a happy new year to everyone!

yeah it'll be 2008 in exactly 4 hours.

honestly, i think time flew by so fast. i could still clearly recall what happened last new year's eve. per usual i spent it with my family, here in our house, at the rooftop... without any fireworks whatsoever... it has been a tradition for us not to purchase anything that will be displayed in the sky although it's quite a sad thing because i could just imagine us throwing fireworks on the rooftop!!! everyones' eyes would be on our house! on that spot where the highest fireworks are sparkling at the midnight sky. it would be a most pleasant view. too bad...

but then again, showing off fireworks on our rooftop is just the second best thing we could enjoy this eve... the first and best would still be the fact that we have the best view in the whole subdivision when it comes to the night sky! i could go stargazing everyday (provided it isn't raining/cloudy)! and yeah, we could watch the fireworks without the annoying cables and electric posts... and trees too.

i'm not really fond of doing resolutions y'know... i'm more a wishlist type of girl. hahaha and later, my sister and i agreed to create a new 101 wishlist before midnight then we'll pray it over with our family.

it's all about getting closer to God now.

i missed talking to him. i can't believe how far i've drawn myself away from him over the past year. maybe that's why i've been trekking a downhill path ever since i entered college, ever since i let the academic pressure take over my dire life. i thought my being a warrior last last summer, my life of everyday prayer, is enough to arm me throughout my life in los banos. i thought that when you prayed a lot tonight, it will bring you enough blessings to last you for a week.

i thought i could just easily pass on a prayer and still be blessed for a week or so.
but the truth is, i have always been blessed, even during the times i don't pray. He is so generous about blessings that i guess one of the advantages of praying is that it gives us more appreciation to the blessings He has bestowed upon us.

prayer arms us with an extraordinary kind of perspective that let's you see only the good things in the world. without it, all the blessings that has always been there for you will be masked for hiding. and you'll think that all that there is in this world is a pile of misfortune and an unbearable amount of mischief and poverty.

whew. it was never a smooth year for us... i mean, every year isn't as smooth as what we prayed it to be. but it's damn unforgiveable if we stop praying with just that. hah. >_>

okok, i'll pray. it's so hard to bring back my childhood motivation about praying. back then i used to pray out loud because that's how my parents taught me and that's how we do it in sunday school. but now, huhuhuhu, i can't even sit straight in prayer without sleeping. everytime i do an indian sit on the prayer room and clasp my hands in prayer, i always end up sticking it on my forehead for support, then goes the obvious... zzzzz.

>___>

here goes another wishlist!

# a set of multicolored pens from steadtler. i guess a set would cost around 600-700php. hehehe
# new rubber shoes. haha always in my wishlist!
# money would still be #1
# a few cute earrings and lots of pakaw. haha
# multicolored metallic pens.
# markers, multicolored too. hehehe
# bond papers
# lots of oslo paper

haha, i'm asking for a lot of art materials.
oh, an immaterial wish would be

# to transfer to upd fine arts next AY.
whew. rakenrol!

Fuego!

it's Rizal day!
but more importantly (yeah, i guess so because i don't really have that much patriotism in me to go on a pilgrimage this day) it's my wuvies Martha and Carla's Birthday!!! yeah beybeh!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATHA AND CARLA!!!!! ♥

oh, i'm so sorry for putting our national hero aside but we don't usually celebrate this day like other traditionalists do... at least i know what this day is worth... :)

i still admire you Rizal. i just hope it goes about changing the Philippines that way.

change topic my friends! you see, i love my country but at present i think i'm still more of a liability than an asset! wait till i get a job and perhaps that's when i can seriously prioritize some of my socio-economic plans to help our nation! bwahaha

i watched kid nation awhile ago and was caught by Alex! he's so cute! and he won a Gold Star! yeah!! :D

hope he wins!

oh, it's almost new year

to tell you honestly, i'm bored.

the last christmas party i attended was back with my dormmates (the 19th, if i could remember correctly)... if you'd still like to count the org party then sure, but since it's just on the same day and all i ever did there was drink and play cards.... fine, i'll include that.

but it doesn't change this... err... loneliness that i feel. not exactly lonely like emo-lonely, it's more like the lack of parties attended this season that made me feel bad.

i'm not really a party-girl, heck i just want to be around the people i love (luuuuurve) this season and this pretty blasted sickness robbed me of that opportunity. i was supposed to go partying with my friends last wednesday, it's a xmas-slash-carla-and-martha's birthday party all rolled into one event. i cannot afford not to attend that. then again, i just got discharged from the hospital and it's not adviseable to go wasting my life for the nth time.

am i really wasting myself partying?
oh, best answer would be NO. it's not like i do it everyday. hahaha, the season just calls for it! big DUH. christmas is spelled party backwards... including new year!!

I WANT GIFTS!!! huhuhuhu

new year new year, according to feng shui, the year of the Rat will be full of misfortunes for people born under the Horse!!! wenkwenk.

the least i could do is ignore it...
and perhaps purchase a relatively strong lucky charm... err..

i'm chatting to vrey right now. all about shifting... hmmm... i'm not worrying anymore about the requirements of the CFA (college of fine arts) in diliman because i think i'd be able to handle it... whew, what i'm worrying about is my current college's attitude towards transferees/shiftees!! they hardly let anyone shift out! wtf.

anyway, it's all up to you, dear Lord. :)

i miss going to the mall! hahahaha :D

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKA!!!! =)

coffee prince ♥

i knew it. i'm not yet over with gays. and i thought i'm gradually growing out of it now that i haven't written any gay story for so long or even laid eyes on a harrydraco slashfic. >__>... but upon seeing the trailer of Coffee Prince, i confirmed i still have this weird fancy for homosexual themes. ^-^; and believe me, it won't (in any way) affect my sexual preference.

i'm excited to watch it!!
wait, actually, i've seen a dvd of this long ago before GMA introduced it... so maybe i could just buy that. hahahahah yeeehey!

or maybe iregalo nyo na lang sakin! dvd ng coffee prince!!! pleeeaaaseeeeee??? ^-^

maligayang pasko! (pasensya na at konyo ang entry na ito)

@ kakabalik ko lang galing ospital.
i spent 4 days in an un-airconditioned ward! haha ang arte diba... anyway. i figured it's better without aircon (but i still prefer a private room kahit walang aircon basta private)since it's kinda cold naman. and besides, i have fever that time so i hardly sweat. >__>; wenk.

@ i already started feeling bad saturday pa lang, but i ignored it! i even exercised! yan tuloy, lumala. the next morning, masamang masama na ang pakiramdam ko but i still insisted on going to church. ayun, sa bread of life kami nagsimba (crossroads77) and it was freakin cold there. ayun, dahil nga nilalagnat na pala ako, nagchchill ako sa kinauupuan ko. para akong sinasapian. shortly before the mass ended, i excused myself and went out. 11am nun eh, matindi ang sikat na araw! on a regular basis siguro isusumpa ko ang tindi ng init but because i needed to feel warm that time, pumunta ko sa sasakyan at dun nagpa-ihaw. grabe, ang sarap mainitan pag super nilalamig ka. take note, di pa ko pinagpapawisan. >___>; ganun ka lamig ang nararamdaman ko.

@ edi umuwi kami... ayown! 39 ang temp ko! whaaapak!! haynaku, todo panic si inay. ako naman, mega talukbong... "Lord! Lord! what have i done to deserve such misfortune!"

@ kinagabihan, sinugod ako sa fairview gen. hospital. dun muna kasi mura... di pa kasi bayad ung quarterly fee ng health card ko. edi sana nakapag-FEU kami.. libre pa. huhuhu. but then FGH is fine, mas mabilis nila ako maasikaso kasi onti lang tao. wenkwenk.

@ edi yun, mega chill ako. as in chill, nanginginig sa lamig, sa tindi ng impeksyon ng dugyot na sakit na ito (UTI).

@ ako man, di ko mawari kung san ko napulot ang aswang na komplikasyong ito. ineexpect ko nga tonsilitis kasi masakit lalamunan ko at usually yun lang ang sanhi ng lagnat ko... but no...nononoooo. ewan. di naman ako mahilig sa softdrinks, junkfoods, salty foods... weird talaga. gayunpaman, nagkulang talaga ako sa TUBIG. ok TUBIG, peace.

@ ayon. so mula sunday, which is december 23 hangang kanina.... nakaconfine ako! in short, sa OSPITAL NA AKO NAG PASKO!! nice diba? hahaha pero oks lang. huhuhuhu hahaha.

@ yun nga lang... di na ako pinayagan magparty sa bahay... e dapat ngayon yung barkada xmas party namin dito sa haus.... hehehe yun, pinagchange venue ko na lang sila. super grateful pa ako kasi super understanding nila... huhuhuhu I LOVE YOU BTS!!!! :)

@ hmmmmhmmmhmmmhmmm... shempre pag may sakit ka wala kang gana kumain diba? grabe mejo naenjoy ko to. weird kasi kumakain si terai sa harap ko ng masarap ng spaghetti at hindi man lang ako natatakam o naiinggit! ang galing! sana laging ganon! hahaha ayoko na mag diet.

@ I QUIT BEING AN APPLE FRIEND (pag dinner)

@ haaay. sobrang nauseated ako all throughout! tapos tinurukan pa ako ng gamot na anti suka ata yun... so sukang suka na ko, sasabog na ulo ko sa sakit... buelo ako ng buelo sa inodoro, walang lumalabas. napamura talaga ako!

@ sana sumuka na lang ako ng sumuka tapos bigyan ng lang ako ng hydrite... mas ok yun. mas gagaan loob ko. imbis na buong araw masakit ulo ko tapos di naman ako makasuka.

@ dahil sa pagpupumilit ko sumuka. nasugatan ang lalamunan ko. the agony, pare. di na nga ako makalulon, bawat lulon ko pa mahapdi. huhuhuhuhu

@ hehehehe. okok. ok na ko. haba na ng storya ko.

@ after more than 10 years ngayon lang ulit ako naconfine! hahhahaha

@ nanaginip ako ng maganda kagabi! pero nagising akong umiiyak, pero maganda parin sya... ginising kasi ako nung nurse e... tapos nung natulog ako.... CONTINUATION pare! ang galing! mas kilig na yung kasunod... ayoko ikwento. i won't mention names... even though the odds of them reading this is high. bwahahaha

@ ok. alang alang kay inay at sa kanyang insecurities na unti unting pinapatay ng kurso ko ang aking kalusugan, lilipat na akong diliman.

@ shempre... conditional parin.

@ciao.

such a short break

before we left for the break our hum1 teacher assured us that we would have something academic to do over the vacation. so he left us with 137 pages of boring text from various writers (including some pages from anne frank's diary - that's 68.50 pesos swept off from my pocket).

last night i gave time to sort the pages off and found out that he gave us exactly 12 different stories to read... i couldn't help but laugh at this. he wanted to make sure we won't present any viable excuse not to read the whole text because we can do it day by day. 12 days of vacation for 12 different readings, ranging from the most boring englishman to the most liberal filipino writer. =|

on top of that, i've just downloaded 4 neil gaiman books from 4share.com and i still have tons of meg cabot pending to be read.

seriously, the need for a laptop is becoming unbearable. i couldn't invest a fortune on mimeograph printed bestsellers... that's why i stick to e-books (however illegal and selfish it sounds), then again i don't have enough time for this. grrr...

hehe. i'm looking forward to a laptop.
but for a short term goal i think i'd have to open another bank account, this time with an atm card... because my other bank account is strictly for my investment money only.

yeah. i think it's better, i'd have two accounts... one for my future and the other for my miscellaneous needs (like a decent DVD of gravitation and clothes, yeah, clothes). hahaha... hello money. where the hell are you?!?!

wenkwenk. i forgot, i also need to get thinner and fitter this vacation... no matter how ironic it sounds to do on a diet this christmas. i'm a sucker for a lean frame.

gine pomelo gin pomelo gin pomelo

WEDNESDAY NIGHT was great! :) i attended two parties. bwahahaha

@ earlier that day, i attended my hum1 class (which is the only class i attended that day because i don't want to occupy myself in the afternoon) because we have a group presentation. then i went out to buy decoration stuff, crep paper, ribbons blah blah blah... wenk. i was in charge of the decorations kasi. and then... blah blah blah... my dormmates carried the TV from the kitchen to the living room! yehey! although it was damn heavy, the magic mic did good enough compensation. hahaha so parang 5pm pa lang... KANTAHAN NAAAAA!!!! yeheeeeey!

@ wow! ang sarap ng food! and tita beth did all of it! as in.. we have cater quality dishes on the table! we have caldereta, porkchop (na suppppeeer sarap ng marinade sauce, kaya hilaw pa lang inuulam ko na ung sauce. yak) and chicken (CHICKEEEN! as in kawta and friends! huhuhu, babay kawta... hahaha). then we bought cake from mernels! THE BIGGEST CAKE IN DISPLAY, MAN! tapos may buko salad pa... shempre care of tita beth, tita beth and of course tita beth!!! hahahaha

@ sadly though, i wasn't able to stay with them all throughout the night kasi i decided to make habol (wenk. conyo.) sa party ng org sa pansol. buti na lang pumayag si kat na sumama or else, di rin ako tutuloy. at buti na lang din, kuya wini was with us kasi hindi ko alam kung san kami bababa... hahaha in short, di ko alam kung nasan yung resort. bwahehehe

@ hehehehe. okok. masaya din to! hehehe walang tulugan! at least hindi ako natulog.. hahaha. so bale ang ginawa lang namin dito ay uminom (nag-session kami ni kat sa isang sulok... hahaha), magsugal, at uminom ulit. >___>;; first time ko makatikim ng gin pomelo... kasi nung nagbabaraha kami ang matalo, isang shot! so natalo ako, nagshot, at nasarapan. dahil dyan, binaliktad ang rules, ang matalo, walang shot. hahahaha so naging seryoso ang labanan. bwahahaha. shortly afterwards, naubusan na ng pomelo juice kaya pineapple na lang. haha masarap parin naman pero dabest parin pomelo eh. bwahaha

@ hindi naman ako nalasing... honestly, di pa ako nalalasing. hahaha high tolerance. adik... pero si kat? ewan ko kung anong tumama don, naging konyo! hahaha bahala sya.

@ hehehe basta masaya, naglaro laro din ako dun. nag volleyball with datu kaya super sakit ng katawan ko ngayon. wenkwenk.

@ nakauwi ako sa dorm ng 5am... nagising ako ng 4pm!!!! kaya todo madali makauwi kasi for sure traffic nanaman... :)

@ hehehe. home sweet home!

@ ok, balik diet!

scouting for inspiration

@ i'm googling for free blogger beta templates that might inspire me in creating a new design for this blog. actually, i've seen one neat-looking design, but it's in wordpress so i still have to do a lot of modification to it before i get it to work in beta.

@ i'm starting to like yellowcard! hehehe

@ i have no more exams for this week! which means i can sleep all i want! hahaha

@ i'm excited to change this layout already. actually, i want a very simple layout. with white as the dominant color. i'll pretty much be still using the framework of this thing... i'm just gonna make a new header image... and it requires photoshop. :/ wenk. :{

insights, confusion, wishlist

@ i have another exam tomorrow. haven't started studying yet. time check: 9:45PM. napaka unproductive.

@ wala nanaman akong $$$$$$. i just bought gifts for my dormmates awhile ago. naaadik nanaman ako sa dvd. grabe. >___>

@ CONFUSED nanaman ako. what's hindering me from making up my mind about shifting? clearly, the taunting procedures posted at the ceat building should be of no importance if i am really determined to shift out of this blasted course.

@ I WANT TO TAKE FINE ARTS, major in ADVERTISING. visual communication interest me a lot. what's happening now is tinitiis ko lang yung course ko. sorry, i wasn't born with the right genes fit for an engineer. i personally honed my mind to work better in the abstract world. technicalities annoy me. i am more inclined with the relative and the subjective. the truth that i search for is unknown and i'm enjoying pondering on that field.

@ I HAVE TO MAKE UP MY MIND. evertime i think of shifting out, i feel saaaaad. parang ayokong iwan ang UPLB. napamahal na kasi ako dito. i don't want to leave my friends, my DORMATES, THE ORG (believe if or not, it's the only reason why i'm proud to say i'm taking up chemical engineering)... huhuhu super mamimiss ko lahat ng yan.

@ it was a mistake to tie so much bonds with this place, it only makes my departure harder to accept. >__>;

@ i'm not sure if i'll ever make it big in the real world. there's so much competition involved. so much crap and trash-talking. parang it's not practical to stay 'good' when the world dictates that it takes an ounce of immorality to succeed. one can never reach the peak of his carreer without a single person harmed. it is impossible to cater to your fellowmen's need with a selfish motive.

@ i missed writing. i seriously think i need to attend workshops to enrich whatever is left of my writing skills. i'm thinking of joining another org, UPLB Pantas. i just want to get access to workshops... that's all.

@ i want to have a laptop na! super naiinip na ako! for sure, i'm going to have more writing time when i get one. :)

@ nafa-fascinate ako sa es-991 calculator ng casio.

@ i can't feel Christmas!!! grabe.

for my wishlist

# DVD ng Coffee Prince (korean series) with english subtitles
# DVD ng Gravitation (anime series)
# a Hello Kitty Pillow
# Red low rise Chuck's.
# a pack of starr candy (previously stork, yung green..)
# chocolates (safari, anything imported... ferrero! ♥)
# lots of shirts! statement shirts... :)
# pants
# slippers
# something from The TShirt Factory or Spoof (ung starbucks and tag heuer spoof)
# a cute analogue watch. yung hindi metal... :)
# a feng shui bracelet.
# gift check from starbucks
# metallic pens (my metal: pink, blue, silver, purple)
# MONEY!

ang wierd talaga!!!!

@una sa lahat. hindi ko ma-explain ang nararamdaman ko, langya talaga. LORD! help!

@i saw more than 10 shooting stars last friday! amazing diba?!?!? may meteor rain daw kasi! so my dormmates and i went out to watch, we were planning to watch it at freedom park kaso sarado na raymundo gate, ayoko mag-effort pumunta dun... haha delikado na. ayun, masaya grabe! kahit na super sakit sa leeg hahaha at ang epal ng mga poste at kable ng kuryente... panira ng view!! hahahahahahahahaaa

@07-B FINALS! congrats Grephein! (sorry, di ako sure sa spelling!) yehey! no more bitterness for me. :) it's fun to have a lot of members. hahaha

@wenk. may exam ako bukas at sa tuesday. maya na lang ako mag-aaral. napaka tamad talaga.

@wenkwenk. 1000 hits nanaman. sana gawing 10,000 ng histats ung database bandwidth nila! haha, uhm, i'm not expecting anyone to relate with this. hehehe

@hmmm... BARKADA XMAS PARTY!!!! sa 26 na! bahay namin! excited nako!!! which reminds me, WALA NANAMAN AKONG PERAAAAA!!! at wala pa akong gift para sa mga tao... huhuhuhuhuhu...

@hopeless romantic: mga wish ko sa mga shooting star... "may exam ako next week!!" (err, di pala to wish no.. statement lang) "gwapong manliligaw!" haha ang choosy!!! sabi nga nila, ang mga katulad kong naghahanap ng may-itsura, mga bingot at nakikita. >___>;; LORD! help!

@ehem. bakit minsan, sa kalagitnaan ng pagsasagot ng mga friendster survey, tinatamad ako at hindi ko na tinutuloy kasi feeling ko... weh, corny na. wag na nga. hahaha.

@err, may bago akong crush. eto super di ko pinagsasabi. kahit na kay kat! (na nakakaalam ng halos lahat ng crush ko)... sorry. hahahaha

@nag simbang madaling araw kami kanina! hehehe, malaking sakripisyo ito! i mean, first of all, hindi ako katoliko pero i don't mind attending misa de gallo. in fact, nag-communion ako kanina. wala lang, namiss ko lang yung ostia (??). first time ko rin mag puto bung-bong! tapos nakipag almusalan din kami sa likod ng chapel (kape at pandesal)! ayos! diba? ang fun pa nung pari!! hehehe

hahaha, hiatus muna ako sa mga all-english entries ha???? :) :)

will i ever get the chance to...?

@ one of the things i enjoy most is daydreaming about my crushes. okok, sorry i'm actually making a very shallow teenybopper entry about my usual grayscale of a lovelife.

thing is, everytime i meet with kat (which is basically everyday), all she ever talks about is her boyfriend... her palangga, her tart, her love. not that it annoys me, it's actually fun just listening to her and their (sometimes) misadventures into (omg, i hate writing like this) the labyrinth of love. harharhar, now i wrote it. sometimes it makes me jealous. i'm turning 18 and i haven't got a decent love-life. maybe i'm that ugly. or perhaps the people here are just so consumed with their academic lives to even bother looking for a special someone. i don't know, i'm not sure.

so ask me, what have i eaten lately that i suddenly feel like i've been lacking enough experiences on love?

actually, last night ate jayjay's orgmates went for a carol in our dorm. before they sang christmas songs, we made a request first. we made them sing 'harana' by parokya ni edgar. i just sat there on the couch, kinikilig. ang sarap palang maharana. ♥ ♥ ♥ i never thought having someone serenade you would be so heartwarming. i love the feeling. and everytime i try reliving it, i feel nice! hehehe

honestly, i'm not sure if i want to have a boyfriend now. i'm very picky. >_> i don't want to settle for something less...? and yabang hahahaha. seriously, i don't just consider every nice guy to be fit for me! we (women) have this annoying tendency to be so overly picky with the guys, like they'll just kneel down before us and present themselves, if they're not good enough then sorry, reject.

no, i'm not saying i've rejected someone already. heck, i don't even have a choice! as in none! 0! nada nada null null. no one has presented himself before me, ever. saaaaad. nyak.

@ one of the hardest thing to do is to go on a DIET.
i think if i transfer to foreha, or to new dorm, then i'll never have to worry about getting a regular exercise. but come on, where am i? i'm so close to temptation. i walk out of the dorm and all i see is food! i don't have to walk a mile to go to my classes, because there's always a jeepney waiting outside. i can't go lazy about going outside because it wouldn't even cost me a kilocalorie.

compared to life in new dorm or in forestry, if you want to get food you have to make a mental struggle because it's too far! so in the end you'll just go sore with what's present in the canteen. >___>;;

dancel dancel, i think i'd go thinner if i live in the fourth floor of dancel dormitory. hahahaha good idea.

ok, so effective tomorrow. NO RICE. just biscuit or bread but NOOOO RICE.

>___>;;

nah, just sleep it over (bitter mode)

hello!
hehehe, i'm quite happy today because our es10a teacher dismissed us 2 hours early, yeah!!!

@ okok, honestly speaking, i'm not yet comfortable with the idea of adding a new batch to our org. maybe because THEY'RE A LOT. err, that's actually a good thing, i'm being selfish...sorry. err, maybe because i'm still enjoying being part of the newest batch. jealous? hah, that sucks.

isa pa, ok? I CAN'T FEEL THEM. seriously. hindi ako natural na kupal, though people say i do look mataray... it's hard for me to act bitchy around these applicants but at the same time i'm enjoying it because i don't want to see them enjoying the reporting process. in short, i'm this type of fucking villain who hates seeing the protagonist stretch her cheek muscles even for the faintest smile. bitter! grabe, hahahaha that's why i want them to experience the exact (or even more) hardships our batch went through.

@ the consti night was extremely easy. for 2 hours they just sat there listening to the consti reading (may natutulog pa nga, ptngna). then when it was time to group them for the slightly harder part, there weren't enough time for us to make them suffer because it's nearly 10 and the police is already warning us.
gulay talaga o! our batch, for the most part, endured the whole of the consti night squatting and doing pumpings.

IT WAS THE HARDEST NIGHT FOR US. we were drained physically and mentally. i broke down on the way home, i was fucking too exhausted. what the fuck, WE ALL CRIED.

well, that's the bitter part of being in such a small group... fuckdammit we're just 3! they're 26! how much easier can it get?!?!?

@ i think it will have to take time for me to completely accept their batch. well, i do accept a few of them, some who made sense to me (even those who didn't report). i guess i have to make an effort to know who they really are, individually. eh ano ba yan, ayaw magreport! takot sa kupal. haynaku.

@ life is a matter of perspective, i've realized. hahaha.

@ crush talk. note: i'm still 17! i have to right to rant about who makes my stupid heart flutter. hahahaha

ang wierd kasi eh. minsan kinikilig na lang ako ng walang dahilan. tapos pag kinilig ako iisipin ko pa kung sino sa mga crush ko ang dahilan. grabe. anong klase yun?! basta pag kasama ko sila masaya naman... i mean, hindi naman sabay sabay na kasama grabe super polygamous ko naman. hahahaha, wala lang natutuwa lang ako na makita sila. lalo pa kung nakikipagtawanan ako sa kanila diba... mababaw kasi ako eh. or simply, basta gusto mo yung tao tatawa ka sa lahat ng hirit nya kahit corny naman.

ganun naman diba? i mean, haller, kung galit sa isang tao you wouldn't even laugh at his funniest joke. pero di nga, masaya magka-crush. it makes me closer to reality. lol. so parang, on Ryan Agoncillo hiatus muna ako ngayon (kahit na nadagdagan na naman ng isang pic nya ang wallet ko hahaha) kasi ang dugyot na ng itsura nya sa ysabella, what's with the lino broca (sp?) look? isa pa nung nasa deal or no deal sya kabuhok na nya yung adik sa buhok sa charlie's angels. parang, FREAK! bakit nagkaganyan kaaaaa! sinisira lang ata ni juday ang image mo.

bago naging sila ni juday, ang tingin ko kay ryan mga supermodel ang type. but fuckdammit when the news broke out about the two of them, parang, huh? i can't believe ganyan ang mga tipo mo, ryan! i mean, si juday kasi pang-masa, si ryan mejo elitista. and now, it seems like juday dragged him to the brink of ka-chipipayan. sorry, and harsh ng mga sinulat ko.

diba nga bitter pa ako?!??!?!!!!

i'm not sure what to say (weh)

@ ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEACHY!!!!
her debut celebration was held yesterday at the acropolis greens clubhouse. when i entered the subdivision, i immediately made a vow that one day, i will own a lot in this place. i was overwhelmed! the houses are big and the location is perfect (it's in libis). what more can i ask for? i mean, yeah it's quite ambitious of me to dream of becoming part of the acropolis neighborhood because it's like an exclusive village for ultra rich people but whatever, it's just a dream. a long term one that's probably gonna cost me a hell lot of fortune. i wonder if there are still vacant lots in there, i really want to build my own house. for that matter, i want a family to live with too. :0

i missed peachy! wow, she's a lady now! and sexy na sha! no more triangle hair and baby fats! grabe i almost cried during the entourage, it' been freakin 6 years!!!! and i missed tita shiela too! huhuhu, still a very pretty mom. :)

@ I MISSED MY PHONE!!!
finally, ate theresa bought me a new charger! yehey. i think she searched the whole greenhills for it but ended up in commonwealth market. sheesh. thank you! i know it's a big pain in the ass to look for such a rare charger! i was even thinking of just buying a new one, a nokia with a universal charger, and just sell my previous unit in ebay. hahaha. and because my phone's kinda old - a 4 yr old motorolla e398- the ultra thin silicon skin is somewhat wearing off already. that's why i decided to just peel off the entire skin and voila! it's good as new now! it simply revealed the inner thing which is just the plastic case which is super black and shiny. now i just need to buy a new crystal case for it. hehehe

@ DID I MENTION EBAY?
i got a semi-positive feedback from ebay just recently. this client agreed to purchase my dad's compaq ipaq 3950 for 8k. i'm just waiting for him to set the date of appointment then we'll meet and finish the business transaction. i can't wait. i do hope he's gonna push though.

@ WHAT ABOUT MY CRUSHES?
ah ok. i have three major crushes right now. they're all my brods. hahaha. my dormmates know. i always tell them my crushes. well you see, it's like this... whenever i tell people about my crushes, chances are it's just a plain crush, nothing serious. most of the time i keep my serious crushes (those whom i'm likely to fall in love with - though i can't tell if i've ever been there. still can't figure out the thin line between love and infatuation) - to myself... and sometimes to my sister. hahaha because i need a lot of time to think it over. what the fuck diba?!?!

@ OK. LAST
we went to dapitan awhile ago, not the historical one with Rizal... i'm talking about the dapitan arcade... i don't know where exactly that is. somewhere in quezon city... my mom went there to buy christmas decorations and stuff. gaaah, i was bored. every stall pretty much sells the same things. they're all native products. my favorite item would be the marble eggs. wala lang, cute sila, mabigat. mejo wierd gawing gift but i'm also considering it. pero parang hindi ni rin kasi i'm not sure if we're coming back. ok, wag na lang. may naisip na akong ibang gift sa mga kaibigan ko. hahaha. labo

@ SUPER LAST NA. HAHA BLOG KO NAMAN TO DIBA?!
i apologized to robin yesterday through text. masyado ko pala siyang kinupal nung nagrereport siya. bati na kami!!!! actually his batchmate, jesse, was the who made me realize i'm becoming a bitch now. ok, hindi na kupal ang term. i think i've become bitchy (and bitter) during the reporting period. marami daw naiinis sakin. wow, na-sad ako dun. super. haha, kupal ba ako? hahaha dahil dun, hindi ko na pinahirapan si jesse. nagusap lang kami. walang kahirap hirap ang pagrereport nya sakin. hahaha. inamin ko na i'm just doing it (pangungupal) for fun... dahil nga bitter ako! at sinabi rin naman ni kuya jhomar na pahirapan ko sila. lol. i think their batch hates me (BIG TIME) now.

sorry.

stolen!

i stole this from a friend's multiply. hehe fun!
what to do: go to google and type in "[your name] likes to", "[your name] loves", "[your name] hates" ... including the quotations marks, okaaay? then it's just a matter of listing them down... like this

Likes:
1. Arianne likes to play music on her instruments, dance and sew.
2. Arianne likes to joke.
3. Arianne likes to play darts.
4. Arianne likes to relate to vaginas!?!? (lol. that's exactly how it's written in google!)
5. Arianne likes to dress like a slut so she wore a lingerie basque and stockings for this video shoot. (o_O)

Loves:
1. Arianne loves to taunt.
2. Arianne loves being a baby-wearer and natural remedy extraordinaire. (a what?)
3. Arianne loves the song Drift Away.
4. Arianne loves the Air Pogo.
5. Arianne loves to say "ibang level!". (haha)
6. Arianne loves domineering men, and having such a hot brunette dominate him was also a pleasure for him. (exactly. the last word is HIM. lol)

Hates:
1. Arianne hates that stuff but it gets her to calm down when she's in a lot of pain.
2. Arianne, hates me.
3. Arianne hates: Losers.
4. Arianne hates chaos and pandemonium.

kay, kay, just that. :)

too young and stupid

i suck in putting titles to my entries. >__>
anyway, today is december 5.... tomorrow is my best friend's birthday (peachy!!!!). awhile ago we had a general assembly, it was fun, as usual... i don't get tired of just hearing them joke around. lol, not that we're wasting time with foolish things... we're just having fun. hahaha, laughter has to be maintained for a lifetime.

it was also awhile ago that i had someone report to me. i swear, i was in a fury. i simply hated his guts, his towering self-confidence (and to think he told me he still lacks it!). kupalan ito!! keyword: hated. i think my, err, hatred towards him is fading away. i hope he changes. it's for the better anyway.

ever since my VERY first cheering practice, every step i make is a struggle, especialy with steps and stairs. fuck. and by far, i cannot remember a single step since that night. hahahaha.

so hopefully, tomorrow would be a great day. i'm looking forward to an extended swimming time and a postponed history2 class. hahahaha


hahaha, crush talk nanaman.

they're both my brods. :)

anyhow, we have an applicant who looks like Lewis from Meet the Robinsons. at first i actually think he looks like harry potter (well, you'll always get that from me. get your hair down and wear glasses and you'll look like harry potter for me) but then i think he resembles Lewis more... in a less cartoony way.

note: he's not my crush.
keynote from above: they're both my brods (my 2 crushes). he isn't my brod yet, but we'll see about that.

it seems like i never really run out of crushes. :) hahaha they're much better than having a boyfriend... i guess. hahahaha i don't know. i'm too young and stupid.

bakit nga ba ako nandito?

ang storya sa likod ng aking pagiging estudyante ng department of chemical engineering. na lubos kong isinusumpa.

sa application form:

first choice: UP diliman
course1: journalism
course2: business mgt

second choice: UP Los Banos
course1: communication arts
course2: economics

haaaaa?
bumagsak ako. technically, yes. dahil pinadalhan ako ng rejection letter ng UP kung saan nakasulat at aking UPG. 2.25 ata and passing sa diliman, 2.50 naman sa Los Banos. 2.6 ang nakuha ko.

minarapat ng mga magulang ko na magpawaitlist na lamang sa los banos ngunit kailangang magpalit ng preferred course dahil kung ipipilit ko ang commarts at econ, 2.6 ang grade na ililista nila. mababa, kahiya-hiya at malamang lamang walang papansin sa akin.

ngunit nakita ni mommy na pag kumuha ako ng engineering na course, tataas ang UPG na icoconsider nila, ang 2.6 ko ay magiging 1.5!

ganito kasi yan...
ang UPCAT ay nahahati sa apat na parte: Math, Science, English at Language. may kanya kanyang scores ka na nakuha sa bawat subject at yun ang tinitingnan kung pasok ka ba sa course mo.

FOR EXAMPLE:
assuming na over 100 lahat ng subjects

at eto ang percentile rank mo (actually, akin to):
Math: 90
Science: 91
English: 78
Language: 42

note: ganito ang ibig sabihin ng percentile rank, for example sa math - 90 ang nakasulat, ibig sabihin nasa top 10% ka (100-90) ng mga kumuha ng exam, sa math lang yan. ngayon sa science (see scores above), nasa top 9% ka naman, sa english at language nasa top 22% at 58% ka naman. or more appropriately dahil mababa ang language mo, nasa bottom 42% ka.

hindi ibig sabihin nun ay 90/100 ang nakuha mo sa math!
gets?

dahil dyan, tuloy tayo...

bawat kurso ay may required percentile rankings na kailangang masatisfy ng estudyante bago sya lehitimong makapagaral ng kursong iyon.

for example, para makapasok na ng commarts eto ang minimum standing na dapat nakuha mo sa UPCAT

math: --
science: --
language: 75
reading: 80

example lang yan ha! you see, blanko ang math and science, ibig sabihin... wala silang pakialam kung bobo ka sa math and science ang mahalaga magaling ka sa language at reading. ganun talaga ang mga kurso, hindi lahat icoconsider.
kung dyan ako nagpumilit na pumasok, bagsak agad ako... ang 80 na kailangan sa reading ay hindi ko naabot (dahil 42 lang ang nakuha ko)... haaay. T___T;

ngayon tingnan natin ang chemical engineering:

math: 85
science: 85
language: --
reading: --

kitang kita rin na wala silang pakialam kung bobo ka sa english ang mahalaga ok ka sa math and science. see the logic? mas ok kung dito ako papasok dahil na meet ko ang minimum requirement ng kursong ito. mas mapapadali ang pagpasok ko. mas mapapataas ang ranking ko.

given those, nagpawaitlist nga ako sa chem.eng'g

dumaan ako sa usual process of admission... nagpasa ng kung ano anong mga papeles, nagpa-notaryo at ininterview ng dean.

result: hindi nakaabot.
top 10 lang ang nakapasok.
#12 ako.

masaklap.mapait.napakasakit.
ang pangarap kong makaabot ng kolehiyo ay unti-unting nagalaho.

but wait there's more, rather... there's still 2nd sem. swerte na rin ako dahil tumatanggap sila ng applicants for 2nd sem, unlike diliman. hehehe

so ganun ulit, nagpawaitlist at ininterview ni dean for the 2nd time. nanlalata na ako. pagod na ko e.

june noong lumabas ang resulta ng admitted waitlist applicants for the first sem. october naman ang oras ng pagpasa ng request for waitlist for 2nd sem.

so anong ginawa ko ng mga panahong iyon?
ayon, nasa bahay... naglalaba. hay, bum ako noon.

tapos yun nga... to make the long story short, sa awa ni God, natanggap na ko. #2 ata ako nun. at 6 lang kami na nakapasok. feeling ko rin nga 6 din lang kaming nagapply for 2nd sem eh. naawa na lang siguro sila... or baka naman pinili na lang nila kami alphabetically kasi surprisingly, A,A,B,C,D,E ang surnames namin.

diba ang pathetic? pinilit ko lang talaga makapasok sa UP. feeling ko pa, i'm not worth it.

na shock pa ako. ang taas taas ng tingin nila sa mga chem.eng. pag nababanggit na chem.eng ka, laging 'whoa' ang reply nila.

mind you, hindi ako natutuwa. nalulungkot pa ko sa sarili ko dahil wala akong kilalang chem.eng. na hindi magaling. ako lang ang katangi tanging chem.eng. na panakol ang grades. huhuhuhuhuhu

haaaynaku. it's not even an excuse na commarts talaga ang gusto ko. either course, feeling ko magpapabaya rin ako.

whatever. hahaha ang haba naman nito

whiskywhisk

i've been whisking a cup of egg white with a fork for quite a while now. >__> i'm trying to get to that creamy goodness... manually. T___T; huhuhu, my arms hurt. i'm making an experimental coffee mousse by the way. bwahahahaha, and because we don't have high-tech baking tools (like an electric whisking machine)... hafta stick with a fork, and a generous amount of man power. whew! anyway, i think i'm near that creamy goodness because my once slimy transparent eggwhite is now a thick white foam.

whooooooosh! whiskywhiskywhiskywhisk!