term fanfic-writing hiatus... and even though the plot bunnies are working overtime on various plots... i don't get motivated enough to type it down. i've lost the will to write... so to speak.

and harry potter is slowly exiting my brain too. guess what? i didn't go crazy over not watching the 5th installment. apparently, my being a fangirl is also starting to fade. i'm not much into harryXdraco anymore (though the idea of homo pairings still interest me a bit).

coffee prince is my current obsession, but now that i've finished the series and was given a bad cliffhanger... i guess i'll just forget it sometime. worse is, the possiblity of a coffee prince 2 is sorta vague because the actor of choi han kyul just signed up for military... =( unless they wanna do another coffee prince with an entirely different story... that could be fine but i want to stick with a cute crossdresser. >_>;

i won't be going to school on monday because i need to go on a check up... have someone interpret my chest xray and ECG findings... it's weird not to know whether you have a lung or a heart problem... or both.

by all means i'm still swimming for the org... but to cheer? i'm not sure about that. i think i'll quit... they should understand. i hope so... i think they would... they're really considerate. ♥ i love AChES.

warning: crap ahead

life's been pretty boring lately. seriously, i haven't studied 'seriously' ever since the sem started. ask my dormates... i hardly go to the desk to flip my notebook for some homework. i don't do my homeworks... unless they needed to be passed. i get lazy over the idea of studying organic chemistry again... i was never rightly motivated. i don't study for a quiz... i just pray over it.

i dunno, do i need a boyfriend? hahaha
everybody has one nowadays... and i just dreamt of being hugged and kissed on the forehead by a friend whom i don't have feelings for...
but when i think about it i sigh... it feels good to be hugged and kissed on the forehead (for real)... it seemed so warm and innocent. whatadream.

koreanovelas have this thing about getting the best lovelife when you're already in your late 20's. i think they have a point there, you have to mature first... land a job and get stable. yeah. but filipinos mature easily, what with the poverty and repressed emotions? >_>; whatev. i'm talking crap here.

koreanovelas make me feel fluttery but it also makes me feel frustrated... should i wait till i'm already 30 years old to get that kind of romance? hahaha...

a good decision may be to disconnect from the internet, shut this computer down and go upstairs to study.

heck, we're having our first long exam on chem40 next week.
imagine, it's 2 months past the start of the second sem and we're just at our first exam???

kay, braincells???? let's work hard this year!
i wish you weren't exposed to too much ninhydrin last week. i really need your help this time. ♥

seriously... T_T;

i'm getting tired of hospital trips... the last last time i went there was because i got confined with UTI. And now, i mean yesterday, i was brought to the hospital again and was given an impression of pneumonia and enlargement of the heart. and all the while i thought this tightness that i feel around my right chest is just heartburn! i even took a lot of kremil-s and zantac!!! >__>;

now i'm medicating on a pain reliever, a flu tablet, and an antibiotic.
i just hope it's not something critical... for all i know pneumonia can be treated... and the elargement of the heart is just a manifestation of the viral infection i acquired. the doctor says, the heart resorts to enlarge itself to be able to pump in more blood so that we can breathe better. it's most common in althetes, because of their activities their hearts have to work extra hard with pumping blood so they get bigger... it's a good thing in this case yknow. however i don't think i'm athletic enough to grow my heart bigger...>__> which means mine's purely viral. yeah, that's it. i can hardly breathe properly these days and my back hurts too... sleeping on a chair is a damn bad idea. but then lying down could be worse... >__>;

oh, i just finished watching Coffee Prince!! ♥ wonderful, really. i enjoyed it! ♥ makes me more frustrated!!!

a bar of chocolate would definitely make my day. ♥

kremil-s, you do the job

hindi ko na talaga kaya.
ganito na lang ba magwawakas ang buhay ko?
>__<;

inatake nanaman ako. actually nung friday pa to. so 6 days na akong ganito... second time kong atakahin ng umabot ng halos isang linggo... nung una, sobrang unbearable hindi ako makatulog, iyak pa ko ng iyak so lalong naninikip ang dibdib ko...

nung 2nd time na nangyari... mejo tolerable na sya. pero andun parin yung sakit... takot akong humikab kasi kailangan huminga ng malalim e sumisikip pag ganun... i also supress my sneezes and coughs kasi nga masakit s dibdib!! grrr...

pero just awhile ago... mg mag aalas-tres ng umaga.. nagising ko sa sobrang sakit! hindi ko talaga kaya... sobrang LOOOOOORRRRDDD!! SORRY NA SA MGA NAISIP KONG KABABALAGHAN!!!! feeling ko pinaparusahan nyo... 3am ba naman kasi.

umupo na lang ako kasi sobrang hindi na ko makahinga ng maayos. shempre iyak parin ako ng iyak... so natulog na lang ako ng nakaupo kasi hirap na ko huminga pag nakahiga. sobrang sakit, grabe...

hindi ko lumangoy kanina... masakit parin eh... yan tuloy... nagka-utang pa ako ng 20 laps na freestyle... pool length pa! >_<;

so ayun... bili ulit kremil-s... baka maresolbahan kahit pano... pero masakit prin eh... pano kaya ako matutulog... pano kaya ko magppractis sa cheering? gusto ko magpaexcuse kasi nakakahiya pero haaaaay. :(

dpat punta ako ospital kaso luma pala yung health card na dala ko. kainis.

ayoko pa pumasok sa hist2. di ko p kaya. huhuhuhu

sana hindi ito GERD (gastroesophageal reflux disease), chronic heartburn o heart attack diba?

though i doubt it's anything milder. >___>

Lord, help me.

romance novel idea #349

a random number which implies that i've been through tons of novel ideas but never really got the chance to write them down or even complete the story in my mind...

so here, i'm going to write down my most recent romance novel idea...
one day -that's when i get my own laptop, a sponsor and a vocational course on writing- i'm going to write this.

so for the meantime... just try to understand the craziness of the plot.

STANDARD DISCLAIMER APPLY:
meaning, everything stated below (or technically, everything in here) IS MINE -unless otherwise stated. i take pure custody of my written thoughts.

please, no matter how crappy my ideas may seem... DON'T STEAL. it could mean the death of an author.


title: i haven't relly thought of it...
outline: heeeeeer ya gow!

♠ so there's a main character, for the meantime let's call him John.
♠ John is an undergraduate in a prestigious university undergoing his thesis research.
♠ blah blah blah, he met a girl we shall call (for the meantime) Sarah.
♠ so Sarah is also a student and a part time waitress at a decent bar.
♠ blah blah blah, they fell in love! oh the cliche...
♠ so they engaged in a relationship... a happy, weird and romantic one.. because John is kinda geeky and has really weird antics... blaaaaah

♠ but something quite unfortunate happened. John was diagnosed to have this severe psychological illness (wait till i get a good research, k?) in which he often experiences delusions.
♠ and sad to say, Sarah is part of this delusion.
♠ so the conflict here is whether he should get himself cured and totally eliminate Sarah from his mind, or get the proper medication and start a new life... without Sarah of course.
♠ so you know the drill, since John is so in love, he couldn't get his mind to decide properly. he's even accusing the doctor of false analysis...
♠ so he's confused. he doesn't know who's real.
♠ is it his friends who brought him to the hospital (because they're wondering why he's always talking to himself and even introduced an invisible girl named Sarah to them) and the doctor who said he's mentally ill?
♠ or is it Sarah, his friend, his lover, the most special person in his life?

well, i gotta leave it here... but rest assured everything has been thought out already! hurray for a romance novel idea! hahahaha

ang weird diba... hehehe

coffee prince again... ♥

i'm watching coffee prince streaming media at mysoju right now... i sorta grabbed the chance to watch it here in los banos because you know how fucked up the internet connection is at our place... :)

anyhow... i'm only 2 episodes ahead... huhuhu. i can't wait to watch the whole thing!!! bwahahaha... seriously, i sooo like Go Eun Chan's character in the series!!! cross-dressers are cool! i've come to realize...

more so... earlier this morning i went to watch our softball game with SELES, i didn't get to play even though deep inside i'd like to try. i really lack self-esteem you know. and i lack a lot...

which is why i realized something awhile ago... being timid wouldn't get you anywhere. i mean, it takes courage to try something new and it also takes courage to battle the fear of making yourself look like an idiot in front of everyone. i sometimes think if i'm still going to swim. heck i'm too shy to wear a swimsuit... and i'm also afraid of competing... i always think these people are way better than i am.

you got it. inferiority complex.

waiting for streaming media to download T_T

i'm back in los banos! quite a nice day i guess... i got here at 930am and decided not to attent my first class at 10, which is history2. the primary reason would be because i didn't read her assigned reading and i have this feeling that of all my classmates, i am the one who is most obliged to do so... because i was the one who dissipated the homework info in the first place. >_>; arggh... >__>;

but you know, i attended my next class which is es10a - 1pm. thing is, only a few of us came so we sort of boycotted the class. according to the university rule, we shall wait for an hour before we leave but i guess because most of my classmates are impatient jerks, i just followed and left the classroom as well. i wouldn't want to look like i'm so following the rules... even though deep inside, i would like to wait. those jerks...

♥ COFFEE PRINCE ♥
kumare just bought a DVD and is doing a marathon of the series already! she promised to lend me the disc next week!!! I'M FREAKIN EXCITED!!!!! yeheeeeey!!!
i have a crush on andy!!!! :D hehehe, yeah, i like him (or her) more than the leading guy!!!

the series is perfect! (at least for me!) i love coffee and well, the whole homosexual theme is so new (in live action form) that's why it made an incredible pilot episode... hahaha well... you know me. :)

haaay, i'm so excited to watch Coffee Prince again.

♠CRAP♠

school again tomorrow... much worse they're lab meetings! uggggh..T_T and as much as i'd like to go home already for the weekend... I CAN'T! because i volunteered to play on our softball game against SELES this saturday. waaaaaaahhhh...

but the thing is... i've been having PMS already and i bet it'll come out anytime soon!! i just hope it's not on saturday because usually, my first day is the crappiest of the seven days of bloody hell i go through every month. the earlier the better... like, could it be now?

grrr... >__>;

07 confessions

(X) stayed single for the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
( ) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
( ) made-out inside a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) fell in love
(X) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
(X) suffered through teenage heartbreak
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) got pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) dated someone you'll never forget.
(X) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love #i noticed, 2007 is not a romantic year for me
( ) kissed under mistletoe WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
(X) waited until one day before to begin a project
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker/schoolmate
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) took an honors/advanced class
( ) broke the dress code
( ) jacked off/fingered in class
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
( ) got straight A's
(X) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
(X) failed a class #correction: CLASSES
(X) cut class #like anyone would in a boring class
( ) kicked someone in the testes
( ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(X) did something you were proud of
(X) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(X) proved yourself an idiot #sometimes
( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class #i'm too reserved for this. haha
(X) fell in love with a teacher [ crush lang naman. haha. :D love it! :D ]
( ) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made the varsity team
(X) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER
( ) painted a picture #i drew a lot but i never painted this year
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) seen a live concert
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
(X) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) went to a surprise party
(X) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly #i don't have such skills emsorry.
(X) didnt wash your hands after using bathroom #haha
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) broke in a line of waiting people
(X) volunteered to help out others
( ) visited a new state
(X) told someone you were busy when you werent. #i don't want unsolicited attention
(X) partied to celebrate the new year #like usual
( ) cooked a disastrous meal #i cook well, y'know
( ) drove the car drunk
( ) lost something important to you
( ) smoked a whole cigarette stick
(X) lied about how old you were #it's a matter of life and death
(X) got a gift you adore
( ) got 'sh!t faced' on alcohol
( ) took a nude picture of yourself
( ) almost got arrested
( ) prank called someone
( ) saw a college basketball game in person

taken from: anne :)
honestly, these are very subtle confessions.. hehehe